CHAPTER 25 - TRUTH
AT SYAORAN'S OFFICE
'Morning Syaoran'
'Naomi, what are you doing here?
'Just came by to drop off this invitation. For some reason it came to my house with mine'
'That is odd, leave it here please. Thanks'
'Why don't you open it now?'
Syaoran gave her a confused look as he opened the envelope
'It is a party at Tanaka's house in a few months' time. A charity ball to be precise…'
'Tanaka? You mean Dr. Tanaka? How do you even know this guy?
'Oh, I met him at Takeshi's birthday party, remember?'
'Right…'
'Looks like your little ex- girlfriend will be there as well. Sigh… that girl turned out to be trashier than I thought'
'You can go now Naomi, thanks'
'Ummm… I can see you haven't let her go yet… does it hurt Syaoran? You know, you can always-
'I really don't have time for you right now, please leave my office'
'Gosh! You are so rude sometimes. I am here trying to be sincere and you cut me off. Well I guess I will see you there'
Syaoran was extremely annoyed by this point…
'Why are you even going?'
'I am actually considering investing some of the stocks you manage for me into his biggest company'
'Another… company?'
'Yeah, the pharmaceutical company Black Swan BioScience… I thought you… knew'
'No… I didn't know…' – his expression darkened and many thoughts crossed his mind – 'Sorry I have to make a phone call now'
'Sure, but I will leave only if you ask me nicely…'
He stared at her very unamused
'Alright... I will go'
She closed the door behind her. He dialled Sakura's number
'W-what is it?'
'Finally you pick up my calls, I need to see you right away'
'I can't, I am at work'
'So am I. This is important, if you don't come out I will go over there and-
'No no! It is ok, I will meet you. Where?'
'Go to the Penguin Park in half an hour'
Sakura was the first to arrive. She was sitting down on one of the swings, enjoying the afternoon sun. Suddenly someone covered her eyes from behind
'AH!'
'Don't be scared, it's me' – Syaoran came around the front and kneeled down to be at her same level.
She was exhausted, didn't have much sleep the night before. Her eyes were red and she didn't have any make up on.
'Why did you call me here?'
'I want you to tell me face to face the real reason why you are marrying him'
'Wh-whaaat?! What do you mean the reason… I told you before… I have feelings f-
'That is bullshit! Look at me! – he grabbed her face with one hand – 'You can tell me anything and I will believe it, except for THAT lie. Because it is a lie. I know you love me, I can feel it…'
She started to get really nervous and short of breath. She couldn't possible tell him the truth, it would probably put Syaoran in more danger as he would want to confront Tanaka.
'Why aren't you answering Sakura?'
'… I can't tell you what you want to know…'
'Why the hell not?! I deserve to know! I can't let you marry him, I just can't'
'It is done. I signed the papers this morning…'
He covered his face with both hands and sighed
'So this is it for us? You want this?! Fuck!'
'I think… it is for the best…'
'OK, if this is what you want. I won't look for you anymore… hope you are happy with him'
He stood up and started to walk away. Sakura's mind was playing these recent events over and over in slow motion. Her heart was broken in a million pieces, he was leaving. He was giving up on her…
("I am such a coward! Wouldn't it be better if we solved this problem together?… I don't know what to do anymore… Syaoran… please…")
Her thoughts slowly became words without realising it
'Syaoraaan!' – she got up and ran towards him crying – 'Don't leave me! I can't be without you, I love you!'
Her voice was breaking down and her tears wouldn't stop.
'You can't do this to me, Sakura. I need to go back to the office' – he pushed her away softly and left
After that afternoon, they didn't see or hear from each other for three whole months. On Tuesday Sakura moved to Tanaka's house which was massive, an old Japanese style mansion with many exquisite antiques. He felt it was necessary to put Sakura under surveillance. So everywhere she went, there were two guys accompanying her at all times. He bought her so many things and expensive clothes to wear, as well as her own car. Sakura's only wish was to have separate rooms in the mansion which Tanaka granted for the time being until she felt safer at her new home.
They were having breakfast together this morning for the first time
'I got you a great dress for my party tonight. It is on your bed' – Tanaka said while eating an apple
'Thanks…'
'You don't sound too thrilled… tonight is very important for me. Could you at least put on a show and pretend you are in love with me?'
