This is a re written version of this chapter! The reason behind this was that one reader pointed out the fact that we had time jumps, which didn't quite make sense. And thanks for letting me know! I'm more pleased with this version of the chapter actually! Hope you like it!

"I'm.. I'm. I'm pregnant" Regina's words whirled around inside Granny's head repeatedly. She was so sad, so upset, so angry and finally decided this was the last straw! She was gonna let Cora have it! She dialed the number and Granny smiled when she noticed the old number she knew was the one she still used.

"Cora Mills." a stern voice answered and Granny took a deep breath. Of course she wouldn't recognise my number!
"Cora, this is Eugenia Lucas"
"Why are you calling me?" Cora snapped. "Never mind, I don't have time for you right now."
"Don't you dare hang up on me!" Granny warned, then heard Cora take a deep breath before she spoke again.

"Then out with it Mrs. Lucas, tell me what's so important."
"It's about your daughter, but maybe that isn't something you see as important, Hm?" Granny snarled.
"What about her?" Cora asked with a seemingly nonchalant tone in her voice, only making Granny grow angrier. In truth, the woman held her breath as Eugenia spoke again. She hadn't spoken with Daniel in a week.

"Do you have any idea what that man, you want to be with your daughter, has done to her? Have you any clue?!" Granny snapped and Cora didn't have a chance to answer the question before Granny spoke up again. "I don't care a bit about you Cora, and I never have. I'm only doing this for Henry. I'm looking out for his daughter like I promised him, because apparently you are not! I suppose he knew you wouldn't."

"Excuse me?!" Cora lashed out out of fear, but assumed it came out as anger because Eugenia had just called her a bad mother. Her head was spinning. Abusing her how? Was meant to be said aloud, but Cora couldn't form words at the moment.
"That damn idiot has been abusing Regina!" Granny bit her tongue about the pregnancy, since Regina had begged her to keep it a secret. At least until she told Emma.

"I don't believe you." Cora shot back weakly, and Granny wished she could punch her through the phone.
"I don't care what the hell you believe, and I don't care what the hell you're gonna do about it. One thing's clear though! I'm not letting Regina out of my sight for a second, and if Daniel so much as looks in her direction, I will gladly shoot him between the eyes with my shotgun!" with those words spoken, Granny slammed the phone against the wall as she hung it up.

The old woman shook her head and spoke to herself. "God, that woman needs an attitude adjustment, and I need a drink…"

*******

Emma hated the fact that she had practically run away, yet again, from something hard. She told herself that she wasn't that person anymore, but time and time again, she proved the opposite.

The blonde groaned and stopped for a second to catch her breath. Her mind was racing as she screamed aloud. She didn't even care a bit that she scared the man who walked with his dog on the trail next to her. She felt her stomach almost turn inside out as she puked in the bushes. This is just too much.

Emma sat down on a big rock and hid her face in her hands. She didn't want to deal with her own past abuse, but now she had to deal with Regina's. That stirred up so much shit, that Emma didn't know what the hell she was gonna do about all this. It was so complicated.

She stood up and continued her run, then groaned as she saw Elsa. She wasn't in the mood for people right now, especially not a girl who had been flirting nonstop with her since they met. Sure, Emma could have stopped her early on, but she thought she was single that whole time, right? Stupid fucking mind..

"Emma! Hey!" Elsa grinned when they stood in front of each other. "I knew you had to do some kind of workout to have that sexy body of yours"
"Ehm, thanks." Emma shrugged with a sour face.
"Is something wrong?" Elsa frowned. Emma sighed and dragged her fingers through her hair. Elsa was obviously annoying as hell, but also adorable in some way. She was also very caring and sweet.

Her blonde hair was in a sloppy ponytail and she was wearing a red tank top with black shorts. Huh she apperently is a jogger as well. Emma licked her lips, then snapped back to reality quickly. What the fuck Swan? You've got a girlfriend!

"Ehm, I'm just tired." Emma replied with a shrug. "I have periods of bad sleep since, ehm, my years in the foster system…."
"Oh, I didn't know you were a foster kid. Me too." Elsa smiled and Emma bit her lip. Of course I never thought to ask. Why does she even like me?
"Oh, ehm cool…..or what am I even saying? It's not cool but.."

"It's alright Ems, I get what you mean. So, wanna get a coffee and talk about just how fun it is to be an orphan?" Elsa chuckled but Emma saw the sadness in her eyes. The blonde knew she should probably go home. Regina needed her, but Emma nodded and joined Elsa anyway. Emma didn't make friends easily, and figured she would be ok if she could just convince Elsa not to flirt anymore.

