Authors Note:
So I managed to get a chapter done before I go overseas to Asia for a family holiday. Please thank Crystal9034 for her rapid edits. I won't be back in Australia until next Saturday so I can't update till then, sorry!
Many regards,
Maria Amore.
Two steps forward but how many back?
Christian's POV
"Please Christian" Ana asks emotionally.
"Ana. I …." I struggle to find the words to say rather I look into Ana eyes. Her clear, bright-blue eyes that are too big for her face look at me longingly. Nothing would give me more joy than fulfilling Ana's request. I want to make love to her, warmly and intimately, however that would be giving up some level of control. I don't know if I could control my emotions if she refused me later.
"Christian, stop thinking too much about it. I want you, and you want me" Ana tries to convince me. Ironically she sounds more like me when I first met her.
I lift Ana up and place her in front of me. The piano keys cause a rumble as her small and tantalizing backside presses down on them. I lift the skirt of her short dress, in order to spread her legs open and get close to Ana.
"I am glad you wore this short dress. It is rather practical for this evening" I tell her as I pull her panties to the side and slip a finger inside her. I can feel her getting moist already.
"Anastasia, are you sure you want me to make love to you?" I ask to seek clarification.
"Yes. Please Christian. I really want this" There is a real urgency in her voice.
"Promise me you won't leave me. Promise me that you will return with Ted to Seattle, once he has finished school and live in our house on the sound." I analyze Ana's body language, and she doesn't look convinced. What do I have to do?
"I. LOVE. YOU. ANASTASIA. GREY." I tell her in between kissing her thighs in a line. "I want my future to be filled with you and Ted"
"Time. I need time" Ana reminds me. I have developed a real hatred for the word 'time.'
"You should know that I am not a patient man." Before I can stop myself, anger fills my voice.
"Please Christian" Ana begs. Slowly she slips off the piano, and I hear the sound of the zipper of her dress being undone.
"STOP" I yell at her, standing up now. Our eyes are interlocked, and we are blanketed in our combined electric passion. Deep in Ana's eyes, I see thesame naive and fragile twenty-one year old girl who just wanted me to make love to her. I zip her dress up, and Ana looks torn.
"Do not unzip your dress, I want to do it" I pick Ana up and carry her the short distance to the bedroom. The bed is smaller than our old bed and the one in the New York Apartment, but it will suffice. I put Ana down, making short work of the zipper, dress and her undergarments.
"I love to look at you" Ana blushes. I step back and remove my clothes as I glare at her. Completely naked I then take Ana's hand and put it back on my chest. "My heart beats for you Ana." I remind her. Tears start to form in her eyes, and she throws herself on me so hard that I have to catch her, so she doesn't fall. Her lips press hard on mine and I respond by possessing her mouth.
Ana legs are wrapped around me when she finally stops. Our electric passion has increased in intensity, and I don't think either of us could stop, even if we wanted to.
"I love you, Christian. I won't go" She says. Hope and joy fill me.
"Say it" I ask her. Every part of my body hangs on the words that are about to come out of her mouth.
"I won't leave." She says.
"And you will move back to Seattle?" I ask.
"Yes. I will move back. I will live in Seattle, and I will take over Grey Publishing" Ana's voice is sincere.
"Thank God for that," I say. It feels as if the sun has risen for the first time in eighteen years and I am surrounded in its warmth.
"I want to make love to you, but there is something I need to do first" I inform Ana. I unlatch her necklace that she secretly has worn for all these years. I free her wedding ring and slip it back on her finger, where it has belonged all this time. "Now that is better" I raise her hand to my mouth and kiss her fingers and ring.
I re-slip my finger between her folds. "Oh you are so ready, baby." I lay her on the bed and remind her of how good we are together.
It is midmorning on Sunday, when we arrive back in New York. Taylor drove us back and I found myself holding Ana's hand and playing with her ring the entire drive. Ana is leaning against me, tired from having got very little sleep the night before. The thought makes me grin. Neither of us slept much.