'…' – she remained in silence and took a big spoonful of cereal
'This life isn't so bad, is it? I haven't forced you to do anything with me yet… Sakura, I want you to fall in love with me…'
'Is this your idea of romance?'
'Ha ha you are funny. It will be for your own good, trust me. I am a patient man, but if I get bored things can get pretty nasty, alright?' – he stood up – 'I have called in sick on your behalf at the hospital, so you can make sure everything is perfect for the charity ball tonight here'
'Sigh…'
THAT NIGHT
'Your wife is extremely beautiful Tanaka, I envy you'
'Ha ha, she truly is the best. Hey dear! come over here for a moment'
'G-good evening'
'Oh my, if we were alone I don't know what I might do to you Mrs. Tanaka'
Sakura was extremely unconformable with this guy's remarks. She was about to reply, but Tanaka interrupted
'Like I would allow that, kiss me Sakura?'
A chill went down her spine when Tanaka said that
'But – this is…'
The annoying gentleman was looking at her, smiling
'I said now…' – Tanaka pushed himself against her and kissed her
Sakura's face was extremely red and her blood was boiling with rage
'How cute, she is really blushing ha ha – said the seedy man – 'I would like to conduct business with you Tanaka, only if you let me go out on a date with your wife…'
'Deal! It is settled then ha ha'
Sakura pulled away from Tanaka's grip and left – 'Excuse me'
'Hey hey…I will be right back' – Tanaka chased after her
Someone was watching the scene from the other side of the room
'Sakura!'
'What?!'
'How dare you embarrass me in front of that man!'
'What do you think you are doing? I am not some sort of hostess that you can use for your business deals. I won't go out with that man'
'You will do as I say, you are mine on paper, right? I can use you however I want, it will be a different story when you actually become mine for real, you understand? Until then this is how it is' – he grabbed her by the waist harshly – 'Now change that stupid face expression and get yourself together'
Sakura was crying tears of anger and impotence, she clenched her fists
'Fix your make up and come join me again. I will be waiting'
("This is awful. I hate him so much!")
She walked outside for a moment towards the balcony and garden
'Sak-Sakura…'
'Syaoran… what are you doing here?'
'We were invited, my associates and I. What happened to you? Where is your husband?'
'Hey… what's wrong? Are you feeling sick?' – he reached out to her and pulled her towards his chest – 'Come here…'
'…umm, I will be fine'
'You don't look fine to me. You know… I saw you kissing him earlier…'
He looked down at her face: 'You love him, don't you? Part of me didn't want to believe it… Sorry, I shouldn't have said anything' - he let go of her and started to pull away
Sakura quickly grabbed his face and pulled him down, she kissed him so passionately, his heart was beating incredibly fast, all that passion still in his heart came rushing back, he grabbed her waist and pulled her even closer to him. His tongue was making his way into her mouth, gently and roughly caressing hers. Both were panting, trying to catch a quick breath without letting go of one another. His back completely covered Sakura's figure if seen from behind, so he took advantage of this opportunity and started to caress her all the way up and down her beautiful figure. He reached out for her breasts, they were as soft as he remembered, slowly he put his hand down her dress and started to make his away up her leg, for a moment doubt crossed his mind ("she is now married…what am I doing?") but he snapped out of it when Sakura bit his lower lip with passion. He continued to travel her smooth skin until he reached her panties, slowly he introduced his fingers into her silky underwear, he couldn't stop now…there is no way he will be able to stop. He looked at Sakura's flushed face, she was panting so hard, this only aroused him even more.
'Sya-Syaoran…'
'Sakura….I love… you' - he could see the pleasure on Sakura's face, a pleasure that his fingers were providing for now…it won't be enough, he needed to do it properly
'No…we can't….'
He stopped surprised, was she really going to stop him?
'Not here…'
Syaoran let out a sigh of relief
'Someone can see us here, let's go deeper into the garden… - her face was full of lust and malice, this was the first time she displayed such an expression
Syaoran grabbed onto her hand tightly like he was going to be separated from her any minute, this is too good to be real, he thought. They walked towards the fountain and went behind a massive tree that was on the side of the courtyard.
Once there, they looked at each other in complicity and continued where they left off.
