Thank you so much to my uber supportive readers, you mean everything! I wanted to get this chapter out last night, but I just couldn't find a good spot to properly end it. Warning: this chapter was made with spice!
Chapter 17
B POV
The moment my feet hit the ground, the front door of the Cullen's house swung open, Edward and Alice appearing with grimaces on their faces. I didn't know how I was going explain what had just happened with Felix to Edward, but I felt a slim arm slide through mine and looked over to see Jane grinning at me encouragingly, her other hand wrapped in Tristan's as the three of us started towards the house.
"Bella, thank god" Edward breathed, pulling me into his arms and checking me over for injury. He glared of at Tristan, "I'm not sure what you think you're doing, boy, but I will only warn you once not to mess with my mate." His eyes narrowed on me this time, "I can smell the neanderthal on you, love, please tell me he didn't hurt or try to manipulate you." He frowned, hands running down my shoulders and arms to lace his cold stone fingers with mine.
Jane let loose a growl, "You forget yourself, Cullen, maybe all the bunnies have gone to your head, but threaten my true mate again and you'll be ashes." She sneered, stepping between Tristan and Edward, glaring falling into a smirk when Edward flinched, unsure of whether or not to expect a heavy dose of pain.
"I'm fine" I said, trying to diffuse the situation. It seemed they were right; Tristan did have some sort of ability to block Alice, and for that I was extremely grateful. The last thing we needed right now was for Edward and Felix to go head to head, because something told me Edward wouldn't fair too well against the giant vampire.
Edward nodded sharply, guiding me into the living room. There were snacks and drinks spread out on the dining table, making me hold back a scoff, there was no way I'd be able to make much of a dent in all that food, even with Tristan's help.
Esme glided forwards, a warm smile on her face, "Bella dear, it's so nice to have you here," she said, wrapping me up in a motherly hug. I hugged her back, eyes scanning the room over her shoulder. Besides the food, which Tristan was already tugging Jane over to, there wasn't anything noticeably different about the Cullen home. Emmett was playing video games with Rosalie's legs across his lap as she flipped through a magazine looking anything but interested by the words she was reading.
Emmett looked up, a smile on his face, "Belly!" he cheered, as if he'd been holding himself back from doing so the moment my truck pulled up. I felt the familiar strain on my lungs when I was squished in his big arms as he spun me around.
"Hi Em, it's good to see you too. Even though I do see you guys like everyday at school" I smiled despite myself, unable to resist his contagious excitement.
He pouted at my indifference, "yeah but all the annoying non-Bella humans are around so it's not the same. We can't be ourselves at school." He said, ignoring Tristan's indignant protest at being lumped in with the rest of Forks High. "Also, we hadn't been able to see much of you since we came back after the whole Eddie and Voltu—" He was cut off by someone's growl, looking around the room with a confused expression matching the one I had on.
"Bella! Here, let's take your bag upstairs to Edward's room, Esme gave it a little make over you're going to love it!" she sang, guiding me up the stairs, down the familiar hallway that led to where I'd be staying the night. With Edward. After having just made out with another man less than an hour ago.
Edward's room looked a little brighter than before, with blue bedding, a book nook, and a comfy chair in the corner that looked perfect for curling up in with a good book. I wanted to love the room, but compared to the cabin, it was nice. I forced a smile as Alice dropped my bag on the bed, turning around and sitting on the mattress.
"So, Bella, excited to spend the night with my dearest brother tonight?" she asked, smirking knowingly. I blushed, remembering my incessant requests for more physical intimacy, knowing all the Cullens had to have heard my pleas at some point.
"Yeah, sure Alice, it'll be nice to spend some time together without worrying about Charlie checking in on us…" I trailed off, looking at some of the new paintings Esme had hung up which added little pops of colour to the room.
"Well, if you ever need any advice, I'm a much better source of information than Lauren Mallory. We can go shopping this weekend and pick out some stuff that's sure to drive my brother crazy!" she said.
Now I know that they're not actually siblings but it still threw me a little when Alice was adamant about helping out with her brother's sex life. I shifted a little, unsure how to respond beyond a slight nod of acknowledgement, "should we go back down? I don't want to be rude; I'd really like to properly thank the nomads for helping keep me safe" I hesitated at her scrutinizing look, feeling a little relief when she nodded, breezing past me and down the stairs as I followed along.
As I got to the bottom of the stairs, I noticed the others had also arrived, and felt myself flushing a little as I locked eyes with Felix, once again reminded of his recent…actions.
He smirked back seeing my blush, before heading into the living room with Alec. Demetri smiled at me, waiting as Alice passed by and I reached the bottom of the stairs.
