Warnings: Oral sex, masturbation, angst

Chapter 18

Unlike his fellow gods and angels, Gabriel was accustomed to sleeping, it was something he enjoyed doing. While Gabriel couldn't really dream like humans could, he could practically shut down his mind and indulge in his version of sleep. It wasn't something he needed to do, if he wanted Gabriel could live the rest of time without sleeping, but he was never one to deny himself something he enjoyed. Waking up was a sensation he had gotten used to over the years. Gabriel always started to become aware slowly, eyes still shut he would take inventory of his senses and explore with his grace before he decided if it was worth getting up or not.

This morning started no different as he slowly woke up, right until the point he realized his head wasn't resting on a pillow. Not opening his eyes, Gabriel nuzzled the warm flesh he was resting against. He didn't need to open his eyes to know it was an arm, his face was pressed against the curve of an elbow, and pressing back slightly Gabriel noticed a warm body behind his own. Breathing in deeply, Gabriel smiled at the scent surrounding him. His grace was content, not trying to break free, happy with touching his mate.

Sam was warm, warmer than most humans, warm enough Gabriel was comfortable with only a sheet slung over his hips. Not wanting to wake the hunter, Gabriel wondered if he should move or remain where he was. He was comfortable, enjoying the fact that he was waking up to Sam still naked laying with him. How long had it been since he had last woken up with a lover? Kali hadn't been one for sleeping, so as soon as the afterglow was gone she would be off doing whatever she wanted, he never convinced her to sleep with him.

It was a pleasant feeling, one Gabriel hoped he would be able to grow accustomed to. Feeling the arm he was laying on start to twitch slightly, Gabriel slowly turned so that he could face Sam. His hunter was laying on his back, his face turned toward Gabriel while the arm that wasn't being used as a pillow crossed over his chest. It was a beautiful sight, one he would not soon forget. Shifting as slowly and gently as he could, Gabriel rested his head on Sam's shoulder. Smiling Gabriel snuggled up against Sam's side, making sure to press as much skin together as possible. Once he was certain he was touching as much of the hunter as he could, Gabriel closed his eyes again and prepared to fall back asleep when he noticed his pillow was moving.

Scrunching up his nose at the vibrations, Gabriel nuzzled Sam's shoulder. When the vibrating didn't stop, he kissed the skin hoping it would get Sam to stop moving. He wasn't in any such luck, as the shaking didn't stop although Gabriel was pacified when the arm he had been laying on earlier wrapped around to hold his hip. Logically Gabriel knew Sam probably wasn't going to go back to sleep now that they were both up, Sam didn't seem the type to do lazy anything even mornings. Still, Gabriel procrastinated getting up so he could enjoy snuggling up with the hunter.

"You know I have to get up, basic human needs and all."

Grumbling, Gabriel shook his head and held on a bit tighter in protest. Human needs or not, he had no intentions of getting up until he absolutely had to. Sam seemed to get the message as he didn't make any attempt to move for a few minutes, simply holding Gabriel while they lay together.

"I should have known you wouldn't be much of a morning person. Come on, I need to get up, you're free to lay around if you want, but I need to use the bathroom and shower. You could join me for the last part if you like?"

Perking up at the thought of naked, wet Sam, Gabriel sighed dramatically before nodding his head. Just as slowly as he moved into position Gabriel moved so Sam could leave the bed. He would give the human a couple minutes to himself in the bathroom before joining him. With a snap of his fingers Gabriel made sure the bathroom was fully stocked, not something he worried about before. Getting a soft kiss in thanks, Gabriel felt Sam get out of bed, only opening his eyes for a moment to watch a naked Sam walk to his en-suite bathroom.

While he lay there, Gabriel couldn't help but think about the night before. It had been a risk to let loose some of his grace while they were together, but he couldn't quite bring himself to regret it. What Sam had said stuck a cord, no matter how much he fought against it. On the one hand, Gabriel was terrified of what this bond might do to Sam, but on the other he had to believe it was for a reason. A bond between human and angel had never happened before, he would have known the moment it did. Not even with the Nephilim had this happened, sure angels and humans had taken their pleasure with each other, but they never bonded.

