Juvia had been going on walks in the middle of the night almost every night. She seemed to think that Gray had not noticed her late night disappearances or maybe she just felt that he didn't care enough to mention it or question why. It was December now four months since Tartaros and winter had settled into the small valley in which they lived. Despite this cold Juvia was still going on her late night walks and Gray did in fact notice and did indeed care.

Despite her late night strolls she still woke up in time to make breakfast and to train without seeming too tired so it was nothing to worry about Gray had reasoned to himself.

Despite his half-baked attempt at not caring about Juvias odd behavior a flurry of thoughts passed throw Grays mind whenever he heard their small door creek shut most nights. These theories ranged from Juvia having meeting secretly with enemies telling them secrets about him or her having secret rendezvous with a lover from Manzanilla or just that one day she may get attacked by a demon of the night. Slowly these thoughts grew to really overwhelm him throughout the past four months. He held onto his knees tight trying to keep it inside every nerve and muscle was tight with anxiety.

"What if she just leaves one night and realizes that I am not enough." She whimpered into his pillow.

'I am so selfish one person is not enough for anyone that is why people have friends or build families. You cannot just hang on to one person. Or have One reason.' He reasoned with himself.

'Is that not what fuels you?'

'What?' Gray was not sure if he was speaking or thinking. What was this magic? He could do nothing but lay in his little bed in a ball.

'Is that not why you deny yourself and Juvia who slaves away for you?'

'You cause all this suffering for a reason … one reason.'

'No one is suffering but I Juvia could never be happier.' He told the strange voice.

It was true he tried to tell himself Juvia was super happy she was always smiling and even when he was a dick she still gave him a little smile or when she did something a little odd which was not nearly as often as when they first met he would chuckle at her silliness. He made sure to keep his suffering bottled inside ever since he cried into HIS Juvia. He couldn't let her see him like that again.

'What about your friends? You could have taken Wendy. Do you not see her as your little sister? You could not do that because she would be a hindrance on the mission on your revenge. You dropped her off like a pet you decided you did not want to deal with anymore because that is what she was to you.'

'Stop.'

'You live for one reason fight for one reason and you want to drag YOUR Juvia down with you into your darkness.'

"STTTTTTOOOOOP."

Gray woke up with a sharp pain in his arm he rushed to the lamp and turned it on and searched around the room to find whoever had bewitched him no one. Was it just his head? He felt the sharp pain again making him grip it. He found a dark splotch on his arm where the PAIN was coming from. It was his fathers Ice Devil Slayer Magic. He did not dare try to summon it in ages but for some reason it had just awoken. Possibly from stress.

The door creaked open and Juvias soft footsteps filled the room. They soft steps they reminded Gray of when the rain hit his rain early in the morning lulling him back to sleep.

AUTHORS NOTE:

What did you guys think

I am trying to show how Tartaros arc has negatively effected him and changed him which will lead him to make a variety of mistakes in the future. I still love Gray so much but we all have to get worse before we get better and this fic will have sweet moments but Gray will have to deal with his mental health as we know Juvia and Gray lived together for 6 months then Gray disappeared We are Four months along it sucks what will have to happen soon.