Jasper had fallen asleep on the cool sand leaving Amy awake staring at the night sky alone. She was thinking of everything that had happened lately and if things would be ok. She half expected something to come from Homeworld soon enough but nothing did... well at least not yet. She was hoping to talk about the Diamonds more with Jasper but she had dismissed the whole conversation and had fallen asleep.

She wanted to know more about them.

There was so much she had learned from Pink Diamond in the short amount of time they were together. So much information but she didn't feel comfortable sharing it with her friends. Pink Diamond had said not to tell anyone because it would overthrow the balance of the gem world leaving it despair. Amy had no idea what that meant until now. She understood what those words meant.

Pink Diamond knew someone was going to shatter her but Amy had no idea what she had meant at that time either. She didn't want to tell her friends about White Diamond either because the Crystal Gems didn't trust anyone especially the Diamond Authority. She thought maybe she should talk to Peridot because she was smarter and she may know a lot more but there was one gem who would know everything but she no longer existed and she was Steven. Amy wasn't exactly sure if Rose Quartz knew anything but she had too because she started the Rebellion.

If any of friends knew what was really going on, then they would definitely go to Homeworld and fight. She didn't want anyone hurt especially Steven and Jasper but Steven might know stuff without actually knowing he knew. Some things could show up as dreams for him since he was human or maybe Rose Quartz cut off that part from her son to protect him and it was hard to tell. Amy got up and walked to the edge of the water placing her feet into the cold liquid.

"What would you think of me now?" she said aloud "Do your words still hold true or would you be disappointed in me?"

There was no answer and of course- there wouldn't be.

She was very sad. Amy knew that Pink Diamond was her first love now because she didn't understand then. Pink Diamond told her Diamonds weren't allowed to love each other because that was what happened to the first four diamonds. White Diamond was the daughter to two of them but Pink Diamond didn't tell her which ones. Amy didn't understand much about parents or anything but that had to hurt White Diamond after all these years.

"I want to know who I am. Why I'm here."

She wondered if there was a way to find out how old she really was?

X

X

"Of course there's a way to know how old you are! Why didn't I think of that sooner?!" Peridot yelled shaking Amy in excitement making Lapis laugh.

"Calm down," Jasper said glaring at the green gem.

"I'm glad there's a way!" Amy said excitedly.

"I am too! It may take a week to make the device but it should work even with Earth stuff."

"I wonder how old I am!" Amy said smiling.

"Probably between four to five thousand years. The Diamonds are ten thousand years old and they're the oldest."

"Then how did they come into existence?" Amy asked looking interested.

Peridot, Lapis and Jasper all stared at each other.

"What?"

"No one knows. White Diamond was the first then Yellow Diamond then Blue Diamond and then Pink Diamond. I guess they were just there..." Peridot said.

"So kind of how I came into existence?"

Peridot shrugged, "I guess in a way it could be the same."

"Tell me more about them," Amy said sitting down in front of the couch.

"Well... Lapis is the oldest... What do you want to tell her?" Peridot asked smiling.

"I don't know. I know I was regarded as a powerful gem and I was protected like I was a Diamond but I never spent much time around them," Lapis said shrugging.

"Oh. Well... can Diamonds be shattered?" Amy blurted out.

Peridot snorted, "No. Well, by another Diamond that is."

Amy stared at her blankly.

"That's... that's the only way?" she asked softly.

"Yea, I mean Diamonds are the hardest things to break only other Diamonds can break them."

Amy bit her lip, "Ok."

"It's still hard to believe Pink Diamond was shattered," Peridot said looking at her tablet.

"Jasper? Can I go hang out with Steven?" Amy asked.

"Sure, I'll hang out here."

Amy gave Jasper a kiss on the lips and she took off out of the barn.

Amy needed to speak to Garnet. She wasn't sure if she could tell her anything but it was worth a try. There wasn't a lot she could get someone who didn't know much about the Rebellion when she barely joined it after it had started. Maybe Garnet could shed some light on things she was curious about. Maybe whether or not Homeworld would attack soon. She wanted someone to talk too. She stepped onto the warp pad and warped to the beach house.

"Hey Amy."

Garnet was sitting on the couch looking at a magazine.

"You knew I was coming."

She nodded.

"Can we talk in your room then?"

Garnet gave a nod and closed the magazine. She set it on the stand and got up walking to the Temple door. She had sent Pearl, Amethyst and Steven on a easy mission to pick up some things because she knew Amy wanted to talk to her and she knew it was something that was secretive but she didn't tell them that. They walked through the door and Amy looked up to see all the bubbles.

