**** Past****

I was born before the beginning of civilization I was once called Oku I lived with a band of traveling nomad. When the first sky rock fell my people ran away I found that this rock was warm and so I slept next to the rock. While my people left to find a cave to sleep in what I did not realize is that the rock was changing me. I awoke the next day to hunt I stayed next to the rock until the spring came it wasn't called spring then it was just called the thaw when the land changed becoming new. My people were hunters living off the land.

I left the rock and when my friends and family started to age and I did not I was chased away I spent the next 200 years wondering the land I died 245 years after my friends for the first time and I was reborn to a new clan of peoples I left them when I was 15 never looking back I wondered alone dying when I was 200 each time I died I was reborn again I saw the great cities of Alexandria and the Pompeii destroyed I served in the courts of the royals. I was called Aysun then I served the household as slave after being captured. I was a woman of money and standing I had died when my father, mother, sister and brothers were massacred in our home in 2820 B.C.

I was in the city of Rome in 2800 B.C. I am a proud daughter of the house of Crasas I was the daughter of the richest man in the republic the King was sick and soon his son would be the King or Emperor as they were called back then my father Marcus was trying to make an alliance because he had no sons and was sick he was not able to keep much food down at times he was going to have me married to the prince who was in his 22nd year. My father finished the negotiations with the Emperor and we were officially betrothed to be married. Our wedding was supposed to take place at the palace we would pray after we married at the temple before heading to the wedding feast. The prince was a decent looking man he had inky black hair and grey eyes he stood above other men towering 6'2" he was dressed in a dark green chiton he walked about speaking to his friends. I wore a teal blue green chiton the veil had been flipped back so that it covered my hair.

My father was speaking with friends while I was seated across the room with a cup of wine. The Emperor's slaves moved about the palace filling cups and carrying trays of food I had insisted that they wear plain garb short chitons for each men wore dark grey with simple sandals the women wore lighter dark grey with simple sandals. I was escorted to my new husbands chambers were I was dressed in a long light pink cotton fabric chiton I removed my veil and the slaves brushed out my hair I had natural dark brown hair that curled into ringlets. I was put into bed after drinking a large glass of wine I was known as Licinia Crasas I was looking at the canopy of the bed waiting for my husband when the door opened and he was pushed inside followed by his father and my father the door closed and my husband Aro was changed into a dark blue chiton before he was given a cup of wine he got into the bed with me and our fathers sat in two chairs at the end of the bed the gossamer was pulled to cover the bed as Aro removed the covers and pressed his body against mine he pulled the chiton up to my waist he was rough as he entered me.

I turned my head away as he continued until he reached his end before he rolled off of me I was taken to a hot bath whilst the sheets were changed and then I was clothed and left to sleep. My husband I assumed went back to the feast with the others he preferred to his new wife. I slept fitfully that night I was woken to the sun coming up I yawned and sat up getting up from the warm bed stretching I got up slipping on my leather slippers I walked to the what we called the toilet chamber and took care of my needs before bathing and dressing in a dark sapphire blue chiton my slave Kore brushed my hair out styling it simply she handed me my sapphire necklace fastening it she handed me my other jewels before handing me the mirror. Kore took the mirror following behind me we went to the gardens and I walked among the groves of trees and the flowers I walked aimlessly until I grew hungry ordering food sent to the princes chambers I lounged on the chaise the food was set before me.

I ate slowly as I sighed I was going to have a hard time staying hidden if I was careless I would be able to hide it for a dozen years after I turned 28 but as I got older it would be an almost impossible task I would have to fake my death. I had never had children and I had lived 15'000 years not concurrently but combined I was brought out of my thoughts by my husband coming into the room he wore his armor and sword ordering his man Titus to remove it he wore a simple dark green tunic underneath it Titus took his things to the cabinet were his armor hung Aro kissed my cheek and drew me to the bed he kissed me again rolling us he pulled up our clothing so that his hardness was against me he gave me control as I slowly raised up before sinking to the hilt of his member.

