*Okay as always I own nothing of Criminal Minds or Rizzoli & Isles just enjoying using the characters.

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Jane was sitting on her couch with her sixth beer wondering what the hell was going on in her life. Her best friend was marrying a total nut case, in her opinion, in three weeks. "Who in their right minds has someone arrested for catching a criminal? Especially one that was threatening the bride of said marriage." She thought as she heard a knock on the door and went to get it knowing it was the pizza she had ordered. "If things had been the way they use to be Maura would be sitting with her on her couch instead of doing god knows what with her psycho wife." Was the last thought before opening the door to JJ who was standing there holding her pizza and smiling. "God... can't they just leave me the hell alone." She thought to herself.

"Did Maura or Emily send you here?" She asked taking her pizza as JJ came in and closed the door.

"No... I'm here on my own accord."

"Why?" Jane asked as she just handed the woman a beer.

"Well you didn't want to talk going to the station and afterwards you were so angry I didn't try."

"Do you blame me! She had me arrested!"

"Calm down Jane... I haven't talked to Emily personally about all of this. All I can tell you is probably what Hotch told you this morning."

"Then why are you here then?"

"Emily once told you that we would do the same thing for you that we did for her..."

Jane's eyes went wide, "I'm not in need of that kind of help!"

"Jane... yes you are in need of someone who understands and is willing to do anything to help you."

"I guess you think you are that person?"

"Look I know you are angry... Hell I'm angry too! So let's just get to it and cut the pleasantries. Even though you meant well you totally exposed Emily and me."

"To catch a criminal who was tormenting her!"

"And that makes what you did right in your mind. Did you even think that the information you heard, but wasn't suppose to, was the first time she had ever spoken of the hurt of hearing about someone else making love to Maura?" She paused but only got silence, "Garret was going to marry Maura. Emily expected they would make love but she never had to hear the details of their love life. She doesn't even talk about her individual love life with anyone."

"Come on JJ... I have a hard time believing that after I saw what I saw."

"Look I tried to get Emily to say something to Will about something that is personal between us and she flat out refused. She says people love each other differently and that her and Maura do not talk about me and her." Jane just looked at her unbelievingly, "Look I'm going to use the only analogy I have to help you understand the betrayal that Emily and I feel. You have a hard time being naked in front of anyone."

"How do you know that?" Jane looked at her angrily.

"Frankie told us about the biohazard scare and that you hid behind trash cans."

"Bet you laughed really hard at that didn't you?"

"That!"

"What?" Jane said jumping as JJ yelled.

"That feeling right there... now multiply it by about a hundred because of fear and you now know what Emily felt the moment she learned you told Maura about Ian."

"I'm not following you JJ."

"You could probably put a naked picture of Emily on a bulletin board and she would be angry that you did but she would pass it off by saying something like "damn don't I look good in that lighting" and pull it down. But expose one of her feelings which is her true self and you have just given her the same feeling you experience when you are naked. Totally exposed and open."

Jane hung her head now realizing what JJ was saying, "I do not get any of this JJ. I try but Catholic school never had a class on how to be a warrior mate to a woman. They were to busy telling me that I had to marry some man and spit out kids then God would be happy with me." Once the words left her mouth Hotch's came to her mind, "The dynamics of the world for you have changed with new friends and old ones changing life patterns. You find yourself wanting to use the same old patterns to fit this new family members you have into an old family mold. But the old word family you had while growing up isn't working now because the set patterns of father and mother do not exist in this new one nor do male/female boundaries."

"Jane... earth to Jane..."

"Hummm" She looked up, "Sorry JJ I zoned. You know I hate you profilers!"

JJ laughed, "Jane no school teaches this."

"How do you do it and know it? How do you be her friend then sometimes lover?"

"Jane... I screwed up many times. Remember when we first met... that was the first time I even suspected Emily was gay. But it didn't matter I was straight and my friend needed comfort is how it started. Then I tried to get them together with your trip to D.C but I realized I was jealous of Maura. That's when I realized I had feelings for her and then Paris happened. I just followed my heart and gave what I could. But I've hurt Emily before as she has hurt me too. We made mistakes but now we respect each other and trust each other."

