We were making out in the spa like high schoolers for nearly an hour before both Arizona and I decided to head inside. I watched as the beautiful blonde walked across the lounge naked and headed for the bathroom. I decided not to follow because that was only going to lead to trouble.
When Arizona got out I got in. I only rinsed myself to clean the chlorine off my body. I changed into my pyjamas, wrapped myself in my robe and headed to the bedroom where Arizona was already laying watching some garbage on TV.
I climbed into bed and instantly Arizona snuggled into my side, like a habit she wasn't able to get rid of. "Have you seen this?" she asked as she placed her hand on my stomach and just rested on my chest.
"No. What is it?" I asked as I slipped my arm under her neck and pulled her into a more comfortable position.
"It's this Australian TV show called Married at first Sight or something crazy like that. It's kinda cool" Arizona informed me.
"Arizona" I said aimlessly as I grabbed the remote and muted the television. Arizona looked up at me with slight concern in her face. "Are you alright about waiting?" I asked her.
"Do I want to have sex with you?" she asked rhetorically, "of course."
"Do I want us to work?"
"Of course."
"I just don't think not having sex is going to fix things. I think sex is what we are best at but at the same time I respect your decision to wait."
"I do want to" I explained. "Seeing you naked and kissing you and just being with you. I want too." I stated firmly. "I don't want this to fizzle out. I want to be married to you again and for the rest of my life this time so I want to do it right."
Arizona nodded her head as she returned her head back to the front. "I can just lie here. I'm okay with that too" she finally said.
We lay there in silence for a few minutes listening to one another's breathing. I watched as her hand made shapes on my stomach and I wondered how I ever went without this.
"Dr. Porter gave me these questions that we could ask one another. I thought maybe we could do them at some point."
"Maybe tomorrow? I'm falling asleep" Arizona stated and within minutes she had done just that.
I slept all through the night and in the morning I woke up spooning Arizona. One of my arms lay under her neck while the other one tucked her into my body. Our legs were entwined in one another's and our blankets were pulled right up to our neck. It was probably the best sleep I had, had in a long time.
That morning I made breakfast. I made eggs, bacon, hash browns and breakfast sausages. Arizona vacuumed an already clean house which was beyond me and then we sat down outside and enjoyed breakfast together. The sun was out and if I had to guess it was 75 degrees outside. We headed for a walk through the woods and stumbled across a few pretty views that we enjoyed together. We listened to birds and took silly photos that we would one day look back on. Later that day Arizona called Sofia, we both couldn't because it seemed a bit too suspicious. Arizona hadn't seen her in longer so I let her call.
That night we ate dinner in front of the fire and watched garbage TV that Arizona claimed to hate but in reality didn't. By 9pm we were snuggled up on the couch, Arizona sitting neatly between my legs with a blanket on top of the both of us.
"You said you wanted to do this question thingy that Dr. Porter suggested" Arizona chirped up.
I never expected she would want to do it let alone bring it up as an activity for us to do. "I think it could be cool" I said reluctantly.
"Go grab the paper and we can do it."
"But, whatever happens I'm sleeping with you tonight and you have to hug me like last night" Arizona negotiated.
"I'm not going to get mad at you Arizona. This is us working it out." Arizona lent forward to let me out and I slipped off the couch and headed for the room. I returned with a two page print off of questions Dr Porter thought would be good conversation topics for Arizona and I. Therapy while on holiday, who knew.
I sat at one edge of the couch my legs closed and the piece of paper laying in my lap. Arizona sat at the other end looking as nervous as a celiac in a bread factory.
"Okay. The first question is what is the trait you value most in me?"
"Your loyalty" Arizona responded almost immediately. "And you?"
"I think your happiness. It is intoxicating and it makes me want to be happy all the time."
"What do you consider your greatest weakness to be?"
Arizona shrugged her shoulders before thinking about the question further. "I have a lot. But I think my biggest weakness is I don't know how to communicate my feelings sometimes."
I nodded in agreement as a small smile graced my lips. "Don't laugh, I'm being honest" Arizona joked back. "I'm not laughing, just agreeing." I responded.
"Well…" Arizona said. "What about your greatest weakness?"
"I forgive and forget too easily. I'm naive."
"You mean with me?"
I shook my head. "Not just you."
"Do you sometimes wonder if trying to forgive me is a mistake?" Arizona asked in a serious tone.