'You are….so…beautiful'
They were making out for a while until his pants were at exploding point, he quickly reached out to his zipper and opened it. This is the time, he turned Sakura around, back to him, her head was resting on his chest. He was playing with her soft breasts and kissing her neck intensely, he couldn't wait any longer, he grabbed his firm member and penetrated Sakura from behind. She let a little cry out, she was in such ecstasy that her moans intensified even more, he covered her mouth with one hand and rubbed her clit with the other.
It was truly a night to remember, she was his again…both came to breaking point of ecstasy, Syaoran couldn't help himself but to come inside of her. They both looked exhausted, they kissed gently and hugged for a few minutes.
("I don't know what to say to him...this is so unfair to Syaoran…I don't know what came over me. I am so miserable")
Syaoran looked down at her worried face and said: 'You don't have to say anything. I agreed to it, didn't I? – he smiled. He couldn't help but feel powerless, he couldn't imagine Sakura doing the same thing with Tanaka that same night…she couldn't, he would be so happy if she was only his… forever.
'I..I have to go…'
'Sure…but first kiss me again…' - she looked at him and tried to ran away but he grabbed onto her wrist and pulled her back to him
'Kiss me…'
'You must think the worst of me by now…I couldn't forgive myself if I were you…I am the worst… such a slut'
'Don't be too hard on yourself…I am no angel either…I wanted this just as much as you did…I also feel bad because you are married now. I don't understand really what happened here tonight or why, but at the same time I am glad it did…'
Sakura was really moved by his words: 'You know…Tanaka and I…have never…. - RING RING TANAKA - Ah! It is him, he must be looking for me…sorry I need to answer…'
Syaoran had a painful expression on his face, he was still holding onto her wrist tightly
'Sorry Tanaka, I wasn't feeling too well, I have drunk too much so I decided to go out for some fresh air… sure, I am coming back now…'
'…you were saying just before that you and Tanaka…'
'Ah! No never mind that…just forget it ok?'
'If he doesn't satisfy you, I can'
'What… what do you mean?'
'I mean we could do this again sometime… you were so passionate back then, you caught me by surprise'
'Syaoran…it is not right…it was a moment of weakness on my behalf… somehow, I don't… regret it though – she looked away from him
'I haven't moved on from you, I still love you… so much. If this is the only way I can make you feel better and be with you, I will take it, I will take this chance'
'But… this will hurt a lot in the long run… besides it is truly very wrong'
'I don't care… I want you. I don't give a fuck anymore. I feel like such a scumbag, saying these things to you… but I want to be with you so badly that it is killing me…'
She stared at him for a few seconds, then said: 'I also…. want to be with you… even if it is hiding for now... – she grabbed his hand and squeezed it tightly
Syaoran smiled and rushed to hug her – 'This is a dream, isn't it?'
They were both walking back to the party…Sakura stopped just before entering through the door.
'We better not be seen together….'
'You are right… I will see you again soon, right?'
Sakura nodded and smiled at him
She returned to her husband's side who was now very very drunk, Syaoran observed from the distance, she smiled at him and he smiled back.
That night Sakura dreamt of Syaoran's face, touch and kisses. It felt like heaven once more…
NEXT MORNING
'Where did you disappear to last night? I was looking for you all over the place like a fucking idiot'
'I told you already… I don't have time to talk right now. I am running late for work'
'You should quit'
'Ehhh?! Whatever for?!'
'There is no need for you to work. I mean I have plenty of money. You can spend it all if you want…'
'As tempting as that sounds, I don't think so'
'Just think about it ok? Now, a kiss before I go'
'… - ("God! I can't… I only think of Syaoran. I can't kiss him…
Suddenly Tanaka's phone rang
'Oh, sorry'
'Saved…' - she mumbled. At that same moment her mobile phone received a text message
** Hey! how are you today? **
("OMG! It's from Syaoran! I need to change his contact name to something else…mmm Aoi S. yeah that would do it")
'Well I am off, might be home late… see ya'
'Bye'
** I am very well thanks, what about you? **
** Not as well as I would like to be…can I see you today? **
** Sure, I want to see you as well **
** I am glad, come over to my office at 3:30pm, can you? **
** I will find a way **
AT THE HOSPITAL
'What is it Sakura? You have been distracted all day…'
'Sorry, I have a bit of a stomach-ache'
'Well, if that's the case, go home early. You don't look well'
'T-thanks, I will go change' - ("I don't look well? I need to fix myself up before meeting Syaoran then")
** I am downstairs **
** Ok, I will come down now **
'Hello beautiful'
'Hi…'
'Come on, let's use this elevator… nobody is in the office right now, just me…'
Her heart started beating really fast, she knew where this was going. Syaoran walked her to his office and locked the door, he started taking off his tie and jacket. He leaned forward towards Sakura and pushed her against the desk…
Sakura's face was bright red and he seemed to be amused by that fact. Syaoran started unbuttoning her blouse to revel her soft and plump breasts, a sight that just might make him go crazy.
