I stood on the top of the garage roof over looking Teller-Morrow auto shop. I didn't want to be up here. This use to be our spot, a place where we went whenever we had to work through things. This was the only place we were ever truly open with each other. But that's the funny thing now isnt it, its not our spot anymore. It hasn't been for a while now. And at this moment I was scared shitless being up here with him alone. I wasn't ready to deal with this, to deal with him just yet. I kept my back turned from him, I'd be damned if I was the first one to break the silence. I can feel Jax burning wholes into my back which made me feel even more on edge but I refused to meet his gaze. Finally I tuned around and met his gaze. Our eyes locked and it felt like the wind had been hit from me. His face was blank, avoided of any emotion.

"why?" Jaxe asked.

"Why what?" I asked back, crossing my arms over my chest. I wasn't about to make this easy for him.

"why did I come home to find you gone" he said through clutch teeth. Clearly trying to control his anger.

"Was it really that big of a surprise Jackson, come on now" I said while rolling my eyes. How dare he appear upset after everything hes done to push me away.

He came at me, grabbing me by the shoulders I yelped. " I loved you since I was sixteen!" he yelled. He was looking control. I didnt care though. How dare he make this my fault. He was the one to did this not me.

"You know what Jax I thought you did too, I thought you were different. I never doughted us, our relationship. Always thinking how lucky I was to have a man who was loyal. That I would never have to walk in on you cheating on me like all the other old ladies caught their men. But then guess what one night I did. What a laughing joke I was." I laughed hysterically. I was losing it, but I didn't care. Let him see the damaged he caused. The tears running down my eyes, I only wiped them away.

"We just had a fight because you were mad that I was going on a run. You were the one who was acting all bitchy, you said we were over." He yelled throwing his hands in the air.

"I looked for you for months after you left. I rode all across California and I couldn't find you. I made a mistake, but you never gave me a chance to fix it." regret shinning through his eyes. I took a step back from him.

" You had know idea what I was going through." I sobbed. I snack to my knees.

"What the fuck dose that even mean!" He was in my face shaking me. He didn't understand. How could he? But that was Jax's problem. He never tried to understand until it was too late. Looking up at his, my eyes burned into his. "I was Pregnant." I whispered. Jax froze.

3 Years ago

Two pink lines. Two stupid pink lines stared back at me. Mocking me. Daring me to take another test, because I didn't already take 4 of them, I laughed bitterly to myself. What was I gonna do. I wasn't ready to have a kid. For god sake I didn't even know the first thing of being a mother. Mine didn't act anymore then a friend to.

I knew something was off when last month my period didn't come. I just thought it was from stress that ive been under lately at work and the club. And then this month it never came either thats when I decided maybe I should take a test just to calm my anxiety. Then to my surprise the came up positive. Lalying on the floor I looked at my belly. To be honest you really wouldn't be able to tell that I was two months pregnant, you would just think I was bloated from having a big lunch. What was I gonna do I cried into my hands, better yet how was I gonna tell Jax. I froze jumping up at the situation of the reality set in. Jackson. He wasn't ready to be a father. It wasn't even a good time. We were to deep into the club with the Mayans coming at us from both sides. How would be take the news.

Looking into the mirror I tried to take deep breaths to calm myself down.

"Get your shit together" I told myself. Hoping a peep talk would make everything better. Jax would be home any moment and I better start getting dinner ready.

Just then I herd the front door open. Fuck. He shouldnt be home for another thirty minutes. I cant do this. How was I gonna tell him, im not ready. Fixing my hair up into a cute bun so it was out of the way I through a shirt on over my bra and made my way into the kitchen. Jax was taking his leather cut off as I walked up to him.

"Hey Hun, how was work?" he asked giving me one of those famous Jax Teller smiles that would make any girl weak in the knees.

"Surprisingly boaring. Not much business today I got off early." I said as I leaned up to give him a quick kiss. I bartender at a bar in downtown charming in the afternoon, and went college classes in the morning. The tips were too good to pass up. And I wasn't a full time student or anything so my hours were always flexible when it came to work. I opened the fridge pulling out some steaks for dinner tonight.

"That's good at least, because I um gotta leave in the morning." he said smoothly while rubbing the back of his neck. He knew there was gonna be a fight. There always was when he had to go on runs. I worried and the fact that I was always getting told last minute didnt make it any better. I stopped what I was doing.

"Are you fucking serious? Tomorrow was suppose to be our first day off together in weeks." I was livid. He knew how much tomorrow meant to me.

"Babe its only for a few days. Club business." he said trying to reason with me. It didn't.

"Fuck the Club, your always gone!" I yelled.

"Hey you knew what you were signing up for when you choice me. You of all people. You know the Club comes first. You wanted to be a Old Lady, then act like one." He was getting annoyed from the my lack of understanding I could tell. But I didn't care. How could I depend on him being a father if I couldn't even depend on him being there for me.

I grabbed the pan that I was about to put on the stove at him. It smashed into the wall just missing him my a inch. Jax came at me pushing me up against the wall and pulling my hands behind my back. Know all to well that I would keep coming at his especially if he tried to retrain me. Growing up in the club as a child I knew one thing and that was how to fight. And Jax was all to aware of that.

"Cleo calm the fuck down. Im sick of you spazing out lately like a complete physco bitch." He breathed into my ear trying to calm me down. Fuck him. Fuck him if he thought I would just stand for this for the rest of my life. He always choice the club over me and I was sick of it.

"Get the fuck off of me." I yelled trying to jerk my body.

"Not happening darling." he said. Only pissing me off more.

"I'm done. I'm done with you. Get out of our house." I screamed. Jax took a step back. I spun around. Meeting his gaze, he was angry. This always happened he fought, he always fought. Our relationship would be great and then one of us would blow up on each other. It was a never ending cycle. Sure their were more good times then bad, but when those bad came into play that's all that we could see.

"Just get out." I sobbed. As I sunk to the floor.

Grabbing his cut, he went towards the door and stopped for a moment. "Im staying at the Clubhouse tonight." And then he was gone. The roaring of his engine drifting down the street. The steaks on the counter long forgotten.

…...

Later that night after clearing my head, I decided I needed to go see Jax and make things better. I needed to tell him about the baby. This child deserved a change of having both parents in its life. Plus after much thinking I realized I wasn't really mad at Jax I was mad at the Club for always taking him away. Throwing on some heels, jeans and my favorite crop top that showed my tits in the best way. I must admit I even thought I look smoking hot it this outfit. By the time Jax saw me I knew the fight be had this afternoon would be long forgotten. That thought alone made me smile to myself. I made my way to the club. It was no surprise when I pulled up that the club house was packed for a party. I waved to Chibs and Happy as I made my way inside. I scanned the room for Jax. I didn't see him tho. That's odd I thought to myself. He must of went to bed early and be in his back room. I was about to knock on the door when a noise made me stop. Not this any noise either, I herd moaning. I couldn't breath for a second. I slowly opened the door and what I saw made me feel like my heart just sank to the ground. I gasped, my hand coming up to my mouth.