13th of Rain's Hand
Can't really sleep, Journal. I know I need some rest but it's damn near impossible. Esbern and I returned to Riverwood pretty early in the morning. Delphine and Esbern were happy to see each other. Exhausted, he suggested we all get some rest and when the Sun rises, we would think about our next move.

I guess the reason why I can't sleep is because I'm still trying to wrap my head around this whole thing. It's been about 4 days now. I'm learning to accept it, but along the way, it's still hard.

14th of Rain's Hand
A Shout. A Shout was used to defeat Alduin. I learnt about this on Alduin's Wall in the Sky Heaven Temple. It was an ancient temple built by the Akaviri and it was the last refuge of the Blades. Alduin's Wall depicted that only a Shout was used to defeat him. I will need to learn that Shout.

Some pretty nice equipment was left behind. One was a sword called a Dragonbane. Esbern told me it was very useful against dragons. So I took it with me.

Alduin… I could still hear his devastating Shouts that destroyed Helgan. He was the black dragon that tried to roast me back in Helgan. "Destroyer Devour Master" is the meaning of his name: Al-Du-In. Fits like a glove.

I'll be honest - I could hear him in my sleep sometimes, calling out for me, challenging me. What if I still don't know my true power yet? What if, because of that, I'm still not ready to fight this big black lizard?

One thing's for certain, Journal: it's up to me to defeat him…

But I wish Talos or Akatosh or any of the Nine Divines will tell me how I can.

This is kind of depressing so let me instead share some wonderful news then. Delphine, Esbern and I rode to Markarth by carriage and then walked to Sky Haven Temple. At the Markarth Stables, Banning was still training warrior dogs. He offered me Vigilance, one of the fiercest pups he had. Fierce? I didn't see that in Vigilance, no. Well, not yet, at least. But Vigilance seemed very loyal and tough so I decided to buy him.

I got to see him in action when we had to fight through a Forsworn camp just to gain entrance into Sky Haven Temple. Banning was right: the pup would follow me into Oblivion and back, if it ever came to that.

Location: High Hrothgar
15th of Rain's Hand
3:51pm

"…" Arngeir did not speak a word for at least the first 5 seconds. "Where did you learn of that? Who have you been talking too?" He questioned Kayleigh as if she was only a little child, having been caught red-handed with her hand in the sweetroll jar.

Kayleigh immediately held up her hands in truce. "Ceasefire, Arngeir. The Blades told me when we found Alduin's wall."

"The Blades!" Arngeir huffed greatly, now that the Dragonborn's words finally make sense. "Of course! Why am I not surprised? They are always meddling in affairs they know almost nothing about! They have always sought to turn the Dragonborn from the path of wisdom." He looked at her with hurt eyes. "Have you learned nothing from us? Are you simply just going to be a tool for the Blades?"

She raised her eyebrows, and glanced down at her feet. "Ouch, Arngeir," She pulled back her Novice Hood. "That kinda hurt. I'm a big girl now. I think I know who to trust and who's trying to use me."

"Of course you do, Dragonborn. I have no doubt in that. It's just that-"

She put up one hand, politely cut in. "I know that there's bad blood between the Greybeards and the Blades. It's pretty obvious from the way Delphine keeps bad-mouthing you. Trust me, as much as I hate her attitude, they are helping me with this. Just as much as you are. I will forever be grateful to you and the rest of the Greybeards for you were the ones who brought me on the path of wisdom. And I will continue to walk it." She sighed. "But you must understand: Alduin had returned, and I am the only one to stop him. And the only way I can is if I learn this Shout."

Arngeir lowered his head, processing Kayleigh's words. The rest of the Greybeards walked up to them, each other them bowing when Kayleigh acknowledged them.

"I consider this place my second home, Arngeir. I will never do anything to betray you. But if at any point of time, the Blades do or say anything unforgiving, then rest assured that I will never speak to them again."

He looked up at her. "Dragonborn-"

"I mean it. Talos be my witness."

He then exhaled heavily, as if his whole world had been turned upside down. "I want to help you, Dragonborn, but I cannot, for I do not know of this Dragon Shout. It is called "Dragonrend", but its Words of Power are unknown to us."

"Unknown?" Well, Kayleigh was not expecting that. "I thought you knew all Words of Power."

"Not Dragonrend. The knowledge of that Shout was lost in time before history began. But we do not regret this loss. Dragonrend is a hazardous Shout. It holds no place in the Way of the Voice!"

"Why? What's so bad about it?"

"It was… created by those who lived under the unimaginable cruelty under Alduin's Dragon Cult. They poured all of their hatred and anger into the Shout. So you can imagine just how powerful it is."

"Sounds dangerous. So, if it's lost, do you know how I can find it then?

"Only Paarthurnax, the Master of our order, can answer that question... if he so chooses." He added after a short pause.

"Fine. Then I need to speak to him, then." She said

"You aren't ready. You still aren't, Dragonborn. But..." He then let go of a irritated sigh. "Thanks to the Blades, you now have questions that only Paarthurnax can answer."

"So… can I meet him?"

"He lives in seclusion on the very peak of the mountain. The path to him is dangerous and only those whose Voice is strong can find the path. Come. We will teach you a Shout to open the way to Paarthurnax."

If only Kayleigh had any clue as to what Paarthurnax was.