Warnings: Anal sex, bonding, anal fingering, angst – Epilogue

Chapter 23

Things didn't calm down with the group until later that night, and Gabriel had never been so thankful for his brother. Dean, apparently was even more protective of Sam than he had been when he knew Gabriel to be an angel. It seemed the more power Gabriel held, the more worried Dean became with Gabriel being close to Sam. It was sweet in its own way, and Gabriel tried not to be insulted someone besides himself wished for the safety of his mate.

Bobby seemed to roll with the punches, seeming to find no difference, or at least didn't let them believe he cared about the difference between Gabriel being a regular seraph and an archangel. Castiel would answer whatever questions he could from Dean and Bobby, and while he wasn't bound to the truth as Gabriel was, they didn't seem to question Castiel's answers. In another time, Gabriel probably would have been slightly jealous of the extension of trust they so willingly gave his fledgling, but he knew lying never would have crossed Castiel's mind.

What bothered Gabriel wasn't the questions on everything from Heaven to their abilities, it wasn't the anger he could see rising in Dean at yet another thing being kept from him. What bothered Gabriel was Sam wasn't talking. He made sure to keep Sam's hand in his, and the man didn't try to let go of the connection, but Gabriel was worried. It was a lot to process, that your lover was really an Archangel of the Lord.

Gabriel just hoped what he was, was all Sam was thinking about, that Sam wasn't backing out on them. As afternoon turned into evening and the five of them were sitting in the Livingroom, Gabriel having snapped up super for them a while ago, Gabriel was growing restless. He needed to talk to Sam alone, away from the influence of those around them. Standing, Gabriel tugged on Sam's hand so he would rise as well.

"Cassie, Sam and I need to talk… watch over the humans and pray if you need me, alright?"

"Of course, none shall harm the elder Winchester nor his father. Rest well, brother."

Nodding his head, Gabriel brushed his wings against Castiel's. He hadn't hidden them since he first revealed them to his brother. While the humans wouldn't be able to see his wings, Castiel could and would draw comfort from them as he did when he was young. Turning to his mate Gabriel held back his concern, not wanting to start this conversation with witnesses. If he was going to break he was damn well going to do it in the privacy of his own home.

"You ready to go home Sammich?"

Only getting a nod in response, Gabriel didn't pause at the exclamation from Dean and instead used their joined hands to fly them to the house. Landing in the entranceway, Gabriel noticed Xander didn't greet them, instead the pup was snoring somewhere in the kitchen, probably next to his bowl again. Now that they were alone, Gabriel turned his full attention to Sam. The expression on his lovers' face was one he never wanted to see there, full of sadness and confusion.

"Sammy, I'm sorry you found out like this… I should have told you when we first started bonding, this is my fault. Please tell me what's going on in that pretty head of yours?"

Watching as Sam blinked before looking in his eyes, Gabriel wondered if this was how they would end, over him keeping his secrets. It wouldn't be the first time he lost someone because he wasn't able to open up, able to trust. This time it would kill him, he was sure.

"Why wont you bond with me?"

The question caught him off guard, it was one of the last things Gabriel had been expecting Sam to say. "I told you, I don't want to hurt you."

"Or is it because I'm unworthy of an archangels' grace?"

Eyes wide, Gabriel pulled Sam against him until he was holding the man tightly. For a moment Gabriel didn't answer, simply held them together while he tried to think of the best way to reassure his lover. When he eventually spoke his voice was firm, trying to make sure Sam understood he meant each word.

"No, if anything I often find myself unworthy of you. I want to bond with you Sam, every piece of me wants to complete the bond with you. This has nothing to do with worthiness, I'm scared I'll hurt you, or change you in a way that we can't fix. If… if you still want me… knowing what I am… I would be happy to bond with you."

Feeling the body against his own freeze, Gabriel wondered if Sam would pull away. Instead of pulling away, Sam literally swept Gabriel off his feet so Sam was carrying him. Wrapping arms around his human's neck, Gabriel tried to balance himself in Sam's arms while the man carried him to their bedroom. Gabriel barely had time to think between one move and the next as he was tossed on the bed, his body bouncing while Sam crawled over him, pressing their lips together. Reaching up, Gabriel ran a hand through Sam's hair while the other ran up his arm, holding Sam in place.

This wasn't the same as the small kisses he had exchanged with the human earlier in the day, it was all desperation. Sam was trying to reassure himself Gabriel was still his, his god, his angel, his Loki and while Gabriel knew he should pull away, so he could make sure Sam was certain this was what he wanted Gabriel couldn't. A hot tongue entered his mouth, mapping and tasting and Gabriel surrendered completely to the larger man. If they were going to do this, it was going to be on Sam's terms. Sam must have noticed his change as the kisses slowed down, turned softer as he pressed the two of them together.

"Loki… please… bond with me, I need you, please."

He thought, only for a moment, about refusing the hunter. Feeling fingers under the bottom of his t-shirt he had thrown on after the ritual, Gabriel gave in. If this was what Sam wanted it's what he would give him, they could deal with the consequences as they came. Pressing their lips together again, Gabriel helped Sam remove his shirt before untying the sash keeping his pants up. Gabriel hadn't bothered putting shoes on after the ritual, only covering his chest so the other two humans wouldn't be uncomfortable. In a matter of moments, Gabriel was naked before his hunter, and Sam wasted no time before he was sucking and nipping at his chest, a hand on Gabriel's hardening cock.

"Sam!"

