An: This is a new story and each chapter is set in a different point of view. I enjoy the feedback but all mistakes are mine and mine alone. This story does contain slash and Mpeg.
Laura
I heard the voice of my Uncle Mark telling me I had to get better that I couldn't go out like this. But all I really wanted was my dad's I wanted them to tell me that they love me. But hearing Uncle Mark talk about Dad and how he thought I hated him for getting daddy pregnant it hurt to know that I made him feel that way. I could never hate him I was so proud of him he is my father just as much I love them both so much. I hate myself for everything I put them through, they were only trying to protect me when I hurt them with words that shouldn't have been said. Listing to Uncle Mark tell me that Dad was pregnant and couldn't be here even though he would risk it all to be by my side. I didn't want him here I didn't want him to risk himself or my unborn sibling I would never forgive myself then. I heard Uncle Mark talking to another man and I heard him call him talk about medical stuff. Then I heard Uncle Mark talk some more and the familiar softness in his voice as he called me Kiddo I wanted to cry for hurting my family over a guy who left me to fend for myself. Sometime I am glad that I have inherited my father's traits but sometimes I hate it because the stubbornness is the worst. I could hold a grudge better than anyone and it never really matter. But the biggest one I regret is the one against my fathers. I felt my Uncle let go of my hand and then I heard him talking.
"I'll go get coffee and I'll be back." Mark said as I wondered who he was talking to. I then heard the chair and then felt a hand in mine again and a kiss to my forehead as I heard a voice I longed to hear.
"Baby girl I love you so much. I need you to be ok you have to pull through this. I have known things have been bad between us over the years but I never and I mean never will stop loving you, your siblings, your father and you are my life I can't lose you not now. Your dad is losing his mind he told me tonight just how hurt he was that, well he thinks you hate him for getting me pregnant at seventeen. Baby you may not have been planned but once we found out about you, you were everything to us and you still are you are, our baby girl and you always will be. Your father and I want more than anything for you to come back to us please baby girl please." Dad said as I could hear the sound of his sobs as he laid his head down on my bed. It was that saying all over again the one Kelly drilled into my head Life is like a waterfall it flows and never stops. I tried my hardest to move but I was so choked up all I could get out was a few words as I opened my eyes.
"Daddy…you…came" I said as I smiled and his head shot up. Before I knew what was going on I was being engulfed in my father's arms.
"Baby girl I love you and I am so damn sorry that I let this go on so damn long. Your dad and I we love you so much we miss you." Dad said
"I love you too…I am sorry…I wish dad was here." I said
"Oh baby girl he wanted to be here so bad but he couldn't make it due to the difficult of the pregnancy. Trust me he wants you to know he loves you so much and want's nothing more than for you to come home even if for only the holidays. And I do too baby girl I miss you so much." Dad said as I looked to see his tears falling I reached up and wiped them away.
"Daddy I would love to come home. I miss you both so much and the twins if I am welcome I would love to." I cried I couldn't hold it back any more I wanted my dad's and I wanted to go home after all that I have been through these past six years all I wanted was to go home. As much as I loved New York I knew that I could get a job anywhere. But I want to go back to Texas with my family where I belong.
"You are more than welcome to come home baby girl your dad and I we have tired over the years to come to New York to surprise you but we always missed you. Every time we got back home your father got more and more depressed thinking he failed you as a father. No matter how much I and your Uncle Mark would tell him otherwise he still believes it." Dad said
"Do you think you can call him for me and tell him I love him?" I asked
"How about we call and you can tell him yourself." Dad said as I smiled he picked up the phone and dialed a number as he left it on speaker.
"Hello." he said
"Hey Baby how you are?" Daddy asked
"Good how's our baby girl?" Dad asked
"Dad I am better now. I love you." I said as I couldn't help the tears that fell from my eyes as I listened to my dad cry.
"Oh baby girl I was so worried about you. I wanted to be there so bad. I love you so much." Dad said as I couldn't help but cry even more knowing that I hurt him the way that I did.
"Dad I am so sorry about the things I said and did. I should have listened to you and daddy and I am so sorry." I cried as I felt a tight squeeze to my hand as I looked to my father to see him smiling at me.
"Baby girl please even if it's for the holidays come home. I need you here so much. I just want to hold you and god I miss you so much." Dad said
"I was telling Daddy that I wanted to come home but wasn't sure if you wanted me there after everything I said. I am so sorry I hurt you with what I said I didn't mean it and I wouldn't change it I love you and daddy so much." I said
"Baby girl I would love to have you home here forever. This is your home just as much is it is the twins and this baby's. And I am over the whole thing sure I felt hurt all these years after you said it but like you said I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. You are my baby girl and you always will be please come home." Dad said
"As soon as they let me out Uncle Mark, Daddy and I will be home and it'll be for good. Not just the holiday." I said
"I can't wait." Dad said
"Baby you sound tired and its 3am here so it's after mid-night there get some rest and we'll call you in the morning. I love you." Daddy said
"I love you too Babe and you and Mark get plenty of rest too and bring our baby girl home ok promise me." Dad said
"I promise you Shawn we'll all come home safe you tell Chloe and Zack that we love them and we'll see you soon." Daddy said as they hung up and I couldn't help but smile. I was finally getting everything I ever wanted and that was going home to my family. It was kind of bitter sweet knowing it had to take me getting shot for me to realize that I wanted nothing more than to go home. "Sleep baby girl I'll be here when you wake."