There are times in life where you just want to press pause, replay, or even stop to analyze a moment in time. Unfortunately, we aren't gifted with that ability. But what we can do is move slowly to soak up every single fragment that makes up a moment. To really embrace its beauty and memorize every fine detail, so that later in life when the moment has long passed you can just close your eyes and for the briefest of moments relive it in its entirety.
Which is exactly what Emma Swan was doing, soaking in every second that passed. When her eyes shot open for the first time, she felt exposed and vulnerable. It was a raw, soul-baring moment, which was terrifyingly breathtaking. Every single doubt she ever felt about herself and her entire existence was vanquished with just the one soft, faint gasp. The seconds that followed only further fully reassured her when her eyes were met with an adoring, tender smile gifted to her from Regina.
It was as if time itself recognized the true depth and beauty of the moment because the world felt as if it stopped spinning on its axis. There in one cozy apartment in Orlando, Florida on a Thanksgiving evening, time stood still.
Emma's body trembled under the loving raven eyes of her lover, making her feel like a masterpiece carved from a block of marble into an Ancient Greek sculpture. And all the while Emma felt timelessly captured, Regina stood confidently before her in the dimly lit room, radiantly glowing. In Emma's eyes, her body was a gift from Venus, Goddess of Beauty. She was the Sun, Moon, and stars all combined in the most beautiful creature known to mankind. It was hard to believe she real, everything about her was mystical.
While they stood apart, the gravity between them was unbearable. It rocked her world and everything she knew. This moment alone proved to her that she was capable all along in finding love. Though, none of that mattered because it wasn't the same love she had with Regina. It was fate, destiny, whatever it was, but it was moving at the speed of light forcing them closer. Willing them to reach out their hands, give in to the moment, and fully let themselves dissolve at the moment together.
Maybe this is what it felt like, the moments before hydrogen and helium created the universe, the Big Bang exploding into an infinity. It was the beginning of time before time even existed. But those moments before time did exist, static and tension magnetically fused the elements together. An unbearable draw that no amount of resistance could prevent. It was in that moment time began, just like this moment, where Emma saw her life truly bursting into an endless infinity of love, her clock finally ticking.
She conquered the resistance that separated her and Regina and moved forward. Her fingers gripped dark frayed strands of hair and she pulled Regina closer into her arms. Their bare bodies for the first time collided. Skin rubbing against skin, and it was Regina's sultry, desirable voice that broke the timeless moment, "Slowly." She reminded Emma.
Emma nodded her head in thankfulness, knowing that while this was where Regina was comfortable, it was where she was most vulnerable.
It was the pensive look in Regina's eye, the way they stood still, holding one another that struck a chord.
She gulped back the lump that ached in her throat. Emma felt her entire body pulsating with an endless need for Regina to be closer. A maddening feeling that threw her off kilter. Lightheartedness combined with the intense and heightened sensations made her body feel painfully sensitive. Her marbly green eyes were heavy with the gravity of the moment, reflecting the woman before her.
She begged in her mind to whatever existed for this moment to never end. For it to exist forever because she knew this was one she'd dream of the rest of her existence. And by the mercy of God, if she were to die tomorrow she would want this singular moment to be her Heaven.
Bringing her out of her reverie, calm, but tentative hands gracefully stroked the crevice of Emma's collarbone. Emma leaned into the fingers that pleasantly danced against her soft pale flesh, which gave rise to baby fine hairs that became erect from the light feathery touches. She fell under hypnosis under the eyes of the woman before her.
It was her voice that transcended the void between them, awakening Emma from her hypnotic trance. It sounded like the wind on a warm spring day, swaying the leaves creating a relaxing, harmonic sound. "Close your eyes and feel me."
Anxiously, Emma did as she was asked. Her skin tingling in anticipation of the warm exploratory hands of her girlfriend. The moment felt impossibly long. So long that it felt like lifetimes upon lifetimes had passed.
With her eyes closed, her taste, hearing, and touch felt even more heightened.