'You kill me with that look …' - he kissed the exposed skin over her bra, his breath was very warm but it felt cold too at times. Syaoran unhooked her bra behind her back…Sakura grabbed him and pushed his face against her breasts. He was blushing profusely.
'Do not look at them so intensely… it is embarrassing…'
'Is that so? Well then… - he pushed her over the desk, grabbed both her hands and pulled them up above her head, revealing her nude breasts to him
'Kya!'
'I want to see them…'
Sakura looked at him, his face had such love in his eyes. Syaoran got closer and began kissing them again, Sakura was enjoying it so much, she wanted more… she was going crazy with desire… she couldn't wait until the most anticipated moment…
'Does it feel good?'
'Y-yess …'
They had incredible sex that afternoon. Afterwards, Syaoran was looking out the window while she has dressing herself. She kept thinking "What the hell am I doing? I am just making things worse! I can't live without seeing him, or feeling him near me... I just can't")
She suddenly walked up to him and hugged him from behind, she pressed her face against his back and then said: 'Syaoran, I love you. I never stopped loving you. When you are around me I can't think, can't breath properly. My body just reacts on its own, I need you... I want you in my life'
He turned around slowly and put his arms around her. He was so warm and gentle.
'That is what I wanted to hear from you…' – he squeezed her in a tight embrace – 'I know you are up to something regarding Tanaka…' – he dried her tears
'What!?... Since when? I mean… how?'
'Kei. I saw you guys leaving my house together the day you broke up with me. So I confronted him the next day and beat the crap out of him'
'Oh God!'
'He told me about the conversation you had. I knew there must have been a reason for your actions'
'But… so you decided to go along with it?! I have been in so much anguish and despair thinking about you and how I have been hurting you…'
'Well I planned to tell you but you wouldn't pick up my calls or let me see you! Can you imagine what I would have done if I really thought you were in love with Tanaka? Trust me, I wouldn't have been able to keep my head clear and calm. And you did hurt me, why not come to me straight away for help?! So I decided to let you feel what it would be like to lose me forever… to make you realise that you can't live without me anymore…' – he smiled
'That- that is so arrogant of you! Arrrgh! You are sooo mean!' – she kept on crying
'Really? You want to talk about being mean? – he grabbed the side of her face and kissed her – 'Now, all lies aside… tell me what's going on? Who is this guy really?'
'I don't really know… but he is blackmailing me…'
'WHAT?! Blackmail?'
She explained about the patients at the hospital and that Tanaka was the one who nearly killed him. Syaoran was so angry that punched his desk with such force that left a massive dent.
'There is no way I am letting you out of my sight with that bastard! No way in hell'
'We need to be smarter than him. If he believes everything is going according to his plan, I can find out some of his secrets and-
'But at what cost? Are you going to sleep with him!? I don't know how much longer you will be able to keep this separate room arrangement with that lunatic'
'Noooo! By other means'
'I don't think he is the type of guy to just sit and wait... I don't like this one bit'
'Are you happy now that you know the truth though?'
He slowly changed his angry expression and hugged her once more
'Yes, I am. We will figure something out and fix all this mess together'
It was like a huge weight had been lifted from her shoulders, she was feeling so relieved.
'But... we need to keep seeing each other regularly. I will not take a NO for an answer from you'
'I have pretty much 24 hour security though. The only time I am alone is at work...'
'Ummm interesting... well, we will have to be creative' - he smiled at her and kissed her forehead
'Love you...'
'Me too, never do anything like this ever again ok? You are staying with me forever' - Syaoran grabbed her hand and kissed it softly
'I won't. I will tell you everything. I promise'
'Good, now kiss me before you go'
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