"Hey Lil B, ready to rumble?" he asked, offering me his arm which I looped mine around while nodding reluctantly before following the others.
I walked into the living room, noticing that the only open spots on the couches were either between Edward and Alice or Jane and Alec. Seeing as I was already walking with Demetri, I continued to fall into step beside him towards his coven mates, letting go to settle down and lean into Jane a little bit with a sigh.
"Well" Carlisle cleared his throat to get everyone's attention, "it's great to have everyone here together this evening." His eyes turned to me, "Bella, we're so happy to have you back here with our family. Felix, Demetri, Alec, and Jane we are forever grateful for your help with keeping Bella safe. Without you, we are well aware Victoria may have succeeded in her mission." I saw and felt all the vampires in the room shift uncomfortably along with Carlisle who sported a solemn expression as he no doubt thought back to that fateful day.
I fidgeted a little before standing up and turning towards the nomads, "and I would just like to personally thank all of you for helping us. I'm not sure why you decided I was worthy of your protection and even friendship, but I'm so grateful for all of it." I said, smiling at each of them in turn, trying not to let my eyes linger too long on their biggest coven member.
"B," Alec piped up, "you're family to us, we protect our own" he winked, leaning back into the couch, squeezing my shoulder gently as I took my spot next to him again.
Everyone started chatting amongst themselves, Tristan and I got up and picked away at the array of food and drinks the Cullens had put out for us, joking about how long we'd have to stay there in order to finish the entire spread. I popped a deviled egg into my mouth and then stumbled as I went to grab water from the kitchen, cold hands catching me around my waist before I could face plant. looked up, eyes meeting Felix's in surprise as another memory nearly nocked me on my ass.
It was like a montage of entering the kitchen in my house, seeing Felix moving around like he belonged there with me, seeing him placing food down in front of me in the cabin that made my mouth water, him revealing he'd learned to cook for me, staring at his ass as he bent over to open the oven, then a less sweet glimpse of Demetri trying to set my kitchen on fire.
I stumbled back away from him this time, and cool arms slid around my waist, grounding me. But they weren't the arms I wanted, no, craved to have holding me close again as he whispered things in my ear that made me blush.
My eyes were still locked with his, only breaking our connection when Edward's urgent voice broke through my trance and he spun me around, eyes worried as they scanned over me. "Bella, are you alright? Do you feel faint? Carlisle, please come and check Bella!" he called, and suddenly I was being guided over to the now empty couch and sat down as Carlisle shone a light in my eyes, checking my pupils and then pulse.
"Bella? Any fuzziness, dizziness, or pain?" he listed off, in full doctor mode.
I shook my head, feeling confused. I was so goddamned tired of feeling confused. I'd had it.
"No Carlisle. But I am feeling a little fed up. I think I—I think I need everyone to come in here and sit or whatever right now." I said, voice strong and unwavering as I voiced my demands.
Before I could blink all the Cullens and nomads were in the living room again, sitting or standing around the two sofas split up into their respective covens.
I took a deep breath, "ever since I woke up, I've been trying desperately to regain the memories I lost, and none of you" I pointed to the Cullens "have done anything to help me with that. Edward, you even said I'd lose the memories anyways after my change, what the hell? Don't you want me to regain them so I can live the last of my time as a human not feeling so confused and out of place all the time?"
I saw him move to open his mouth but held up a finger, "No. You will not interrupt me. I deserve to know. You should want me to know so I can live my life how I want, how I'm supposed to." I finished, shooting a challenging glare towards my so-called mate.
I scrubbed a hand over my face, "The worst part is, I don't even really know who's word I can trust. While the nomads have done nothing to make me believe they'd lie to me, you're all my family and the ones who should be completely honest with me." I accused.
Tristan cleared his throat, and all red and golden eyes shifted to him, "If I may, Bells? Not too long before the accident, you sat me and Alec down, giving us the complete story of your time with the Cullens including what really happened between when they left you and when Victoria came for you. While I wasn't at the actual fight, I can help fill in the blanks up until that day. Hopefully by the time I'm done, you'll know who to trust to tell you about your accident." He finished, eyes pleading with me. I contemplated his suggestion, so far he'd showed and told me things no one else did, and it was clear from my human friends and father that Jane was genuinely close with me, so that must extend to Tristan. I nodded towards him, "you have the floor."
I went and sat down on the floor between the two couches, clearly unsure of where I wanted to fit in.
Tristan stood and went to speak, when he was cut off, "Absolutely not, he's clearly being controlled or manipulated by them. I am not going to lose my shie—my sister to this boy who cried wolf!" Alice cried, outraged by the turn of events. "This was supposed to be a peaceful gathering, ending with them leaving because this is our territory and Bella is part of our family." She huffed, arms crossing.