She sucked back the salvia that was built up in her mouth. Surprising her taste buds, that exploded from the strange metallic taste. A taste she willed herself to never forget.
Her ears burned to find something to hang on to. Whatever it was it didn't matter. She just needed something to hang on to, it could be the sounds of water dripping from the faucet in her bathroom or a car passing by. But not one sound found her aching ears.
Still, she patiently kept her eyes closed allowing Regina to soak in every inch of her body. She wanted Regina to fully see her for who she was. For her eyes to memorize every fine detail, down to mapping each freckle, curve, and scar.
It was the touch of one singular finger that ran down the valley between her breasts and down her abdomen that caused her body to shake with tremors. It was tantalizing, seductive even. Nothing Emma could do, could stop her from reaching out and grabbing Regina's hand and holding it still against her flesh. Her breaths were few and far between. Her lungs worked to fill completely but failed due to the shallow breaths. Sweat glistened against her skin as Emma realized the direction Regina's hand was moving.
Emma guided it back up, not ready yet to be fully touched. She slowly pulled the hand that she knew wanted more and placed it somewhere familiar.
She knew Regina would instinctively know what she wanted. It wasn't to Emma's shock when she felt Regina's open palms roll against her breasts, fully cupping her. Emma's lips parted and a soft moan managed an escape.
Teasing fingers danced over the soft pink skin, causing Emma's body to respond, effortlessly. But just as those hands were just placed where she wanted them, they were gone. Air danced against her wanting skin and she whimpered in need.
Her eyes still closed, she anxiously waited for what was next. The dead silence of the room made the anticipation of what was next unnerving. Her body felt like it was hanging off an edge as she ached for Regina's touch.
Wet, soft lips captured her left nipple. So soft, so warm that it was toe curling. Emma felt off balance as her body reacted to the softness of Regina's lips sucking at her flesh. Her head fell back and her long blonde hair fanned out against her glistening skin.
A strong hand braced her back and another teased her opposite breast.
Emma struggled to breathe, her body fought the waves of teasing pleasure that ripped through her like a stone tossed into a pond. Her hands reached out and held Regina impossibly closer to her chest.
Her entire body felt on fire as Regina's warm, wet tongue swirled around her nipple. It sent shivers through every limb of Emma's body. Her mind was captivated with just the feeling of Regina's plump, perfect lips teasing her sensitive bud.
Her ears that once greedily begged for sound were met with the slurping of Regina's mouth against her skin.
Emma relaxed and twirled tendrils of dark hair between the pads of her fingers. She needed something to hold on to. Something to feel. And as such, the grooves of her fingers played with the dark twine, so rough, yet so soft.
Her skin twitched as lips traveled higher up the column of her neck. Hands that once moved too low now stroked the hair from her face.
"Open your eyes, Emma." Regina's voice echoed in the midst of silence that surrounded them.
When her love hazed vision came into focus, she was greeted with eyes that searched for answers. Eyes that begged to know boundaries and that also were consumed with nothing less than words that were left unspoken.
"Tell me what to do," Regina asked and waited for guidance.
Emma licked her dry bottom lip that was chapped from the air.
It wasn't fear or vulnerability that made Emma reach out and pull Regina closer. It was her openness, acceptance, and love that made Emma's heart swell with joy.
In the crook of Regina's neck, where her head sought solace, she said, "Just make love with me."
Regina's hands picked her head up and their eye's studied one another.
This was it, there was no turning back. Regina's lips tenderly captured Emma's. Their lips carefully sucking on one another. Mouths opening and inviting tongues in. Their hearts hammering in their chest to the same love song.
Emma's hands gripped Regina's shoulders, together they settled closer in her bed. Her eyes concentrated on looking at the woman who somehow managed to break through every barrier that Emma had.
She felt a little unsteady as her breaths caused her to become more lightheaded, her palms shook against the shoulders she still held on to. Her skin dripped with condensation from the heat that radiated between them.
