Friday came by quickly, far quicker than I had hoped. I had taken the afternoon off work in order to be at the school for Sofia's parent teacher interview. I waited outside the NICU with two coffees in my hands and my handbag hung over my shoulder patiently awaiting Arizona to finish up with her patient.
Arizona exited the NICU within 10 minutes and grabbed the coffee from my hand with a thankful smile, "thanks babe" she said quietly as she took a large gulp of coffee. It was just the coffee she craved. "I'm ready to go" she said as she handed her clipboard over the nurses' station and we walked in unison down the hallway.
We arrived at the school with ease, there was no traffic at this time of the day. Arizona had changed in the car from her dark blue scrubs into a simple jeans and t-shirt combo. "Did she tell you what she wanted to discuss?" I asked as we walked up the stairs to Sofia's classroom.
"I think it's probably just a progress report" Arizona suggested.
It didn't take long for the teacher to call us in. I spotted Sofia playing in the corner with a toy truck and a smile braced my lips "Hey baby girl" I said causing the young girl to stop what she was doing and run towards the two of us. Sofia tried her very best to wrap her arms around the both of us at the same time but her arms just weren't wide enough. I picked the dark haired girl up and I kissed her cheek, one of those big 'I missed you' kisses.
"Hello sweet girl" Arizona said as she too leant over and kissed Sofia's cheek. We looked like the picture perfect family right now. Only thing was, there wasn't anything perfect about our current situation.
"Sofia do you want to go play in the play room while I talk to your mommies?" Mrs Colder suggested as she took a seat behind her desk. I kissed Sofia one last time and placed her on the ground. "We won't be long sweetheart" I promised her as I watched her run away happily.
Arizona and I both sat down in the seats laid out for us. They were comfy which was a nice change of pace.
"Thanks for coming. This is just standard practice. Every 6 months we like to check in with parents and see how things are going, especially when the child is shared between houses" The teacher explained as she flicked through some papers.
"Well Arizona and I are divorced but we certainly still co-parent" I defended.
"Doctor Torres, I'm not saying anything about how you two do things. Sofia is a well-loved little girl and is always here on time ready to learn. None of what I have to say about your daughter is by any means bad" the teacher explained.
Arizona placed her hand on my knee lightly for a brief moment as a reminder to stay calm. I was always quick to defend. I know people second guessed how Arizona and I chose to parent Sofia which caused a few nerves in situations like this.
"Sofia moved up another reading level, she is reading and writing well above her age level. She doesn't seem to enjoy math all that much but she is still above her age appropriate math level so I have no problems there. All in all, Sofia is a fantastic student, very bright young girl. There is something I wanted to show you though" Mrs Colder explained as she took out a few drawings with Sofia's name plastered across the top.
"Sofia's drawings are cause for concern. When I asked about this picture she said that these were all dead people and that the city was on fire. I'm not sure if she is watching something she shouldn't be or what the story is but a lot of her pictures do feature dead people one way or another" Colder stated pointing out some of the disturbing images that our daughter had magically conjured up.
I looked at Arizona who was still looking at the drawings. What do you say to something like that? Sofia grew up in a hospital and until now neither Arizona or myself saw the bad in that. "Look Jen" Arizona started to say. "Our daughter has lost a lot of people for such a young child. She was raised in a hospital. She nearly died in a hospital." Arizona tried to explain. I felt her hand touch mine and grip it tightly. It was a tough memory for all of us. "Callie nearly died in the hospital. Sofia has seen a lot and experienced a lot for a child so young. I'm no psychologist but could this be her way of working through that?" Arizona asked.
Jen Colder shrugged. "Maybe."
"What can we do to help this situation or help Sofia?" I asked.
"Maybe send her to a child therapist. I know that sounds scary and may seem like I'm saying your daughter has problems"
"We are doctors Jen" I interrupted. "We know about child therapists" I reminded her. "You think that will help her?"
"I think your daughter will really benefit from a third party helping her work through her thoughts." Colder admitted honestly.
"Are you concerned?" Arizona asked curiously as she removed her hand from mine and intertwined her fingers together.
"Nope. Not at all. I think your daughter is awfully smart and talented and loved so much. Sofia is one lucky girl; she has two parents that care enough about her that they are able to come to this together. That's not something I see in divorced parents that much. I just think she could benefit from a few sessions with a therapist. But then again, I could be wrong." She admitted.