While he knew Sam was eager Gabriel hadn't expected to be covered in those large hands of his so quickly. It proved how badly he wanted this, as Sam was always one for dragging their pleasure out as long as possible. Moaning as Sam slowly began pumping his hand, Gabriel snapped his shaking fingers to bring a bottle of lube beside them on the bed. In an instant, the hand left his cock and was opening the bottle of lube. Gabriel spread his legs for his lover, easily accepting the first slick finger inside. Sam didn't pause in stretching him open, his movements hurried as if afraid Gabriel would change his mind, that he would leave them unbound. Gabriel didn't have an option any longer, he could feel his grace waiting, coiling inside him and itching for the chance to complete the bond.

"Sam… please… I want to feel your skin… can I…?"

Typically, Sam preferred it when they undressed by hand, liking the anticipation of feeling their flesh against each other. Getting a nod from the other, Gabriel snapped the hunter's clothes away gasping as Sam moved so his hard cock was resting with its head right behind Gabriel's balls, smearing Sam's precum against his skin. Reaching out, Gabriel lifted one of his legs under his arm, pulling it to hook under his elbow to open himself up more to the hunter. Sam groaned at the sight before thrusting a third finger inside Gabriel, his movements jerky while stretching him.

"Fuck… look at you, all spread out for me like this… I could never grow tired of this. I could spend eternity with you like this, just waiting for my cock to fill up that tight ass of yours… is that what you want, Gabriel?"

It was the first time Sam used his angelic name since he discovered who he was, and it caused Gabriel to look his human in the eye. There was no hesitation there, no worry of what they were about to do, no Sam seemed for the first time since he met the man completely open. Sam was telling the truth, he wanted this, forever. Humans used words like that all the time without understanding their true meaning, the human mind was not meant to process the thought of forever. Here his human was, offering it to him, begging Gabriel to make him understand, to tie them together for eternity. Smiling, Gabriel lifted his other leg so it was stretched up on Sam's shoulder, holding his other so he was open for the hunter.

"Yes."

Three letters, the same three that would have decided the fate of the world if they had followed the script written, if he hadn't fallen for the hunter above him. Keeping his eyes locked with Sam's, Gabriel let his grace consume his vessel until it slowly seeped out as Sam entered him. As his grace flowed through him, Gabriel cried out, Sam's cock filling him while his grace started to tie them together. The sensation of Sam thrusting into Gabriel became almost secondary in his mind, pleasurable but not nearly enough to take away from the sensation of Sam's soul. He didn't know if the human could feel it, the way they were combining who they were, but Gabriel could. A shot of pleasure from his prostate caused Gabriel to throw his head back, his back arching in bliss while Sam continued to take him.

"Sam… Sam please… oh Sam… please please please…"

Gabriel didn't even know what he was begging for any more, both his body and soul were on fire, unable to process the sensations flowing through him. Hands pulled on his legs before wrapping around him and pulling Gabriel up on the hunter. With the change of angle, Gabriel could feel Sam so much deeper, connected so much more. Wrapping his arms around Sam's neck, Gabriel pressed them as close together as he could manage, Sam holding them up while pumping into him. Hands on Gabriel's hips lifted him before pulling him back down as Gabriel couldn't think let alone move on his own.

"So close, so close Gabriel… let go angel, I got you… fuck Baby, so good can feel you in me… can feel your grace in me… let go Gabe…"

As Gabriel panted with Sam, he could feel the last connection ready to be tied. Opening his eyes, Gabriel leaned up to Sam and pressed their lips together. The second the skin touched his grace, along with Sam's soul clashed together. His orgasm hardly registered in his mind, nor the feeling of Sam's release inside him. All Gabriel could focus on was the way Sam's soul embraced him, warm and inviting, the power of his soul merging with the power of Gabriel's grace. Instead of sensing the surrender of his soul, Gabriel instead could see as the two became one, neither taking over the other, equals in a way Gabriel hadn't dared hoped for. Feeling hands along the small of his back, Gabriel pulled back enough to look at Sam while was looking over Gabriel's shoulder in shock.

Tilting his head to the side, Gabriel tried to see something in the room with them. Not seeing anything out of the ordinary, Gabriel turned his attention back to Sam who looked on in what could only be described as wonder. Kissing the human lightly to get his attention, Gabriel tried to focus while basking in the sensation of his grace pouring back into him, along with a sliver of Sam's soul. When he could talk again, Gabriel nuzzled his hunters neck, not moving their lower bodies as he wanted to stay connected for as long as possible.

"Sam, what is it? Are you okay… the bond seemed to connect well…"

"Gabriel… they're beautiful, I never… I never thought I would be able to see them…"

Turning to look over his shoulder, Gabriel still didn't see anything out of the ordinary that would cause the reaction from his hunter. Not until he caught a reflection in the others eyes as he turned back. His wings. It would make sense, Sam would be able to see his wings, see him now that Sam had grace inside of him. Instead of being nervous as he would be showing his wings in their current condition to another angel, Gabriel stretched his six wings in a proud display which caused Sam to gasp. Smiling at the delight there, Gabriel rested his head under Sam's chin a soft smile on his face.

"I bet you can even touch them."

That caused Sam to jerk slightly in surprise, causing him to slip out of Gabriel which the other pouted about for a moment. "You… you'd let me…" Hearing the hesitation in Sam's voice, Gabriel moved to look into Sam's eyes again, their ever-changing shade now a brilliant blue. Kissing the man softly, Gabriel reached behind them and pulled one of the hunters hands off his back, moving it without resistance to one of his wings. Placing the hand on his feathers, Gabriel smiled to the man whom had become his mate, his bonded.

"There isn't a part of me that doesn't belong to you Samuel Winchester… I belong to you, for eternity."

Seeing the other smile at him while stroking fingers down one of his primary wings, Gabriel relaxed as Sam explored his wings. His soft confession warming Gabriel in a way he didn't know he could be.

"We belong to each other, Gabriel… forever."

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