Emma didn't even know any other orphans...well besides Ruby, but she had been adopted by her actual grandmother, at a young age, so it was different. Even though Emma didn't know Elsa, she could tell from the look in her eye when she mentioned it, that the bad experience in the system was probably something they shared, and could bind over.

Just tell her you got a girlfriend Swan, make it easy on yourself Emma thought to herself as she and Elsa her jogged back into town.

*****

Three weeks passed in a blur for the "family" but especially for Ruby. It all felt like a nightmare that she desperately needed to wake up from, but every time she pinched herself, she was disappointed. Belle was still unconscious in the hospital, and Ruby was just sitting by her side, not being able to do anything. Uselessly.

"Good morning, Miss Lucas." Dr Whale greeted with a gentle tone as he entered the room. The redhead just nodded in his general direction in reply.

She was too sad to even look in his direction as he did his daily check on Belle. She didn't even ask him about Belle, because she already knew the answer. The prognosis was still the same, and Belle was still in a coma. And no, he didn't know when (or even if) she would wake up, because the injury she had sustained from the fall had been severe.

Ruby had been blaming Daniel for Belle's injury, but she's slowly been realising that this was her fault. Belle wouldn't have been there if it weren't for Ruby, and her big stupid mouth.

"How is she?" Emma asked the doctor as she walked into the room. Whale turned around and sighed.
"I'm sorry Miss Swan, but there are no changes. Every test is still looking the same." Whale explained with a somber tone, and the blonde nodded at him as he left the room.
"I brought some breakfast, sis." Emma said and Ruby, who usually had quite the appetite, just shrugged at her in response. Emma bit her lip to hide a deep frown, then put down the bag from Granny's, on Belle's nightstand along side two coffees. Emma took a deep breath as she gathered her thoughts.

********

With Daniel on the run, and Rosita staying at Regina's home full time again, the brunette felt safe enough to go back. Granny had insisted she stay with them, but Emma couldn't bring her self to try to force her. If anyone understood needing time to your self, it was Emma.

So Regina had gone back home a week ago. Emma and she still met up most mornings, and talked on the phone pretty often when apart. Though Regina ate dinner with Emma sometimes, she would never stay the night, and acted as though she didn't really want Emma to stay with her either.

Emma had an odd feeling that she was pulling away, and even though Regina hadn't said anything, Emma thought Regina felt partly responsible for Belle's situation now.

"Rubes, she's a fighter, your Belle. She's gonna pull through this!"
"How the hell do you know that, Swan?" Ruby snapped. "Her condition has been the same for weeks now. Not better. Not worse. Just the same. And I'm so sick of this! I want to hear her voice again! To see her smile at me… I miss her so fucking much!" Ruby broke down as she remembered that it was her fault that Belle was here.
"I know, Ruby, I know." Emma replied and embraced her big sister in a tight hug. These past couple of weeks had been hard on everyone.

******

Regina had been pulling away from Emma and the blonde knew something was going on. There was something her girlfriend refused to tell her. Which was really starting to hurt Emma's feelings. If she felt bad for Belle's situation how could Emma even help? Regina would have to want help to accept it.

At work Emma and Elsa hung out, and Elsa was still flirting non stop with her, but why wouldn't she? Emma hadn't told her about the fact that she actually had a girlfriend. And Granny was practically living at the hospital, along with Ruby of course.

Belle seemed to be the glue that held the picture together. Without her in the mix, cracks were starting to form, and things were slowly falling apart.

Emma didn't know what to do. She didn't have anyone to talk to. Belle wasn't her 'go to' person when she needed a chat, but her 'go to's were preoccupied…. Ruby was more a zombie than person. Granny didn't have time for anyone but Ruby and Belle. Of course, this whole situation was worrying her sick.

Regina was also worried, but there was something else going on. Emma just knew it! Who did the blonde have to run to when everyone she used to rely on wasn't around? At the moment, she felt like she had no-one.

Expect for Elsa, but she felt terrible for even talking with her.

Emma decided that today was the day she figured out what was wrong with Regina! She needed Regina back!

******

Regina let out a big sigh when she finally parked her car. It was her first doctor's appointment for the baby, and she had obviously gone to a doctor outside of town. She knew she should have brought Emma, but she didn't have the strength. She hadn't even told her she was pregnant yet. Instead of telling the truth, she had told her some stupid lie about something she knew Emma didn't even believe.

Regina dragged her fingers through her hair, and met her tired eyes in the rear view mirror. Not even her makeup could cover up how tired she truly was.

