If I would go back that day would I have the power to stop you? I guess I won't. After all you were always like a drug to me.
I can't remember when we found the bedroom or when your hands removed my clothes. All happed so fast and I was so dreamy. It was the first time when somebody kissed me, it was for the first time when someone wanted me for more than a servant.
Maybe you don't want me right now, maybe you see me as Yuki's replacement, but still… your body is so warm and your scent is so addictive that I can't think proper over it. My body reacts at your every touch. I can't believe that you made me to become so horny.
You let me out of breath just planting small kisses over my chest and belly. I let some moans to escape from my lips when your lips touched my lower ones. The feeling was so good, but I was feeling nervous knowing what you're doing.
I was feeling so exposed in front of you, it was like you read me like an open book. You knew what sports were making me come crazy. I'm not sure, but I think I come two or three time already when your tongue was playing with my thing. Little blue man, is this what it's called to be in love?
Of course the little blue man didn't answer. He never does, but that was different from the boy in front of me. I bit my lover lip when I felt his finger trying to stimulate my vagina. It hurts so much, even if it didn't enter at all. I cried a little.
You saw that and you kissed my tears, then you get busy with my mouth. I could feel your hard member moving at my entrance. It felt so big. I started to be scared of it, but you… hugged me strong and push it all inside. I screamed in your mouth, but you took that scream and replaced it with your sweet touch.
Down there it was hurting me so much, even if you were moving slowly to make me to get used with your pace. When you felt me more relaxed you used your hands to play with my breasts. It was feeling good, but soon it began to feel great.
Your tongue moving around my nipple was… like you made me feel like I was in heaven. The pain simply faded being replaced by pleasure. I could feel you very well inside me. It was like… you completed me. It was like this was designed to happen.
"Faster…" I said dreamy. I wanted to feel more of you. I… want our body to vibrate together. You grinned and you whispered something in my ear. I was too caught in the moment to hear you, but I think it didn't matter. As long I can feel you inside me I think it will be ok.
I don't know what happened next. I'd just felt like I was flying. My body fells so lightly. You felt next to my body exhausted. You were still sweating so I guess you tried your best to not make me be in pain. I can't say it for sure, but I think I felt very bad in love with you.
I lowered myself at your chest. It was so warm and hospitably. Your arms moved around me instantly sealing our bodies. I think we stayed like that for an hour or two, till my phone started to ring. I opened my eyes quickly to see who the caller was. I froze when I discovered that it was my brother. I jumped from the bed, making Ichigo to feel on the floor. I will say sorry to him later, but now I really need to answer this.
"Hello, Sora." I said walking on the balcony.
"Are you fine? I heard that you skipped your periods. Are you sick, because if you're I'm going to leave the school now." Sora said nervous. He was worried for me.
"No, no. I'm fine. I'd just wanted to be alone." I can't believe that I'd just lied to him. It was the first time when I wasn't honest to him.
"If you want to change the high school, I'm going to search a better one for you."
"No, no. It's ok. I'm already used with it."
"If you say so… I'm going to be late tonight so go ahead and eat without me."
"Ok. Take care of yourself."
"I will." His voice was calm as always. It seems like he believed me.
"What the hell did happen? Where is burning?" Ichigo asked massaging the back of his neck. Maybe I made him to fall from bed too bad. I'm starting to feel guilty about it.
"My brother called. It seemed like he's going to be late tonight." I don't know why I said to you that. It was no need for me to explain myself to you, but I felt like it.
"Oh… Shit." You swore and I couldn't understand you. "You're bleeding. Don't tell me that I really did it to you." I looked at my legs. Indeed some red drops were falling from my thing, but… I didn't care about it. What I cared it was the sad look on your face.
"I'm sorry. I couldn't make myself to stop you." I recognized. I don't think that my words were mattering now, but still… I didn't want you to worry about it, after all it was my decision.
"What? I wasn't speaking about myself. I was speaking about you. I didn't want to use you. I'm sorry." In that moment I suddenly realized that I heard what you whispered to me, but I decided to believe that I didn't, because you confessed your love to Yuki.
"It wasn't your fault. I didn't reject you. I… wanted it too." I hid my face when I said the last words. When did I become such a pervert to recognize that I wanted to have sex with someone. You sighted. Maybe you were pissed. I didn't have the courage to look in your eyes.