I heard a low growl that made the others stiffen, but made me feel safe, "watch your tongue if you want to keep it" Felix rumbled from behind the other couch.
Jasper growled in retaliation to which the larger vampire just raised a brow, lips pulling up in amusement as if the yellow-eyed vampire challenging him was a laughable feat in of itself. "Alice, Jasper, this isn't helping. Bella, love, please, I've told you everything you need to know, if you'd like I can tell you more once everyone goes home just please, let's not let this tension weigh down the atmosphere of the evening, please." He asked, golden eyes searching, imploring me to agree with him. I thought about it, considered his promise. Then I remembered Charlie's advice about the Cullens' judgements and frowned.
"No, Edward, you've had more than enough time to ease me into my memories, I'd like to hear from Tristan now" I claimed, turning my head back to the only other human in the room and giving him an encouraging motion.
"I'll warn you first, there are certain things I have to leave out, not by choice but because they simply aren't my things to share. But I will tell you everything else." I nodded, understanding, and hoping whoever else needed to come forward would be prompted to do so.
"Alright, so, when Laurent found you in the woods, it was the wolves and the wolves alone…" Tristan went on to retell the past few months, with what he swore were my own words. My mind reeled with every new bit of information, every revelation made with the stories he told.
When he got to the part about my time in Volterra, and the part that the nomads in front of me were, in fact, the highest ranking guard members of the royal vampire coven my eyes widened considerably. Alec cut him off at one point, unable to stop himself by sharing about my tirades where I verbally destroyed and embarrassed Edward in front of the most powerful vampires in the world. I blushed at that, looking over to my—I frowned, pausing Tristan as he continued again.
"Wait, so Edward and I, we make up later, right?" I asked.
"Bella—" the vampire in question tried to get my attention.
"No." I snapped back. I turned to Tristan and now Alec, "tell me, all of it. Now." They nodded in sync, diving back in. My defiance and decision to toss Edward to the curb, the flight which explained my flashback of seeing Felix on a plane, spending time with the wolves, the party where Felix saved me from the frat rat, classes with Jane and Tristan, the cabin, dinners with Charlie, planning for Victoria's attack.
"So the wolves," I started, a feeling of dread spreading through my body, "they weren't working for Victoria? They didn't leave these marks on my body, almost killing me?" I asked.
Alec looked down, shaking his head, "we felt horrible when Jake tried to help us get your memory back only to have his intentions twisted into something you know he'd never do to you. We may not see eye to eye, but even for an untrained dog, he is still very loyal." I felt a tear slide down my face, I'd need to call him asap and do some serious grovelling.
My head started spinning as the rest of what Tristan and Alec had told me starting fitting together, revealing the lies I'd been told. Edward wasn't my mate, the Volturi would be changing me after graduation, I was part of their coven now, the wolves were only guilty of protecting me, Edward really had left me, only coming back once I went to Italy.
I felt the rage bubbling up inside me, as I stared down the boy who was supposed to be my mate, but had lied to and manipulated me, taking advantage of my condition along with my so-called sister and god knows who else in their family. My fists clenched, nails digging into my palms as I started burning up from the inside out, except it felt good. It felt like all of my negative feelings the past week were threatening to burst out of me, giving a cathartic release I desperately needed.
Edward's eyes widened as mine slammed shut, head falling back as I let out a scream that borderlined on a roar and would've been embarrassing if I could find it in me to care. My rage exploded from my body like a small sonic wave. I opened my eyes, noting I was alone until suddenly I was moving, flying through the air only to find myself pressed up against a large, stone back. Felix towered over the Cullens who'd all returned to the living room, facing off against the Volturi.
"Woah, woah, woah. Hold up" Emmett interrupted, eyes wide, turning to Edward and Alice, "you said Bella needed help, not that we'd be separating her from her mate and putting the entire family at risk!" the bigger vampire growled out, tucking his mate into his side.
Rosalie looked down right pissed, "you idiots! Why would you even attempt to go against the Volturi like this!? Did it not occur to you that one day Bella would regain her memories, or as a vampire would feel the mating pull to her mate!?" She turned to the Italian coven, "I swear, my husband and I were fed lies, and though we're guilty of being ignorant, we would never willingly participate in their stupid tricks and mind games. We just want to live a peaceful existence" she finished, slouching a little under Emmett's hulking arm.
Jane was the one to nod, "that's what we all want…or at least those of us who are not power hungry or delusional." She cast a look towards the other Cullens, giving a look of disdain.