Aro escorted me to dinner where we got to know each other afterwards we walked and he asked about me and my family. Aro and I were married 5 years when he disappeared leaving me with a son and 2 daughter's to care for I was acting ruler until my son was 15 years old and I arranged for him to marry a girl from a rich family my daughters married nobility and then I cashed out all of my assets hiding the money I left the palace when I was 35 a mere 4 years after my son took the throne I took the money and found a place I could live buying the villa for myself I had only Kore and a few male servants who sold and bought new ones every 5 years never keeping any except Kore my most trusted slave who I trusted with the running of the villa for me. I wrote and sang to pass the time never keeping any company other than Kore or my dog Aro who lived with me until he too passed away at the age of 12 years old he was a good dog never messing where he should not.

I died not long after Kore having fallen down the steps I was reborn to a noble family 2 years after I was raised and married when I was 14 my husband was a cruel ugly man who often smelled of sweat. I gave him three sons before I left when the boys were 6 I took 2/3 of his money when I left and taking my jewels. I fled to my villa that had fallen into some disrepair but I quickly fixed it up finding that I was still wealthy I bought 6 male slaves and 2 female slaves I spoke to a shop keep who set me up with weekly deliveries of things I needed and I traded him a sheep, a pig and an OX it was a fair trade I got 5 pounds of grain, 5 pounds of salt and some other things like wine I had a well built and then I called upon the gods and goddesses to make it rain the pools and the wells filled as the rains came down I thanked the gods by burning a meal from my table for them as thanks to them.

I became known as the priestess people came begging for the rain or for their children healed I prayed and for the most part all of the various prayers were answered and the children were healed the rains did not always come when I asked the gods but I did my best I lived to be 300 before I died I had moved my money and I was reborn hundreds of times possibly thousands but it wasn't until the year 1860 that I saw a change I was in Houston Texas in April I was just disembarking a train from New York I had been in the colonies during 1776 and was called Betsy by most I sewed a flag during the war and then I left in 1782 heading towards New York I avoided overpopulated towns and used my wealth to buy and sell materials earnings more money I kept coins from my past they would fetch a fortune when the technology caught up with the value of the coins I had.

I kept myself shut away in my 3 story Victorian house with a few servants that I changed every 2 years never keeping a servant more than 5 years. I wore beautiful dresses and jewelry until it was time to move than I sold my house and packed my belongings into the train car I paid for it was a small apartment with storage space in the back of the car. The car had its own kitchen so I brought out my cooking things and made sure the ice box was filled with foods to feed myself I stayed in the car reading or drawing I stared at the passing scenery with less interest than anything else I had ever seen before.

on the day we arrived I disembarked the train dressed in all black with a parasol covered by a black veil I went to the proprietors tat managed estates and bought a big house with a chicken coop and corrals I had my things delivered to the house. I went into town the next day and found a map I asked one of the shopkeepers where I might but the things I had on my list that I needed for my farm I just bought. The shopkeepers were nice helping me out the last thing I needed to get were 2 regular horses and 2 pull horses. I bought the saddle and things as well as 2 large wagons to haul stuff I spent the next day's decorating the house before I started going into town I would pray at the church it was a small Catholic town of 300 people the town was cozy I went to church every Sunday and then I would have supper at home before reading the bible after dinner I read until bed.

I met Jasper Whitlock at the church and we became fast friends we courted before marrying in June 15th 1860 we celebrated at my home and he moved his things in we went to bed that night and he took my maidenhead I fell in love with Jasper we spent time together laughing and talking as we learned about each other. I fell pregnant and in March I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy with Jaspers eyes and his smile we named him Harmon. I took to feeding him myself he grew like a weed when he was 2 Jasper signed up for war we had married when Jasper was 16 and I was 14. I was a widow with lots of money I cared for our child as the months without Jasper began to wear on me I would spend time with our son and on August 15th 1863. I got the letter telling me that Jasper was missing in action assumed dead because he had not been found among the dead men.