"You shouldn't. I'm not the type of man to play like a good boyfriend. After all I was cursed to lose everything what's dear to me." I moved my gaze on you for some seconds. I couldn't believe your words till I saw your face. You really mean it. I don't know why, but I got up on my tiptoes and pressed my lips to yours. You looked at me surprised.
"I know that and I think I'm cursed too, so I guess we're a good match." I don't know from where that line came but it managed to make you laugh.
"Tsh… Just put some clothes on you." You'd finally said so I ran to change myself. When I was ready I found you in the kitchen drinking a coffee and smoking a cigarette. You changed yourself in some blue shorts.
"Is it your apartment?"
"Yeah. Welcome to my paradise." I could feel the irony in your voice.
"But… Aren't you staying with your family?"
"No. I think they're two years since I left my house. The best decision in my life."
"The best decision in your life?" I asked curious. Me and my brother are getting along so fine that I'd never thought of moving alone.
"Yeah. They're better without me anyway." You said it cool, but I could feel the pain in your voice.
"My mother was an easy woman who left my father. He became an alcoholic and he started to abuse me and my brother till Sora ran here with me. They had never called us. I heard that Sora met my mom once after that and he asked him some money to pay her rent with her new man. Sometimes I'm wondering what they're doing, if they're thinking about us. My brother is my only relative, he was the only person who really wanted me so I was really happy when you talked with me. I don't know why, but you were the only person who was looking at me and really speaking with me." I smiled embarrassed. I'd probably said something stupid again, but… I'm not scared of my stupidity when I'm with you.
"You're odd." Your words cut though my heart deeper than a knife. "But I understand you. I didn't believe that you had a crappy life so I guess we're in the same boat." Then you made my smile. "I will walk you home." You announce finishing your coffee.
"Why did you join the yazuka?" I asked while you were washing your cup.
"I don't want to talk about that." It was the first time when you decided to hide something from me. I should have never asked about it. Now I'd probably made you angry. "Let's go."
"Yes. You're right." I said not knowing what to say. I was feeling dizzy. My legs started to ache. I didn't know the reason, but Ichigo moved his arm around my waist.
"You need to take a shower and eat something sweet. It will ease the pain." Soon my body was feeling so weak that you needed to carry me bridal style.
"I'm sorry that you always end saving me." I said hiding my face in your jacket. You should at least put a T-shirt on you.
"Tsh… Whatever." I was so caught in my thinking that I didn't saw how close I was to your heart. It was beating normal, but for me it was feeling special. "We're here." You said making me aware that my little fantasy ended.
"Yes." I said opening the door. My legs weren't still well, but I could enter in my home. "Do you want to come in?" You looked at me and then at the door. It made me so nervous to not know what you're thinking.
"I guess it can't be helped." You said closing the door and walking with me upstairs. You found my room easily like you were hundreds of time here. As soon as we entered in, the magic began to happen. Our lips met again and we let ourselves to feel the moment. You were trying to unzip your pants when my phone started to ring. It annoyed me, because it made you to leave. I couldn't say something to stop you, probably we shouldn't do this when my brother is going to come.
"What's up, Nana?" I asked seeing her Id.
"I have a problem. The thing is that our kendo championship changed its location. We're going to Tokyo. We're going to fight with one of the best kendo's school. Plus we need someone to accompany us. I think I'm going to die." It wasn't Nana's style to call me or to ask me my help. She wasn't like Hayori.
"Do you need a teacher, because I think mrs. Hanabi, would…"
"No, we need a girl of boy of our age, from our school. I ask all the people I know but they were busy with the trainings with their own clubs. I think I'm going to announce them that it will be canceled. I'm so sorry for them, but I guess it's always the next year. Thank you for listening to me. Bye." Nana wanted to end the call but I stopped her in the last minute.
"Wait. It's no need for you to do that. I'm going to help you."
"Help me? Orihime you're really bad at sports. I don't think it's good for you to spend all day running after us."
"It's ok. I'm not that bad at running, plus it's going to be just for 3 days. Some sports maybe will help me to raise my sports grades. After all it's good for my college application." I tried to justify my decision, but I don't think I did it so good.
"Geez, I'm going to feel responsible if something bad happens to you." If she said that I'm more than sure that she will agree with my decision. "Ok. I think a short break will help you to air your brain. So much learning will make you crazy."
"Yes." I said it without thinking and I made Nana to laugh. I can't help it. I was just glad that in this way I can be close to Ichigo. Maybe we're going to get along better after this short trip. I couldn't help daydreaming about it. I forgot even about Nana who was on the other side.