Love Gained and Love Lost

Christians POV:

Have you guessed where we are going for the weekend?" I ask Ana

"Yes, Christian it was evident when I saw you in this tie" Ana smiles as she strokes my silver at me. I can't wait to take her back to our ivory castle above Seattle.

"Would you rather go somewhere else? I want you to be happy. I want to make you happy." I offer. I can easily change our plans. I don't actually care where we go, as long as I am with Ana. Though I would love to play again, like we use to in our playroom. Thought within reason, she is pregnant.

"No, it is perfect. Is everything still there? Like before?" Ana's voice is full of excitement and hope.

"Yes." I tug at Ana's hand and pull her on to my lap. I wrap my arms around her keeping her close to me. I start to pull the pins out of her hair allowing her locks to fall and frame her face, back and chest. "I am so glad you never cut your hair short" I bury my nose in her hair and then kiss her from her ear to her neck.

"Oh Christian" Ana moans.

"It's my turn to drive you wild now" I smirk at Ana.

Taylor drops us off in front of Escala. I nod at the doorman as he grins when he sees Ana and me together again. We enter the elevator and I input the code. As soon as the doors close, we are engulfed in electricity, passion and a deep desire to be together. I stop the elevator and thrust her to the wall.

"We never did work out what it was about elevators" I tell Ana. She opens her mouth and allows me to kiss her. To possess her like our life depends on it.

"I want you. Here. Now!" Ana demands. I play with her nipples through her dress and she reacts. I slide my hands down and lift the skirt of her dress. I rip through the delicate lace of her panties and let my fingers explore.

"Oh Ana, you are so ready, already! This is going to be quick. I want you in our old bed and in our room." I spin her around and bend her over. Her pregnant state means I am unable to lift her or have sex standing up. I quickly thrust into her, and Ana groans loudly.

"Again?" I ask.

"Yes. Please." Ana is desperate. I thrust into her again, filling her deeply. I continue my rhythm until I feel Ana tighten around me. She is so close and I stop, with myself still in her.

"CHRISTIAN, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? DONT STOP!" Ana yells.

"Sssshhhh." I tell her into her ear. I snake my arm around and find her most sensitive spot. Stroking rubbing and teasing her.

"Oh Christian" she calls out. My name becoming a prayer to her.

"I know. Just enjoy it" I tell her. I feel her getting tighter and tighter and then restart my thrusts. Together we find our climax together and lean against the wall of the elevator.

"You are astounding Anastasia. You never fail to please"

"The same can be said about you Christian."

"Come I want to get you out of this dress."

I punch in the code of the elevator again, and its start to move up to our first home. Taylor opens the door for us and is trying not to grin.

"Elevator trouble." I tell him seriously.

"Understood Sir" Taylor is now looking down as Ana blushes a deep crimson color. I bend down and pick Ana up and carry her into the penthouse and place her on the kitchen counter. I take a bottle out of the fridge and pour its contents into two tall glasses.

"Don't worry, its no-alcoholic" I tell her and pass her a glass.

"What do you want to toast to?" Ana enquires. Oh my where do we start? There is so much to toast.

"To endless years of happiness, love and passion together. To our incredible son, may he experience endless year's true love, and to our next child, may we raise it to be the incredible person that our son is." Ana and I clink glasses and drink.

"So Mrs. Grey, are you hungry?"

"Not for dinner," Ana says running her finger over my lips. I take the glass out of Ana's hands and set it down on the counter.

I squirt some Jasmine bath oil into the large bath and let it foam as the bath fills. Ana approaches me and leans against the doorway. I move slowly towards her. "Turn around; I want to unzip your dress." Ana complies immediately. "So obedient. If only this trait could be demonstrated more often."

"Consider it a renewal of vows temporary gesture." Ana says and giggles.

"I still love that sound" I slip her dress off and undo her bra and spin her around. I sit Ana on the bench, remove each one of her shoes, her silk laced stockings and then discard her ripped panties.

"Is it my turn now to undress you?" Ana almost begs.

"Please" I beg back.

