I was not scared, especially of my baby who made a way when we thought there was no way for him to exist. He is not going to kill me. I told myself this daily. I remember telling myself the same thing about his father.

At first Edward continued to try to convince me to kill him but I stood strong. He wasn't allowed in this house until I was sure he wouldn't hurt us. It was hard because I missed him so much. The thought made me want to cry.

Poor Charlie didn't know what to say or how to act that would not cause me to be emotional . All I do nowadays is cry and get mad then cry because I was mad.

Over the next few weeks Carlisle reached out multiple times to ask me to come to the hospital to do a "Well visit", when I finally gave in and called him back I could hear the smile in his voice. I wonder what was the change from the day I ran from his house, I figured he would be supporting his son.

Nevertheless, I agreed to go.

He told me to tell the front desk staff to send me right to the OB GYN department. I was so embarrassed, hopefully she would just think I was there for a check up. Hopefully she didn't think we'd get Married because I had got knocked up during High school and Edward was making an honest woman out of I got to the hospital of course I knew the office manager.

"Hey Bella!...?" I rolled my eyes.

"Oh Hey Steph, how are you?" She was a senior when I was Junior, nice enough but was a gossip. She's definitely going to tell people that she saw me here. I groaned internally. She replied in pleasantries and told me to have a seat to wait.

I sat, I didn't want to bring any additional attention to myself. After about 5 minutes Carlisle came out looking for me.

"Hey, Has my Daughter- In- Law called to say she'd be late?" He asked her directly. Her eyes went big as, I can only guess, she realized that I was who he was talking about.

"Oh! Sorry, Dr. Cullen." She leaned over the desk to me, sheepishly she said "Bella, Dr. Cullen will see you now."

I'd never seen Carlisle exasperated with anyone but Emmett, He rolled his eyes, also a first. "Sorry about that, I don't think I could be any better around here if I tried."

When we got into the back we walked past his office back through a winding path which led to the GYN Offices. I sat on the table and he pulled out a chart. At the top was my name, address, phone number, and date of birth. He asked me to confirm that information and sign.

It was awkward.

"Bella, I'm sure this is awkward for you but treat me just like I'm a doctor and forget that I'm your father-in-law" he laughed.

"Ha!" I barked, "Yeah, that'll be easy."

"OK, let's start. When was the first day of your last Menstrual cycle?" I turned beet red. "I don't know Carlisle.I know I had one on the island a couple weeks after we first got there but I was too distracted to remember after that. Until right before we had to come back."

"I understand Bella. Isle Esme is a magical place." He spoke reverently. "And that's how we got here." He laughed pointing at my belly. "Have you had any spotting and bleeding? Anything abnormal that will lead to a concern?"

"No, not at all I didn't even realize I was …pregnant. Although I was throwing up a lot and miserable I thought I had a bug. Which is why Edward was so concerned."

"Awesome! I'm going to do a quick exam layback and I'm going to palpate your stomach." He padded and pressed very gently on my belly. I could feel that it was firm towards the bottom. He suggested that we do an ultrasound just to know the exact amount of weeks I was.

There is a radiation department in the hospital and he told me to meet him down there in about a half an hour. I didn't know what to do in between so I went to the cafeteria. I just brought something to drink and a little snack. I realized when I didn't eat enough I got heady.

After my snack I went to the radiation department. He made me drink a half a bottle of water even though I was pretty already full and had me get up on the table. He politely asked the ultrasound technician to leave the room and told me he thought he could handle it himself.

She looked a little suspicious but did what she was told. I asked him why he thought she had to leave.

"Bella, I don't know what to expect here. We don't have any research or anyway to know what's going on in there. I didn't want anything suspicious to show up that I couldn't explain." I nodded.

He placed a big goop of warm jelly on my belly and began to move the wand around. On the screen I saw my baby.

He was a baby!

He was past the size of your plum or peach.

My baby was an avocado! I grinned.

He was a baby and I could see his little arms and legs. I asked Carlisle how far along I was and he said about 18 weeks. I was in awe.

I couldn't figure out how or why this happened but I couldn't imagine a future without him.

"He's perfect." I whispered as a felt a hot tear fall from my eye.

"He?" Carlise asked with a smirk.

"When will I find out for sure? I just know he's a boy."

"I'll put you on the books for 3 weeks, that way we can be sure the baby would be developed enough to see."

"Thank you! Seriously, Thank you so much for your support." I said earnestly. I really did appreciate him. I felt so alone and this meant the world to me.

Carlise printed a bunch of pictures and I made my next appointment.

After I left the hospital I sent Edward a picture of our child. He didn't reply, which was becoming a regular occurrence. The day before my next appointment I reached out to him, we needed to talk and I couldn't live my life in limbo anymore.

This is the longest I've gone without seeing Edward since the time that shall not be mentioned. We have been texting back and forth but that was as far as I would let it go. I told him very clearly that I didn't trust that he wouldn't take drastic action if we were around each other.

I don't know how I couldn't tell that I was pregnant. There were so many changes to my body. It seems as though as soon as I acknowledged that I was pregnant my body made it known as well.

I still hadn't told Charlie and it was getting harder and harder to hide. I also didn't feel the need to hide it. I wasn't some child, I was an adult who was pregnant by her husband. I know my husband was a vampire and it was likely that our child was half Vampire, something that I didn't exactly understand how it came into play yet ,but still.