Esme began shaking her head back and forth looking at her mate, "Carlisle, you promised me we would be safe, that our family would be able to continue living our lives in peace once this ordeal was over." She obviously knew the gist of their plans.
Their coven leader shook his head, "I believed I was doing what was best for the family. Alice had a vision and was convinced that having Bella on our side would ensure our safety and allow us to continue living that life I promised you, Es. I didn't know anything about trying to overthrow or go to war with the Volturi, you know I don't seek violence." He added.
Felix's hands clenched tightly as he gritted out, "don't seek violence but have no hold ups when it comes to corrupt treatments. I know you slowed down your surgery and did something to help make sure Bella awoke with little to no recollection of short terms events. I don't know all the medical or scientific reasons, but I do know a rat when I see one." He accused, and I let out a muffled sob, feeling betrayed knowing that a man I considered a father figure had violated me in my most vulnerable state. He'd taken advantage of the trauma my body endured and allowed its effects to fester and do more damage than necessary.
Edward stepped forwards, "No! Bella don't listen to them; you are my mate. I was only doing what was best for you, they tried to brainwash you, they—" suddenly Edward was gone and there was a hundred year old virgin shaped hole in living room leading to outside.
Alice gaped at Felix, "look what you've done! You've ruined everything, leave now. This is our territory, right Carlisle?" she hesitated, eyes narrowing at her coven leader when he failed to respond. "Carlisle?" she growled.
Jasper's hand curled around one of her arms, "Alice, I think we need to know when we've lost and should give up." His eyes remained locked on the Volturi, anticipating another strike.
Feeling uneasy with the turn of events, I slid one hand down to clench around Felix's, tugging until he settled his gaze on mine. "Take me home please, to our home." I clarified, relieved at his terse nod.
He turned back towards my former family, "There will be a trial after her graduation. Attendance mandatory." With that said, he scooped me up and we left. Within seconds we'd arrived at the cabin, and he set me down in the living room. I stood awkwardly amongst the vampires (and Tristan) who I now knew were destined to be my coven, my family.
Stalling, I decided calling Jake couldn't wait. He said he'd been expecting my call, that 'gigantor' had kept him in the loop and that all was forgiven, or would be forgiven once I made him a heck of a meal this week to make up for it. I laughed for the first time in what felt like ages, casting a glance to Felix and mouthing my thanks before hanging up the phone.
I opened and closed my mouth a few times, unsure of what to say. "Guys, I—I'm so sorry. I wish, god I fucking wish I could've remembered you from the start, or at least by now. I feel like such a fool."
I sat down on the couch beside Demetri who looked annoyed as he turned to me. "Lil B, there was nothing you could do. You didn't cause the accident, didn't cause the memory loss, and sure as shit didn't manipulate yourself into believing all that shit the Cullens were funneling into your head. Now you know the truth, everyone's safe, the red bitch is dead, and…it looks like it's bedtime for the humans." He finished with a teasing grin as I caught the end of Tristan's yawn which started after mine ended.
I nodded begrudgingly, remembering that Charlie was out on a last-minute fishing trip with Harry, claiming that if I was going to have a slumber party he'd also take a night out.
Tristan's words came back to me, this place is yours and Felix's, he built it for you…
I bid everyone goodnight and went into the bedroom –my bedroom— to get ready for bed. The bathroom had all the products I had at Charlie's for which I was grateful. I took a hot shower, relaxing my tense muscles before changing into some warm pjs and sliding under the thick, silky covers.
I laid there for a while, unable to shake the feeling that something else, something big was still missing. I sighed, turning over and staring at the wall. Absentmindedly, I ran my fingers over the scar on my wrist, my eyes slowly drifted shut.
I spent the night tossing and turning; my dreams were odd at first, barely coherent. Eventually, they started stringing together more cohesively, and then I saw it, I finally freaking saw everything I'd been told last night, and more. It felt like watching my life play out as a movie, but I was fully immersed, feeling every flutter of my heart, every time I tripped over air or shifted the truck into gear. I felt like I was stuck, reliving my own memories, trapped inside my own mind.
My mind was on overload, trying to process each new memory as they rolled in one after another until suddenly, everything seemed to stand still. Everything was quiet. I could still feel the ghost of his lips caressing mine as the last of my memories settled back into place, like being stored in a filing cabinet in my brain.
I sat up, hand going to my head as I fought off the wave of vertigo, which was quickly replaced by a mixture of nervousness, excitement, and need. Because I remembered, I knew everything, and I knew exactly who I needed to see.
"Felix" his name came out a breathless plea, and in seconds his hulking figure was at the foot of the bed, eyes guarded as he looked down at me questioningly. I looked up at him, in awe of the man I got to call my mate. "Felix" I sighed at the sight of him, shifting forwards on the bed then raising up so I was standing on it, about eye level with my mate, a rarity.
