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So yeah. Our duo became a trio. And so let's come back to the happiest day of my life. We're in our favourite lunch spot on the roof, Ichigo and I. Grimmjow is absent today since dumbass somehow managed to get a mild concussion while falling of a chair at part time job 'cause he fell asleep. I was focusing my gaze on random dashes that one of our classmates drew next to the door that leads to the roof. Ichigo was chewing his tuna sandwich as I was gathering my courage to ask the question.

See, me and Grimm, when we were, like, sixteen if I remember correctly, we realized that we both feel something more for Ichigo than a simple friendship. We also realized that bluehead and I are rivals. But since we cared for "bro-code", we decided that this crush of ours will come to pass. One and a half year later we decided to screw bro-code and had a mutual "first comes first gets served" kind of agreement. You probably wonder, why didn't neither of us confess first? Well, there's always that small possibility of rejection. And you know, better to be close Ichigo's friend than being rejected and get your feelings hurt.

I am not too sure why we were so afraid. Ichigo wouldn't have shunned neither of us away, he's just too good to do stuff like that. Also, it was no secret that he liked sleeping around every now and then, both guys and girls. We would sometimes ask him about that and he vaguely answered if he felt like it. And he looked the most innocent of our trio. Ironically enough, me and Grimmjow were virgins. Despite being the toughest of the tough, Grimm would turn every shade of red if anyone sent a compliment or at least a glance his way.

So yeah. Ichigo was finishing his sandwich and I waited. I didn't want him to choke while I break the news. He put his lunchbox in the backpack and got up. I also got up. Then, I took a deep breath and coughed to get his attention. When our eyes met, I bit my lip from inside and finally some words came out my mouth:

"Ichigo, I need to tell you something", the tone I chose was way too stern and it came out too serious - wrong kind of serious because Ichigo sounded kind of scared when he asked, with a worried voice:

"What's wrong, Shrosaki?"

"Ichigo, it has been bothering for a while, well, like two years or so..." I trailed off, too late to back away now Shiro, just go with it already!

"Shiro, wha-"

"Hush, Ichi, let me finish. So, about two years ago, I realized that I feel you something. And, well, that something developed into a bigger something... And... Oh god, I'm so nervous, he he.. IchigoIloveyou!" I practically shouted the last three words mashed into one. Then the time itself stopped, all sounds were gone for what it looked like a million years.

First, his cheeks turned red then he averted his eyes from mine, licked his lips and sighed deeply.

"Shiro, I do appreciate your feelings", he started and I felt the ground slowly melt under my feet and sucking me inside as he continued: "and I might give it a try, but... Damn, now I'm nervous, but I guess you deserve to know. Shiro, I have feelings for Grimmjow, I'm sorry." BAM. I can't believe it. I knew Ichigo first, I have been here from the beginning and Grimmjow, that fucking bastard gets all he wanted without even trying.

And here I stand, what a loser. NO! For reasons unknown, I blabbered out:

"Ichi, oh my god I'm so sorry... Didn't you know? Grimmjow is homophobic."

"What? It can't be! He never mentioned it to me! And all these times I've told about my one night stands with gyu-.. Well, he sometimes looked displeased, but I thought it was because it contradicted with his "only sex with love of the life" belief.."

Oh yes, Grimm was displeased, but for other reasons.

"Ichigo, he seriously has a problem with gays, he just thought that you being a bisexual was a temporary thing and eventually you would, I quote him, 'come back to your senses'."

He looked so sad, so lost. I just took a step forward and hugged him tight. He clutched his hands around me. I didn't stop there with my lies, oh no. Of course, I continued:

"And, Ichi, I told him few days ago that I am going to confess my feelings for you. And you know what his response was? He told me that if it would work out, we would no longer be his friends."

Ichigo grip around me got bell rang. We didn't care.

"Shirosaki?" he whispered.

"Yes?"

"I guess we could try."

I thought my heart will leap out of my chest. But a chain of guilt held it down. Sudden sharp of pang of fear struck me: how will I deal with Grimmjow? If he'll find out, I'll lose Ichi. WhatshouldIdowhatshouldIdowhatshouldIdo

Suddenly pair of hands pulled down me by my collar and soft lips touched mine.

I will worry about Grimmjow later.

A/N: hey, guys, I seriously want to finally finish this thing off. I am not sure if I can. I also partially want to rewrite few first chapters but I know I totally do not have time for that :( I also want to ask for your help - if you have any suggestions how should this story continue and develop - message me on tumblr. (taushkis) LOTS OF LOVE! Thank you for reading!