Love Me
by Vegetakitten
Lily Evans/ Sirius Black
I do not own Harry Potter.
Chapter 1
Sighing Lily walked the third floor corridor. All she could think of was the way Severus had spoken to her. 'Mudblood,' he'd called her again. She couldn't believe it. It was all that Potter's fault. If he and his friends hadn't attacked Severus last June, they'd still be friends.
Sighing again she began to head in the direction of the Gryffindor common room.
Upon arriving, it wasn't surprising to see the mauraders settled into the comfortable chairs by the fire. They always seemed to beat everyone to them and tended to kick the first years out of them on the off chance they managed to claim them.
Intending to go strait to her dorm, she noticed the boys watching her. She understood James' gaze, but the others?
"Oi Evans," Sirius called out. She stopped, surprised he spoke to her. None of the marauders had spoken to her since last term ended and it was already close to Christmas holidays.
Turning slightly toward them she said, "What?"
Sirius bounded up to her. "You look down, you OK?" he asked, quietly.
"Like you care," she said irritably and, tossing her long auburn hair over her shoulder, she proceeded to the staircase and disappeared up to the girls dormitory to think. If she could just be alone for a little while, she could process her loss.
Sirius was taken aback by her hostility toward him. He'd always been able to talk to her before, he thought, puzzled. He'd wanted to talk to her earlier in term, but James had said that he would be refraining from talking to her to give her time to cool off and possibly realize that she didn't need that git, Snivellus.
By his way of thinking, this would make her more receptive to his attempts to woo her. Sirius thought this was wishful thinking on James' part but had gone along with it to appease him. James thought it would help his case if she thought he had given up on her.
Sirius seriously doubted his best mate's strategy and felt he should really move on and explore other...avenues. Like ones that were unlikely to hex him when his back was turned, but he kept these thoughts to himself.
He wondered what was wrong with her and figured she actually missed the Slytherin, Snape. As much as he James, Remus and Peter hated to see her spend time with him, he hadn't thought the git's absence would affect her so.
He resolved to break silence with her and try to talk to her more. They shared a lot of classes together so he should have plenty of time to work at getting her to talk to him. She'd be his friend before long, if he had anything to say about it.
"Hey Alice," she said, greeting one of her dorm-mates tiredly. Maybe Alice could help her feel better.
"Hey Lil, you look a bit depressed. Get kicked out of the Slug Club?" She grinned.
"No," Lily shot back. "I just tried to talk to Severus again. Our friendship is really over, and to make things worse, he's actually thinking about joining that Voldemort!"
"Ahh, I see", said Alice. "Lils, why don't you leave..um..Severus alone. I know you're worried about him and you miss him, but it sounds like he doesn't feel the same about you. Being around him now might get you hurt. He does hang out with the likes of Malfoy, Avrey and Rookwood now."
"Those guys give me the creeps," Alice shuddered. She'd hate to be caught in an empty corridor with them, that's for sure.
"I know," Lily sighed. "You're right of course. He's different, changed." Lily sighed again and tried to rally her spirit a little. Smiling at Alice she said," Are you going home for the holiday?"
"Yes unfortunately, my parents are having a party and they want me there. Come to think of it, you're the only girl from our year who is staying." she added.
Lily felt anxious, but put on a brave face. Maybe it would be good to have the dorm all to herself. She could have some much needed alone time.
"You'll have to tell me all about the party when you get back." she said, trying to smile.
"Oh, I will. Don't worry. I'm not really looking forward to it because my mom keeps trying to fix me up. She doesn't realize I'm dating Frank Longbottom now and I really like him. I told him I'll talk to my mom's choice, but nothing else. Not even a dance"
Lily smiled, "I'm glad your relationship is going so well."
There were sounds on the staircase and the other three girls entered. Marlene Mckinnon, Sarah March and Luna Finnigan were chatting among themselves until they saw Lily and Alice.
"Hey girls," they greeted cheerily.
"Hey," answered Lily and Alice.
Lily yawned, "I'm beat. Can you believe the essay on human transfiguration McGonagall set for over the holidays?"
The other girls grumbled.
"I don't even know where to begin." Marlene groaned, flopping on her bed.
"I'd start with looking up what an animagus is and go from there." Lily offered helpfully. "As for the process, you'll need to be careful with your steps. It's similar to animal transfiguration, but more delicate, because its on another person...or even yourself."
"Lils, are you focusing on Animagi for your essay?" Alice asked curiously.
The other's looked interested, so Lily said, "I was considering it. It's advanced magic, but transfiguration is my best subject."
Luna yawned. "I hate to say it girls, but we'd better get our beauty sleep."
The girls got ready for bed, continuing to chitchat and Lily forgot about Severus for a moment.
In the morning, Lily knew she would watch and help as the others finished packing so they could head off to the Hogwarts Express.
Sirius had spent some time thinking during the night and he thought that the Christmas holiday would be a great time to try to get Lily to let him in.
"Well, see you after the holidays mate. Are you sure you don't want to come home with me?" James Potter eyed his best friend, speculatively.
"No I'll be OK. I have to write the transfiguration essay and I think I need some time alone." Sirius smiled at his friend. "Thanks though."
"Alright then. I'll see you in a couple weeks. Try not to do anything I wouldn't do." He winked and he, Remus and Peter disappeared through the portrait hole.