Author Note: I do not own The Walking Dead or any of it's characters

Axel Dixon and Cath Carver belong to me.

Emily Carver belongs to HiddenTruthandLies2.

Sorry for late again, but I'm home now and getting back to write once again. XD

Chapter 33: Deja Vu

Axel's POV

We got in the drugstore while can still hear that poor girl screaming in suffer. Oh god, what the hell are we doing? We just left her behind... I shook away my thoughts of that girl and follow after Kenny and Lee when they opened the door to pharmacy.

In the pharmacy, there was some empty shelfs that we have scavenged over three months and one of them are down to the side. There was some supplies and stuff around of that shelf.

"We should be good to clear this place out, but we ain't got all day." Kenny said. "Get everything you can out of these racks! Don't forget to check underneath the counter! I'll clear out here and then we gotta go!"

I nodded as Lee pushes the shelf to the side. I walking to other side of the shelfs and bends down to get anything as I can see some knifes on the floor. I grabbing them and put them in my backpack. Then some empty cans, a couple of wire rolls, some medicines and then... what the?

I grabbed a yellow pocket knife. Is that Cath's? She must have dropped it back that day we arrived to Macon. I put it in one of mine pockets and continue to find anything.

Then I stopped when we all heard no more screaming. Shit. Which that means...

"Fuck. The walkers must have completely got her quickly than we thought." I said.

"No shit. Hurry up, guys! We have no much time left." Kenny exclaimed lowly and continue to grabbed more supplies.

Poor girl, but I guess that was her choice if it was a suicide. Inside of my head is getting sticky, but I'm still on focus and keep working, but faster now. Then I hear some sound from behind the door. Damn it, it must walkers. They're already start knocking the door to get in.

When I took the last supply and put in my backpack, I walked over to Kenny as he turned to me.

"I'm clear." I said.

"Good work, kid." Kenny replied with a smile and nodded before we look at Lee who picks up some supplies.

"I think that's everything!" Lee exclaimed and puts the supplies the he grabbed into Kenny's backpack.

"That girl didn't die for nothing then." Kenny said and jump over counter. "Up and over!"

I roll my eyes at him. That girl maybe didn't die for nothing, but what she died for?

Lee jumped over counter after Kenny and I jumped after, but then I heard something noise right behind of the office door... Shit! They'll getting in here in minute-

Ugh!

The door falls on me with plenty of walkers are on it and trying to reach me. I was trapped between the floor and the door with plenty of walkers.

Lee notice I'm in trouble. "Axel!" Lee yelled and coming to and trying help me to lift the door, but it's too heavy. "Kenny, help!"

I glancing at Kenny and he rushing to us. He help me and Lee to lift the door up, this time we three manage to get the door off of me. We push the door to the side from me. Then Kenny aiming at the walkers with his gun.

"Fridge!" Kenny exclaimed and glancing at a fridge by the doorway. Lee understand what Kenny mean and runs to it. He's pulling it off to the doorway while I walked over to the walker who got through the doorway.

"Take this!" I exclaimed and kicked at a walker to send behind to the others which it cause some of them is falling at the ground.

Les has finally pushed the fridge down to block the doorway so the walker can't get us. But they can still crawling under the fridge.

"Let's fucking get out!" Kenny exclaimed and start to run away as Lee and I do.

But a walker appear from no where and trying attacking me and Lee. That walker was the pilot of military helicopter who crashed at the drugstore earlier. Lee hitting with his rifle at the head, but no use because it's wearing a pilot helmet.

"Damn! We will not kill that one in ordinary way!" I exclaimed as the walker was going attack again, I punch immediately and send into a broken rebar which it will stuck there. Holy shit. What a deja vu.

Then I see some walkers get through the fridge and trying to get us.

"Time to go!" Lee exclaimed and start follow after Kenny as I did same.

"Througt here." Kenny said and crawls through a hole in the wall which it's leading to the outside.

I crawling through the hole and Lee was after me. We got out off of the drugstore for the last time.

