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Okay so...um..please don't yell at me? I know I haven't uploaded this since November. I'm freaking terrible and I feel terrible about it but I had to finish Sleeps nights with Rogue! And as for those who've read it, you know that I had a real hard time writing that. It took a lot of my inspiration for this one out of me. No more though..maybe a little but for now I am back!
I'm not going to give you guys a schedule on this story to be honest but I will be posting chapters frequently! No more waiting months!
This one was just a little rushed. And I know "how the fuck is this rushed when you had months to write it." Like i said the inspiration for this chapter completely left me but it gets better! Also it's a short chapter! Sorry v.v
Thank you for sticking around though and waiting patiently for this! Also...my SNK FANS..SEASON TWO THOUGH?!
Eren's been silent the entire time. He's just sitting there looking out the window, no emotion on his face. Levi is convinced Eren is either done with him or he just doesn't want to deal with him anymore. While Eren truly doesn't know what to make out of this.
Levi pulls up to the front of Eren's house. He even turns his car off and looks over at Eren. "E-Eren…" He called out to the boy.
"Hm?" Eren answers not even looking at Levi.
"I…I just wanted to tell you…I wanted you to know but.."
Eren however cuts him off. "I..I can't hear this right now…I-I'm sorry." He says quickly unbuckling the seat belt and opening the car door, closing it a bit hard it makes Levi flinch.
"Fuck." Levi breathes out.
Eren makes it inside of his house walking upstairs right to his room and closing the door behind him. He gets changed into his pjs and climbs back in bed. He closes his eyes drifting off to sleep. He didn't want to deal with tonight. He didn't know how to deal with tonight so he did the logical thing and went the hell to sleep.
When Eren woke up in the morning his mind was still racing. He truly didn't want to think about what secret was revealed to him because he was pretty sure that if he did his brain was explode. So nope. Today he was going to get dressed and act like nothing happened. Is he gonna talk to Levi? Nope. Was he gonna think about the feeling he had for Rivaille…or well Levi? NOPE. Eren Jaeger was avoiding his problems for this day. Nobody can tell him different.
After getting dressed he walks downstairs seeing his family. "Good morning family!" He said in a cheery loud voice.
"Morning baby. How are you this morning?" His mother ask smiling at her son.
"I'm wonderful mom. Where's Rin?" Eren replies while kissing his her cheek then proceeds to hug his grandma and the rest.
"Ahh, she got up early this morning and went out with Mikasa."
He freezes. "O-oh…well i'm going out for a run!"
"A run?" She asks curiously.
"Yes mommy, a run…it's summer i'm not trying to be a lazy butt." He says with a pout to his face.
She just laughs at her son. "Go head. Have a good run, be careful!"
Eren takes his headphones out of his pockets to put them on opening the door but before he closes it he hears his mother yells. "NO ALLEYS!" He laughs and rolls his eyes closing the door turning his music on. The first song that plays is a No Name song he immediately changes the entire playlist. He wasn't dealing with it, he was going to ignore it.
Eren returned about two hours later. He couldn't even believe he rang that long himself. He needed the time to think though. So as soon as Eren got home, he went straight to his room locking himself inside of it.
(A week later.)
Eren hasn't spoken to Levi at all. Ignored all his text messages, his calls as well. He read them. It was cruel and he knew that but he just couldn't get over it. That's the thing that's really weighing on Eren though. He couldn't get over what is the question. What exactly can't he get over? Fuck, he didn't have an answer for that and that just pissed him off even more. Of course he wanted to speak to Levi, why wouldn't he not want to? As far as he's concerned Rivaille …Levi is still the same person he's been. So again…why can't Eren speak to him?
Sure Levi deceived him but he gets why…he HAD to. I mean honestly Eren would've done the same thing. Again for the millionth time in Eren's brain he just couldn't pick us his phone and reply. Eren smashed his face into his pillow and let out a loud frustrated groan. He would suck it up, he had to tell Levi he understood and he wasn't mad.
Lifting his face out of the pillow he grabbed his phone and unlocked it. He was going to do it before he lost every little bit of nerve he had. He went to the last text Levi just sent him literally 5 minutes ago.
From: Levy Wevy
Eren…please. Speak to me.
