Chapter 15
It's been two weeks since I had Vic and I no matter how many times Happy tells me that he will only wants me, I still can't get what Gemma said out of my head. Every morning, after Happy leaves, I step on the scale and I hate the number that it shows. I am five foot tall and weighing 130 pounds. I head out of the bathroom, finish getting dressed and head out to the nursery to get Vic. I bring him to the living room and start feeding him. After that I change him and start to clean the house while he is napping. Hearing a knock on the door and look through the peephole I see Luanne standing there. Opening the door, I let her in. She follows me to the couch and immediately says "Spill." I look at her and then look at my hands. "Lu, I don't know what to do." I tell her. "What's wrong?" she asked. "When I had Vic, something was said to me that I can't get out of my head and since then, I won't let Happy see me naked and no matter how many time Happy tells me he wants me and loves me, I can't seem to get past it." I tell her. "Baby you just had a baby and you look amazing. What was said that's got you so messed up?" she asked. "That Happy wouldn't want my stretched out ass anymore." I tell her as a tear falls down my cheek. "Who the hell said that?" she asked. "Gemma." I said softly. "Sweetheart, don't listen to her. You look amazing." she says. She walks over to pick up Vic and brings him to the couch while we talk more. When she goes to leave I say "Let's keep this conversation between us okay?" I asked. "Yeah baby but don't listen to her." she says and I nod.
I go to my six week checkup and the doctor checks my weight and I am down to 117 pounds. "Mrs Lowman, I am a little worried about your weight. You've lost a little weight and to be healthy, your weight should be at least 125 pounds." I sigh and say "I have just been stressed but I will make sure I am eating and get my weight up." I tell her. "I want to see you in two weeks to check your weight again but other than that, you are free to resume normal activities." she tells me.
I get home and Happy comes home. "How'd the appointment go?" he asked me. "Good. Doctor released me." I tell him. He pulls me to him and kisses me. He pulls back and I see his smile is gone. "I hate how skinny you are. When was the last time you ate?" he asked. "I picked something up on the way home from the doctor. I promise I am eating." I tell him and he just shakes his head. "Now, come take advantage of your Old Lady, Killa." I say. He picks me up and carries me to bed. Laying me down, he starts to kiss me and as he starts to undress me, I pull away. "What's wrong?" he asked. "Turn off the lights." I say. "Why?" he asked. "More romantic." I say. He looks at me before turning off the lights. After he undresses me, he enters me slowly. Making love to me, he whispers in my ear, "I love you little girl." We reach our release and he pulls me to him and we fall asleep.
The next morning I hear Vic over the monitor and I get up and get him up. After changing him and feeding him, I walk to the living room. Happy walks in and sits down next to me. "Morning baby." he says kissing me. "Morning." I say. I hand Vic to Happy and say, "I'm going to start breakfast." I get up and head to the kitchen. I get in the kitchen and start getting a little light headed but I don't let Happy see. I get myself together and start breakfast. Once it's done, Happy comes to eat and I take Vic from him. I head to the nusery, rock Vic to sleep and standing there looking at him, I start getting light headed again. This time, everything goes black.
I wake up and am laying in a hospital bed. Looking to one side, I see Happy. The other side of the bed is my Dad and Luanne with Vic in her arms. Shit. "Daddy?" I asked. They are all up in a second and surrounding me. "What happened?" I asked. Happy looks at me and says "I walked into the nursery when you didn't come back to the kitchen and you were passed out on the floor." I look down at my hands and the tears start falling. "When was the last time you ate Lucy?" he asked me. "I-I, It's been a few days." I tell him honestly. "I knew you were getting too skinny. Why haven't you been eating?" Luanne asked me. "You wouldn't understand." I tell them. "Then make us understand." Daddy says. "All I could hear was being told Happy wouldn't want me anymore. I had to make sure I was skinny enough to make sure he still wanted me." I tell them. "Fucking Gemma." Happy seethes. "What's Gemma got to do with this?" Daddy asked. "Gemma told her that Happy wouldn't want her stretched out ass anymore. That's what she's been stressing about that he won't want her." Luanne speaks up. "Stay with her and little dude. We'll be back." Happy says. He walks over me and kisses me. "I love you. Nothing changes that. And I do want you." I nod my head and whisper. "I love you." as he leaves the room with my Dad following.
At the clubhouse, Happy walks in and sees Jax sitting at the bar. "Where's your mother?" he asked still pissed. "Why? What's going on?" Jax asked confused. "My Old Lady is in the hospital because of your mother." Happy says and Jax is automatically concerned. "What? Is she okay?" Jax asked. "She will be." Bobby says. "Mom is in the office with Clay." Jax says as he follows Happy and Bobby out to the office. As they walk out of the clubhouse, Gemma and Clay come out of the office and see them walking up. Clay sees how pissed Bobby and Happy are and stands in front of Gemma. "What's going on?" Clay asked. "Pres, apparently your Old Lady said some shit to mine that she shouldn't." Happy says. "What has she said?" He asked looking back at Gemma. "Apparently she's been telling Lucy shit about her weight. Lucy's in the fucking hospital because she's dropped too much weight and passed out." Bobby says. Clay and Jax look at Gemma and she says "No one wants a fat Old Lady." Gemma says. Clay tells her "Get back in the fucking office. I'll deal with you in a minute." he says and she hurries back into the office. "Hap, Bobby, I'll handle her. How's she doing?" Clay asked. "She'll be okay. She's not been eating, at all and it caught up with her." Both Jax and Clay sigh. "Let us know what you need. What she needs. We will deal with Gemma." Clay says. "Thanks Brother." Happy says before heading back to the hospital.