Taylor drops us off at the front of the apartment building, where we travel up the elevator. Alone in the elevator I desperately want her again, but Ana looks like she doesn't have enough energy and I wouldn't be able to control myself. We have eighteen years to make up for and a life time to make up for it.
"Ted is going to know that we weren't home last night" Ana murmurs.
"I know."
"He will probably work out that we were... Intimate" Ana says bashful.
"I don't see what the issue is. I doubt that he ever thought that he was the Immaculate Conception" I comment. Ana giggles and looks like she has gotten her second wind. I swiftly pick her up and lean her against the wall, with her legs wrapped around me.
"I love it when you giggle." I proceed to kiss her, only stopping when we hear the door open to our apartment. "Should we go and see our son?" I ask Ana.
"Yes. When are you and Ted flying out?" Ana asks. She doesn't know that I have a surprise for Ted yet.
"5pm. We are going to Yale and then Harvard. We won't be back until Wednesday evening though." I inform Ana, but do not elaborate. Sawyer opens the door to the apartment and greets us warmly. I know that he and Taylor are finding it easier to work for me, now that Ana is around again.
"Is Ted awake?" Ana asks.
"No, he is still asleep. He got home late last night from the concert and stayed up late." Sawyer informs us and walks off with Taylor.
"Well since you and Ted will be away until Wednesday, I am thinking about going away myself." I am instantly unhappy about this declaration. I know I can keep Ana safe here but elsewhere is a different story.
"You're thinking about going away?" I am horrified. Ana promised never to leave. She promised.
"No" Ana states. I relax immediately. "I am not thinking I know I am going to go away" Ana walks further into the apartment, but I am close in on her. I grab her arm and force her to turn towards me. Ana looks shocked at my harsh reaction, but I refuse to let her go anywhere that I don't know about and can't ensure her safety. Fuck it if she is mine or not! She is the mother of my child!
"Christian, let go of me" Ana barks
"Last night, you promised not to leave. Tell me where are you going?" I demand to know. I can feel my emotions building up and I am not able to cope. Ana looks horrified, and I mellow, not wanting to undo the progress made recently.
"Ana please. you know I have issues with control. Just tell me where you are going to go so I can ensure you will be safe. I may even be able to get the GEH jet back in time for you. Just tell me where you are going and staying."
"Seattle" She states.
"Seattle? Why? You were there just recently." I probe.
"Yes. But if you recall last night I told you I would move back with you. I want to go and check out a few things. I am going to abandon the life I have built up here in New York, so I need to find out what I need to work on so I won't resent moving"
"Resent? Abandon? How I see it is you simply agreed to resume the old life you abandoned with me." I tell Ana.
"Christian, I am not going to argue over this. You are the one that told me to give up the past and think about the future."
"Yes, fine. Go to Seattle, but I will book your tickets and security will be going with you. Also, I want you to stay at Escala. I know you will be safe there" I order. I get my blackberry out and message Taylor. He will be able to make all the arrangements to my satisfaction.
"What if I want to stay at the sound?" Ana asks.
"The sound? Our home?" I ask encouraged. Ana nods. I am over the moon at this prospect. This would be where I would want us to live, where Ted would come home during the summer and where we could extend our family.
"I will make the necessary arrangements." I tell her
"Sure, Mr. Control Freak" Ana mocks. I look at her unhappy, but she is dead right in her assessment.
She walks away quickly, only once looking back at me smirking. Every fiber in my body responds, my palm is becoming twitchy, and my pants are becoming tight as I watch her back side. '
Ted's POV
"Dad, I am packed. What time are we flying out?" I ask, putting my luggage next to dads.
"Soon. I am just waiting for one more valuable piece of luggage." I look at my dad not sure what he means. We are going away for 3 days and 3 nights. A day extra than intended for reasons dad is yet to tell me.
"How much luggage do we need?" I say shrugging my shoulders. The doorbell rings and dad grins.
"That will be for you." He tells me. I narrow my eyes and head off to the door. I have no idea who would be there. I am going away for 3 days. I open the door, and I take a little step back.