Daniel had been on the run since the day of Belle's accident. Regina didn't know if she was actually happy about that, or more afraid that she might bump into him again. At least she was safe from his abuse for now. Her bruises had healed, but the scars on her wrists were a reminder of it all. She shook her head and stepped out of the car. It was now or never. Today was the day. Regina was gonna decide what she was gonna do about this baby, and there wasn't much time left if she wanted to abort.

She had even started noticing the little bump growing, even though nobody else did, due to her well thought-out clothing. Regina had started to look forward to being a mother. Though she didn't know if she had the strength to do this on her own, because why would Emma stay with her?

Regina shivered at the rough thought, that she would lose her beloved girlfriend. Regina wished she had been strong enough and had told Emma about this. Because she wanted Emma to be here, to hold her hand, and tell her that she supported whatever choice she wanted to make.

Yet here Regina was, all by herself. Just because she was a coward.

"You're pregnant?" Granny frowned and Regina met her eyes then nodded. "And you haven't told Emma?"
"No." Regina breathed.
"Why not?" Granny was honestly more surprised that she hadn't told Emma yet, than by the news itself.

"She wouldn't want to have anything to do with me if I told her." Regina shrugged and fixed her clothes correctly, then sat down on the bed beside Granny.
"Are you thinking about keeping it?" Granny asked carefully as she laid her hand on Regina's flat stomach. The question and move took Regina by surprise. "Is that why you haven't told her?"

Regina dragged her fingers through her brown hair and tried to find the right words. The old woman still had her hand on her stomach as she waited patiently for Regina to say something, but the brunette just sat there, staring on her hands.
"I know it's hard Regina, but Emma needs to know. You're together, so she needs to know. I'm not gonna say anything to her, because that's up to you, but I think that by not telling Emma, you're gonna push her away even more then if you actually told her. Think about it." Granny spoke calmly then placed a small kiss on her temple. Regina just smiled slightly and sighed with a nod.

She knew the old woman was right, but what would Emma think about all of this? And what would she think of her if Regina decided to keep it? Because that thought had crossed Regina's mind a couple of times already.

What kind of person keeps their rapist's baby?

****

Emma felt terrible for following Regina like this, but she knew that the brunette was up to something, and she just had to see it with her own eyes. So she asked Granny to borrow her car after her early shift ended.

The blonde had to park almost two blocks away, because Regina would immediately recognize Granny's bug otherwise. It was so yellow.

So as soon as Regina parked, Emma did as well. That meant she had to run a little, then hide, but that wasn't a problem for her. She hid behind a telephone pole and was confused when she saw Regina walk up to the doors of a family planning clinic.

What the actual hell has she been hiding from me? A baby? Is she… pregnant?

Emma started to get a little agitated now. Surely Regina wouldn't go somewhere, alone, to have an abortion. Maybe she wasn't pregnant and something else was going on? Something worse? Oh god! Please let her be ok!

*****

Regina felt her heart in her throat as she walked inside the building. An older woman behind the desk smiled at her, and it helped her relax, at least a little bit.

"Ehm, hello." Regina said as she walked up to the counter. "I have an appointment."
"Don't be nervous, my dear. I'm Nora, and your name is?"
"Oh, sorry. Mills. Regina Mills.
"Ah yes. You're a little early." she smiled again "I see, you have an appointment with Dr Tom. He's still on his lunch break, so please take a seat. He will be with you soon" Nora stated in a gentle tone. Regina nodded and sat down in one of the chairs. She took out her phone, and wondered if she should just call Emma.

I'm being crazy. Emma loves me, and I'm sure Granny will let her borrow the bug. She should be finishing her shift soon.

Emma was still standing by the telephone pole. She was still too shocked, after seeing Regina walk into the family planning clinic, to move. Emma's mind was racing. Did this mean Daniel had raped her?

Oh my god! He has raped her! That asshole! And now she's going to get an abortion by herself cause she's too scared to tell anyone!

"Emma?" a voice behind her suddenly said and Emma turned around frightened.
"Oh, hi Elsa." Emma greeted and tried to give Elsa a small smile. Tried and failed.
"Is everything okay? You look a little pale?" Elsa asked, and Emma tugged her bottom lip into her mouth.
"It's just, ehm, everything that's happening with Belle. It's just messing with my mind, and my whole family is devastated." Emma explained, and well, it wasn't a straight out lie, but that wasn't what Emma was thinking (and panicking about) right now.
"Oh, I know how it is. I have those periods too." Elsa shrugged. "I guess it's something you develop when you have been a foster kid. That you can't really relax and you worry constantly."

