"When was the last time you saw her?" Dr Porter asked, her pen pushed up against the paper prepared to scribble my response furiously.

"I saw her in the ER yesterday" I responded knowing very well she meant in relation to sex.

"Not what I meant"

"Well the last time we had sex. Would have been in the on call room last Tuesday. We were both on night call, it was quiet and she text me to an on call room. The rest is what you would say history" I explained in my typical cheeky tone.

"You say you guys don't necessarily get together often but when you do you have sex a lot" Porter asked looking for confirmation.

"yeah."

"Was last week any different?" she asked.

"Well we were on call and at work so given a different situation it may have lasted longer but we squeezed a lot into a short space of time" I joked as a smile graced my lips.

"Does she always text you?"

I thought about it for a moment before nodding "Well.. yeah"

"Does that bother you?" the older doctor asked as she scribbled on the piece of paper in front of her without once breaking eye contact with me.

"Does it bother me that she is texting me for sex rather than the other way round? No. I don't think so."

Dr Porter fell silent for a moment as she looked over her notes filling in any blanks she may have had. I allowed her the silence before I started to get uncomfortable in my own thoughts.

" Do you think it's crazy what we're doing?" I finally asked.

Porter shrugged before crossing her legs "I think it's going to be hard to deny the connection you two have for much longer" she admitted honestly. "Right now you two have these rules you were telling me about and those are all well and good but you can't fight the fact you two have history. And not only history, you have a daughter. You have a future."

"The rules are there so we don't get those feelings" I explained.

The doctor had a lot to say about their situation but her job wasn't to give her opinion her job was to let me come to terms with the situation on my own. Dr Anne Porter had been my therapist for nearly 3 years now. I started seeing her because of work stresses and the challenges of being a working mother and she ended up being there for me once a week through everything. Through Arizona's plane crash, through the death of Mark, through all the problems we faced after that, through Arizona's cheating, through our divorce, through our custody battle to now. Everything I had been through Anne knew about it and had helped me come to terms with it. I owed a lot of my level headed decisions to her.

"Well I think we will end it there this week. You seem to being doing well with the whole situation. You seem happy, relaxed even."

I grabbed my lab coat which I had hung over the arm of the chair and I slipped it back on as I stood up. "Do you think I should text her doc?" I asked as I sorted out my collar.

Dr Porter stood to her feet too and placed her clipboard beside her before shrugging "It's up to you Callie."

I thought her last few words over in my head before nodding in understanding "I'll text her" I said as I headed for the door.

I headed back down to the doctor's lounge. It was a seemingly quiet day in the ER but I wasn't going to say that allowed. Just as I was reaching the doctors lounge I saw Meredith walking along the corridor eating an apple. "Meredith" I called as I jogged after her entering the doctors lounge at the same time.

"Oh hey Mc nasty"

"Stop trying to give me a Mc name, it's not working. The last three names have been horrible." I said as I sat up at the table.

"I dano" Meredith said "I think Mc down and dirty was a good one" Meredith laughed as she too sat down her feet swinging up onto the seat beside her.

"How is that going anyway?" Meredith asked just as Arizona walked through the door.

"Oh hey Callie. I've been looking for you"

Is it bad my heart just skipped a beat?

"Sofia's teacher called, she wanted to know if we could make a teacher parent interview this Friday" she explained as she beelined to the fridge in fetch of something cold to drink.

"Oh yeah." That was not at all what I expected to come from Arizona's mouth but what was I expecting is probably the more appropriate question. "I'll have to check my schedule and get back to you but I'll let you know" I said in a semi sheepish tone.

Arizona smiled like this was all well and good. None of this seemed to be weird for her. Was I the only one that felt weird about the whole situation. The rules weren't working. When we were together things were great but out in public I didn't know how to act.

Arizona walked passed me her hand resting lightly on my arm as she passed by "Just text me" she said as she exited the room holding a bottle of cold water.

As soon as she left I darted my eyes towards Meredith "did you see that?" I asked her eagerly.

Meredith smirked and nodded. "That was weird right?" I asked her. "That was weird" Meredith confirmed.

"That hand thing, what was that?" I asked frantically.

Meredith laughed "I think that's you being paranoid Callie. I think you need to talk to her. Obviously she is doing better with this secret whatever it is than you are. She is the mother of your child. Talking to you about your child is not weird. And the hand thing. It was probably nothing. If I touched your arm would that be weird?" Meredith questioned.

I thought about it for a moment before responding "You're probably right" I admitted. "I'm going to text her" I added as I scrambled for my cell phone. Meredith didn't even say anything she just continued to eat away at her apple.

"Do you want to come round tonight? Sofia and I are off to the movies tonight but she should be in bed by 9:30 if you want to pop round around 10." I read the text allowed to Meredith and she seemed to give the text the nod of approval. I sent it and nervously awaited the response.

Arizona was busy with a consult but responded within the hour which in the doctor's world is a relatively quick reply. "Hey babe, can't tonight. Kate and I are going out. Maybe tomorrow?"

I didn't know what to say back so I didn't reply. According to the rules I couldn't have an opinion on Arizona's other relationships.