~Daphne~
Checking the time on my phone for the millionth time, I see that it's almost two am and here I am stupidly waiting for the next message to come in from him. Knowing my luck, he probably went to sleep.
I don't know why it bothers me that he fell asleep on me. It's not like we are trying to make plans or anything. We are just looking for some virtual company to help us both drift off to sleep for the evening. Although I'd much rather have some physical connections right about. It's been far too long since the last time I got any kind of action other than that of a battery operated toy. And, of course, that action had been the absolute shittiest experience I have ever had.
Ron and I were definitely just meant to be friends and nothing more. Not that I have talked to him since our awkward encounter. I haven't exactly wanted to talk to him. How can you not realize that you aren't actually having sex and are just dry humping my thigh for fifteen minutes? I did not want to take control of the situation, but I did because I want some chance at getting off that day. Even if I did have to finish the job when I got back home.
Worst fifteen minutes of my life.
The answer that morning when he invited me over should have been a resounding no, but I got curious. I think we built things up way too much and both of us ended up highly disappointed with the results. He and Lavender seem happy now though, so at least he should be happy with the way that things panned out. I'm glad it worked out for him.
Resisting the urge to check my phone, I pull my blankets up over my head in a desperate attempt to fall asleep. I'm sure he'll be visiting my dreams tonight like he always does, even though it'd be nice for once to not dream about him.
Some days I wish we could go back to the simple days when we were just fucking and then falling asleep. It may have been in our best interest to not spend the night together afterwards. Especially after how rocky of a start we had.
It started out innocent and fun, just harmless flirting and playful banter between two friends. Two friends who happened to develop feelings for each other after some time had passed, even though just like now he had a different girlfriend when we first started talking.
That probably should have been my first clue that things weren't going to work out between us. Little too late to come to that conclusion I guess.
Anyways, it was all innocent when it first started. He and his girlfriend had broken up not long after we started talking. For the longest time, everything was clean and innocent. Just two friends getting to know each other. Then, a simple sentence was taken a different way from how it was meant leading to the conversation taking a turn for the more interesting and the more playful.
Finally, I start drifting off to sleep, but before I fall asleep completely I grab my phone and shoot a quick text off to Theo. Then he can't get mad at me for falling asleep on him. I told him what happened.