She licked her dry lips and smiled up at the woman who hoovered above her. "You're so beautiful."
Regina blushed, unexpectedly. Her eyes diverted from Emma's searching for something else concrete to take away her shifty focus.
"Don't look away from me," Emma said. She brought her hand from Regina's shoulder to her cheek and caressed it.
"No one has said that to me in such a long time. I've never felt more cherished It's-"
"It's the truth, you're breathtaking, Regina." Emma smiled at the woman.
Regina accepted the compliment with a smile and allowed her face to lean into Emma's palm. Emma looked curiously between the gap of space that separated them as Regina hovered above her with knees on either side of her hips. Emma used that to her advantage as she maneuvered them so that Regina was now the one with her back against the soft sheets.
Emma smiled at the shock that washed over Regina's face. Emma climbed up her body, dipped her face in closely to Regina's, and kissed the side of her cheek leaving a trail of kisses to her ear. Her tongue was desperate to find every sweet, toe curling spot on her body.
Her tongue slipped between the soft cartilage that curved in. She whispered sweet nothings that came from her soul. She whispered promises and words that would never be forgotten. She ached to be closer and moved her lips lower down to Regina's chest. She allowed her tongue to taste the salty, sweet taste of Regina's skin. She shivered in the process from the wholeness and pureness of their first time together.
Emma's eyes raked over Regina's breast and in those fleeting seconds, she knew she was the luckiest woman alive. Slowly she moved forward and wrapped her lips around a tiny hard bud. Her tongue greedily loving every second. Her lips sucked hard against Regina's chest and her teeth nibbled at the delicate flesh her mouth surrounded.
Regina's body responded as she began her journey of slowly coming undone in Emma's arms. Emma's ears were greeted with faint gasps as Regina fully surrendered her body to Emma. Her back arching off the bed by a mere few inches and her hands clutching Emma's head closer to her naked form.
Emma's heart raced. Her mind, on the other hand, stopped. Her body started moving instinctively and her fingers danced with need to explore Regina's body even more.
Her fingers slowly stroked and caressed the slopes of Regina's curvature. Her eyes locked with lustfilled ones. It was a looked that begged to stay, one unable to break away from. Emma's eyes held them in a sensual gaze as her fingers grazed over hip bones. Her wispy touch caused Regina's body to jerk forward. Emma watched as her lover's hands clenched sheets tightly.
Her mouth watered in response, metallic-like saliva. "Touch me." She heard. Her own body melting at those two words.
While neither woman knew, their hearts beat in sync, almost as one, as Emma looked down between Regina's open thighs.
She gulped back and steadily stroked her finger down at a painful pace. Her own body starting to throb with need, desire, a feeling that ached for release.
Her eyes still holding onto the ones that she loved, she slid her finger through slick bare folds. She started to slowly rub the pad of her index finger against the bundle of nerves that begged for contact. Regina's knuckles turned white as the sheets she clenched onto weren't enough, her body trembled as Emma's exploratory finger danced affectionately too slow.
Between her own legs, her body started to react to the pleasure of seeing Regina whimper beneath her. The ache was becoming unbearable as she slid lower down Regina's body.
Her hands reached out to free the clenched sheets from Regina's stronghold grasp, to replace with her hands.
Her mouth hovered over the bundle of nerves that was covered by Regina's wetness.
Teasing her, she blew air gently down on the sensitive bud and allowed her lips to ravish Regina's inner thighs. Her teeth again, nipping at olive skin that was flawless and addicting.
Emma watched as Regina's chest heaved up and down as she anticipated more, and more she gave her.
Her tongue worked it's way through her slit all the way down and all the way back up. The metallic taste was no longer and instead was replaced with Regina.
Regina was a taste Emma had never tasted before. One that words could never fully describe. Perhaps because words weren't created to describe how uniquely she mixed in Emma's mouth. How her body's intimate chemistry mixed so intricately with Emma's that there never could be just a simple word like sweet because that's not even remotely descriptive enough to fully justify what it was.
