An: This is a new story and each chapter is set in a different point of view. I enjoy the feedback but all mistakes are mine and mine alone. This story does contain slash and Mpeg.

Randy

I looked over to John who was sitting on the end of the bed with a smile on his face as he talked to Alanna. I was happy as well with how everything was going. John and I have been together for about five years going on six. We have a handsome little boy to show for and just recently got soul custody of Alanna. Sam had just gotten remarried and her new husband and she were trying for a baby. They would drop Alanna off at my parents for days at a time. Mom and dad advised me and John to talk about possibly getting custody of Alanna. After a bit of talking to John we came to the conclusion that we would go ahead and file for custody. Not only a week after we filed had we found out John was really sick and losing weight. Only to find out that he was pregnant. We had always been very careful with everything but we were happy. The day that we found out we were having a little boy was the day we found out we won our case and Alanna was coming to live with us. Sam was not happy to say the least and even more pissed off after finding out that John and I were having a baby. There was one thing that stuck in the back of my mind and that was Laura she was always there for John and I. I remember when both John and I got divorced and she told me she had a thing for John I was all kinds of happy for her. Then only to find out that she asked out Wade a man that both John and I hated with great passion. After John had admitted his feelings to me and told me that Laura helped him get the nerve to ask me out. I realized just how much she gave up to let John be happy. The day that Shawn called me and told me that Laura was shot and in a hospital in New York John and I were almost on a plane. But we had a match and our boss wouldn't let us go. After everything was said and done and we knew they were coming home I had called Mark to ask if he know anything. He told me that she finally told Hunter and Shawn the truth about her and Wade. That was another thing that had me and John talking about Laura and how much we both love her. John knew that I had feelings for Laura but never said anything to her about them just as I never said anything about her feeling about him. We had talked about having her over and trying to make a deal of some sorts with her. We just hoped that she would be ok with it and we could talk her dads into allowing this to happen. It was going to make the three of us very happy.

"Ok baby see you tomorrow after noon. Love you too. Here's daddy." John said as he handed me the phone.

"Hey baby how was the week with your mom?" I asked

"It was ok I missed you and daddy a lot." Alanna said

"What do you mean ok?" I asked

"Mom just, you know what I'll tell you and daddy tomorrow I don't want to get into trouble if she hears me." Alanna said

"Ok I'll pick you up at noon. Ok?" I asked

"Ok Daddy I love you." Alanna said

"I love you too baby." I said as I hung up and turned to look at John who was now stripping down and crawling into bed. I hung up the phone and plugged it in as I too stripped down and join him. Once I was under the covers he pulled me close and held me tightly. I leaned up and kissed his lips as his hands roamed down my back.

"Ran, what were you thinking about when I was talking to Alanna?" John asked

"Um, a lot really. You and me and how lucky we are to have Alanna with us and with having Matthew. Then of course got to thinking about Laura and all she's been through. And hoping that everything goes well tomorrow. And if it does how everyone's going to handle it." I said

"Ran I have always loved you from the first day I meant you. But never thought we would happen. Then Liz popped back into my life and well you know how that turned out. I was sure I was done and you and Laura were there for me and made me realize that I could love again. And I was going to tell Laura that I had a crush on her only to overhear her tell Michelle that she had a crush on you. It was after I had already told her that I had feelings for you and she agreed to help me tell you." John said

"I know and I love you too since day one. And after Laura told off Sam and Liz I fell for her too. But never thought that I could have either of you and now here you and I are together with our family and hopefully it'll grow." I said

"I hope so too. Laura will be a great addition to our family and I can't wait. Randy, Laura loves us both she always has and let's hope that she always will." John said

"Come on let's get some sleep and we can worry about it all tomorrow when she is here. I love you Johnny so much you have to know that me loving her won't change what you and I have." I said

"I know Ran because I love you too and I love her and nothing is going to change but for the better. We the three of us will be happy if we can convince her to be with us. It's very unconventional and yet it feels so wrong not having her here with us." John said as the two of us leaned in and kissed. We both moved to the center of the bed and fell to sleep.

I woke up to the light shining through and hitting me in the face. I reached over to pull John close and his side of the bed was empty. I then looked to the clock on John's side of the bed and saw it was 8am and Laura would be here soon. I sat up and heard the shower running and knew right where John was. I got to the door and heard the water to turn off I knew I missed my chance. The door opened and there stood John in nothing but a towel.

"Good Morning handsome." John said as he kissed my lips.

"Umm good morning sexy can I get you to join me in the shower again." I asked

"Any other given day I would say yes, but we have a busy day ahead of us. Laura will be here in an hour and then you have to pick Al up at noon and your parents will be here about 3 and then were off to Hunter and Shawn's by 5." John said as I smiled thinking about our children coming home. And getting to hopefully fulfill other dreams along the way. John had finished getting dressed as I looked up and smiled at him.

"Ok I see your point you go start breakfast and I'll be right down. Love you." I said

"Love you too." John said as I headed into the shower letting the hot water run over me hoping that today was going to end well. I walked out of the bathroom and into the closet and found jogging pants and a t-shirt. Walking into the kitchen I could see John hard at work making bacon and mixing up the pancake mix.