Thankfully Gabriel didn't have to worry about their offspring with Sam being male. It was a relief he had chosen to make a male vessel instead of a female one. Although he could change the appearance of his vessel, it all had to be done consciously, Gabriel could become pregnant, but he would have to want to become pregnant. Each of his children had been planned, Gabriel had wanted kids so damn bad, to understand what it was like to be a father, to be a better one than his own. For a moment, Gabriel allowed himself a moment to think of his children and what they would think about what he was doing. While he had never raised them dislike humans, like some gods did, the past few decades had been hard on them. With their believers dwindling they hadn't been able to draw on as much power as before.

Being Loki, he still had many who believed in him, who gave him power and caused his magic to flourish. As much as he hated to admit it, this was aided by comic books of all things, but his children weren't as lucky. While Gabriel donated his own magic to spread amongst his children, it would only be a matter of time before they lost their powers, all expect his daughter would soon become almost human. They would become no better than the pagan gods the hunters had run into before, the ones who acted out of desperation. What would he do then? When his kids begin to fade into the madness that had already captured so many of their kind?

It was a terrifying thought.

The sound of the shower running brought Gabriel out of his depressing thoughts. Climbing out of bed, he made his way naked to the bathroom, not bothering to bring any clothes with him. Opening the door, Gabriel was met with a cloud of steam while he walked inside the room. Without missing a beat Gabriel opened the sliding glass which sectioned off the shower. Walking inside to be greeted with the sight of Sam already having started washing his hair, water running down his body while he rinsed.

It was enough to make his throat dry.

Shutting the door behind him, Gabriel sunk to his knees before Sam who had his head titled back rinsing off the shampoo. Grabbing Sam's hips was the only warning Sam got before Gabriel took his half-hard member into his mouth. Hearing the startled shout above him, Gabriel hummed before sucking hard on the growing erection. Feeling hands in his hair, Gabriel started to bob his head, making sure to rub his tongue along the shaft as he moved. As he didn't need to breathe and had no gag reflex it didn't take long before Sam was a moaning mess above him.

Each time he moved down, Sam would gasp and moan, still not accustomed to someone being able to take his length in full. The taste of precum was exploding in his mouth and Gabriel knew it wouldn't be much longer before Sam let go. Moving his hands, Gabriel wrapped one around himself, jerking his hand quickly while the other reached around a bit more and could grope Sam's ass in permission to move. Without hesitation Sam gripped his hair instead of just placing his hands there, using the leverage to thrust into Gabriel's mouth while guiding his head.

For a few minutes, Gabriel allowed Sam to pull at him, to take what he wanted. Eventually he was close enough and didn't want to cum without Sam losing it first. Pushing his mouth down until his nose was buried in Sam's pubic hair, Gabriel ignored Sam who was pulling on his hair to bring him back up again and swallowed. The constriction of his throat along with the suction was enough, and Gabriel continued to swallow as string after string of cum was poured down his throat. With his own groan, Gabriel came on the shower floor.

Once he was certain he had milked Sam for all that he could, Gabriel pulled off, making sure to give the softening head a little lick which caused a slight hiss from Sam before leaning back completely. Looking up at Sam Gabriel instantly locked gazes with him, those hazel eyes were still blown a little in pleasure, but slowly Sam was coming back to himself while catching his breath. Grinning at the other, Gabriel stood to his feet, not shy in the least of leaning up for a kiss while reaching around for the shower gel. Lathering up the loofa Gabriel started washing Sam, rubbing it along the back of his neck and slowly making his way down Sam's back.

They exchanged kisses back and forth while Gabriel worked until he couldn't reach any farther and had to pull back to kneel to get Sam's mile-long legs. Grinning up at him, Gabriel made sure every bit of Sam's lower body was washed before standing once again and washing his chest. Once he was done, Gabriel pecked Sam's lips before passing the loofa over to the taller man. Sam easily turned them so Gabriel was in direct spray of the water before he began to wash him. Paying the same attention to detail, Gabriel washed his hair while Sam took care of the rest of his body.