"What did you want to talk about?" Garnet asked giving her a small smile.

"When is Homeworld coming?" Amy asked and she could see the shock on her face.

"What do you mean?" Garnet asked.

"I... I can't tell you everything but I know they're going to come eventually! I know this!" Amy cried looking panicked.

"Relax. Why would they come after you?" Garnet asked.

"It... I... The day... The day I escaped I fought White Diamond!"

Garnet removed her visor and stared at her.

"What?" she asked in a low voice.

"I told Pink Diamond and she wasn't mad! I knew I could fix Pink Diamond but I didn't want to say anything. You have understand Pink Diamond isn't bad!" Amy cried.

"If we let you fix Pink Diamond, then what Rose did was for nothing."

"No! There's more to everything but if I say anything else I'll put everyone in danger! You have to understand-

"Amy I can't let you. Pink Diamond was-

"She is a Diamond but she's not bad! She was in love with me!"

Garnet frowned and nodded.

"I never... I never understood until I got to be with Jasper. She did tell me but since I didn't understand I had no idea what those words meant!"

Garnet turned away.

"If you don't believe me then fuse with me!" Amy cried grabbing her arm.

"What?"

"Fuse! I can't show you the way I showed Jasper but I hid things from her because I knew she liked me! You aren't corrupted!"

"Wouldn't you want to fuse with Jasper?" Garnet asked.

"I don't know if I can anyways but it's worth a try! I want to show you what happened to me but if you don't because I would put you in danger I understand."

Garnet looked at her unsure what to think.

"Amy... I..."

"Listen- there's a lot I don't understand and I feel like I would make Jasper upset if she knew the truth but there's a lot Pink Diamond said I don't understand- please Garnet!"

"I can't do that. Fusion is something that could be... delicate for some."

Amy rubbed her furiously and turned away.

"I have to... I have to get to White Diamond."

"If you tell them where we're at that puts everyone in danger!" Garnet said looking angry.

"They already do because Jasper and Peridot came after you guys!"

Garnet became silent.

"Tell Jasper I love her. I can't do much for anyone here. They will come and Yellow Diamond is a bitch. I'm sure you know that."

"You won't go back and see her?" Garnet asked her.

"No."

"I can say you went to search on Earth for something but will you be back?"

Amy frowned, "I don't know. I need to contact White Diamond somehow."

"There's a base on the moon."

"Um... ok thank you."

"Amy."

Amy began walking away trying to ignore the fusion but she grabbed her hand.

"No matter what they agree too or what you do for them... they'll always be for themselves. There's eight of us now compared to the three we were since Steven was born. We are very lucky to have Steven grow up and be as strong as he is now. We are lucky to have Peridot, Lapis Jasper and you to join us but our main goal is to keep the Earth safe. We don't want to fight you but if we have too we will. I know Jasper would side with you regardless but please... don't leave us to fight alone either. We will need help whenever they reach Earth," Garnet said.

"I will never go against my friends."

Garnet smiled, "How will you get there?"

"Pink Diamond told me how to get around but it would be dangerous for Steven. I go through the warp stream and throw myself out. She said there's always a way to get through broke warp pads. The warp pads are broken but not the streams but it's just figuring out which one because it always changes. She said there was a minute time limit but you have to fight through the outside parts of the stream."

"So there was always a way for them to come here if they wanted too."

"No. Pink Diamond said the others had no idea."

Garnet frowned.

"She was the smartest Diamond. So knew a lot of things and she knew things would happen even though she doesn't have your future vision. Much like how you are able to give temporary future vision she was able to pass on her knowledge to me. She didn't show me everything like her feelings just some of the important pieces of gem knowledge. When I get back... I'll talk to everyone together... even Steven."

Amy disappeared through Garnet's door. She walked over to the warp pad with Garnet behind her. Garnet's future vision stared going crazy with all kinds of possibilities showing up and a lot of them... weren't good. In this moment Garnet had to trust Amy and her the fact she knew a lot more than she had let on. She knew more even though she had no idea how to process everything until she came to Earth. Now, Garnet had to bring everyone together and explain the situation.

Amy waved to Garnet and she was gone.

Garnet sat down on the couch and waited on the rest of them to come home. She sat there with her hands in her lap thinking. In a way, she was glad Amy didn't disclose everything she knew the moment she came into their lives that night. Now with the idea that an actual Diamond was in love with a gem from an alien planet would throw an upset even between them. Garnet never asked Pearl questions about White Diamond because Pearl never wanted to talk about it but now would be the time.