But whatever it was, it was uniquely them mixed together. Emma's eyes shifted up to Regina's. She squeezed her hand to remind her to stay with her. It was a soft squeeze back that comforted Emma in knowing she wasn't alone. They were in this moment together.
Emma focused her tongue on soaking up every drop of wetness that melted between them, because of them. To her shock, Regina pulled her away as her body started jerking with the beginnings of what she thought was pure ecstasy.
Monumental panic surged through her. Her mind fighting with her heart. Darkness consumed her thoughts and she worried she was doing it wrong, or not good enough.
"Emma." She heard the breathless request. "Come here."
Shoving the darkness back, Emma's body beat impatiently slow. Her body now aching for release.
Lying next to the woman who was heaving, gasping for air next to her, she begged to know what she had done wrong.
Before she could voice her concerns and worries, her ears were met with a strained voice. "I want you to come with me."
The panic that had evilly tried to darken the moment vanished. Emma nodded and locked eyes with Regina. She tentatively reached out her hand taking Regina's in her own. Every fragment of trust she could give to a person was entrusted in that tight grip as she brought Regina's hand to her own pulsating sex that begged for release.
Eye's holding on to one another, unwavering, remained fixed together.
It was the warmth of Regina's hand that broke that steadfastly locked gaze. Emma's tenseness dissolved in the mere matter of seconds as she melted from one touch alone.
Regina's fingers and grip moved against Emma, causing friction and pleasure to untangle everything in Emma's body.
"Look at me," Regina asked.
Emma's eyes begged to open. But the heaviness behind them made it impossible as every part of her body felt euphoric.
"Emma?" She heard again. And she fought the resistance and cracked open her passion heavy eyes. Blurriness obstructing her sight, she did everything to see past that and look at the woman she loved.
"You are extraordinarily gorgeous." Regina's words were words that were more than just compliments. They were facts. Facts that, in her eyes, could never be proven otherwise.
Regina watched as Emma's cheeks leaked hints of scarlet and that's when Emma felt her entire world start to go dark. She wasn't breathing.
She held her breath back for too long, it had caught in her chest from the depth and sincerity of the moment that she forgot something so instinctual.
It was when scarlet morphed to cyan that Regina noticed that she had forgotten to just breathe. Emma's body ached as Regina's hand teased her flesh and just as things started to fade to gray, she gasped in for air.
Air filled the entire capacity of her lungs as she drew in big gasps. Her head rolled back as she started to feel waves of pleasure itch the surface of her skin.
Her hand reached for Regina's and pulled her away. Her body was ready for what was next. She was erect and throbbing with need.
Through breathless words, she told Regina, "I'm ready."
She opened her eyes and studied the eyes of the woman that she had newly discovered.
It was the look on her face that told Emma that she needed guidance and that's what Emma gave her. She rolled Regina on her back laid down on her body. There was no space between them. Their chests moving at the same pace, both women taking in deep breaths as they together took the next step.
"If you feel too uncomfortable, just-"
"Nothing you can do will ever make me feel that way."
Emma nodded and kissed the lips and tugged them close to her own. Her tongue threatened to spill the three words that she had ached to say, but she bit them back.
She knew she wasn't that large, her hormone treatment had really prevented her from developing like other average males. But, erect, she was a mere four inches. Despite that, the last thing she ever wanted was to harm Regina in any way. Or to ever make her feel uncomfortable.
Adjusting her hips, she brought Regina's legs up and fixed herself so that the head of her penis pushed softly through Regina's slick folds and into the depths of her tightness.
It was as if her body had waited for this moment her entire life. She gripped Regina closer and held her gaze. She kissed her lips and waited to see if there were any moments of hesitation before she allowed her body to glide forward and slowly enter Regina.
Both of them remained still for a few moments, finally intimately connected as one. Regina gripped Emma's skin as she braced herself.