"Anything I can help with?" I asked as I stood next to John and wrapped my arms around his waist.

"Um…you can cut up the fruit and butter up some toast." John said as I got to work on everything he asked me to do. The two of us were finishing up getting finished when the clock chimed 9. I started to get really nervous as it was getting close for the time for Laura to arrive. I turned and flipped the coffee pot on and grabbed the milk and sugar and placed it on the table. Once it was finished I looked at the clock and seen it was about a quarter after 9. I sat at the table and watched as John finished the pancakes.

"Johnny what if she doesn't come?" I asked

"She said she would. Ran we have to give her a bit of leeway I mean she's home for the first time in years." John said as the doorbell rang "See."

"I know here goes." I said as I walked out of the kitchen and in to the hall and opened the door. There she stood looking like she had six years ago she still looked great.

"Hey there Ran." Laura said

"Hey Laura. It's so good to see you." I said as she stepped forward and hugged me. I wrapped my arms around her and held her as tight as I could without hurting her. I pulled back without releasing her looking into her eyes I couldn't help the feeling of wanting to kiss her.

"Mind if I get a hug." John said as I then released her and she walked to him and the two hugged as John kissed her cheek. As I watched the two hug I couldn't be any happier then I was right now.

"I can't tell you how much I have missed you two. First off I have to say how sorry that I didn't listen to you either of you about Wade…" Laura started as I walked to her and John and wrapped my arm around her.

"Laura you never have to apologize for that it's in the past and it going to stay there. Wade is never going to bother you again we promise. Right now all that matters is that you are home and safe. We love you so much and we would do anything to make you happy." I said

"Randy is right Laura we love you and will do anything for you. Come on let's go eat I am hungry." John said as he guided both Laura and I to the kitchen where breakfast was waiting for us.

"So tell me about you two in the last five years?" Laura asked as I looked to John and he smiled as did I.

"After you left we just went on working. Finally, after a few long talks we gave us a chance and here we are. We were happy with splitting time between St. Louis and Tampa then Sam and her new husband moved here so we followed so we had access to Al. And not long after we found this house and moved my parents moved here as well." I said

"Wow so how is Al?" Laura asked

"She's great she loves it here." John said

"And she's ok with you too?" Laura asked

"Yeah I became Daddy John within the first few months. A year after we got together she asked us for a sibling. But with our schedules it was not going to happen. But then I got sick and was losing weight and Ran got scared and made me go to the doctors and there I found out I was pregnant." John said

"We were always so careful but it just happened and there was so much going on at that time too." I said

"Like what?" Laura asked

"Oh crap with Sam. She would drop Alanna off at my parents' house for days at a time and my parents suggest I file for soul custody. It was granted and she lives with us full time." I said

"And how is Sam now after you two got custody?" Laura asked

"She was pissed but she became even more pissed when she found out that I was pregnant and was giving Ran another baby." John said

"I wish I could have been here." Laura said

"All that matters now is you are here now." I said as I reached over and took her hand into mine. John then reached and took my other hand into his.

"Ok you two I love you both dearly now how about you tell me what's up?" Laura asked

"What do you mean?" John asked

"You two could never lie to me and you are keeping something from me so talk." Laura said

"Look Laura what took so long for us to get together was you…" I started as she cut me off.

"Me…how could I…" Laura started as interrupted me.

"Let me finish. Laura I had always had a huge crush on you. And after Sam and I divorced I was going to tell you but you told me that you had a thing for John." I said

"And I had a thing for you and for Randy but couldn't make up my mind who I wanted more. Then I talked to you and you pretty much pushed me to go after my feeling for Ran, then I overheard you tell Michelle that you had a thing for Randy. Next thing we know you are dating Wade and leaving to head to New York." John said

"Aunt Michelle is the only one who knew that I had a huge crush on you both. John what you overheard was just the part about me liking Randy if you had stuck around you would have heard me say I liked you too. It was Aunt Michelle who told me to go for someone else. And it was my stupidity that went after someone you both hate." Laura said

"Laura one of the reason's we asked you over was we wanted to ask you something that could change all our lives forever." I said

"Laura we both meant what we said last night and this morning that we love you. We both missed you, and since your dad called and told us about you being shot we both felt like a part of us was missing." John said

"Laura I love John with all my heart and that family we created, but in my heart there is still one thing missing. And it's the part of me that is in love with you." I said

"And I have to agree with Ran I love our little family that we have and there is only one thing that could make it better and that's you." John said as she sat in the chair looking at the two of us like we were crazy. Then she looked down at her hands and started to shake her head. I watched as she got up and walked away from the table and then my heart stopped when I heard the front door open and close. I looked to John who sat there with a look of shock on his face as the tears started to form. John and I both planed this out on how we were going to handle everything and how we would have explained our love for her. What we didn't except was her to walk away from us without telling us anything. I think I would have been fine is she told me that she just wanted to be friends and nothing more, but knowing that she walked out of the house without saying a word hurt more. John got up and walked over to me and pulled me into his arms and held me tightly as the tears slowly started to fall. I have always guarded my feeling and it was very rare if I cried. The passing of my grandmother and John's grandmother and then the birth of my children it all made me cry. And now I can add the fact that the love that John and I share for Laura pushed her away.