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My dog ate my disclaimer.

Chapter 8

How I got a puppy

Rin was in full on pout mode as Sesshomaru drove her the short way home. Sesshomaru glanced at her while driving and chuckled. Rin's pout turned into a scowl and she glared briefly at him before turning to look out the window again, pout firmly back on her face.

"You cannot blame us for being cautious."

Rin looked over at him with a look that clearly said she could and she would blame them for and would blame them for as long as she deemed necessary. Her hands began to move.

You threw me over your shoulder and walked me through the school. I have never been so embarrassed in my life. Then you couldn't stop there oh no. When Kohaku asked what the hell you were doing you had to freaking growl at him. GROWL! And when did I agree to be yours? That's not a deterrent to him that's an encouragement. Not only will I never live this down now I'm going to be stalked and Koga i going to kill me before I can break this freaking engagement! And watch the freaking road.

Sesshomaru suppressed his laughter but Rin could hear the amusement in his voice and it only annoyed her more. Rin sighed, Whatever it's not like I can do anything about it now.

Just take me home mister psycho fluff.

Sesshomaru could not understand why he was amused at the girl insulting him and when he racked his mind for an answer he simply got the vague feeling that he wanted to smile at her being reduced to petty name calling. She must be absolutely furious and he couldn't wait till she realized that he wasn't taking her home. Her was too dangerous and the wolf might plan to visit. besides that he didn't want to be away from her and was not in the habit of denying himself what he wanted. As a side benefit having her around made his beast content. Even he recognized that our mate was amusing. We do love a little fire in our woman, another reason she could never go back to that mongrel wolf. How dare he break was rightfully Sesshoumaru's. The thought nearly made him growl as he pulled up to his home. Still, he chuckled to himself as he got out of the car, psycho fluff? His mate had a clever tongue, which made his beast bring up images of testing to see just how clever her ton-

NO NO NO BAD DEMON

I thought you weren't in the habit of deny denying yourself what you want

Stupid mind reading intrusive-

Still here and you know Im right but if you don't like that image she's not the only one with a clever-

Sesshomaru hastily slammed the beast back in his cage. He was not going to traumatized the sweet hot traumatized girl. He was better than that he was stronger than that he was going to keep his hands to himself today. Sesshoumaru helped Rin out of the car as she gave him a questioning look. Sesshomaru picked her up again and grabbed her bag, reasoning that if she was too traumatized to talk than it wasn't safe for her to walk either, before paying attention to what she was signing to him.

Put me down I'm mute not crippled. Besides this is not my house where do you think you're taking me? Psycho fluff this is not funny take me home you kidnapper!

Sesshomaru growled at that. He was not a kidnapper he was trying to keep her safe from those who would hurt her who already had hurt her! Why didn't she understand that. sure her self righteous rant was cute but no one, he would let no one mistake what he was doing for her as an intent to harm. His internal rant stopped and his before unnoticed growling ceased when he realized that Rin was a dead weight in his arms she had stopped. Stopped moving, stopped struggling, had almost stopped breathing. Sesshomaru adjusted her in his arms to look into her eyes. They were dull, blank, almost dead looking in their vacancy. It was as she'd been when she had arrived at the school that morning. Only so much worse because this time she had been reduced to this by him.

Rin couldn't help it. She was vaguely ashamed of herself but the reaction was habit almost unconscious, instinctive. Growling makes her grow limp and vacant. Growling means pain growling means fear growling means monsters and struggling only gets them excited. Growling made her remember…

[Flashback]

It was the tenth time that they had "played tag" that week and Rin's young nerves were shot. Koga had renamed the game "prey" it meant that it was like tag but reverse. Guess who was always it. Her body was a bundle of pain and weariness and her legs were starting to go numb but every time she slowed down, the pants of excitement changed to vicious growling. Rin heard teeth snap at her heels and the occasional howl only made her more fearful till finally she tripped on a root and fell hitting her head and knocking herself out.

When Rin next awoke it was to the sight of blood. it covered the grass in front of her and startled her enough to shoot upright and check herself over for the source. But it wasn't her.

"Oh Rin you're awake It's no fun playing lifeless prey and the guys were restless so I had to find them a substitute." Koga gestured towards a place where she now realized that she could hear something. It was like a wet tearing and ripping sound and, as though against her will Rin turn towards the sound not wanting to see but needing to know what it was. The wolves were tearing viciously at the remains rabbit as the human looking ones morbidly played some game with it's ears. As Rin turned to vomit she caught sight of something a little away from the body it was mangled and bloody but she rushed to pick it up. It jingled as she lifted and the wolves growled because she wa too close to their meal. She couldn't hear them as she stared grief stricken and shocked as stared at the name tag of her only friend.

"Buddy" Rin whispered is sadness. How could they be so cruel? The wolves had begun to nip at her but she didn't, couldn't move. Koga was speaking but he could barely hear him. Her mind was in a fog and she vaguely heard him say

"You should have seen him run. It helped the boys to have a little fun while you took a nap and I must say I am grateful you brought that little snack here he was delicious." She slowly looked up at Koga's face and froze at the blood that covered his lips as a rabbit foot hung from his teeth. That's when she shattered. Rin drew her mind far away leaving her body to take the abuse as her mind tried to pick up the pieces of her pyschy. Yet she still heard Koga grow quiet heard the wolves stop growling heard Koga step forward and whisper "Beautiful" He got closer "Yes, this is how I want you gorgeous and still pliant to my every order, like a little doll my little doll, my princess this is how you should be. Come along and get cleaned up Princess."