To: Levy Wevy
I…Ugh. This is frustrating because I totally understand why you couldn't tell me like seriously I get it but i'm kind like upset because you knew how I felt about you or well Rivaille…which is you…because you are Rivaille. I mean like it just…i'm upset because you know I have feelings for you…well i really admire you I mean. Your band is so amazing and its just bizarre that you're Rivaille. I get it why you couldn't tell me and why you waited so long I get it. Sorry it took so long to talk to you….
Eren hit send. He didn't even know what he typed to be honest. He wanted to get it out while he had the courage and now that he sent it and actually read over it he now considers himself the biggest idiot ever but hey too late now. Before he even could lock his phone Levi wrote back.
From: Levy Wevy
Can we meet?
Eren froze. Should he see Levi? Is he ready for that? 'Dear kami, get ahold of yourself Eren! You are Eren fucking Jaeger! You are son of Grisha and Carla Jaeger, the brother of Erin Jaeger. Suicidal crazy Eren Jaeger! Just do it!'
To: Levy Wevy
I'm home alone, so you can come over.
From: Levy Wevy
Be there in 20.
Exactly 20 minutes later someone was knocking on Eren's door. He was Eren god damn Jaeger, he wasn't no pussy…maybe just a little nervous. He changed his clothes and paced his room for a good 15 minutes. Eren ran down the stairs and went to the door taking a deep breath he pulled the door open. He looked up at Levi right into the young mans eyes.
He moved to the side motioning for Levi to come inside. Levi steps inside not taking his eyes off Eren taking his shoes off by the door..
"D-Do you want something to drink?" Eren ask shyly.
Levi smirked a little. "No, thank you."
Eren nodded and walked over to the couch. Levi followed close behind. They both sat down, Levi set his guitar down to the side of the couch. Eren took another deep breath making as silent as possible, how ever Levi noticed. Of course he wondered why Eren was nervous but he guesses in this situation he would be.
"Eren…I wanna apologize again." Levi started. "I, no matter what reason I had I should have told you. I shouldn't have kind of lead you on like that…it was so fucked up of me." He took a deep breath.
Eren shook his head. "No, really. I understand I do. I…I forgive you."
"I..um." Levi cleared his throat. "Can I sing you a song?"
"W-what?"
"I want to sing you a song…can I?"
Eren just nods his head. Levi picks up his guitar , he takes his guitar pick out of his pocket. He looks right at Eren. "I changed the lyrics around but…I feel like this song explains how I feel…as Rivaille and Levi."
Levi starts playing the guitar.
Now even though I try to play it off
I'm thinking about you all day long
And I can't wait for you to come through
From your lips and back up to your eyes
My hands on your hips when we grind
I'm fantasizing bout what I'm gonna do to you
Got me fiening for his love can't lie
Man you should see how he got me
Spending all this time with him
And I couldn't leave him if I wanted to
His love turns men into fools
Tell me what a man is to do
Levi's eyes is closed letting the words just flow out hoping that even though it's not his song the words are getting through to Eren.
Cause I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind
I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind
He opens his eyes and look right at Eren. The brunette has a bit of a shocked looked to his face. Even through Levi's singing he smiles a bit. 'Eren is so fucking cute' he thinks. This was all odd to Levi. He never wanted to lie to Eren at all, and thank fuck Eren understood. He guess it was really time that he confessed to Eren especially about his feelings. Levi wasn't lying to Eren when he told him he likes him even if he was being Rivaille when he said it. This was so fucking out of Levi's character and he knew that of course he knew that, but the thing is he didn't care because Eren brought that out of him. It was something no one, not his mother,uncle, sister, or friends could bring out of him. Eren hasn't even lived here long at all but yet here Levi was so into him. Before he knew it he was at the part of the song that really explained how he felt.
Don't ever leave me boy
I need you inside my world
I can't go a day without you
And see nobody else will ever do
I'll never feel like I feel with you
The raven didn't know if this was love or what it was all he knew was that it was deep and so…so what's the word he's looking for?
Cause I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me
I suffocate when you're away from me
Suffocating isn't exactly the word for it either. It's just this overwhelming deeply intense feeling that made his heart clench in a good way. Just looking at Eren made his stomach feel like he had millions of butterflies and his heart was about to fly out his chest.
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind
I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind
Levi played the last bit of the song letting the echo from the guitar stop. He put his guitar back to the side of the couch looking at Eren not expecting something just wanting to make sure he got his point across.
