So, in this chapter you get to see what happens with Silverstalk! Are you excited?! I know I am. Anyways, on with the story!
Silverstalk rose her silvery head in the dim lighting of the warriors' den, savoring the feel of the moss and pelican feathers underpaw. She felt as if this would be her last time feeling it, and she didn't want that to slip through her paws. She shoved herself roughly to her paws as she trotted towards the entrance of the warriors' den. Pebblekit's death weighing heavily on her mind, and what she was about to do… She shook her head as she roughly shoved herself into the sunlight. She felt Honeystar's sympathetic gaze on her pelt and a growl rose in her throat, as she tried to shove it down. She didn't blame Honeystar for Pebblekit's death she supposed. It just felt like everybody pitied her, but most of them didn't even attempt to save her only she-kit. It would possibly be her last litter, unless she found another mate as perfect for her as Bassclaw… Her heart ached at the thought of him, all of the times he had comforted her, ran with her along the beach, fished together, shared tongues, when she shared the news that she was pregnant and the happiness that lit in his eyes, all of that swept away by the white feathers of a pelican. The same pelican that took his only daughter, the kit that resembled him the most. She felt tears slide down her cheeks.
She couldn't let any weakness or regret show right now. She had to be strong, or she could never do this. She walked towards the medicine cat den, poking her head in to see the nimble shape of Rosedusk. She slid in quietly, her paws leading her towards the store of herbs. She remembered when she made a journey to the Moonpool (It is a tide pool but I couldn't find another name for it so… If you have suggestions please say some in the review section!) Her nose shoved in the store and she closed her eyes. The scent of those bitter herbs she had to eat coming back to her. She grabbed out a pawful of what she figured was them and moved out as quietly as she had entered. She ate them right before she walked towards Honeystar.
"I am going to take a walk." She declared. "I need to take Crabpaw with." She saw a small bit of worry flash through Honeystar's emerald green eyes, but as quick as it came, it was gone. She nodded solemnly.
"Very well, but be careful." Honeystar meowed, her eyes shining with wisdom and understanding. "May StarClan light your path." She murmured in her Clanmate's ear as she stepped forward and brushed their pelts together before stepping back.
Silverstalk walked towards the apprentice den, and poked her head inside. "Crabpaw." She whispered into the darkness. Her eyes nervous as they landed on her son's pelt.
"Huh?" He meowed as he lifted his head, turning to see his mother. He blinked.
"Come. We are taking a walk." She meowed quickly before shoving herself back out. She closed her eyes tight as she felt her son come out beside her and she pushed her way through the camp entrance. Her silver pelt brushing against sandy rocks.
"Why are we taking a walk mom?" Crabpaw asked as he trotted alongside her easily. She felt pride blossom in her chest as she looked at her son. He was growing up so fast! Her eyes fell to her paws.
"I'll tell you soon." She meowed as guilt rose in her throat. He simply nodded and continued alongside her. The rest of the walk was spent in silence as they moved through the maze of boulders. They finally came to a place that Silverstalk knew well. The border. She turned towards her son with gentle eyes.
"Why are we here? This is one of our borders. I know because Hazelspark took me to this border on my second day being an apprentice." He meowed as he puffed out his chest in pride.
Silverstalk purred. Her little kit wasn't a kit anymore. She felt a flutter of pride enter her chest, could she really ask him to follow her? Leaving behind the only life he has ever known. Her smile faded.
"What's wrong mom?" Crabpaw meowed as he pressed himself to her side. She looked down at her paws, but when she looked up her gaze was on Crabpaw.
"Sit. I need to ask you something." She commanded as she gestured towards a smooth rock that would be a good perching spot. He nodded and scrambled over to it, gently sitting down and sweeping his fluffy silver tail across his paws.
"Now… you don't have to do this." She started nervously, her eyes were trying to go back to her paws, but she wouldn't allow them to. "But, I'm thinking about leaving the Clan." She looked at him through gentle, sad eyes.
His eyes widened in shock. "What?" He managed to meow as he felt his heart drop. "You can't leave!" He yowled as he flung himself at her, burying himself into her fur.
She nudged him. "You can come if you want. Who knows...? I might come back." She meowed, but it sounded hollow to Crabpaw and herself.
He stepped back shakily. "I don't think I can." He meowed, he was fighting to not go running back into her fur. "I have to become a warrior, but will you ever come back? Tell me the truth. I can handle it." He meowed just as shakily as he felt. His legs were threatening to collapse underneath him. He wanted to follow his mom, he really did. But it wouldn't be fair to the Clan. He had to kill the beasts that had taken his father and his sister. He had to ward them off from the other kits and cats of the Clan.
Silverstalk's gaze saddened at the aspect of him not following behind her, but she understood why he had to stay. "I don't know. If my paws lead me back." She meowed quietly. She pressed her nose into her son's shoulder. "I'm so proud of you." She whispered before stepping back. "Be a strong warrior like your father. May StarClan light your path." She jumped onto a boulder, overlooking the unfamiliar territory that she was about to go into.
"Mom, wait!" Crabpaw yowled as he scrambled up beside her, pressing into her fur and breathing in her scent one last time. It smelled like the sea's waves on a cool day. He gave a comforting purr. "I'll be okay. Just be careful…." He meowed before jumping down. He knew he had to put on a brave face. Silverstalk smiled a warm smile, despite the tears streaking down her face her smile always seemed to light up everything around her, before she leaped down (with the shell) into unfamiliar territory. As soon as Crabpaw couldn't see her however, he started sobbing. His last scrap of family gone as the others had. He curled up in a ball and felt like never moving again.
So, what did you guys think? I feel so bad… Anyways, do you think this is the last we will see of Silverstalk? Do you want me to write a couple of other chapters occasionally about her whereabouts, or just focus on PelicanClan? I honestly didn't think that I was going to write too much about either Crabpaw or Silverstalk, but they seem to have the most story there for right now. Anyways, we had to talk about the coping family! XD