[Flashback end]

Rin shuddered as she came back to the present remembering her promise to herself remembering her promise to be the first time she struggled, struggled not to lose herself, struggled against all her younger years had taught her was a correct response to dominance, struggled to defeat her childhood monsters. It helped that the growling stopped as she came back to herself. Rin blinked looking down at herself and then beaming at Sesshomaru.

"I did it! I might need more practice and a little rest but I did it I can do it I really can!" and somehow as she looked into his eyes smiling in relief down at her in his arms she knew that he really did understand as she hugged him in joy. Sesshomaru smiled and nuzzled her neck taking in his mate's scent in order to relax.

"Hn"

Sesshomaru gently carried his happy mate inside as he fought his urge to take her to his room and do a thorough check to make sure she was ok. His beast was desperate to touch her all over to make sure there was no lasting harm to lock her away in his room with him till he banished that look in her eye forever to do all he could physically to comfort both her and himself and by the time he actually got her inside he was on the verge of giving in.

I need to keep her trust I will not be another failure for her Demon. We need to do this right.

We need to do this now! She is so close and smells so enticing. Mmmate. I want her and you want her I see not the problem with taking her, she already knows our strength. We can be strong reliable providers for her and our pups. She would be happy.

Humans are not so simple, she needs choice she needs, time she needs-

She needs us and we need her. We shall take our mate Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru chose to ignore his demon after that and instead concentrating on setting her gently on his couch. Still even he could not hold back from giving her neck a small nip of affection which made her squeal and glare at him.

Rin immediately got up from the couch and went to go get something to drink. She felt more than heard Sesshomaru follow behind her as she searched the rooms. She chose to ignore the nip from earlier dismissing it as a stupid psycho fluff dog thing. Rin knew Sesshomaru wouldn't hurt her and, now that she could think, she knew that he hadn't been growling at her so much as at something she said speaking of which. Rin whirled around to face him and ask him what had gotten his tail in a twist and bumped into stared into her eyes as he slowly drew his hands up her arms to her shoulders. With one hand he stroked her face while the other drifted down her back. Sesshomaru purred as he leaned down to nuzzle her neck again talking two or three deep breaths before gently nipping her neck again. She felt something soft caress her waist before he nipped with a small bit of force at her shoulder causing her to make a strangled sound that only made him purr louder. Then he gently pushed her a little away so he could turn her back to his front before pulling her close again and slowly turning around.

"The kitchen is that way Rrrin. And I warn you if you choose to go any further in the other direction there will be consequences." He purred the word in her ear giving it a nip for good measure. Before pushing her forward and letting her walk ahead of him again. Rin wondered why his nips didn't dredge up painful memories. why she hadn't freaked when he touched her why she felt so comfortable around him and decided to ask him about this mate thing he had insisted they were later. For now he was being weird and she had the strangest feeling that stopping would not be in her best interest. Still…

"Sesshoumaru what is down there? Why would there be consequences?"

Oh it was so tempting. Sesshomaru had been following behind Rin and watching her search. his eyes had been drawn to the sway of her hips the speedy sound of her steps as she went from room to room. Eventually it had felt like he was stalking her herding her towards somewhere where he could trap her and have her delectable body all to himself. Truth be told Sesshomaru was excited. So excited in fact that he let Rin explore as for as she wanted in the mansion his father had gotten him as a kind of sorry for neglecting you present on one of his birthdays, he couldn't remember which. Sesshoumaru stalked behind Rin closer and closer. He was waiting for her to find and enter his room or to turn around though a large part of him had hoped for the former he was almost grateful when she turn around. He needed to touch her, scent her, to taste her or he would go mad and then the demon would get out and Rin would hate him. He dropped his head to her shoulder tilting her chin with one hand and stroking her back with the other. He felt for her pulse with his nose and nuzzled it as it sped up. He slipped his hidden momoko around her waist to pull her closer as he inhaled her scent. He longed to mix it with his own to absolutely cover her with his scent till they were so mixed that you couldn't separate them. First though he needed to taste her. He nipped her warm soft skin in order to distract her from his tongue flicking out to taste her neck right over her pulse point. She began to squirm. Sesshoumaru nipped her once in warning then again because her liked her reaction. Then he couldn't help it, he bit her and she made the absolutely most delightful sound that tested his resolve when they were so close to his bedroom. And his bed was definitely big enough for two. He had to stop before he took it too far. Rin was too sweet to defile… before the first date. So reluctantly her turned her towards the kitchen, purring instructions in her ear which was too cute for him not to take a small nip before letting her go. Now she was asking for details and he sooo wanted to let out just a bit more of his naughty side and tell her exactly what would happen if she turned around. Well, Sesshomaru wasn't in the habit of denying himself.

FInally! This chapter was a pain in the butt! Thank you so much for the reviews everyone I'm so excited hope it was worth the wait.