"Grandpa. What are you doing here?" I ask. I step towards him and offer him a warm, familiar hug.
"Your father actually. He called me and invited me to come with you and him to your college visits. I hope I won't be intruding" My grandfather states.
"No, it will be great. Is grandma still in Seattle or is she here in New York?" I enquire.
"She is in Seattle. The next few days are a boy's only event."
"Well, come on in." I escort my grandfather into the living area where my dad was, and now my mother is there also. She smiles when she sees my grandfather.
"Carrick, it is good to see you," She says.
"Good to see you too Ana. How have you been these last few days?" He asks. There is a funny look on my grandfather's face and dad looks terribly displeased. I alternate between studying both their expressions, but they soon return to a casual stance when they realize I am watching them.
"I have been great. I am glad that you are going with Christian and Ted" Mom says.
"We are leaving in an hour. I need to get a few things sorted, so if you don't mind I will get to it Excuse me dad and Ted" My dad says decidedly polite.
"That's fine Dad," I tell him. I am rather excited to talk to my grandfather. I lead him to the kitchen to get him a drink. I see my mother try to make a sneaky get away, in the direction that my father went. I can't help, but smile and cringe, knowing exactly what they are doing.
Ana's POV:
I make a subtle exit from the living room as Ted takes his grandfather into the kitchen. My son is overjoyed at the arrival of his grandfather, and I am over the moon at Christian's efforts to make his son happy.
I enter Christian's room, where he is diligently and carefully placing his laptop and some documents inside a bag. He has just gotten off his blackberry. It looks like it was a rather heated conversation from what I can tell. He doesn't look pleased. I try to creep behind him. Intent on making him jump.
"Ana, I know you are behind me. I can smell your sweet scent" Christian says arrogantly. He spins on his heel and pulls me close to him.
"I have booked your flight. You will travel with O'Connor and Sawyer. Gail will meet you at the sound. She has orders to force feed you if needed." Christian seems stressed, more than standard.
"Thank you, I will stay close to Sawyer and O'Connor and promise to eat all my dinner like an obedient little girl. Do I have to hold security's hand when I cross the road?" I mock, but I do hate it when Christian treats me like a child. If only I didn't love him so much!
"I think I should put you over my knee and spank you for that comment" Christian looks rather forbidding, and I do not relax until he shakes his head and smiles at me. "I was worried about leaving you alone in New York while I take Ted away, but now I feel utterly out of control by you also going away. I need and must put in measures so I can be sure that you will be safe"
"Christian, I am more than likely to spend most of my time with Kate" I reassured him
"Exactly, you will get into trouble" Christian asserts. I roll my eyes at Christian. He really needs to stop doing this.
"Ouch" I yelp as Christian delivers a swift smack to my backside.
"Don't roll your eyes" Christian warns.
"Also I forgot to tell you, I am going to visit Grey Publishing while I am over in town." Christian looks even more displeased at this comment than when I rolled my eyes as few seconds ago. I would have expected him to be supportive of this.
"Why?" Caution fills his voice.
"Why do you think? I am going to take it over in a few months, and I want to get an idea of where the company is at. You of all people would do the same" I comment.
"I can have them send you any information and spread sheets that you want. You wouldn't have to leave the sound or better yet, you could join us on the college trip. I don't really want you away from me" Christian's hand has found its way up my shirt and is playing with my nipple. Even this touch does inexplicable things to me.
"I think you and your father have this college trip covered. I am going to Seattle" I reaffirm.
"Fine. But stay safe!" Christian warns. He is intensely stressed. Seriously I am not going to a war torn area or anything. I decide that I really need to distress him. I stand on my toes and kiss him, to distract him from my hands that are uncurling his belt and unzipping his pants.
"Lean on the post" I tell him. Obediently he follows my instructions. I bend down and pull down his boxer shorts. Having anticipated my moves, Christian is already growing. I take him quickly so I can feel him grown. Sucking hard, I pay particular attention to his tip and swirl my tongue around. Christian grabs my hair and guides me. I take him deeper and deeper.