On the road to the motel

We three walking back to the motel. I was little dizzy about what we did to that poor girl back at Macon. I'm looking at Lee who look sympathy too as Kenny seems calm, but have some signs of remorse.

"Axel, what did you got back at the drugstore?" Kenny asked.

I'm sure Kenny isn't gonna like this in beginning, but he will understand soon after.

"I'm got some medicine and food too. But most, many useful things, knifes, ropes, empty can and-" I explained, but I cut off by Kenny when he heard the latest word from me.

"Empty cans? How could be so useful when there is no food in cans?" Kenny complained with annoying tones.

"It's not about supplies, Kenny. When we're leaving the motel, we are going to stay somewhere to sleep in our trip. These cans will be our alarm, think about Doug's alarm system." I explained.

"Hmm, Smart there, Ax. Maybe we don't need worry about the walkers. But at least, the living people is hard to deal them than walkers." Lee responded.

"Well, we won't camp many times when we get to the coast." Kenny mumbled.

I shaking my head. He will never giving up the coast, but it's worth to try find a boat if Emily think it is okay.

Then when we approached the motel, I noticed Kenny sent a skeptical glare at Ben and Travis who are on the watch. Sounds like Lilly give them the job again. I know Kenny isn't sure that those are able to handle a threat of walkers or the most; living people. I sighed because I don't either think that they have no spinal to handle the problems, especially with the bandits who attack us for a few days ago.

When we approach the gates, Doug notice us and opened it for us.

I saw Cath approaching us with a happy and curious look. "Hey guys, how's going back there?" She asked.

"Just little usual." Lee replied as Cath getting more curious. "What do you mean "little usual"?" Cath asked.

"Let's say it was kind of little deja vu, okay." I said as I don't want to talk about that walker at the drugstore and... that girl too.

"Did the walkers almost got you or something like that?" Cath asked.

"It was close, but we're fine and we got many this time." Kenny said with a smile.

"Good work there, guys." Doug congratulates and look happy over the good new after it have been rough in a few days ago.

We nodded at him and start walking through the parking lot to Lilly's room. On our way, Lee and I notice Clementine talking with her walkie-talkie to pretend talking with her parents. Weird, she's look happy than before, after the station wagon.

Then Clementine saw us and start run to us. "You're back!" Clementine exclaimed with happy tones.

"Hey, sweet pea." Lee said with a smile.

"Hello there, little one. What's up?" I said humble.

"Ben and Travis found stickers inside a drawer and I put some of them on my walkie-talkie." Clem said and raise her walkie-talkie up to show us, it have some pinky stickers.

"It look nice. Keep enjoy with it." I said.

"That's neat. I'll talk to you in a minute." Lee said as she nodded and walk away while we follow after Kenny to Lilly's room.

Lee knocking on the door. Here we go, hope she likes our result today. I place my backpack down beside the doorway, so Lilly didn't have to see what I got. I'm sure she will getting piss on me of these useful things.

Lilly open the door and she look mess, hadn't sleep for nights after the incident of St Johns.

"Looks like we got these kids on watch again." Kenny said and looking at the boys again.

"What'd you get?" Lilly asked.

Kenny didn't answered her question except telling something to her. "Might as well leave a sign out that says 'The men are gone Come and rape our women and children'." Kenny joking as I give him a disgusting look.

That's not funny, mr drunky captain. Lee just ignored Kenny's joke and hand over the rifle to Lilly. Then he reload his gun.

"Ha." Lilly mumbled sarcastic and walked into her room to sets the rifle on the top of dresser before she came back to us. "So, what did you get?" She repeats her question and required the answer from us.

I sent a glance to her attitude. Geez, she hasn't get over her dad's death yet.

"Just what was left." Lee answered and I nodded.

"Which was a lot actually. Take a look." Kenny said hopefully and handed his backpack to Lilly.

Truth, it is a lot of them, but like Lee said; It's all was left in the drugstore. Lilly snatched Kenny's backpack and place on her bed to see what was inside. "We're fine, by the way." Kenny said.

Lilly just ignored Kenny latest words and start to approached us.

"Nice work. This'll keep us going. We carry on like this, we'll get through the winter here." Lilly said.