"Felix!" I exclaimed and half sobbed, running forwards, and launching myself off the bed and into his arms. Thankfully, he moved with my momentum, so the impact didn't knock the air from my lungs.
His eyes flickered between mine, as he picked up on my mood, ruby eyes widening in realization, and a big, dimpled grin stretched out across his face.
"Thank fuck." He murmured before his lips were on mine, urgent and desperate. I responded in kind, winding myself around him, clutching his frame as he walked us back to the bed, cradling my body to his as he laid us down with him hovering above me. His hands ran up my sides under my shirt and I whimpered at his touch, the longing that surged through my body was nearly painful as if it had sensed the separation the whole time.
His lips moved down to my neck and I gasped out, "Oh god, Felix, I'm so sorry, my mate. So very sorry" I let out a sob, my heart breaking for this strong man who had to watch his own mate fall victim to lies and be forced back into another's arms.
"Shh, shh. Hey now, none of that." He murmured, "Dem was right, it was out of your control, and I couldn't risk telling you and having things go wrong. Couldn't risk losing you completely. Now I have you again." He stared down at me, eyes darkening like the night before Victoria came for me.
"We have a lot of lost time to make up for, amore mio." His tone was dark, teasing, and promised delicious things. I pulled him closer, suddenly overcome by my need to have him closer.
Big ol dose of sauciness coming up here!
I reached down and ripped off my shirt, one hand sliding under my shoulders blades to unsnap my bra, he smirked down at me, eyes drawn to my chest as my bra fell away. "Eager, are we?" he asked, leaning down so his breath ghosted over my nipples.
I arched my back, pressing my chest closer to his mouth. Feeling bold and down right impatient, I slid one hand down between us, rubbing along his hardness through his jeans, pulling a groan from his full lips. "Lost time, remember?" I smirked back up at him, slowly licking my lips.
Hungry nearly black eyes followed the movement. His shirt followed, along with the rest of our clothes and then he was pressing me into the mattress again with a low growl rumbling from his chest through my own body, making me shiver and bite my lip.
He inhaled deeply, humming in content before fixing his gaze on mine again with a sly grin, "better start making up that time now" he murmured, lips making a trail down my body until he reached my breasts. His cold lips closed over one, making me whimper as he pulled away and blew cool air over me, making the sensitive tip harden further, he repeated his actions on the other side, ignoring my pleas and sighs.
His lips skating down my stomach, as he spoke out again, "you know it's been a long time since I've had a good, full, breakfast" he growled out the last words, mouth seeking out the spot I needed him most, tongue diving in, lapping up my wetness.
I muffled my own shriek by clapping hand over my mouth. He pulled back a little, making me whine, "no, baby, I want to hear you", then he went right back to it, tongue flicking over my clit, causing a moan to burst from between my lips that I didn't try to cover this time. He hummed his approval, long fingers coming up to tease at my entrance while his tongue continued to lave at my bundle of nerves.
My words and moans were coming out all garbled now, but somewhere between them I begged him for a release, to which he happy obliged. My hips shot off the bed, "oh, yes!" I moaned, feeling his fingers slow as I came down, tongue coming down to taste my release.
I looked down my body into those dazzling ruby eyes, darkened with lust and want as he stared right back at me. I knew what I wanted, I'd wanted it before all this mess, but couldn't work up the courage to convince him I was ready before.
"Felix" I gasped, suddenly feeling too hot all over again, "I want you. I'm ready, please. I love you and I want you to claim me as yours." My voice was steady and I leaned forward to cup the side of his face in my hand as his eyes slid closed. He looked like he was warring with himself and whether or not to grant my request. Well that won't do. I crawled down towards him, "Don't make me beg, my mate, I need you." I breathed.
His eyes snapped open, a steady growl tumbling from his lips as his dark eyes locked onto mine once again. "Isabella," he sighed, settling over me, "If it hurts too much you have to tell me. We'll go slow, but baby, it's going to hurt…" he trailed off, eyes looking pained at the thought of hurting me.
"I know," I sighed, "I'm trying really hard not to think about your massive dick right now, but this isn't helping" I huffed, trying my best not to be intimidated by his size. I'd seen it, held it, and tasted it before, but the most I'd ever had inside me were his tongue and fingers, and even that had been a shock at first. But somehow, I knew it would feel good, we were made for each other, after all.
He laughed, "so flattering, kitten." He whispered before leaning down and claiming my lips, tongue thrusting into my mouth making me groan at the taste of us mixed together on his tongue. His fingers glided down my sides once more, probing around my entrance to check if I was still slick from my orgasm.