"Sometimes" I said with a soft nod. "Maybe that is why I haven't been so willing to take the next step with us." I suggested. "I'm scared that I'm being naïve and that my love for you is overclouding my own thoughts."
"I lost your trust. It's understandable you're not so willing to jump two feet in."
We both just stared at each other. There wasn't much more to say. I let the question and conversation settle in before finally moving onto the next question. "Have you ever been heartbroken?"
Arizona laughed slightly. "Yes. Yes, I have. I've had my heart broken by you a few times."
"Beside me?" I asked curiously.
"Well yeah, probably. My first girlfriend Jasmine. We met in high school. She broke my heart" Arizona explained. To my surprise I hadn't heard of Jasmine before. How could I not have heard about this old girlfriend?
"How have I not heard of this girlfriend before?"
"You never asked. She was my first girlfriend. We dated for 2 years. I loved her, I literally would have done anything for her. One day I found her making out with this guy named George from her science class. It's safe to say we didn't work out" Arizona laughed.
"Wait… so your first girlfriend turned out to be straight" I laughed. "That's not a story you hear every day."
"I've been heartbroken time and time again. I get hurt easily. With you, George, Erica, Joseph, Reece, every person I have been with I feel like I have been heartbroken one way or another."
"Can we go to the next question now?" Arizona was feeling a little bit uncomfortable. I knew it hurt her to think about all the past mistake the both of us had made.
"Okay. Okay. Next question. Can you see yourself having children in the future?"
Arizona rolled her eyes playfully. "Not this topic again" she joked. "Ahh, yeah! I think having a sibling for Sofia could be cool. I'm in no rush though. What about you?"
"I would love more children. 5 more!"
"Hell no. I could do 1, maybe 2 but not 5."
Arizona and I talked all night. We went through all the questions one by one and each one of them sparked conversation. I learnt all sorts, stuff I couldn't believe I didn't know. We debated on some subjects and at one point here or there we both felt sad as we reminisced about the past.
I brushed my teeth and washed my face before heading into the bedroom. Arizona was standing by her side of the bed wearing a long navy blue robe. "I did your thing now I want you to do something for me" Arizona said as she slid off her robe and revealed her naked body.
"You are impossible" I said playfully.
"No sex! I can follow rules too" Arizona said as she slipped into bed. "I just want to see your body. I haven't seen it in so long because of this stupid rule!"
I headed to my side of the bed wearing my silky pyjamas. I thought for a minute before finally giving in and unbuttoning my buttons one at a time. "Only because it's stinkin' hot in here". Arizona just watched as my shirt fell to the ground followed very quickly by my pants. I slipped into bed my naked body feeling the softness of the sheets press against my body. It was freeing sleeping naked. Arizona rolled on her side and I faced her but neither of us touched one another. "Sometimes I wish you knew how beautiful I think you are" Arizona said as she extended her arm and took my hand in hers.
"And sometimes I wish you knew just how much I love you," I shuffled forward and I stared Arizona in the eyes. I felt her hand reach out and lay lightly on my naked waist. "Can I put my hands on you?" Arizona asked. I nodded. I felt her hand move up the side of my body and rest of the side of my boob. She closed her eyes and she took in my body like it was the first time she was doing so. I felt our lips lock and our bodies meshed together like a jigsaw puzzle. I moved onto my back bringing the small blonde with me. Things began to escalate quickly and before I knew it our hands were exploring one another's bodies. I couldn't stop it anymore. I wanted too but I was too into it. I grabbed Arizona's hand and I pushed it down towards my vagina. I craved her touch. I wanted her inside of me. I knew Arizona wanted too but she pushed against my hand and pinned me down, sitting on top of me. "No sex" she whispered as she kissed my nipple lightly.
"Break the rules" I pleaded between breaths. We had somehow swapped positions.
"You will be so disappointed if we do. Let's just wait" Arizona said as she kissed my lips.
Arizona and I kissed passionately for hours. We rolled all through the bed and both attempted to take things further at a point. Although we wanted too, we were on the same page about waiting. After finally running out of breath I fell asleep in Arizona's arms her warm body moulding with mine.
I woke up the next morning to the smell of bacon cooking. Arizona was obviously cooking. I lay in bed my eyes searching the ceiling as I took in my environment, the smell that lingered and the clothes that were flung around the bedroom. I couldn't remember the last time I was this happy. I didn't want this weekend to end but in 5 short hours we were expected on a flight back to Seattle and I was anything but ready.