Eren stared at Levi for another good 30 seconds before he even really thought about it what he was doing. His arms were around Levi's neck, he knees was digging into the couch, his lips were pressed against Levi's. Eren realized what he did and was just about to pull back but the hand on his lower back pulling him closer so the kiss deepened, Levi tongue swept over Eren's bottom lip asking for entrance and Eren granted it. Their tongue mingling together, playing, teasing the other. Eren sucked on Levi's tongue when he retracted his tongue from Eren the brunette caught his bottom lip between his teeth. When Eren let go they both stare at each other trying to catch their breaths, the taller mans eyes kept looking between Eren's eyes and his lips. Those eyes were pulling him in so fucking deep but those lips…those sinful pink plump lips. Eren was doing the same thing looking between Levi's eyes and his lips. The feelings surging through Eren isn't unfamiliar but they weren't completely familiar either. When Levi sang to him, he understood every single word and for a minute it overwhelmed him but he got it he did. Eren couldn't understand why he kissed the older boy…but damn did it feel so fucking good. Eren looked at Levi and became so aware of Levi touching him, it didn't bother him. Levi and him weren't even in a relationship but what Eren realized was that he wanted Levi. In a sexual way…he wanted Levi inside of him. He doesn't know why but he threw all fucking caution to the wind which was so unlike Eren, but he did. He whispered. "Let's go to my room." He stood up while holding Levi's hand pulling the older boy up and dragging him up the stairs to his room.
Levi was thoroughly confused at why Eren wanted to go upstairs but like fuck he was gonna stop it from happening. Once they made it to Eren's room, the brunette pushed Levi inside and locked his bedroom door. He stood by the door for a minutes then looked at Levi, he walked slowly over to the taller boy pushing him gently back till the back of Levi's knees hit the bed, he pushed Levi till the taller boy sat on the bed. Eren got on Levi's lap straddling him, he put his arms around his neck.
"I-I know we just made up…and i'm just…now talking to you…and I know this is gonna sound really crazy but…I want to have sex with you." Eren blurted out.
Levi blinked once, twice, three times. 'What did he just say?' Levi eyes went a little wide when the words finally sunk in. 'Eren wants to have sex with. Eren wants to have sex. Eren is straddling my lap. I just made out with Eren. HOLY FUCK HE IS BASICALLY SITTING RIGHT ON MY DICK. Okay, calm down Levi. Wow you don't even sound like yourself. You're just here talking to yourself not even saying anything. Oh shit!' He looked at Eren and cleared his throat. "Y-You wanna have sex?" Levi controlled his emotions on his face but in his head he wanted to slap himself for stuttering.
Eren nodded at him. "Yes. I…I have this really weird feeling going through my body. It's like tingles and…" Eren grind his erection right into Levi's making the taller boy gasp and himself let out a small gasp breath."I-I want it Levi…"
Levi put his hands firmly on Eren's hip to hold the boy from moving anymore against him like that. He had to take a deep breath because fuck he was pretty sure he almost came from just that. "Eren. I want you to understand something."
Eren looked at him and titled his head to the side. "Understand what?"
'Oh my god. So fucking cute.' Levi thought. He cleared his throat then looked Eren right in the eyes. "I like you. Hell I might even love you. I don't just want you for your body. If we had sex you could end up regretting it and probably never speak to me again and I couldn't have that. Or you might assume that I only wanted you for sex. Neither of those reasons work for me. Also we're not in a relationship at all. All we've done is established that I like you. If we have sex were going to do this the right way. I'm going to take you on a date, multiple dates and after those multiple dates i'll ask you to officially be my boyfriend, then we'll go on more dates, we'll cuddle, we'll have intense make out sessions on the couch, and then maybe we'll have sex if you're ready." Levi kept full eye contact with Eren. "If i'm being completely honest…I just don't want us to have sex. I want to make love to your body, I want you to feel every single one of my emotions just flowing into you." Levi's face was so close to Eren's their lips almost touching, Eren was melting at every word. "So when I do take you…and believe me Eren. I will…and I won't hold back. It'll be the best you've ever had. For now…I'm holding back because I don't want to take advantage of you anymore or your feelings and…as you know No Name…well i'm going on tour Eren, after touring college and I…" Levi pressed his lips against Eren's and the boy kissed back. Levi pulled back first. Eren was left breathless after that short kiss. Levi had to take a deep breath hating he have to tell Eren this when he technically just got him back…I mean he just got to kiss him for fuck sakes! "I'm not coming back to Trost."
Eren paused blinking at the older boy in front of him. "What? You're not coming back to Trost?"