I widening my eyes after her answer as Lee crossed his arms and Kenny got a irrationally expression on his face. What? Is she seriously?"

"The winter? We'll freeze our asses off here." Kenny exclaimed and scowling at Lilly.

"Because piling into an RV with you guys, after what you did to my dad, is so appealing." Lilly said coldly and crossed her arms.

I shaking my head and frowns at Lilly. "Open your damn eyes, for god's sake! It's not safe here anymore!"

"We're safe here than out there as you guys believe it." Lilly shot back.

"Take a look at the walls, Lilly. That's not graffiti, those are bullet holes. And we got enough arrow shafts sticking out to dry our laundry. And that's all beside the fact that Macon is busted at the seams with walkers." Kenny explained all of problems, but it seems like Lilly refuse to admit.

"We don't have walker problems." Lilly scolded.

"You're right, Lilly. But the walls aren't built to protect us from the living and we will have walker problems if these bandits breaking the walls down." I said with a serious look.

"They're not able to breaking any damn walls down." Lilly said.

"We have to go eventually, Lilly. Things getting pretty messy now and it will put our kids in danger." Lee said and Lilly glare at him for agree with Kenny's plan.

"Everything is dangerous outside of the walls. Plus, we don't have to do anything." Lilly said.

"You didn't want to leave just because of your dad's health, but he's gone now." Kenny said.

Lilly widening her eyes and glare at Kenny's words as I close my eyes and shook the head. Nice working, Kenny. But I think he has right there, Lilly have always so overprotective Larry and his actions too before the St Johns.

"Easy, Kenny." Lee said and trying to calm Kenny to do not bring up Larry.

Then I notice Katjaa, Emily, Cath, Doug and Carley who caught their attention of the argument and gathering behind us.

"At it again, are we?" Carley asked.

"I don't see that it is necessary to starting with up this again." Emily said.

Kenny frowns at their words. "Can it, y'all." He said.

"Don't boss people around." Lilly said and I give a glare to her.

Hey, you boss us three over these damn three months.

"I'm sorry, but somebody needs to make executive decisions for the group though, and I don't think you're capable anymore." Kenny said and is uncertain about Lilly's leadership which it earned a glance from Lilly.

"And don't start with me either." Lilly said with a seriously tone.

"Ken, we're all losing it, with the attacks and lack of food." Katjaa said and try to calm her husband down from the argument, but Kenny just ignored her and refuse to give up.

I'm getting annoying by this stubborn woman who doesn't see the problems what we do. "It could be so much worse! We didn't have any ordinary problems like when's the last time someone got bitten." I exclaimed.

"Are you counting the St Johns?" Ben asked loudly to us from the top of RV.

Then we turned from Lilly to look at Ben with our widened chock and disgusted eyes by hearing those people who have tried to eat us and killed Mark for a week ago.

"Jesus, Ben!" I replied loudly and shook my head.

"He's just brought up because we need to be careful and will not end up like them." Travis tried to cheer us, but it didn't worked.

"Really, boys?" Emily said annoying as we go back to the argument with Lilly.

"I know we all go nuts now, but we can't just tearing into apart. I'm already sick tired to hearing this shit from you and Kenny ever since we all got here from the drugstore. When I came back from the searching after my family at Atlanta, I thought you two have finally get along each other. But you two didn't" I said.

"He's right. We need to stop this shit now. Everything can't always come down to the same disagreement." Lee agreed and earned a glance from Lilly. "Lilly, Kenny does have some legit points here."

Lilly staring down with a defeated look. "…I'm so tired of it being you all versus me." She mumbled.

"Dammit, I'm not on anyone's side, Lilly. These decisions affect all of us." Lee said.

"Hasn't anything affect you, including by these bandits?" I said.

Lilly didn't answer me instead sent a glare to me.

"What about the food situation? What about protection? What about when this place falls? Somebody's gotta be thinking about this shit." Kenny said and place his hands on hips.

"How has this not been working? We have everything we need." Lilly said.

"Because of me, Lilly." Kenny complained.

