Black Love Chapter 2:
I hate you I love you – Gnash ft. Olivia O'Brien
Didn't change the lyrics, they are modern of course, so there is swearing, and it refers to certain things of modern society, that does not fit the age of Pirates. However, I find the vibe of the song very fitting for Angelica x Jack.
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Men in suits everywhere. Men in black.
He had never really understood the purpose of these tight fitted and fancy clothes… How was one able to function in these?! He couldn't imagine wearing those on a ship…
Captain Jack Sparrow was wearing a suit himself, stolen from some high lord or other who was now spending the rest of the night on the dirty ground, bound, hidden in a bush just outside the gates of the mansion.
And the suit his loyal friend Gibbs was wearing, you ask? A similar story…
Why were they here again? Right, focus.
Jack Sparrow and Joshamee Gibbs were on a mission. A mission that had brought them here, a mansion on the east coast of Spain.
Why were they here? What was this man doing here?
''Jack! There he is!'' Gibbs got Jack's attention.
Jack looked up. There he was. That fat old rich man…
Why did Captain Jack Sparrow follow a rich fat old man around, you ask?
Because this man was important. This man had something in his possession, something Jack wanted… Letters of marque…
Letters of marque. Letters of marque which made it possible to rule the entire ocean! Well, not literally, of course… But the influence would be enormous! And that was something Captain Jack Sparrow was very interested in!
That's why they were here. At Lord James society gathering. To steal the letters of marque.
They fit right in. They had suits on. They had brought some girls with them, to function as their dates.
''Excuse me…'' he charmingly smiled to the girl who happened to be his date…
Jack and Gibbs started their pursuit. They pushed through the crowd. Men, woman, suits, dresses, moustaches… Jack tried to stay focussed, but he kept looking at all these different people.
How could they live like this? So constricted, not only in these clothes, but just this entire façade!
Jack couldn't imagine… Yes, these people were rich… But there was more to life than that, wasn't there? What about the adventures, and freedom?! Besides, as a Pirate, one could always steal all the money one would ever want!
As Jack followed the man he was trying to figure out a plan. There had to be a way of obtaining more information, other than by just following and threatening the man… Besides, it wouldn't be easy to just take the man and bind them like the man outside the gates, with all these people around…
They had to find out more. Where could he keep the papers? It had to be somewhere in this massive mansion…
Maybe they could wander around a bit later…
''What's the plan, Jack? We can't just knock him on the head…'' Gibbs said.
''I know… We need a plan…'' ''I'll think of something, keep an eye out…'' Jack sent Gibbs away.
Just as Jack wanted to go back to his date. Be a part of the crowd, to blend in, to be as close to these people as possible to obtain as much information as possible, he heard the old man speak.
''Mi amor'' just like Jack, the man had an horrible accent…
Jack didn't know why, but for a second he thought of Angelica… How she would always make fun of him whenever he tried to speak Spanish…
Jack watched as the crowd opened up, giving the man some room to greet his wife…
Time stopped. Jack's movement came to an abrupt stop. He couldn't believe his eyes.
The old and wrinkly hands of the man went up her smooth arms to her shoulders, until they reached her cheeks, where he placed a soft kiss with his thin dry lips…
Jack, mind you he wasn't old and wrinkly, but he had done the same, so many times… He knew that body so well, her skin, her… her everything…
Angelica Teach.
What was she doing here? With him!
Finally Jack understood… People would always say you would only want something because the others have it… You don't know that you miss or want it, until you see someone else have it…
Yes, that was exactly what Jack was experiencing now…
He couldn't believe it…
Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just want to feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realise how much I need you
Jack blinked. He couldn't stop staring.
For a split second, their eyes met.
Jack's heart nearly stopped. Had she seen him?!
He swiftly turned around and walked away.
How could she still have this hold on him?
Angelica had in fact seen him.
What was he doing here?
She couldn't believe it… Was this real?
As much as she hated Jack, she couldn't suppress this feeling of excitement…
''What's wrong?'' Lord asked.
''Nothing… Do you want to dance?'' ''I love dancing'' she smiled charmingly.
First, it was not common for a Lady to ask a Lord to dance. It had to be the other way around… Second, this would not help with keeping the Lord off her back…
The man had been pursuing her for the last months… He was rich, and had recently set up a business in Spain, but she wasn't interested in him at all… He was old.
The way he talked to her, an outsider would think she was already his wife…
She despised it. But right now, she could use some company, as she wanted to follow Jack without it being too obvious she was actually following him…
Of course, Lord James quickly took her hand and guided her to the dancefloor.
Soon, Angelica spotted Jack. But he wasn't alone…
Who was she?!
Angelica knew she shouldn't be bothered by this, she should have expected this from Jack.
What had she expected anyway?
Still, it felt as if someone had dropped a giant piece of rock on her heart. Her entire body felt heavy, cold...