It took another hour behind they returned with Pearl and Amethyst arguing about who's fault it was over something that had happened. Steven was smiling away holding a pretty blue crystal in his hands and he walked over to Garnet placing it in her hands. She looked down at the pretty crystal smiling sadly. They had hoped that they wouldn't have to fight the Diamonds for another one hundred years until Steven was strong enough to help fight.

"Hi Garnet! Is this what you wanted us to get?" Steven asked smiling widely knowing it was.

"Yes it is Steven, good job. Can you do me another favor?" Garnet asked smiling.

"Sure!"

"Can you call Peridot and ask them to come here?"

Steven grin spread even wider, "Wow! It's been a while since we all hung out together!"

He ran up to his room and got onto his computer calling his friends.

X

"Hey Steven!" Peridot said holding her tablet.

"What's going on? Where's Amy?" Steven asked seeing Jasper in the background.

"She went to hang with you," Jasper said looking confused.

"She isn't here... Um Garnet wants you guys to come over."

"I don't know if it's safe for Jasper to go-

"It's fine just hurry!" said Garnet's distorted voice.

"Ok we are on the way-

Jasper took off running out of the barn towards the warp pad. Lapis grabbed Peridot and took off flying after Jasper in haste.

"What happened with Amy?" Lapis asked as they landed into the grass.

"I don't know," Jasper said angrily and they warped to the Temple.

X

X

Amy crashed onto the Moon's surface hard on her back. It was cold like ice in space in general and the ground of the Moon felt strange. She got up and looked up. The Diamond Moon Base was tall and it blended in with the color of the Moon but it was pretty. She walked inside and it looked even larger making her gasp in awe. She looked around seeing there were pictures of the Diamonds on the walls.

Her eyes locked onto Pink Diamond's image and sadness filled her. She missed her so much even though they barely spent time together. Amy closed her eyes and she began to glow in a white light growing another three feet. Her gem disappeared off her chest and it shifted to her lower back. She stretched letting out a sigh of relief; it was tiring taking the same small form constantly and shifting her gem placement.

Amy shrunk down by a foot and began walking up the stairs staring at White Diamond's image as she went up. She wasn't exactly sure how she would react to Amy contacting her but she had too. The way White Diamond had stared at her when she fixed her was priceless. Amy had never seen that expression on anyone's face not even on Camp Pining Hearts. She finally reached the room and it felt even bigger. She could see the stars the Sun and the Earth so clearly.

"Wow," she said softly.

She sat down on the throne and stared at the broken pieces of the control board.

"I wondered what happened here?" she said aloud and raised her hand over top of the pieces.

Everything began to glow brightly and the broken pieces were engulfed into a clear bubble. Everything started clanking together and the bubble burst revealing a fixed control panel for the Diamond Moon Base. She leaned back in the seat staring at Earth. She had literally spent a good thousand years floating through space and hiding from them now she was going to talk to White Diamond. She looked down seeing that there was Diamond shaped hole in the arm of the throne and she stuck her hand in it.

The screen flickered on and started making static like sounds. It looked like someone was flipping the channel when it stopped on a white room and there she was, White Diamond in all of her glory, staring at the wall. She was alone and she looked bored. It seemed strange that never noticed her screen was on.

"What do you want Yellow Diamond?"

Amy froze; she didn't know how to reply.

"I'm not in the mood for your games and you're blocking the connection on my search team."

Amy frowned, "What? Are they looking for me?"

White Diamond's head snapped to the side to see Amy sitting in the chair.

"YOU."

"It's Amy not 'you'."

"You're name was Violet last time I checked."

"So... I want to ask you something."

"HA HA HA! You think I want to talk to you after what you did to me!"

Amy scratched her head.

"Well... I fixed you but it's not about you. Where's Pink Diamond?"

White Diamond sat back in her chair and frowned.

"Well?"

"Her shattered remains are in my room but they're extremely corrupted."

"I want to know if you and the Diamonds are planning on coming to Earth."

"I was to come after you. Though unfortunately for you they agreed with me and we probably are still going. We have a meeting in another day."

Amy let out a frustrated sigh.

"Why would I want to help you anyways?"

"I don't know but I know you want to rid of them anyways. You told Pink Diamond."

"I did but that was long time ago. How do you know that I haven't changed my mind?"

"She told me you kept all their diamonds."

"That fuckin... ok ok... What do you want from because apparently she told you everything."

"When they come here to... come after me, I want you to side with us against them. I can fix Pink Diamond but her corruption may be too much for me at one and time it might take over me. My friends will need your help and it'll be up to you to keep Yellow Diamond and Blue Diamond busy. You think you can do that for me? In exchange I fix the previous Diamonds."