"So warm and wet, " he groaned before he rubbed himself along my slit, making me arch into him, trying to pull him in on instinct.
"Felix, please, I'm ready." I assured him once more.
With a nod he grasped his erection and slowly started easing into my body. I gasped at the intrusion as my body stretched to accommodate him. He pulled back a little, then pushed in again, repeating the motion and going further each time. I felt the pinching pain deep inside, but one of his hands drifted down to rub gently across my clit, and I was soon lost to the sensations he pulled from my writhing body, the pain now only on the edge of my awareness.
"Jesus" he gasped out, only halfway in, "so fucking warm and tight" he groaned, eyes screwed shut as he fought for control. Something about the way he said it made me feel powerful and desirable, he seemed to catch onto my reaction to his words as he began sinking in further, it still burned, but now other sensations were starting to make themselves known.
His fingers still strummed gently along my clit, making my thighs quiver and breath come in gasps. Then he suddenly pinched that bundle of nerves, making my back bow as I cried out and he took the opportunity to fully sheath himself the rest of the away inside me, my body stilling as he reached, well, the end. "Pain?" he questioned in a strained tone. I squirmed around, then clenched, trying to get used to the sensation, the fullness of being joined with him like this.
His hands shot to my hips, restraining me, "Careful" he warned, "Trying to be gentle" he added, then cursed as I clenched my inner muscles around him again, this time on purpose looking up at him through my lashes.
He took my unspoken challenge, slowly pulling out most of the way before pushing back in. He repeated the motion a few times before the last of my discomfort faded away, and on the next thrust my body jolted as he hit all kinds of spots inside that made me tingle and my eyes roll back in my head.
"Oh" I gasped out in surprise, hands clasping his biceps, nails trying in vain to dig into his marble skin. He hummed in response and kept on with his smooth rhythm, completely aware of how my body was slowly unraveling.
"Felix, I—I feel" I trailed off, words stringing together intelligibly as he picked up speed, thrusting into me with more force, pulling whimpers and cries from my lips as I clawed at him, trying to get closer. He groaned, one large hand coming up behind my knee and lifting it so my calf curled up around his upper body just below his shoulder blades, causing him to hit new places and slide even deeper into me.
My body was over stimulated, coiled so tightly I knew he could feel my release approaching. I was almost there when those wicked lips came down and spoke, "open your eyes. Come for me, Isabella, let me feel you fall apart." He finished by leaning down and licking my neck where my pulse was thudding, mouth sealing over the sensitive spot.
"Oh fuck, please –oh OH!" I cried out, back arching as I came, and Felix wasn't far behind, hissing out a few low expletives as he emptied himself inside me, thrusts slowing down to a slow grind that made my legs shake and goose bumps breakout over my arms.
My body felt like a puddle of goo melting into the mattress as I relaxed back into it. "Mmmm" I said, then groaned as he pulled out, feeling his already hard member brush along my sensitive walls before he pulled the blankets up around us and dragged me onto him so I was plastered up against him, a spot I always enjoyed.
My post-orgasmic bliss started to fade away, and I felt my lip trembling as I once again let my mind wander to all the kisses and affectionate touches I'd accepted from Edward, knowing Felix had to have witnessed a good amount of them. I had missed out on this, on him and I snuggled closer to his body, trying to hide my shifting emotions.
Obviously, he'd caught on, always so in tune with my emotions. "Enough" he grunted, "Cullens have done enough damage, don't let them ruin anything else for us."
I knew he was right, but I still raised my watery eyes to his, "I know, but I—" I ran one hand along his face, his lips pressing against my fingertips as they traced along his full lips. I sighed, "I love you and I just, I've spent the past two weeks hurting you. I can't just forget that. I'm stubborn too you know, "I forced out a smile that made him roll his eyes.
"Tons of ways you can make it up to me" he raised his brows, tongue running over his lower lip. Now it was my turn to roll my eyes, "fine. How about I start with a shower?" He frowned, clearly not ready to leave the bed. "A shower together" I clarified, reaching up to scratch my fingers along his scalp, making him hum.
"Sold" he muttered, and he whisked me off to the bathroom, holding me to his chest with one arm while the other started the shower, waiting until it was hot enough before bringing us both under the spray. I held out one hand expectantly, "shampoo?"
I lathered up his hair, rinsing out the shampoo and letting out a moan when his cold fingers repeated the same on my hair. This felt almost as intimate as what we'd just done, I knew Felix was more instinctual than most vampires, so I figured grooming my mate would be something he'd appreciate.