The rest of the meeting went relatively well we looked at some of her stories and Sofia even showed us some of her less disturbing art work that hung from the wall. It was always nice to get good feedback from the teacher, as well as information that could help better our daughter. The three of us went out for ice cream which may or may not have been breaking a rule but boy it felt nice for us all to be together again. It was moments like this I wished Mark was around to see how their beautiful daughter was turning out. She was like him in many ways. She was cheeky like him and she even liked many of the strange foods Mark liked. Looking at her made me miss him.
It was my night with Sofia which probably meant a little jumbo slumbo in the lounge. We came to a stop outside my apartment and I felt the car motor go from a soft hum to silence. "Baby we are home" I informed Sofia who was sitting in her car seat playing pretend with her dolls. "Maybe we can both think on what Jen said and talk about it tomorrow" I suggested. Arizona just nodded.
"What are you girls getting up to tonight?" she asked me curiously. "Maybe a little sleepover in the lounge." I said with a smile. "She has no school tomorrow and I've got no work so why not" I explained as I unbuckled myself slowly. "What are you doing tonight?"
Arizona shrugged slightly. "I had plans with Kate but I dano she got all weird about it so probably just go home and relax"
"You can stay for the jumbo slumbo if you'd like" I suggested reluctantly.
"Yessssss" Sofia squealed.
Arizona tilted her head slightly and shook her head "Do you think that's a good idea?" Arizona asked.
"I mean maybe not but we did say Sofia related events were on the table" I reminded her.
"I don't have any clothes or anything." Arizona was trying to find reasons to say no. She had many reasons to say no but one big reason to say yes. The idea of a night in with both her girls sounded perfect.
"I have a pair of shorts and t-shirt you could probably borrow on the conditions I get them back" I stated with a small smile gracing my lips. I knew I could debate each one of her excuses and I knew she knew that too.
"What about the whole staying the night thing?"
"You can go home when little miss falls asleep" I said in a soft tone.
Arizona couldn't help but grin. Arizona didn't respond, instead she just nodded.
The two women settled into the jumbo slumbo quite quickly. They lay Callie's mattress in the lounge which Sofia covered with all her soft toys leaving very little room for anybody else. Her reasoning was 'they have been wanting to watch this movie too'. How could I deny her teddies the right to a good movie? I prepared the movie while Arizona prepared the popcorn. It was a little early to start a movie night for most people but for doctors there was no time schedule when it came to things like this. With schedules like theirs, any free time was good time.
"Mummy come lie down by us" Sofia insisted as she snuggled into my side her arm clutching onto her favourite teddy which Mark had given her at birth. It was a rattly old thing now but she had loved it from the moment she could open her eyes.
"Can't I just watch from the couch hunny?" Arizona responded not wanting to get too close and personal on this tight spaced mattress. "Mama you can't even see properly" Sofia said a frown gracing her forehead. "Okay, okay" Arizona repeated as she stood up from the couch. I moved over as best I could, offering up a bit of the mattress beside me.
Arizona lay on her side making sure to keep a distance between the two of us. We all watched the movie. It was monsters Inc two. Sofia had been wanting to watch it for months and If I'm being completely honest I had been wanting to see it too. I kissed Sofia on the head pure happiness gracing my lips. Right now was pretty close to perfect. I looked over to Arizona who wasn't watching the movie but was watching me. We both smiled at each other. I wanted to kiss her but I couldn't. Instead I took her hand with my spare hand. Arizona didn't pull away. Instead she focused back on the movie.
"What is that thing?" Sofia blurted out mid movie as she pointed to a green monster she hadn't seen before. "I think that's a new monster babe" Arizona said her hand still locked with mine. Sofia nodded with understanding as she tugged at the blanket so it was over her fully. "Can I have some of that?" Arizona asked as she grabbed the corner of the blanket and pulled it over herself.
The three of us watched the movie quite closely laughs escaping each of our lips quite often. Slowly without any of us noticing Arizona was tucked up awfully close to my side. I released her hand and I slipped it under her neck and I pulled her into my chest. Definitely against some sort of rule. Arizona looked up at me, I could tell she was concerned about what was happening. I leant down and I kissed her forehead. "I'm glad you're here" I whispered quietly before focusing my attention back on the movie. I had both my girls in my arms and we were snuggled up watching what was bound to be Sofia's new favourite movie. Tonight was perfect. I was happier than I had been in ages.