By the time Sam stood back up, Gabriel's hair was rinsed and he made sure to pull Sam back in for another kiss. He couldn't get enough of the taller mans lips on his, all Gabriel wanted to do was keep him there with their lips pressed together forever. Having never really been one for kissing before it was a new experience, something Gabriel was associating with the hunter, something special between the two of them he wanted to cherish.

"We should probably get out before the water turns cold."

He couldn't help it, laughing lightly, Gabriel shook his head while looking at Sam. Seeing the man was pouting slightly Gabriel leaned up to kiss him again before reaching back to turn off the water.

"You never have to worry about something as silly as hot water consumption while I'm around. It's kind of sweet how you don't think outside of the human box. You want to stay in the shower for hours? Want a full course meal? Pretty much anything you want and it's yours now Sammy… there's perks to dating a god, babe."

With a wink, Gabriel snapped his fingers and they were both dry, the steam from the shower dissipating. Making his way past Sam, Gabriel walked naked to the kitchen, not caring in the least at his nudity as there wasn't anyone around who shouldn't see him naked. Seeing as he was a bit ahead of Sam, Gabriel snapped his fingers to lay new clothes for his human in plain view of the freshly made bed in case Sam chose to wear them. Walking to the kitchen, Gabriel grabbed the hanging apron before starting to make something for breakfast. His normal meal of pancake-flavoured chocolate probably wouldn't go well with Sam.

While he could have snapped anything into existence the hunter wanted, cooking was something Gabriel enjoyed doing from time to time. A part of him wanted to prove to Sam that he would be able to provide for them, be able to give him a home. Humming while working Gabriel easily started a simple meal of eggs, bacon and hash browns, more than once thankful for the apron. Before too long he felt long arms wrap around him, and although the body behind him was clothed Gabriel leaned into the warmth.

"You're not wearing any clothes, I never thought an apron could look so sexy."

Smiling, Gabriel turned away from the stove for a moment to give Sam a quick kiss before turning back to the eggs to make sure they didn't burn. They stood there while he cooked, it was nice to have someone hold him while he cooked, while he did anything really. Gods weren't much in the way of casual affection, they were all hard warriors, and even the women weren't one to coddle. It was one of the reasons why Gabriel had never fit in properly with his life as Loki, why he had always been trying to substitute his need for affection in his pranks.

While gods weren't ones to display casual means of affection angels were, they were born to touch and cuddle and simply be. They were Heavens weapons, created to be soldiers, and he as an archangel, was one of Heavens most terrifying weapon. Still, they were also built for love, to express love in every way possible.

Before the Fall, they had been able to express their love openly and Gabriel had soaked up all the love and affection from his younger brothers and sisters. Unlike Michael who trained them to be perfect soldiers, and Raphael who trained them to keep their composure while healing, or even Lucifer who taught them the basics in using their powers, Gabriel wanted to teach them love. He was supposed to be above them, ranked higher than them, but it wasn't something he ever enjoyed.

Did he pull rank when delivering The Word? Of course he did. Did Gabriel command when He needed? Absolutely. But when there was no battle to be won, no need for pain or death it was Gabriel, not his big brothers, who played with the fledglings, it was Gabriel who spoke with the soldiers as comrades and not subordinates, it was Gabriel who gave his grace to heal emotionally in a way that Ralph couldn't understand.

Being a tactile person as his very foundation, it was no wonder Loki was different to the other gods. Thankfully, he was given a great gift in the form of his children. For years, he had been able to hold them, comfort them, love them in much the same way he had the young ones back home. Still, eventually they grew, and they no longer needed him to help mend their wounds. Then Odin banished his children, and Gabriel was tied upon that forsaken rock to wait until Ragnarök. Once again, he was alone, once again he had to flee from what had become his second home, only this time he had someone to protect.