"Down" I murmured, grabbing the soap from the shelf, and urging him to turn around so I could reach all of him. I bit my lip as my hands, covered in suds, scrubbed over his pale skin, witnessing and feeling as his muscles bunched and flexed under my hands. I leaned forward, pressing a kiss to his back before swatting his ass with a giggle that brought out an answering growl from my mate. "Watch it" he warned, voice low and gravelly.
His tone made my stomach clench as heat, different from the water falling over us, flooded my body. He turned around, and I ran my hands over his torso, marvelling at his physique, and without thinking I leaned forward and ran my tongue over the center of his abs, collecting the water that somehow even tasted like him. I finished my tasting with a nip. His arms came up, caging me in between the shower wall and his body. His eyes were dark again as they peered into mine, "Be careful, gattino, you're too sore for more" the warning felt more like an invitation, and even though he was right, my body still craved him. I reached out anyways, eyes still locked on his, watching as they slid closed when my hand wrapped around him.
"Don't care" I muttered, thumb brushing over the tip.
"Bella," he paused, leaning in closer, "if you don't stop, you're going to be sore for days" a threat, but the good kind.
I bit my lip, and stepped into him more, cocking my head to the side as I watched the feared Volturi guard in front of me slowly unravelling "I'd like to see you try" I baited, watching his eyes narrow, he knew what I was doing, and I felt that this might have been a very stupid thing to do when I saw him start to smirk, no doubt smelling my apprehension.
He turned off the shower, toweled us down and had me back on the bed on my hand sand knees so fast my head spun a little. His body leaned over mine, brushing my damp hair over my shoulder, "tell me, Isabella, do you want me to fuck you?" he murmured, hands ghosting over my body, leaving goose bumps in their wake.
I gasped at his words, flushing with want as I imagined just how fast he could go. I nodded my head, soreness be damned, some part of me ached for him to take me like this, to claim me in a more primal way. We need this.
"Please," I whimpered, hips leaning back, seeking friction. He tutted at me, one hand bracing himself above me, the other moving to clamp over my shoulder.
"I need to hear you say it, baby, tell me what you want, how you want it." He sounded like pure sin, and I wanted everything he was offering.
I turned my head, locking eyes with him, "fuck me, my mate, claim me" it was a demand even though I was practically panting with anticipation.
He leaned up, hand from the mattress planting on my lower back, gently urging me to arch my back beneath him. All gentleness ceased after that touch, my only warning before he thrust himself back into me in one swift movement.
I screamed, feeling my muscles contract. He somehow went even deeper in this position and was rubbing against spots that caused my toes to curl and all thoughts or feelings of soreness to fly out the window. "Oh god" I whimpered, leaning forward to bury my face in a pillow.
He grunted, "how are you even tighter like this" then moved my hands, so they grasped at the bed frame, "hold on" he muttered, cursing lowly again as he pulled out, "if I hurt you at all, tell me. But if the feeling is too much…" he trailed off, chuckling darkly, then pulled out slowly again before slamming back into me and setting a nearly punishing pace that had me wailing into the pillow, babbling away.
I couldn't even bring myself to look back at what I was sure was his hips pistoning into me at a rate a human male couldn't keep up. My back arched further into the bed, the new position making me cry out again as Felix growled, keeping his pace.
It didn't take long for my first orgasm to rock through my body, and he didn't slow down as I rode it out, instead continuing on, chasing his own release. I whimpered, teeth digging into my lip as I felt his hand snake underneath me to rub against my clit.
The combined sensation quickly had me rising towards my peak again, "Oh—oh, Felix. It's, it's too—mmmm" I smothered my own words as another one racked through my body, panting and sweating.
"One more, baby, come on" he teased in my ear, and I had no doubts that I would definitely be feeling the consequences of this for days, but I couldn't find it in me to care.
Before long, I could already feel another one building, and nearly cried as he changed angles again, my lungs emptying with a whoosh as he dragged over a particularly sensitive spot with every push and pull.
"Felix!" I wailed again as my orgasm started cresting, his teeth biting down on my neck, barely light enough not to pierce the skin. The feeling threw me over the edge and we both groaned as he emptied himself into me and I collapsed onto the bed, immediately starting to drift off.
I vaguely remember him pulling me around so I was spooned against his marble chest, the temperature of his skin cooling my overheated body, the familiar sound of my mate purring pulling my into a deep sleep.
When I woke up later, I moved to stretch, sucking in a breath when my lower body protested at the movement. I bit my lip, trying not to whimper at the soreness emanating from between my legs. Idiot, I thought, what virgin begs for an aggressive round two after their first time?
I didn't regret it though, and he had warned me several times. I felt a little proud though that I was able to take him in like that, and get him to lose control. We'd have to take a sex hiatus for a while, but it was definitely worth it.