I had given birth during the years we were married I had Paul the oldest Peter his twin brother Elizabeth and Mary the twin girls. Matthew was the youngest son born two weeks after Jasper left. I raised them and when they reached the last year of their minority before they were adults I bought them a horse from the Davenport farm with a saddle and tack my sons chose racing horses while my daughters chose mares that were tame. The horses were allowed to mate once and then the boys married rich girls that were only children from town their fathers married them off willingly to young men who proved their smarts in business girls could not inherit but their husbands could act as executors of the estate to keep the money from being used wastefully on stupid things that were not needed.

I took my fortune and sold the house to one of my children's husbands with all of the furniture for a good price I saddled my horse and hitched the wagons tying the last wagon to the first wagon and led the horses to the north I settled and built a thriving business I had built an underground vault where I lived I had moved things from my past their pieces that were in mint condition. I died in 1896 I was shot by a stray bullet during a robbery I was reborn in 1898 to a family of land owners they were well to do I left home to join a convent in Chicago I was working at a hospital aiding the doctors and nurses when I met and befriended Elizabeth Masen who had Spanish Influenza with her son her husband had died the week prior to his wife who was barely holding on as she fought to get better.

I also met Dr. Carlisle Cullen and after a week he invited me to dinner I except the incite and I was dressed in a dark blue gown with my hair left to flow down my back. Carlisle asked me to dance with him and we did I spent the next hour flirting with him he invited me to bed and I agreed I leaned back on my hands as he removed his shoes when he joined me I let him kiss me before I took control and rolled us so that I was on top of him I was in only my petticoats so I reached under them and freed him from his jeans he was ready and so was I so I sank down upon him completely and then I let the pain fade before I moved I used my arm to support myself as I slowly rose and fell on top of him as I built to a pace I rode him as I was close to coming undone I reached mine as he reached his I collapsed on his chest breathing heavily I rolled off of him and sighed and fell asleep.

When I woke he was lying beside me watching me sleep I sat up and cursed I rushed to dress in my habit and folded my dress I rushed to the convent and I washed I made it to prayers I was in the back of the chapel I prayed before I went about my chores I was due at the hospital at noon so I had to eat on the way to the hospital I prayed with those who wished and then I tended to the sickly who needed healing I touched them and gave them healing prayers which healed them so that they could eat and be able to go home if they continued to heal. I avoided Carlisle for 3 days before he cornered me I the garden he asked why I was at the convent. I told him I had chosen it as my punishment. I was about to walk away when he grabbed my arm holding me in place.

"You were still a virgin when you entered the convent and when you were with me last night you acted as though you were not one I was going to speak to you but you left before I could speak to you about the event of the prior night. I had hoped for you to leave the convent after the events of the night prior I want to marry you". I looked at him and told him that could never happen I lied telling him I was sick and that I was leaving for the Vatican City at the end of the week never to return from there. I prayed with those who wished it and then on Friday I packed my possession and in the dead of night I left the Convent of the sisters of perpetual chastity and headed to my vault I changed into a long white nightgown with a sleeping cap and I got into the bed that had been Jaspers and mine I slept for many hours I woke and dressed in a simple dark blue dress from 1865 and put on an apron going to the barn.

I fed the horses and other animals I collected eggs and potatoes going to the kitchen I made breakfast and ate slowly I cleaned and then I dressed in a burgundy gown with matching hat and parasol I went out into town in my new car. I drove to the market and bought things having the items put in the trunk I also bought things to be delivered to my house it was a large 3 story Victorian with large rooms. I also went to the butcher and bought meats for the week and bottles of wine I ordered crates of wine to be delivered to the house. I kept very few servants I had bought the house in 1914 and been there a very few times I put my things in the kitchen for the maid to unpack and went to the library.