"I followed my heart yesterday JJ and it landed me in jail."

JJ wanted to laugh but just pinched the bridge of her nose, "Tell me how you followed your heart Jane."

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Emily and Maura returned from feeding Bella, "You want some tea love?" Emily asked feeling the chill in her bones.

"That would be lovely but I really want us to talk."

"I know... I just do not know where to start and there are still things I can't talk about..." She hung her head in shame. Maura came and slid her arms around the woman's waist. "... there are always going be things that I can't talk about and things that may come and threaten you or our family and I wonder if I should leave before they do but I do not want to live without you any more."

"Is that why you had Jane arrested. Is she a threat to us Emily?"

"No... she was a threat to you if she had told Ian that my protective shield was lifted over him."

"How?"

"I can't explain it love right now but she did make me shift into a different train of thought by telling you and she will give us a safe wedding by her actions. The arrest was not real even though the paperwork was just in case she fought it too hard. I will not apologize for that Maura, even though I can feel that you are upset with me on it. But the safest place for her that night was in that cell.

I know I have been a handful with hormones running a muck and with my past coming in like a speeding bullet but this is me now. I know it is a lot to ask you to live with but I pray that you still want too."

"You need to talk with her Emily. She doesn't understand all of this and it's a lot. She is a part of my life and always will be and I know you know that and have tried to incorporate her into us like I have Jennifer."

"I know and that's why I asked the team to show her what my life was like before with them and how we worked as a team."

"Emily... you aren't going to change her."

"I do not want too. But sometimes when you see a different view it helps. I also know her and I need to talk but with everything that went on and then she made me so angry I haven't been able to even look at her."

"I know love."

"You never answered me... I know I always have your heart but do you think you can live with me now that you've seen my darkness and jealousy?"

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Jane gave JJ another beer, "Well... I went to Maura's office and she was so fussy about Emily imprisoning her and wiping at a coffee stain that one of the guards had spilt on her. Then she took her dress off and was going to change into scrubs and I knew that they hadn't... and that I could... so I did... and then I ended up in jail and I can't talk about this." She said taking a big swig of beer and focusing anywhere but JJ's eyes.

JJ couldn't stop the laugh. "Stop laughing at me JJ. It's not funny."

"No... no it's not but your timing is always off a bit and your sentence structure leaves a lot to be desired."

"Thanks" Jane said sarcastically and took another drink.

"Jane... Emily didn't have you arrested for taking care of Maura. She had you arrested to keep you from talking to Ian and if I know her to protect you from her."

"Protect me from her?"

"Yeah... she was so angry. None of us have ever seen the amount of rage that was displayed. Why do you think Pen yelled for you to run and I pushed you away from her? This all puzzles me because you were the one who reminded Maura and me that Emily had been through hell when we got back from the mission to give her sometime. But now just a few months later she is suppose to be a hundred percent." JJ paused to let that sink in.

"Look you have been on two cases and one mission involving Emily. On both cases she had been abducted and the last one almost cost her life and Bella's. Now we know that it was also the biggest fear of her life. We... meaning her team have been on several cases with her and know a different Emily. One who is level headed and kind and follows as well as leads.

Now I only say that to tell you this... you are the one she wants protecting Maura when she is not around which means you are going to have to trust her to tell you."

"But when is she going to trust me though JJ?" Jane asked whining it out.

"She trust you enough to tell you when you need to know them. I don't know everything and you've seen how close we are." She said raising her eye brows.

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Maura tightened her arms around Emily's waist. "Tell me love so we can clear it."

"Part of my rage looking at her that night was that she could have had it all with you without the darkness and she had no clue how precious it was."

"Just as Jennifer could have had with you."

"No... the darkness was already there love. She's just a light in it that helps me back so I do not disappear into the night. You and Carolina were the last ones that got to see me without it there."

"We both know that their paths are with someone else but they help our journey as we help theirs."

"I know but it is so hard to explain to someone who doesn't speak the same language."

"You know so many habibiy you will figure it out."

"Does that mean..." Maura turned the woman in her arms and placed her fingers on her lips to stop her speech.