"That's B.S., Kenny, and you know it." Lilly scolded.

Great. Here we go again.

"What about medicine." Kenny exclaimed.

"What about medicine?" Lilly shot back.

Will they stop fighting each other? Then I notice Lee got a hesitant expression on his face and looking at Kenny.

"We still got plenty of food from that station wagon for everyone." Lee said and I sighed over his words.

"We might got the food, Lee. But it's getting already running out and we'll just be back to right where we started before we even found them. In the other word; we would have be back where we started earlier if we didn't found the station wagon." I said.

Lee sighed that I've right. There is no food at the drugstore, no animals to hunt and we can't just hope to find more station wagons with plenty of food and supplies outside of the walls.

"Everything that happens to us is another excuse for you to pull this crap about leaving. All I want is a week of peace, of not hearing it!" Lilly said and look inclement now.

I make a finger behind back to Lilly without anyone notice it. It's been a week after she lost her dad and it wasn't our fault because of the attacks.

"Oh, so now you want a week of peace? I guess you need to speak with these bandits about it." I scoffed and Lilly glare at me.

"Do you know how we got these supplies?" Kenny asked and I close my eyes that realize what he's gonna tell to Lilly. No, please Kenny. Not that...

"We got lucky and let a girl get eaten out there." Kenny explained which some of our friends behind us gasped after hearing what he said.

"What?" Katjaa gasped in chock.

"Wait? What are you talking about letting a girl get eaten?" Emily asked and look chock.

"Some girl, came screaming out of an alley. She had dead hanging all over her. She gave us the time we needed to get everything we could out of the drugstore." Kenny explained which cause everyone except me and Lee look horror what we did back there at the drugstore.

""Wait, you three just left her out there to the walkers, like bait? What the fuck, are you telling her suffer was no more than your lucky?" Cath asked in chock and in horror.

"We were just doing for you, other kids and all of us. We were so far away from her." Kenny said.

"Still, you guys couldn't save her, like put her out of her misery?" Doug asked.

"Don't take that tone with him. It's the first smart thing he's done in a while." Kenny said.

I sent a glance to Kenny and look little seriously now, but have sign of remorse on my face. "No Kenny, I wouldn't say it was smart and it isn't." I said and looking at the other. "But it still was a necessary extraction. She was already bitten and we couldn't bring her here, that would be Emily's teacher situation. Besides, it was her choice and we can't exposed with that." I explained.

"What do you mean it was her choice?" Doug asked and didn't really understand what I talking about as everyone except Lee and Kenny doesn't either.

I huffing and take a breath before I'm going to explain. "... I know it sounds crazy, but the girl had many openings to get away from the walkers before got completely surrounded by them while she just yelling around and limping among them. She might be scared by them, but it's been three months after this shit started and everyone should know how to be careful around the walkers. In the other word; the girl seems like she make a suicide... in that way."

"You really wanna believe that? That doesn't make any sense." Doug said with a disbelief expression on his face.

"Well, he'll always making something crazy things to "solve" problems." Lilly said sarcastic.

"Hey, if you don't agree with it then we'll take everything we've got in these bags and put it a pile marked "no hypocrites" and you can use everything else." Kenny scoffed and Lilly glare at him while he noticed that everyone except me and Lee looking at him in disbelief. "I don't like living like this. But christ, folks, it's not getting easier." He defended.

I huffed and put my hands in my pockets. Hate to admit it, but he's right. Everything isn't easier now.

"Look, we got what we needed. It was just, something that had to happen. But we will not do this if it was one of us." Lee said.

"Lee's right, besides we have been put our lives to get some supplies in the city. You wouldn't believe what we've seen." I said with seriously look.

"Well, you two could have some options on the table if Kenny didn't follow with you." Lilly scowled and glare at us.

"You should be thanking Lee for not shooting that girl." Kenny said.

"It's not so easy for him." Lilly said coldly.

"Yeah, but would you have accept his choice?" I scoffed little and referred back in the barn which Lilly sent a dead glare to me.