Ana carefully removes the treasured silver tie, folds it and places it on the far corner of the bathroom bench, for safe keeping. This is where the gentleness ends. Ana pulls my shirt out of my pants and then grabs the collar. In one swift move, she rips open my shirt and the button scatter over the bathroom floor. Desperately she tries to remove my shirt but gets stuck.

"Ana, my cufflinks" I remind her.

"Opps." Ana says playfully. Finally, removing them she makes quick work of my pants. I help her into the bath and then join her. I pull her towards me, so she is leaning against me.

"Love you Anastasia Grey" I whisper into her ear.

"I love you too Christian."

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"Are you sure you want to do this? You don't have to." I offer Ana as we stand outside the doors to the Red room.

"I want to, Sir" I know Ana has thrown the word 'Sir' in for good measure and it is enough to make me want to take her here right now. I open the door, and it still smells the same though undoubtedly the smells are more subtle. Ana removes her silk robe, and I react immediately. There Ana is in wearing only white panties.

"Kneel down Ana and don't move," I tell Ana.

I move towards the cabinet and pull out what I need to fulfill my scene. From the corner of my eyes, I notice Ana has taken on the correct position. With everything in place, I walk over to her and kneel down.

"Ana, are you sure you want to do this? I only need you, this isn't necessary" I reassure her.

"But I want to. I miss your kinky fuckery" Ana blushes as she speaks.

"Do not be embarrassed Anastasia." I tell her and stand. "Look at me" I tell her. Ana looks at me with her powder blue eyes. I get lost in them. Does she realize that she owns me?

"Do you remember the safe words Anastasia?"

"Yes Sir. Red and Yellow" I smile

"Very good. Now stand up and move towards the cross." Ana moves and playfully I give a smack to her backside. I shackle her to the cross and stand back and look at her. I pull out a pair of scissors and cut her silk panties off her, leaving her fully naked. I pull out a blindfold from my back pocket.

"I am going to blindfold you and then put headphones on you. You will only hear the music. Don't forget your safe words"

"I won't" Ana promises. I give her a soft kiss and then blind fold her. I put the headphones on her and a chant starts.

She looks so beautiful, and I desperately want to take her there and then. She doesn't know how sexy she is. It takes a huge effort to not bury myself into her straight away. I cup her breasts, run a thumb over her nipples and then run my fingers over her folds. A large smile grows on my face, she is wet already. Both our breathing becomes a little heavy in anticipation.

Ana squirms in her cuffs as I play with her folds and rub her sweet wetness around her buttocks. I then slip my fingers between her buttocks and run them down and around to her front, just brushing her clitoris. Ana commences to pant and pulls on the leather cuffs, but her movement is restricted. They cuffs limit her but will not leave any marks. I slowly push the wireless butt plug in her. A toy I just recently bought in the hope of this.

I look at her large prefect breasts. Pregnancy has made them extra sensitive and large. I want to clamp them and enhance the sensation, but our baby's need to nurse from them prevents me. I don't want to risk doing any damage. I play with her nipples and blow on them, making them erect while she gets adjusted to the sensation of the plug.

I step away, and press on the mini remote. Ana arches her back, pushing her breasts out in response. Every time I press the remote, the butt plug in her vibrates, deliciously until I press stop. Each time Ana groans in pleasure. I press the button several times in quick succession.

"Christian" Ana calls out. She's at that delicious tension point. Ana has been teetering along the edge of a marvelous gigantic orgasm for several minutes now. I stand right in front of her, and toy with her clit as occasional give her a taste of the vibration from the plug. She is so ready. I thrust myself hard inside her and withdraw, and then repeat.

"CHRISTIAN" Ana screams out. She desperately needs release. I switch the vibration of the butt plug on, grip her breasts with my hands and start to fuck her hard. She feels incredible and then gives out the loudest most earth shattering orgasms I have ever heard. I reciprocate and fill her. When Ana's orgasm has finished, she slumps down. I swiftly remove her headphone, blindfold, plug and untie her.

I support Ana and pick her up and carry her to the four poster bed. I lay her down and place the pillows around her head to ensure she is comfortable. I start to play soft and gentle kisses on her as she regains some of her energy.

