Hey guys! I turned 12 yesterday! I meant to update this right after I published the chapter, but I forgot to finish...
Review Responses:
booksaremylife: Thanks! I'm trying to include Hamilton refrences in every chapter, so keep your eyes peeled...
Glittery-Icecream:yeah. I tried to make it super obvious, and Sophie is in a state of grief, so she's refusing to even think their names right now.
~ER'BODY~ There's a PLOT TWIST later! Y'all are going to hate me... ;)
No.
Not them.
Someone else.
Anyone else.
Just not them.
My sobs echoed across the long halls, directing everyone's attention.
It was Monday, May 6th, 12:00.
Keefe and Biana tried to comfort me, seeing as they already knew they were gone. They had already gone through the sobbing and the screaming.
"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed, light leaping home.
I rushed to the caves, but thought better of it. Too many memories.
Running to my room, I ignored Grady and Edaline's concerned calls.
I locked the door, reinforcing it with Vertina's mirror, a desk, and a book shelf.
I stayed there for hours, curled up in my bed, sobbing.
For once, Vertina wasn't snarky, but tried to be nice.
"It's going to be ok, Sophie. You'll get through this." Vertina would say every morning as I stood before the mirror, deciding if I should actually leave my tiny fortress of solitude that day.
Over the next few weeks, the feelings changed. I replayed the memory, seeing everything I could have done to stop this countless times. It went from sadness to regret to guilt. But grief was always there, like a shadow.
Their funerals were in an hour that day.
I wore a beautiful spaghetti strap dress. It was a vibrant green. Too happy for a funeral.
I tore it off of my frail body, finding a black dress and putting it on instead.
I arrived just when the ceremony was starting. Their trees were planted right next to mine, flanking either side.
They ended up only planting one tree, seeing as his was already there.
People came up to me, giving their sincerest condolences, handing flowers to me, putting them by the trees. But none of it helped. It actually made things worse.
I had a charm bracelet for each one made. They weren't really into bracelets, seeing as they were dudes, but one had a real crystal, the other periwinkle. The one with periwinkle had a charm with a bottle on it, and a gear. The teal one had a red dragon and two sets of initials. SER
This is all my fault. Was the only thought going through my mind. I should be apologizing to them, not the other way around.
I told the Vackers, the Sencens, the Diznees, and anyone else close to them.
But, there was a grace too powerful to name. They forgave me, assuring me that I did nothing wrong.
How could they do that, after losing family?
There are moments when the words don't reach, there's a grace too powerful to name. We push away what we can never understand, we push away the unimaginable.
The are standing in the Garden, Sophie Foster by Biana's side.
She takes her hand... "It's quiet uptown."
Forgiveness. Can you imagine? Forgiveness. Can you imagine?
Sorry. I'll Hamilstop.
Sorry. I have a syndrome called Hamilsession. It's very contagious. Especially by text.
Theres chapter!
In that song, I hate how they're saying it's unimaginable, then asking if you can imagine. It's just a pet peeve of mine.
;) see ya!