"That means my life is with you and our family and that we will figure out the moments of darkness together. But you still have to talk with Jane before the wedding." She said kissing Emily with a passionate kiss that didn't stop until air was needed for their lungs. "Also Miss Prentiss..." Emily cringed knowing she was about to be put in her place again, "...I will not be imprisoned by body guards again. Do I make myself clear?"

"Yes ma'am." Was said in a smiling but child like voice as the kissing started again.

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Jane looked at JJ and rubbed her hands in her hair, "Yeah... about that voyeur thing... sorry."

"I'm okay now that I've gotten over the shock of being spied on but you are going to have to talk to Emily at some point."

"With or without her guns?' Jane asked making a joke.

"Does it matter?" JJ replied back raising her eye brows again.

"Not helping JJ." She said as they both laughed.

"Look give her and Maura time to talk and she will calm down. I'm sure Maura is not happy with her behavior either but she is also caught between a rock and hard place."

"Yeah how?"

"She loves two hard headed brunettes that are totally opposite from each other in approaches to things."

"Well there is that..." Jane smiled at JJ, "...that shouldn't be so hard."

"Right..." She said drawn out. "No issue with that at all." JJ said rolling her eyes. "Okay now that's cleared up, how are you feeling about giving a woman an orgasm?"

"JJ!" Jane said spitting out her beer across the living room.

"What?"

"Warn a person before blind siding them."

"Hey you were the one who mentioned it first."

"I'll give you that but Maura and I haven't even talked about it yet. She had to get back to Emily."

"Ohhh..." JJ got a glimpse into what was going on now.

"What does ohhh mean?"

"It means you took a chance and your first time was over shadowed by Emily again."

"No... I did it for her too."

"Okay... explain." JJ said glad that Jane was opening up some.

"After hearing what Emily said I knew why she wasn't being close to Maura...I'm sure it triggered Ian's words to her. Then Maura was standing before me like you two were in her bra and panties and I knew at that moment I could be a warrior mate for the both of them... if that makes sense?"

"I totally see that." JJ said encouraging her to continue.

"Then I got nervous then excited that I was helping Maura no other way that anyone could at that moment." She stopped and looked at her hands.

"What is it Jane?"

"What does it make me that I liked it and what she did for me but..." She stopped again.

"Jane... look at me." When no response was given JJ reached out and lifted up the woman's chin. "What is it?"

"But what if I can't make Emily like me enough..."

"Shhh..." JJ said as she pulled an afraid and intoxicated Jane into her arms. "First of all you do not have to make Emily like you... she loves you."

"Yeah... right."

"Jane... I have just told you that I have never seen so much rage and yet she hit the wall not you and she wants the team to help."

"You just want to change me... turn me into an alien."

JJ almost lost it laughing, "Jane we do not want to change you but maybe give you a different view or channel you. Because Emily was evolved in many things that can come back to haunt her and even threaten her family and think about it..." She said pulling away from the upset woman, "...would Emily entrust Maura's safety with someone she didn't trust or like?"

Jane thought about it a moment, "I still think you all are aliens."

"Welcome to Morgan's world."

"He thinks you are aliens too?"

"That's what he says but I think he is just jealous of Emily getting all the kisses." She said smiling.

"Yeah what's up with that?" Jane asked as they both laughed. "Want some pizza? I'll heat it up because I think I've drank a six pack or more." She said trying to remember how many she had drank.

"Sure... let me call Will and let him know I'll be later than I thought." She said pulling out her phone.

"JJ..."

"Yeah..." She said looking up at the woman standing holding the pizza box.

"Thank you for listening."

"I'm here for you Jane anytime." She said smiling and hitting the speed dial button for Will.

This is a complicated and complex story because I chose early in it to show a lot of views.

With that said... I know a few of you think I have given Jane a raw deal from time to time. But she has a longer journey than the others in the story and this story started and will end about Emily's past coming to her and how it effects those around her.

I expanded it out to reveal things in all of our ladies lives at the request of extending it to reveal all. But in doing so I have made some fans upset. But as always I ask for your patients because it is an amazing journey for all our ladies and it will come together.

Now on another note... If you need a good feel Jane story to keep reading this journey... check out "Yes Maura There is a Santa Claus" that is filled with Jane goodness. I promise I'm not picking on her.