"That's a lot to do just for something so easy."

"I haven't told my friends yet. I do want to know something."

"I want to know something too. Is... is Pearl ok?" White Diamond asked looking sorrowful.

Amy grinned, "She's fine. She taught me a lot and how to cook. She's a good fighter."

White Diamond smiled sadly.

"Why?"

"I loved her so much. I still do. She wasn't like any other Pearl. She was smarter than Pearl like her."

"I'm sorry. Maybe... Maybe you can talk to her when you get to Earth."

White Diamond looked thoughtful for a second.

"I didn't know she was still alive after all this time. The thing was... my parents, even though I didn't know them that well because by the time I got finished being complete they were shattered, they believed that gems regardless of their status and race could love whoever they wanted. Now it's considered a crime for two gems to love each other and fuse. I know I would never be able to fuse with Pearl because she would permanently become part of me. I'm not... made of light like everyone else."

There it was. Exactly why White Diamond was allowed to live over the others who had created her... she had real mass and a real body. She wasn't like anyone else and she was like a fusion of two gems smashed together but instead of a gem monster, she was a powerful Diamond. She wasn't someone to go down so easily but she did by Amy's hand.

"What did you want to know?" White Diamond asked looking at the wall again.

"What am I?"

White Diamond turned her head slightly giving her a small smile.

"You're... different. It's odd knowing we came from the same place."

"What?"

"It's rather obvious you didn't know. You are a lot older than the Diamonds that exist now. You're older than Pink Diamond. You're the product of Purple Diamond and Silver Diamond- I guess you're their daughter and you're almost like my sister. You were planted a small shard and placed on that planet to grow on your own. You are younger than me by a thousand years. I never thought they would create the perfect Diamond when you really are only half Diamond."

"What do you half?" Amy whispered.

"Purple Diamond wasn't really a Diamond but she was stronger than one. She was called the Fluorite Diamond- she could take in corruption from any gem and cure them without problems. Silver Diamond knew how to fix shattered gems and they combined a tiny shard of both of them, placing it on planet 67-XOFT-87 because they knew a new set of Diamonds would rise against them. Our parents believed in love not power but that is only speculation from some memories I had got from them. Maybe they were planning on having me and you rise to power but it failed."

Amy looked down at the floor.

"I don't know how to feel about all this."

"You're parents wanted you to be you. To be special because there would be no one else like you. I will admit- I was jealous and actually tried to destroy you but... you're absolutely flawless. The corruption you take in changes your appearance and you gain the powers of those you healed. I couldn't tell you if they want to come back but... I want to meet them."

Amy nodded.

"Are you in love?"

"Yes but not with Pink Diamond."

White Diamond nodded, "She would fight whoever you got with. Who is it?"

"The Jasper that created perfect on Earth."

White Diamond nodded, "Yes that one. I am surprised... She was so soft and mellow until Pink Diamond was shattered."

Amy smiled, "I love Pink Diamond but not like I love Jasper."

"If you fuse with Jasper, her will has to be at strong as yours if not stronger otherwise you'll absorb her."

Amy bit her lip.

"It's the price we pay for loving lesser gems."

"I don't see her that way."

White Diamond smiled.

"We all have our strengths and weaknesses. We are all made different and that's what makes each one of us perfect. It doesn't matter who we love or who we become- we are the same race but we're all different and perfect. I'm not better than anyone else. I am just Amy who can cure corruption and fix shattered gems."

"It's cute you think that, when you have no real weakness. You can't be destroyed even by your own hand. You can be corrupted but that's it. You can't be placed in a bubble for safe keeping either. You are cursed far worse than I am. Maybe when you heal them you can ask why you were made that way."

Amy felt her eyes filling with tears.

"I've grown tired of living. I had assumed Pearl was shattered in the war but I guess not. I want to ask her... If she'll be with me. If she won't I'd liked to be shattered to dust."

"What? Why?!" Amy cried growing upset.

"What is life worth living when the person who loves you rejects you?"

This was true. Garnet had explained at some point Pearl was in love with Rose and yet Rose chose someone else. Then that meant the only reason why Pearl stayed around was because of Steven.

"You can still stay for your friends-

"I have no one. I stayed alone all this time. I only stayed for the gems who need safety from the others erratic ways. I keep the balance and I serve no other purpose. My friend was shattered and even then she was brought back it would do nothing for me if Pearl won't have me. I never got to tell her my true feelings. I've been bitter and angry all this time."

"Can't I change that?" Amy asked softly.

"No. Sadly... in the end... everything ends... except for you."