"Oh Ana..." He calls out loudly. "Ana... I am going to cum…ANA!" He warns. I bare my teeth and I feel the salty warm liquid run down my throat. Christian lifts me to my feet and places me on the bed. His eyes are dark and determined.
"We don't have much time, but I believe I owe you a favor" Christian removes my panties raises my skirt. Shit, I should have shaved. His expert tongue knows exactly what I like, and because I was so aroused from sucking Christian, it takes little time for me to find my release also.
"Dad, we need to leave" Ted calls out. It sounds like he is coming closer to the bedroom. I jump off the bed and put my panties back on as Christian readjusts himself.
"Just in time" Christian smirks at me. "I will be out in a minute Ted."
I am panting with adrenaline. I desperately do not want Christian to leave, but I can't do that to Ted. Christian wraps his arms around me and kisses me on my lips, then the tip of my nose and then my forehead.
"Stay safe Anastasia," he says softly.
"I will try" I say knowing it will rile him up.
"Do, not try. Or your backside will be an exceptionally rosy color when I see you next, and I don't care if our son walks in or not" Christian warns and grins like a little school boy.
Oh my fifty
Christian's POV:
My father, Ted and I walk back up to the apartment after a brilliant and successful college trip. It was such a success that I am going to suggest that we do an annual or bi-annual trip away. Maybe even Elliot can come.
Entering the apartment I find Sawyer looking tense. He signals to Taylor, and they go off together. I know now something is wrong. I excuse myself from the company of my son and father and walk to them.
"Sawyer, is there an issue?" I enquire.
"Yes Sir, there is. Anastasia isn't here." He says. My blood starts to boil.
"Where the fuck is she then? You were supposed to watch after her!" I scold. I swear I will have his balls if anything has happened to her.
"Mrs. Grey is at her apartment. She moved back there when we arrived earlier today" Sawyer reports.
"Why?" I emphasized.
"She refused to say and refused security. O'Connor is outside her apartment, but she won't let him in" Sawyer fills us in.
"Taylor, you are coming with me. Sawyer, tell my father and son, I have had an emergency at work, but will be back. Do not tell them that anything has occurred with Ana"
Taylor and I speed out of the apartment. I try calling Ana's cell phone and then her home phone, but she fails to answer. What the hell is going on? I rage at the fact that Ana has done this. She promised she wouldn't leave me, and in turn, I gave her me. I let her touch me again.
We find O'Connor at the door of Ana's apartment. I knock and ring the bell, but she doesn't answer. I bang on the door, but it doesn't work.
"ANASTASIA ROSE GREY, OPEN THIS DOOR NOW OR I WILL HAVE IT KNOCKED DOWN!" I yell. A minute later Ana opens the door, but blocks me from entering. She looks as furious as I do. Silence fills between us.
"What on earth are you doing? You do not belong here." I scold.
"And who are you to tell me where I belong?" She argues back.
"I am your husband. I am the man you promised to stay with and never leave, just a few days ago if your memory has failed you. Now let me in or I will start to yell in the corridor and let your former neighbors witness it" I warn her.
Wearyingly Ana opens the door. I ask Taylor and O'Connor to stay outside. We need as much privacy as possible.
"So are you going to tell me, what this is all about?" I hiss.
"Come on Christian. As if you don't know. You promised me we wouldn't keep any more secrets, and there would be no more lies. But you lied to me the second you made that proposition on the GEH jet, when we returned to New York" Ana argues.
"Christian, I want the divorce. You can give me papers now or two weeks before our anniversary as you originally proposed, but I will sign those papers" Ana storms out of the room and slams her bedroom door.
I lick my lips, pull at my hair and become so angry that I grab the closest thing to me and throw it against the wall. The vase shatters into a thousand pieces. I grab my blackberry and start to work out what on earth Ana found out... What lies has she discovered? I race to chase Ana, She has to tell me what lies she knows or thinks she knows.
Authors Note: Cheers for reading. Please leave a review... I will still have my iPhone with me and will be able to read them. I also hope you like my cliffhanger.