"Are you okay?" I ask her.

"Very much so" Ana replies, smiling.

"I am going to have to buy you a whole new set of panties at this rate. I guess I get to take you shopping" Ana, and I start to laugh.

"Come I want to feed you and then take you to bed and make love slowly to my wife"

Ted's POV

When I wake up the sun is shining in my bedroom and I feel incredible. I reach over to the other side of the bed,but I don't feel Lily. Worried I sit up and look around. It is there where I find the letter addressed to me.

I quickly open it desperately wanting to know its content.

Dear Ted,

I am sorry. Leave me be.

Lily.

The letter had only 9 little words, but its impact was life shattering. I didn't understand what had happened. The last couple of months had been magical. We hadn't fought or even disagreed on anything. And then last night, was perfect, both of our first times. We both gave each other our virginity. She seemed so happy. Her falling asleep in my arms last night was the happiest I had ever felt.

I jump out of bed and throw on a pair of sweat pants. This house is secured, and so wired up that no one can move without it being recorded. Running downstairs I find Sawyer. Perfect!

"Sawyer, Do you know what time Lily left?" I enquire

"No, But I can find out. The cameras here record everything." He offers.

"Please" While he goes about his assignment I get my cell phone and try to call her. I need to talk to her. The phone rings out, I try again, and the same happens. I decide then to block my number, but the result doesn't change. Damn it.

"Ted, Lily left the house during the evening" Sawyer informs me.

"During the night?" I asked concerned for her safety. I immediately send a text message.

*are you okay? Let me know that are alright. I am worried about you. Please let me know you are safe.*

"Sawyer, Lily' parents are away this weekend. She will be alone, and we need to find her." I show him the note she just wrote, and he nods.

"I will get the car. Go and get dressed" I run back upstairs not wanting to waste any time. I had just put a shirt on and my shoes when my phone beeps.

*I am fine. Just let me alone. I am sorry but its better this way*

I can't just accept this. I decide to ring her again, but she still doesn't answer her phone.

*Answer your phone or I will come and find you. * I warn her

Before I am even able to dial her number, my phone rings, and it is Lily.

Ted: where are you? Are you okay?

Lily: I am fine.

Ted: then why did you leave during the evening? Why do you want me to leave you alone?

Lily: I had to.

Ted: no you didn't. Tell me where you are

Lily: I am home, but I am going away. I am leaving now.

Ted: Don't leave. I am on my way, just agree to see me.

Lily: no I am sorry.

Ted: Lily don't go anywhere!

I am yelling now, but the line has gone dead. I rush downstairs, where Sawyer and O'Connor are. Together we run and get into the car. I consider calling my parents but decide that I need to handle this myself. We arrive at Lily's building and take the elevator upstairs. We knock on the door and are greeted by their housekeeper.

"Morning Ted. Lily isn't here" She informs me.

"Where is she?" I demand to know.

"She has gone away until college starts" I don't believe her and desperately want to check inside the apartment.

"I want to see her. Please move aside." I say forcefully.

"No. I have given you all the information you need, and I know. You need to leave now" I consider my options and screw it. I push my way in and start to run through the house. "Lily?" I keep calling out. I know that Sawyer and O'Connor are just behind me. I search each room and then stop when I reach Lily's bedroom. He clothes are gone, and I know she isn't intending on coming back.

Sawyer follows me out of the apartment and takes me home. I am silent in shock. I can't comprehend what has happened. It isn't until we reach our house on the sound that we speak.

"Ted, would you like me to call your parents?" Sawyer offers.

"No, leave them be. I will talk to them when they get back tomorrow morning" I sigh loudly. I sit down and bury my head in my hands. How did things get so twisted? And what caused it? She smiled, she was happy... Nothing makes sense.

"Ted, how about I call your grandparents or your uncle Elliot" Sawyer offers again.

"No, please do not interrupt any of them. Sawyer, there is something you can do for me, but I am not sure you are going to want to give it to me." I tell him. Sawyer sits in front of me.

"Tell me what it is"...

Authors Note: Here you go, third chapter in three day. Enjoy. Thanks to Crystal9034 and please review.