Elsa made Emma feel normal, and sure, Regina did that too, but since Elsa knew how it really was to grow up as an orphan, an unwanted person, they were connected in a special way. That feeling, alone, scared Emma. She didn't want to feel like this, not with anyone, aside from Regina. Yet here she was, looking at Elsa with curious eyes. Emma was playing with fire and wondered who of them was gonna get burned worse.

"Well, I guess I gotta go." she spoke as she noticed the time "Teresa sent me to town to buy some groceries that the store at home was out of. You know Mrs. Lucas, she doesn't want any cheap ripoffs of anything she has in her kitchen." Elsa joked and Emma heard herself let out a small laugh.
"Yeah, that's true. She's just as bad at home, if not worse." Emma replied.

"Really?" Elsa chuckled. "Well if that's all, I can live with that. She's such a sweet person, and the best boss I've ever had. You should feel lucky to have her as your mother."
"Oh, believe me, I am. I would probably not be alive if it wasn't for her." Emma shrugged. It was hard to admit that out loud, but it was true.

*****

Ten minutes later Regina was still staring at the phone in her hand. She needed to call her. Now! She started to shake, then took a deep breath as she actually dialed Emma's number.

Elsa had said goodbye, and Emma was heading back to her car, but stopped when her phone buzzed. She scooped it up from her pocket and saw Regina's name on her display. The blonde answered after just 1 ring.

"Emma, I need you." Regina began the conversation with.
"I know," Emma started and took a deep breath. "and I know where you are. I'll be there in a couple of minutes."

Regina raised an eyebrow at Emma's response. How the hell does she know where I am?

"How… do you know where... I am?" Regina finally asked.
"I'll tell you later. See you soon. I love you." Emma answered as she walked toward the entrance of the building.
"Love you too." Regina replied weakly and ended the call. She sunk down into her chair, and felt the tears stinging in her eyes.

When Emma walked into the building she had to stop herself from running into her arms. So she stood from her seat with tears streaked down her face and a huge sad smile across her lips. Emma embraced her and kissed her temple, then rubbed her back. She noticed Regina was shaking like a leaf.
"It's okay baby, I'm here now. I'm here, and I'm not gonna go anywhere. Trust me."

When they parted, Regina was looking right into those beautiful green eyes that she had fallen in love with, the very first time she had seen them.
"I'm sorry for being such an idiot." Regina groaned as they sat down, without breaking eye contact.
"Oh, Regina. It's okay. Just tell me what's going on, okay?" Emma said carefully and squeezed her girlfriend's hand. Nothing else mattered right now.

"The reason I've been pulling away and just wanting to be alone is that…" Regina started to say, but she began to cry. Emma kissed away her tears and offered her a little smile, knowing that always relaxed Regina. "Emma, Daniel didn't just hit me… he….he.." she took a deep breath "I'm pregnant." Regina finally said it, and felt immediately lighter. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of her shoulders. The two sat silently for a few minutes.

"You're actually pregnant?" Emma finally asked. Thank you god!
"Yes," Regina replied as she pulled away, then broke eye contact. "and I don't know what I'm gonna do…"
"You've actually thought about keeping it?" Emma asked breathlessly, and felt her heart in her throat.

She had already figured that Regina was pregnant, because she had followed her here, but the thought of Regina actually wanting to keep the baby, Daniel's baby, that had been conceived by rape, hadn't crossed her mind.

Her heart started to beat like crazy and her whole body ached of anxiety, even if it didn't show. She wanted to run, just like she always had, but she didn't give in to that feeling this time. She refused to! Instead, she cupped Regina's head in her hands and placed a careful kiss on her temple.
"I'm gonna stand by you. I'm gonna stay. No matter what you choose, but it's a big thing to take in, you know?" Emma stated and Regina simply nodded her reply. Holy shit.

They sat in silence for a few more minutes before Regina spoke up. She sensed Emma's anxiety and confusion.
"Please don't hate me for this." Regina whispered to gain Emma's attention.
"I could never hate you, baby." she replied honestly and that gave Regina the courage to explain.

"The reason I have thought about keeping it, is because I'm not supposed to be able to even conceive a child, much less, carry to term. I have this condition, and it's like a one in a million chance for this to actually happen. I always thought I would have to adopt when I was older. And I have always wanted to be a mother Emma.. " Regina stuttered. "But I know the situation isn't ideal. I hate this, but what if it's my only chance?" The blonde squeezed Regina's hand and gave her a gentle smile. Emma actually felt a little more relaxed now.
"Trust me when I say that I'm here for you, okay? I love you. No matter what." Emma grabbed Regina's hand and squeezed, then kissed her cheek.