I picked up a book and went to read in the solarium I was so engrossed in it that Agatha the down stairs maid had to clear her throat thrice before I was looked up she told me that I had a guest who had had given his card. I took the card and told Agatha to tell Carlisle that he was sadly mistaken the house was under an assumed name so his finding me had not been good. I packed my things in a few trunks and suitcases and the next morning my butler drove me to meet the ship a luxury cruise liner called the Germania. I was headed to the Vatican I had a private suite with private deck. I had my maidservants and my head maid my butler her husband and my driver. I had my maids unpack my furniture the mother superior at my convent had told me to go to the Vatican after I had started having visions that always came true. Mother Superior had been saved from falling rocks when they were leaving chapel and she had told me to go to the Vatican and see the pope.

I arrived at the Vatican 2 weeks after I left the Germania was staying in Italy for 4 weeks. I sat on the top deck as the ship pulled out of the bay my maid who was also my companion was beside me as we watched the ship. I went to dinner that night in the dining room I was seated next to a group of ladies we were all rich not all of us had husbands I invited them for tea the next day. I wondered about after dinner before going to my suite I took out a book reading it the titanic had revolutionized the travel with its ability to cross the ocean with steam power in under 3 weeks. I was so engrossed in the book I did not hear the door open or feel the bed dip from where someone had sat on the bed. I yelped when the book was yanked from my hands and tossed on the bedside table and I was brought face to face with the man who had been my first sexual partner Carlisle Cullen.

Carlisle kissed my neck as he pulled up the nightgown I was wearing pulling my underwear away he felt my breasts as he filled me with his penis as I was held down he turned us over grabbing my hips he moved me up and down on his member as I felt the pleasure he gave as I came several times before he came as I collapsed on him and fell asleep. When I woke up I was alone in bed I sat up and went to the bathroom and washed up before I was laced into a corset and I was put into a black skirt and a light teal blouse with lace around the neck at end of the sleeves going to the mid-forearms. I left my hair loose down my back I walked around the ship with some of the other ladies carrying my rosary and my bible with me as we talked about the status of affairs in the world at large.

I went to the chapel on the ship and said a prayer to god before I returned to my private suite I had dinner with the ladies and gentlemen talking about the latest news and fashions we left after dinner and I went back to my suite and read until I fell asleep. I woke up at the sun rise and prayed before I ate breakfast on the private deck I had tea and biscuits with gravy as well as honey and fruit preserves. I also had fresh fruits and eggs I ate hungrily unlike I had done in a long time. I finished eating and told my maids and butlers they could have what was left of the meal. I went and sat in the sun. I went to dinner and then went back to my room I looked for Carlisle at each meal but I did not see him I was at my vanity that night brushing out my hair when I heard the door open and then close.

I got up and headed to bed I was asleep very quickly I was awoken by something I opened my eyes and saw Carlisle on top of me. I came several times before he left and I passed out from the vigorous love making we had done the ship docked in Italy at the port in Rome my vehicles were unloaded and the stuff was packed into the second car my drive spoke Italian most of them did. They were Catholics they went to the same church I had been a member of a priest came to take confession. I sat in the backseat of the car and we drove thru the opened gates of Vatican City. The chapel had been renovated last year and the pope was in a meeting when I arrived at the Vatican palace in the city of Rome.

I was known as Sister Isabella of the sisters of perpetual chastity I was a higher member of the sisterhood I was the one who trained the new prostrates the rules we ran a school for girls who were unwed mothers I taught history and household management not all the girls were unwed mothers some were wed to men who had sent them to the convent to learn to be a wife and mother to their children the church did not allow husbands to visit except on Sundays after the girl went to prayers and confession with the priest. The priest father Juliano Orsini took confession from every Sister and the Girls in the convent. I was shown to a library and told to wait for the Pope Benedict to finish his meeting with the book keeper.

I walked about the entry area pacing back and forth I was startled when the door opened I looked at the door finding the Cardinal Piccolomini there he told me the Pope Benedict wished me to confess before he saw me to speak about things that had occurred and to be released from service to the church. I was taken to the chapel were I was to confess to the his Eminence Cardinal Giovani Della Rovere the patron of the sisters of perpetual chastity that I had been a part of for years now I had joined them when I was 12 after I had disgraced the family I had been born to by refusing to marry a man I despised.

