~ Daphne ~

Theo: You're keeping something from me…

Daphne: I know I am ...That's what makes it fun…

Theo: Grrrrrr….

Daphne: Oh what are you growling at?

I smiled stupidly at my phone for a few moments as I waited for his reply. After a beat, however, I threw my phone across the bed in frustration.

Why did I do this to myself?

All that the conversation between us was able to accomplish was him getting off, and my mind filling with images of the two of us. His mind would likely be filled with images of someone else, I was almost entirely sure of it.

I heard my phone buzz, signalling his reply, so I reached forward, grabbing the phone before sliding down on my bed to rest my head on the pillow. I tugged my blanket across my lap before swiping to open his message.

Theo: Nothing

I wasn't sure why I had expected a different answer from him. It was always the same. My response most likely would be something along the lines of suuuuuuureeeee or lol and the conversation would slowly die off. Shrugging, I typed my message and sent it off.

No matter how hard I have thought about it, I can't figure out why I'm still drawn to him. There is absolutely no reason for me to have any emotions left for the man who broke my heart. No reason for me to want to talk to the guy who cheated on me in the ending months of my relationship with him. Or at least that's what the rumors said.

Our relationship hadn't lasted very long, but for me it was the longest to date, and for the most part, I was happy. Sure we had our fair share of fights, but it wasn't anything that any other couple hadn't gone through before. Disagreements about the stupidest of things, though, could turn into the harshest of fights.

Our worst had been just weeks before we had broken up for good. I'd asked him to leave behind a vicious friendship with a girl that tore apart the relationship of our close friends. That couple, however, had been lucky enough to work things out. When I suggested to him that the friendship with Millie was a dangerous one, he lashed out at me and basically told me that there was nothing wrong with him going to comfort her when she needed it. Besides, it was Millie that told him not to break up with me in the first place when the worst of the fighting began a few weeks prior.

God forbid I point out to him that if this situation was exactly the same as him telling me that I needed to cut all ties with Ron after we had started dating. My friendship with Ron was completely harmless in my opinion, but Theo had decided that it was the one line that if I crossed it, then we were over. Apparently, I wasn't allowed to talk a close friend from high school down off the edge and save him from committing suicide. That just wasn't an acceptable reason for me to worry about another guy.

As I waited to see if he would actually message me back, my mind started running through the list of things that I was keeping from him. Where would he like me to begin? The list just kept adding to itself each and every time we talked.

I always typed out what I wanted to say to him, but then I would erase and send the "acceptable" answer happily, and act like the clueless moron I'm guessing he thought that I was.

The acceptable one.

The one that wouldn't fuck up the understanding we currently had.

One that wouldn't admit to still having unresolved feelings for each other, and prove to him that he wasn't happy in the relationship he was in, even if they were living together.

The answer that wouldn't tell him that I missed him and the person that he made me become.