Why, Jack?! Why?! Why did he always have to hurt her?! Why, after all these years, did she still feel like this?!
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
Angelica felt numb. She couldn't fully process what was going on around her… She could barely feel the touches of the slimy old man in front of her…
She didn't really care…
Jack Sparrow twirled his date around.
She was having the time of her life. She was young, pretty, without a care in the world… Jack, as a real and adventurous man, was all she thought she needed…
Jack, of course, thought otherwise… He knew a different kind of truth… He had ruined a beautiful young girl before…
The girl had turned into a woman, and that woman was now dancing only a few feet away from him…
Jack pretended he was having a good time. He wasn't paying Angelica any mind, he was just dancing with this girl… But, his eyes just couldn't stop wandering to the side… Catching a glimpse of her…
Truth to be told, Jack thought about Angelica sometimes… When he was extremely, the out of his mind kind of, drunk. Or on his bad days, when he would reflect upon the bad things, bad decisions, his regrets… She would even show up in his dreams from time to time, which made him unable to sleep for at least a week after…
I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
It was weird…
You could ask Jack Sparrow about Angelica Teach, on any moment, on any second on any day, and he wouldn't be faced by it… But right this instant… His heart ached.
Well, maybe it didn't ache as much… It was just an uneasy feeling… He was faced with his own stupidity… It was looking him straight in the eye… Ever letting her go…
Regret.
Jack looked to the side again. Angelica was staring back. You could see the hurt in her eyes, as she eyed his date…
They were both with somebody else, and yet they were still looking at each other…
Angelica's expression turned to an angry one, her hatred for Jack resurfacing… Just the entire situation…
Jack showed her a small grin. Not his usual grin, not the smug one, almost a sympathetic one… I'm sorry. I miss you.
A little apologetic smile…
I'm not here to hurt you. I promise. She means nothing to me. I want you.
In another universe things could have been different… They would be together. Married… Children, maybe… By her side, forever.
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you got to burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song
The dance led the dancing couples across the floor. Bringing the two couples closer together.
Angelica could feel her heart beat faster. She could only hope that the thing she feared wouldn't happen…
But it did.
Changer.
They had to change dance partners, and of course Angelica found herself in the arms of Jack Sparrow.
''What are you doing here?!'' she hissed.
''Hello, luv'' Jack smiled.
Angelica deliberately stepped on his foot.
''I'm here for certain letters of marque… Something to do with the entire ocean…Captain Jack Sparrow, remembered forever...'' Jack quickly answered, before he would get hurt again.
Angelica shot him an angry glare.
''I'm sure you know where they are'' ''I do have to say, I never would have guessed you liked the elder men that much…'' Jack said.
Jack was older than Angelica. But still at least 2 decades younger than Lord James.
''He's not my husband! This is not my house!'' she defended.
''Well, that's unfortunate… Now, I actually have to look for it…'' ''However, that's a relief to hear.'' He grinned and drew her in a bit closer.
''Shut up, Sparrow. You lost that position a long time ago.'' Angelica struggled against his grip.
''What are you doing with her anyway?'' of course she would ask about the girl...
''Jealous, luv'' Jack grinned.
''I hate you'' she spat.
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
Changer.
Before Jack could even give a response, he stared back into the face of the young girl again… The dance had changed the game once again…
Angelica was back with the Lord.
She just wanted to kick Jack, hit Jack, scream at him. How could you do this to me? You leave me, and end up with her?!
She watched as Jack twirled the girl round, and she ignored the attempts of the Lord. She wasn't in the mood for spinning, her whole world had already spun out of control…
All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me
The end of the night had come.
Angelica followed the crowd outside. It was time to go home, alone. Maybe it was dangerous, as a woman alone, but she didn't care… She needed a walk in the cold night air after tonight's events…
Getting rid of the Lord had been rather easy. He had had too much to drink, he could probably not even remember his own name, Angelica was the last thing on his mind…
Angelica walked out of the mansion and descended the steps. Before she even had properly descended them, someone pulled her to the side of the building, in the dark…
She was pushed against the wall and lips hungrily attacked hers. She immediately kissed the attacker back. She knew it was him. Of course, it had to be him…
It seemed to last forever, but before she knew it Jack had already pulled away.
Angelica hadn't even been able to look at him properly, because he had already caught up with Gibbs and the girl again... The two had probably not even noticed that Jack had been gone…
Jack walked away as if nothing had happened. Angelica watched him walk off, and could just see how he quickly stuffed something in his pocket. The letters of marque…
Of course, he was Captain Jack Sparrow, after all… He would always get what he wanted.
Once again, Captain Jack Sparrow walked out of her life…
With one hand in his pocket and the other on the shoulder of somebody else…
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
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Lyrics: Gnash ft. Olivia O'Brien – I hate you I love you