I smiled sleepily at myself, I had my memories and my man back, I felt like I was back where I belonged, and nothing could keep us apart now.
"Bathtub's ready" I heard from the doorway, looking up to see Felix grinning down at me, no doubt having seen and sensed my emotions. He came and sat on the bed, offering me some Tylenol and a glass of water and I gave him a grateful look along with a kiss on the cheek before taking them.
His eyes trailed over my body before flicking back up to my face with a rueful grin, "can't believe you coerced me into that, minx" he muttered with a wink when I blushed. "You're really okay though?" He checked, eyes scanning me again this time with apprehension and a little concern. "That was definitely too rough for you, I shouldn't have—"
I put my fingers over his mouth, "hey, hey. It's fine, I'm fine. More than fine, I don't think I've ever felt that good in my life," I smirked back at him. "Besides feeling all types of sore, everything seems to be in working order." I leaned over and kissed his shoulder this time before pulling back.
"Could I also coerce you to carry me to the tub? Oh big strong mate of mine" he laughed this time, kissing my head as he scooped me up and walked us to the bathroom where he'd drawn me a bath that smelled all kinds of soothing and even had bubbles. I casted him a curious glance, to which he shrugged, muttering "Jane" before slowly settling me into the tub.
"Food time." He stated, in a tone that left no room to argue as he vanished, returning with a grilled cheese sandwich and some chicken noodle soup.
I smiled at the comfort food, and raised my head, lips pursed in a request which he obliged, brushing his stone lips against my warm, pliant ones.
I moaned as I munched on the melted cheese, only now realising how hungry I was. Felix sported a satisfied grin, leaning back in his chair. I frowned at the distance, eyes looking to him, then to the tub, an invitation for company.
He was shaking his head before answering, "no way. Not when your naked, wet, and so warm. Not this time, kitten" he still came closer and gave me another swift kiss before leaning back and pulling out his phone, sending a quick message with a frown.
"Everything okay?" I asked around a spoonful of soup.
He sighed, "they want to come over, but I don't want to share you yet." I giggled as he pouted a little.
"You know we need to discuss last night, all of us. And now that I have my memories back I'd really like to see my family again, I didn't just hurt you, I turned all of them away at some point even if it wasn't intentional." His eyes softened and he nodded in understanding before sending a quick message.
"I'll let you tell them," he offered as I raised my bowl to my lips and drained the last of my soup, scarfed down the second half of my grilled cheese, and let the drain out of the tub. I dressed and was settling down in Felix's lap on the couch when the door burst open and I was swooped up in a different pair of marble arms, causing a growl to rip through my mate.
"Oh, can it Mr. Bossy pants. We didn't get to see B the entire time she was stuck serving under the Cullen reign. You also had her all last night and this morning, we deserve a little bonding time so she can get to know us again" Alec whined.
I patted his shoulder, "let me down you goof. I already know all about your history, Jane told me ages ago" I smirked, waiting for them to catch on.
I heard a squeal and suddenly Jane was hugging me gently, "oh Bells thank god! I'm so glad you're back, we should've just locked the two of you up in a bedroom weeks ago, maybe we could've avoided all this mess" she winked at me and stepped back.
"Lil B?"
"Demi!" I yelled, running into his open arms.
"Damn it's good to hear that again, missed you , ya little danger magnet" he smiled down at me before a warm arm wrapped around my shoulders.
"Does this mean we can move on to reviewing the next chem unit now?" Tristan asked with a bright smile on his face.
"Oh Tristan thank you so much for your help, I know I put a lot of pressure on you yesterday, but if it weren't for you who knows how last night would've panned out…" I trailed off, eyes going back to my mate who didn't look very happy.
I went back over to him, snuggling into his stone arms and pulling a blanket around us to keep toasty. I sat up and pecked him just under his jaw line, trying to ease his discomfort. He dropped his head down in response, arms tightening a little around me as he inhaled my scent.
"So what are we gonna do about the veggie vamps?" Alec asked with a sinister smile spreading across his face.
Felix sighed, "I'll call Aro, he can set up a trial for his dearest friend and his coven."
Demi cracked his knuckles, "and if they try to refuse, or run and hide, I'll find them."
"They wouldn't stand a chance" Jane added.
I looked at my fierce family, ready to go after the ones who'd caused me harm and tried to separate us and nodded in understanding; the Cullens will pay for their crimes.
"Quick question, "Tristan said, "when are we going to address Bella's weird mental explosion?"
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So there you have it, Bella's memories are back! As for the Cullens…we'll see how they fair in Volterra!
Thanks so much for reading! xx