"Are you okay?" Emma asked, temporarily nervous as she too adjusted to the feeling of having Regina's core wrapped around her.
It was one of those moments in life, where you feel complete utter joy. When Regina pulled her lips into a searing kiss, she knew this was really happening. She adjusted herself and felt the softest of hands wrapping around her pulling her closer and deeper into Regina.
Emma's body buzzed with tingles of pleasure as she felt her own hips pull away and thrust forward.
In what felt like eons, she gave into being human, craving the touch of another. She allowed her body to indulged itself as if Regina was the sweetest of desserts imaginable.
"Hold on to me," Emma said as she pushed her hips forward again, the wetness and sweet friction between them drove her to want an insatiable amount.
The sweet, low moans that slipped from Regina's lips pushed Emma to thrust more into the woman she loved. The feeling of having her wrapped around her, that warmth and that friction they created made her body feel like it was combusting into pure bliss, it was nothing short of ecstasy as she allowed herself to let go.
Their bodies rocked back and forth as they enjoyed the feeling of one another. For Emma, it was the feeling of having Regina's body gripping her tightly, a sensation long forgotten. For Regina, it was the ache she felt in her chest as Emma went inside of her. Feeling each other so close, so intimately connected made them start to unravel together.
"Emma." She heard beneath her and it was the soft touch of the palm of Regina's hand against her face that pulled her out of the cloud of ecstasy she was succumbing to.
"Come with me." She heard and it took every particle, every atom of her existence to open her eyes and allow herself to ride out the wave of her orgasm with the woman in her arms.
"I'm here," She said through gritted teeth as she slowly thrust their bodies forward. Her arms felt weak, and her legs felt like there were on the verge of causing her to crash forward on to Regina as she felt her breath seep out of every pore of her body. Warmth consumed her and her eyes reflected her lovers who trembled as her own orgasm shook through every corner of her body as her core clenched tightly around Emma.
In a mere matter of seconds, both women have been fully collapsed, left gasping for air as their bodies were too weak to move. Emma laid on top of Regina, her head buried deep into her raven, velvety locks. Her entire body felt like every cell had burst from the weightless feeling of complete satisfaction.
Regina's warm body offered her solace as she struggled to pull herself from her orgasmic haze. When she finally regained her senses and was able to pull out of Regina, she leaned over to her side and studied the woman's body under the darkness of the room, since the Sun was fully set.
Her tongue still threatened to spill the three words that she desired beyond belief to say. But while she wanted nothing more than to confess her feelings, this wasn't the right time to confront them head on.
Emma's fingers stroked the curvature of Regina's jaw line, begging her to open her eyes. And when she did, chills traveled down Emma's spine.
"What's wrong?" Panic erupted and pushed her orgasmic haze away.
"Nothing. Nothing's wrong. Come here." Regina said as she pulled Emma into a warm embrace.
"That was…" Emma's ears ached to hear the rest of the sentence.
"That was?" She asked, hesitantly.
"That was perfect in every way. I absolutely adore you, Emma. More than one could ever imagine."
Emma felt herself become choked up. It took every ounce of restraint to will her sex-driven tears to not fall and for once they didn't. But regardless, the gravity of the moment was monumental for both women. They finally had shared the most intimate pieces of themselves with each other, something that was to be safeguarded and treasured.
"You have no idea how much you mean to me." Emma said as she gripped Regina closer, kissing her. Their hearts both beating just as hard. The universe was telling them something, but they couldn't hear it, not yet at least.
Emma pulled the blankets out from underneath them and brought them up and over their bodies. She didn't hesitate as she pulled Regina firmly against bare flesh. She kissed her shoulder and allowed their bodies to take the form of a spoon.
In that late evening, on a Thanksgiving day in Orlando, Florida, the world started to spin again on its axis. Sleep didn't take long to claim either one of them. Both women were deeply exhausted physically and emotionally. Their bodies spent from giving themselves to one another and emotionally committing themselves to whatever was next.