They finally called Regina's name a while later, and the blonde held her hand as they walked to the back. Emma followed Regina into the room and sat down beside her, and held her hand tight. The doctor smiled at them.

"You make a beautiful couple." he said. "So, Miss Mills, this is just an ordinary check up to make sure that everything's alright in there, with the little one."
"Okay." Regina answered with a nervous tone in her voice, as he reached for some lubricant.
"Don't be afraid Miss Mills, I'm gonna be as careful as I can, and if something feels wrong or scary, just tell me, and I will explain what I'm doing. Do you understand?"
"Yes, doctor." Regina replied with a shaky voice. She met Emma's beautiful eyes, and took a deep breath.
"Good." The doctor said. "Now, I'm gonna need you to move your shirt up so that I can put this on your stomach, okay?"

"Is an ultrasound necessary?" Emma spoke up and Tom looked at her with confused eyes. "I mean, Regina isn't sure if she's gonna keep it, I think.."
"Oh? Well, the ultrasound is necessary, to see how far along you are, and make sure it is growing normally, if you decide to keep it. I can turn the screen away and turn the volume off though, so that you don't have to see," the man explained politely and Regina's grip on Emma's hand tightened. "but, it's completely up to you Miss Mills."
"I want to see it" Regina said after a minute of consideration. "If that's okay?" she turned to Emma.
"If that's what you want baby, then we'll do it" the blonde stated with a gentle smile, and Regina felt her heart overflow with love for the blonde.

Why have I kept this a secret? She's actually supporting me. Why have I not told her earlier?

*******

The two spent the rest of the day together happily. They grabbed some dinner, then talked for a while, while other were still outside of town. Later Emma dropped the bug off at the hospital with Granny and the two watched a movie together at Regina's house.

Emma could tell Regina was getting tired so she decided to head home. She kissed Regina goodnight, then left on foot. She needed some time to think about this, and Reigna understood that completely. She thought Emma was handling everything surprisingly well.

However, she didn't know about the panic running rampant through Emma. The blonde let out a big breath as she finally laid down on her bed. She was both excited and terrified at the same time. She wondered if she could do this. How the hell was she gonna be able to help raise a child?

She thought of her own childhood, and it had been everything else, but the upbringing someone would want. She had lived through abuse, both physically and mentally abuse. Being hit, and told she was useless and worthless. The only time she had been happy as a kid had been with the Swans, even though her time there had been short. Emma sat up in her bed and pulled her legs up to her chest as she worried her bottom lip.

She was panicking. Regina was gonna have a baby. A baby that was the result of rape. How would Emma be able to look at that kid without thinking about Daniel? How would Regina be able to do that? Emma wondered and groaned.

She had never pictured herself being a parent, but she had never thought she would have a family of her own either, or a girlfriend that she loved to pieces. She just wished everything had been easier, but then again, Emma knew life wasn't easy. At least it never had been for her. She reached for her phone and looked at her lockscreen. It was a picture with her, Rocinante, and Regina. She looked at the picture and smiled.

Regina was the one she wanted to spend her life with, and if Regina was gonna have a kid, that meant Emma would be a parent too. They could do this! Soon they would both turn 18 and Regina could take control of her father's estate. They could buy their own home and Emma could proudly show Cora her middle finger. The blonde grinned at that thought and unlocked her phone, then typed Regina a long text.

E - I love you, and I'm looking forward to being a mom with you. It's not the ultimate situation to be in, but I wouldn't want to be in it with anyone else but you. I can't say I'm not terrified as hell of all this, because I am.

But I thought I lost you once, and I don't want to do that again. You're my soulmate Regina! I don't even care if that's the cheesiest line in the world!

Besides that, I wanna see Rocinante as a big brother lol

Emma laid down on the bed again and closed her eyes. She was exhausted. This day had been rough, but she was happy that she finally knew why Regina had been acting so weird these past couple of weeks. Just a few minutes later her phone buzzed, and she opened her eyes with a sleepy smile.

Re - I can't describe how happy I am that you're supporting me in all this. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you earlier. I was so scared I was gonna lose you.

And I'm also looking forward to seeing Rocinante be a big brother. ;)

E - I'm never gonna let you go. Good night baby. Love you more than anything.

Re - I love you too! Soon to be Mama Swan. Sleep tight!