His children weren't raised the same as the others, they wouldn't understand what isolation would do to them. So, Gabriel tricked Odin for over a century into believing that he was tied, that he was being punished for his sins. Instead Gabriel found his children and placed his own protection, his own magic to them. They would always be able to find him, always be able to summon him if needed. He would not abandon his children the same way he was abandoned. As the times changed and people stopped believing he would visit a bit more frequently and donate his magic to his kids, slowly using more and more grace instead of pagan magic so he could give the rest to his children.

Eventually it wouldn't be enough, but they would outlast most other gods, Gabriel would make sure of it. Still, it had been so long since someone had held him like Sam was holding him now. No real direction, no pressure or even desire for sex, just holding him because he wanted to, because Sam enjoyed being close. How long had it been since someone wanted to hold him? How long since the last time someone simply wanted to make him happy?

"You're thinking too much."

The voice wasn't demanding, merely curious while Sam nuzzled the top of his head. Leaning back a bit, Gabriel soaked up the comfort of the body behind him. Turning off the stove he Gabriel his powers a bit to bring the plates to him so he didn't have to move. Once the plates were filled and moved to the table, Gabriel pushed Sam until the taller man was sitting at the table. Taking his own spot Gabriel paused for a split second biting his lip before watching Sam take a bite. Right before he was about to eat Gabriel put his hand on Sam's arm, a blush on his cheeks while he looked at the hunter.

"Is something wrong?" asked Sam.

Shaking his head for a moment, Gabriel didn't know how he was going to phrase what he wanted to know. From what he had observed of the man he knew this was a sensitive topic and there was a very real chance Sam would lie to protect Loki's feelings. Still it was something he wanted to know, something Gabriel wondered about after last night when he had been able to feel that wonderful soul. It was so full of life, of hope and love… and faith.

"Nothing's wrong but… wow I don't know how to phrase this so I'm just going to say it. If you want to say grace or something, you know I don't mind, right?"

Shock was the only way to describe Sam's face at that moment, his eyes widened slightly before a soft flush came upon his cheeks. Knowing he didn't want Sam to shut down on him Gabriel continued.

"It really doesn't bother me… last night, when I touched your soul it was easy to read your faith. Faith in any form is a beautiful thing to have, and I may be that Loki, but I have absolutely no problem with your faith Sam. I don't… I don't know how you normally practice, but if you ever want to pray or give thanks or anything you're free to do so without any judgement from me… okay?"

The smile Gabriel got in return could have outshone the sun. Blinking up at Sam, Gabriel was surprised when the hunter grabbed his hand and squeezed it for a moment before speaking.

"I don't normally say grace, not with Dean always riding my ass about it. I was a bit scared it would offend you… I mean you're a pagan god, shouldn't you like hate Christianity or something?"

Shaking his head Gabriel started to eat his meal while Sam took a bite of his own. It was sad the man didn't feel like he could practice his faith openly with his own family around, but Gabriel understood. In their line of work there wasn't a lot of faith in anything but silver and iron.

"No, well some gods are pissed they are losing followers to Christianity, but we don't really hate each other. Thing is I think they forget their followers once probably believed in someone else before them so really, it's a bit hypocritical of them to judge. Your faith isn't something to be ashamed of Sam, never be ashamed of loving something."

"You're not… just saying that to make me more comfortable, are you? Because I get it if you feel rejected or something because I'm not praying to you, I would understand, Loki."

Shaking his head, Gabriel wondered if he should just come out with what he was. It would be so easy for him to explain to Sam that he couldn't be offended is someone who loved his Father of all beings. Instead Gabriel locked eyes with the giant of a man and smiled.

"I honestly have no problems with you believing Kiddo, none. Just remember if you ever get in a bind and I'm not there to bail you out then you pray to me, deal?"

Getting a nod from the hunter, Gabriel leaned over and kissed Sam's full cheek before turning back to his own meal. Yeah, they would have to sort out what they were going to do about the bond. They would need to plan what Sam wanted to happen to the demon, they would need to talk about what they would do once this was all over. There was so much for them to talk about, so many choices that needed to be made… but for now Gabriel enjoyed sitting with the man and eating a meal. For the next few days he had this hunter all to himself and Gabriel wasn't about to give up a single second of it.

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