So I could say it's been a while. I decided to come back on practicing writing. So yeah, I needed a way to express myself and here it is. I hope it's better quality than previous chapters, I decided to explore some more plot, thanks to your reviews! See you soon~ (I hope D:)
'you run from me with all your heart'
I often think that I deserved this. But then again, I didn't. Of course, it's not like I am going to tell them the truth. Why? A. Because I don't need their pity and B. Because I am completely capable of handling all this by myself. Now, the fact that I am in jail right now, may say otherwise, but I am in CHARGE O THINGS!
You wanna hear a story from my point of view? Well, it's pretty simple. I am insane. Lost my marbles. Totally. But I'm OK. Definitely. Peachy.
I didn't even realize this until it was too late. Like, one second I am in high school, all giggidy and ticklish from the inside, 'cause the guy of my dreams just agreed to go out with me, and the next moment I see his raging eyes, there's blood everywhere, my hands and legs are trembling, my breath comes out in shallow puffs, and the thought strucks me like a bolt of lightning: I became a monster.
It's funny how I can remember the exact moment when this all started but have no memory of that last breaking point.
Everything has started on the happiest day of my life. Ichigo agreed to go out with me. Even though it was happiest moment of my whole existence, it didn't go as well as I imagined it countless times. Of course, I did imagine the worst outcome also but this... This was something in between.
Ichigo and me. We were inseparable. You know how in all stories there are these grand best friends meet-up scenes? Well, me and Ichigo were friends for so long I have no memory of the first day we met and therefore, no grand scene to tell about. But what I DO remember from earlier stages of our friendship is one hell of a scene.
It all happened in second year of Junior High when that bastard Grimmjow was introduced to our class. He was a new guy. We were all, like, 13 orsomething.
"Class, this is Grimmjow, he will be your classmate from now on. Why don't you sit right there, next to Keigo, Grimmjow?" the teacher introduced and instructed him softly, ignoring the sour look on new kid's face. Even though his whole face was showing off how displeased he waswith this whole situation, the boy did as he was told.
Even though Grimmjow looked super cool to his classmates, he had no interest of befriending any of them. Couple of months passed and he barely knew few names. Instead of knowing peoples names he made everyone remember his - as a kid you wouldn't want to cross a path for. These few weeks in the new school and not a fight lost. Rumor had it, he could knock out a senior with a few punches to the right places.
No one really remembers the reason what triggered the interraction - maybe Ichigo laughed too loud, maybe Grimmjow bumped into red head and made a rude statement or maybe they just had to get off some steam and started the fight with no reason behind it. The only thing known to everyone is, that right before Ichigo jumped on Grimmjow, the blue haired teen shouted: "No wonder your mother's dead, who could handle watching at their weak-ass son and keep living?"
This was the first time I saw Ichigo like that. Sure, I've seen him kick ass before. But this was no ass kicking. This was brutal, cold, ruthless and rigorous beating. Grimmjow tried to struggle from underneath orange head's grip but he couldn't even get a chance to move. Ichigo threw punches tirelessly, each time with more and more blood on his knuckles. And we all, all kids that were near this scene, that witnessed this horrific, yes, horrific, view, we couldn't make ourselves move a muscle to do something about them. When the teachers finally broke the fight, when they ripped Ichigo off Grimmjow, only when he had no one to punch anymore, only then Ichigo came back to his senses. I saw the terror in his eyes, I saw something getting killed inside him by that terror.
I haven't seen them both for few months - Ichigo got suspension and a clusterfuck of other shit and Grimmjow was hospitalized - lucky him, if teachers would've broken the fight, like, ten minutes later, there would be no more Grimm. After they both came back, weirdest thing ever happened - when everyone was expecting a rematch, those two became friends and our duo became a trio. Ichigo was a shell of himself at the first month but Grimmjow somehow managed to get him out, to heal him - a thing I probably couldn't have done. Trouhgout the years Grimmjow could bring out things in Ichigo I could never even dream of bringing out. And I was jealous.
And that jelousy was an ingredient of the poison that led me to my insanity.