"Look, Macon and its people aren't savable. It's not a town. It's full of walkers, and the people who were left in it are dying and wondering out onto the streets. Its hell on Earth, and it's coming, this way." After what Kenny said, I see Lilly getting boiled now of something.

"IT'S NOT GOING TO BE ANY EASIER OUT ON THE ROAD!" Lilly yelled out as me and other wide our eyes by her outburst

Wow. It's get tearing into parts in her head.

"How would you know?" Kenny asked hesitant.

"What I know?! I know you're not above murder! I know somebody has been stealing our supplies!" Lilly shouted.

What? Stealing? Where the hell did she brought up with that? "Stealing?" I asked.

"That's right, STEALING! And I know the list of people I can trust here gets smaller every day!" Lilly yelled in anger as she turned from us and crosses her arms. "Now everybody get out!"

No doubt, we walks out of her room. We have no more to say when she acting like that now. Lee close her door after and we gathered us at the parking lots.

"Happy Kenny?" Lee said with a disappointing look.

"My family's alive and that RV is running. You're goddamn right I am." Kenny replied.

"That's not what he meant and you know that." I said.

"Hey, she's not helping, isn't she?" Kenny exclaimed.

I sighed. Maybe, but she'll getting pissed off when we're leaving without her permission.

"Everyone is under great stress." Katjaa said humble.

Stress? I would say more than that about Lilly.

"She's right about one thing; none of this is getting any easier." Kenny said with a worry expression on his face and walk away to the sofa.

Katjaa glances at us in a second and walk away with her husband.

Then Emily, Cath and Carley came to me and Lee while Doug is heading back to his work.

"Whoa, I've never see Lilly so pissed off." Cath said.

"You can say that again." I said.

"She need to stop sulk over her dead father or..." Lee said, but couldn't finish his last option.

"Or what?" Carley said curious.

I guess he mean we have to...

"Ehh, It's nothing." Lee said.

"So what about missing supplies as she mentioned?" Emily asked.

I shook my head that I think it sounds nonsense. Stealing? Who would dare to steal out shit here?

"Tch, I think she need to calm down. Non of us have didn't heard of it than her." I said and walk away as Emily huffed.

I took my backpack and went to my room.

I notice Emily and Cath follow after me.

"Hey, Axel. I'm sorry what you, Lee and Kenny have been through back at the drugstore." Emily said.

"It's okay. Some people always said that you can't save all." I said and put my backpack beside of doorway of mine door.

"What are you going?" I heard Cath asked to Emily who walked away from us.

Emily stands and turned to Cath and me. "I'm... just going to check on the others, Ben, Travis, Duck and Doug too. I will come back soon." She replied and walked away.

Me and Cath look each other suspiciously about Emily. "If you didn't knew it, Emily has been little shy and her face was little blushed over three past days ago." Cath said.

Then I wide my eyes after heard what Cath said. Well, well, what did you have in your head, Emily?

"Guess someone's heart will beat up." I chuckled little as Cath look at me with a misunderstanding expression.

"Huh? What?" Cath asked.

"Nothing, you will understand later." I said and opened the door.

I pick my backpack up and throw it on the bed. Nice landing. I close the door then.

"Dix, do you think we will be fine out there than here?" Cath asked.

I'm huffed and looking at the woods and everything outside of the walls. "Honestly, all I can say that outside; there is walkers who trying to eat us while there is some fuckers who want to kill us and take our shit. I don't think we'll be safe out there the whole time, but it will be suicidal if we stay here longer with these bandits in the woods."

Cath looking outside of the walls too and lower her head. "Do we have to kill people who threaten and try to kill us?" She said with lower tones.

I know Cath doesn't like to take someone's life, but that's going to happen when she have to when it is necessarily.

"We can't hold down from ourselves forever, Cath. It's up to an asshole who doesn't gives any choices to us." I said.

Cath nods little at my words.

To be continued

A/N:

Well, who knows what Emily is up to now? ^^

On the next chapter we will focus on Lee.

Letter Hacks:

That dark person what Axel saw in his dark hallucination before he talking with Andy about Generator was Rina Archer. (Read in Chapter 20)

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