My sister had married him and had died after having three boys she had been murdered it had been in all the papers the man who killed her had stolen her jewelry her money and the car she drove in all for the sake of a couple hundred bucks. I knelt in the confession booth and confessed to have carnal relations with a man outside of my vow of chastity. I finished up my confession and was told to say 15 Hail Mary's and 10 our fathers while whipping my back with knotted silk cords as my punishment. I was shown to the Holy Father who was in his office waiting for me to make myself available to meet after my confession. I spoke to the Pope and he agreed to sign the release of my service papers on the next Monday which was in 3 days I thanked him and went to my sparse room.

I prayed and flagellated myself with the whip of knotted silk cords as I had been told to I sat on my knees in my nightgown with a bible open in front of me on the wall was a gilded cross with the crucified Jesus on it. I was not paying attention when the door opened and Carlisle entered he watched me until he stopped me he tossed me on the pallet bed and was on top of me as he forced himself into me as I could not help as he filled me and I was forced to ride his as he came in me before kissing me and I passed out from the vigorous love making we had done it again and again for 2 hours or more. He was gone and I convinced myself that my mind was playing out these encounters to get off on them.

I did my chores and ate breakfast I continued with my flagellation after morning prayer and three days later I was walking out of the papal palace with my paperwork for my retirement from the Church Convent I was still going to be a teacher. I went to the chapel and prayed before I left I ate at one of the shops taking my companion and my driver I did some shopping before we made our way to the city of Volterra I took in the sights and I left my companion and my butler to take a tour of the castle I gave them money to shop around and eat until I finished my tour of the Castle. I stood in wearing a black hat with a black skirt and a light teal blouse with lace around the neck and at the end of the sleeves going up to the elbows. I cut a fine figure I had my hair loose and I was surprised when an arm wrapped around me and I looked up to see Carlisle standing there next to me.

I refused to leave the castle but kept on with the tour I marveled at the paintings and the sculptures I had been the muse of several of them over the past lives I had lived. We stopped at a large gild wood doors and they opened up to reveal a large room with three thrones and a dozen people standing around the room. I heard the one in the middle speak he talked about how nice it was to have guests. I watched as the people in the room were attacked by the people in the room I was murdered in that room but I woke up 6 hours in the past I did not change my plans except for I did not go on a tour of Volterra castle instead I sketched people in the village as they went about their day I ate before we returned to the ship a day before it was supposed to leave the port I went to my suite and read until I fell asleep I slept thru dinner so my maid had food waiting for me I felt sick so I ate slowly and I ate very little.

I woke up sitting bolt upright from the nightmarish dream I had my dreams usually had a prophetic nature that most humans overlooked. I went back to the USA and spent a long time there I stayed in Chicago to be near the man I found to be very interesting to me. I fell in love with him and he disappeared for a few weeks I was lost during that time I got pregnant 5 times but it was the last time in 1930 that I actually had a baby from it he would sneak into my house and ravish me often but the night before he left was the most amazing of all he stayed all night I couldn't get to sleep so we talked he told me he was leaving with his new wife and their son the next day after he left I raged and screamed until I was hoarse from it before I sighed and I slept for many hours in fitful dreams about the man who had hurt me to my very core.

I was not showing but I soon realized I was going to have a baby I spoke to the hospital and they told me he had left a P.O. box I sent him a letter and told him of my need to see him only saying it was a matter of life a death that he contact me as soon as he was able to. I waited but I got no response from him so I packed up my possession and I moved to Tennessee buying a house I told all those who asked my husband was dead. I got a job as a teacher and would start in the fall semester.

I decided to go to Ireland with my Son after he was born he was born in a hospital and then I was allowed to go home with him. I booked passage on a flight to leave for Ireland in March I hated flying but it was the fastest way to travel when we landed I went to the market after they unloaded my car I drove to get food before finding a place you stay I was only planning to stay a few days before heading home. I saw the sights and was out and about with my son when I ran into a man from the past who I thought had died in 1651.