It was the morning after Jay tried to kill himself and Erin hasn't left his side since, Jay opened his eyes and saw Erin in the chair next to his bed, "Hey" he said

Erin sat up and grabbed Jay's hand causing him to pull away at first, "Hey sorry Jay"

"No it's ok" He said grabbing her hand

"How are you feeling?" she asked him

He shrugged his shoulders, "I don't know"

"Yeah it's gonna take time Jay but i'm here for you"

"Yeah thanks Er... Will told me about our children"

"Oh god Jay they are amazing all three of them... are you ready to go home soon?" she asked

"Home... I didn't think I would ever hear that word again. Does everyone know?"

"No i'm going to go to the Firehouse and then to the district are you going to be ok?"

Jay nodded his head and Erin stood up and lent over to kiss him. He hesitated at first but then he kissed her, "I love you Erin" He said as she left.

At the Firehouse

I walked into the firehouse and saw Casey, "Hey Erin you look like hell, can I help you with something?"

"I need to talk to everyone?"

"Yeah come on through, everyone's in the common room" I walked through the common room and saw everyone sitting around the table and on the couch apart from Squad.

"Hey guys, Erin's here she wants to talk to us" Casey said getting everyone's attention.

Everyone turned around and looked at me, "Ok there's no easy way to say this but we had to open up the case on the gang who killed Jay. You may have heard Natalie and Will got taken from the hospital, we found them and there safe, but Ruzek and Atwater followed a car and it crashed..." everyone heard her voice crack from holding back tears, "When they search the car they found... Jay."

Everyone looked up at me with utter shock on their faces and them Gabby stood up, "He's alive?"

"They kept him for over a year, tortured him and yesterday at Med, he tried to kill himself. He's ok as he can be but he will only talk to me."

"Oh I feel sick, but we buried him" Gabby said putting her hand over her mouth. Gabby and Jay were really good friends and she was devastated when he died.

Everyone sat trying to process what Erin had just told them when Squad came crashing through the door, "Capp I told you not to..." Severide stopped and looked at Erin,

"What happened?"

Before Erin could open her mouth Gabby turned around, "Jay's... alive!"

"No no he's not?" he questioned

"They found him yesterday he has been with the gang the whole time being tortured while we all moved on with our lives"

Kelly didn't say anything next but all he did was walk over to Erin and hugged her, "How're you?"

"I didn't know how to process it at first, but guys my husband and the father of my children is home. Your friend is home" Erin said to everyone

"Can we go see him?" Casey asked.

"Yeah only two at a time and guys Jay is talking yet so just be gentle" Erin said as she left the firehouse.

Gabby's POV

No matter how much I tried I couldn't process what Erin had just told everyone at the firehouse. As Erin left I kicked a chair out of anger and walked towards Casey's office. I opened the door and sat on the bed when Casey walked in after me, "We are all trying to process what happened but why are you angry?"

"Ugh Matt i'm not angry I'm frustrated, they never found his body they should of carried on searching not just believing some video and Mouse who was high and drunk all the time."

I walked towards the door when Matt grabbed me, "I'm going to see Jay!"

Everyone watched Gabby leave and Casey turned around, "She ok guys, she just upset"

"Yeah we all are, Halstead's alive and we had a funeral for him" Severide said

"Ok your shifts ends in a few hours so you can go see Jay after that" Boden said as the dispatch siren rang and everyone rushed off to a fire.

Jay's POV

I feel like I'm going insane and I can't stay in the hospital anymore. I grab the crutches which are next to my bed and I stand up, it felt weird to be back on my feet but I need to go somewhere else. I made my way through the hospital when I saw Will at the nursers station. I stood around the corner so he couldn't see me and waited till he left.

I finally got outside the hospital and jumped into the Uber. I didn't want to go home yet and the car finally stopped outside a place I haven't been in a long time. I stood outside the district not wanting to go in but I knew I had to face it. I took each step at a time until I was finally inside.

I could feel every single pair of eyes in that building on me looking at my fragile bruised body. I carried on walking when I saw Platt from coming behind her desk, "Jay you should be in the hospital"

I didn't say anything to her I just nodded my head and carried on walking but that was when I got to the stairs and just stood there, I didn't know how I was going to get up them but then I felt someone grabbed my arm causing me to jump and pull away, "Jay it's Trudy. I'm just going to help you up the stairs"

I let her help me and after a while I finally got to the top of the stairs, when I reached the Bullpen it was empty until I heard talking and I turned around to see Dawson and Ruzek laughing and talking from the locker room. They both stopped talking as soon as they saw me, "Jay what are you doing here?" Ruzek asked

"I had to leave the hospital, where's Erin?"

"She went to get the kids from Pre-school, she'll be here soon"

"The kids, I don't think I'm ready to meet them" I panicked a little

"Jay it's ok you don't have too" Antonio said to me

"Hey Jay why don't you sit down?" Adam said to me giving me a hand.

I trusted Ruzek because he had always been there for me and him,Erin and Will were really the only people I trusted now.

Erin's POV

I rushed into the district and I felt like people were staring at me, I walked over to Platt to give her the kids when she said, "You should go upstairs Erin"

"I'm just dropping the kids off and going to the hospital Jay's gone AWOL again"

"There's no need Erin, Jay's upstairs"

"I swear to... ugh!" I moaned, "Hey guys nanny Platt's gonna play with your for a little bit" I said as the put both the twins down who were in my arms.

I quickly made my way upstairs and I saw Jay sitting behind my desk with Ruzek, "You didn't think to call me?" I whispered to Antonio who was sitting at his desk

"We told him you were coming here so he said he would wait"

"Well the hospital is going crazy and so is Will, he tried to kill himself less than two days ago... wait did you say he spoke?"

"Yeah he's speaking a bit but only to Ruzek"

I walk over to the desk and lean against it, "Jay you should get back to the hospital?"

"No I'm sick of it being trapped in a room again."

"You're not trapped Jay but you're still not well"

"I'm fine Erin, is Esme here?"

"Yeah she's downstairs with Platt. Do you want to see her?"

"Yeah but just Esme for now"

I watched Erin reach the bottom of the stairs and I let out a sigh, "I can't go back to that hospital Adam but I can't go home"

"Mate you always know you can stay with me for a little bit until you get on your feet"

"yeah I'll think about it and talk to Erin"

Erin walked to the top of the stairs and I saw a little girl standing next to her. Esme grabbed Erin's hand and they walked over to me. Erin got down on one knee and turned to her, "Es you remember when I told you daddy had gone away?"

"Yeah... that day, you were sad" Esme said

"Well we found him, this is your daddy" She pointed to me

Esme stood and stared at me for a little but and them I saw he jump and wrap her arms around me, "Daddy!" I heard her say as she buried her head in my chest. I wrapped my arms around her and started to cry as well as Erin crying, "I love you so much Esme, daddy's here now"

Having my little girl back in my arms was the one thing I had been waiting for in over a year and I am never going to let her go again.