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Flashbacks
Reality
Sebastian was awoken by loud screams, and cries in the middle of the night. Sebastian shot upright and dashed out of his bedroom and towards Ciel's. The first three nights with Ciel had Sebastian waking up to loud screams, and every time Sebastian would get close to help ease the boy out of his night terror, Ciel would thrash around and throw punches at the older male screaming. It was a terrifying sight to see a child in.
Sebastian swung the door open and immediately sighted the boy, running to his side. "Ciel you're safe, you're alright!" Sebastian tried to grab Ciel's shoulders, so he could try and wake him up showing that Ciel was no longer in danger.
Ciel could hear Sebastian's voice; it was smooth like velvet and oddly enough for the first time the men in his dreams were disappearing.
Sebastian watched Ciel move around in his arms and soon enough sapphire was met with crimson. "You're safe Ciel." Sebastian whispered and flashed a small smile.
Ciel blushed noticing how close he was to Sebastian, causing him to push the male away. Ciel stood from the ground and patted Sebastian on the head for some sort of an apology. Ciel could feel blood rushing to his cheeks, a feeling he was not use to. Anything he wasn't use to scared him, and beginning to find an odd attraction to Sebastian, scared him even more.
Sebastian smiled and arose from the ground as well. "I'll see you in the morning Ciel." Sebastian patted Ciel on the shoulder gently. "Sleep in tomorrow, it will do you some good." Sebastian smiled before closing the bedroom door leaving a blushing Ciel behind.
"Sebastian sweetie, mama is going to go out for a while, can you be a good boy until I get back?" Sebastian nodded with a smile on his face as he gave his mother a hug.
"Yes mama! I'll see you soon I love you!" With that his mother turned her back towards the young boy and began to walk away. "Come back soon mama!" Sebastian waved his mother off and waited for his mother to return.
Sebastian's head shot up from the dining table and came in contact with something hard. "Damn, what the hell?" Sebastian cursed rubbing his head. He heard some whining next to him, and when he opened his eyes he saw Ciel on the floor rubbing his chin.
Sebastian quickly plucked the young boy from the floor and began to search for any injuries. "Ciel I'm sorry, I didn't know you were awake already." Sebastian frowned at the red mark beginning to form on the pale chin. "I'll get some ice for that." Sebastian whispered ashamed that he was the cause of the mark.
When he started towards the freezer, a hand gripping at his baggy white tee stopped him. He turned around and gave Ciel a small smile. "It's okay Ciel; it won't hurt if you ice it." Ciel frowned and released Sebastian's shirt. He didn't know what had possessed him to reach out towards the male, one second he was on the ground and another he was gripping onto Sebastian's shirt. Everything was off, but the young male couldn't place his finger on it.
Sebastian returned with a blue baggy ice pack placing it under Ciel's chin. Sebastian felt bad for hitting the young boy, even if it was an accident. He had promised to not inflict any harm to Ciel, and now here he was icing an injury he placed on the young boy.
Sebastian smiled and removed the ice pack. "How's that?" Ciel shrugged and glanced around the room avoiding eye contact with Sebastian, he didn't need to feel any more confused with himself, then he was now.
Sebastian stared at Ciel for a good thirty seconds until the boy wiggled around uncomfortably under his stare. There was something about Ciel that drew Sebastian in, and for an odd reason the older male found himself staring at light pink lips. Sebastian sighed loudly and patted his cheeks to rid him from any further thoughts that were far from appropriate.
"I have to go to work now," Sebastian entered his room, and a few seconds later came out wearing a black tailcoat and black jeans, a uniform fit for a butler. "I'll be back later okay Ciel."
"I'll be back Sebastian, I promise."
Sebastian frowned and patted Ciel on the head and Ciel backed away from his touch. Sebastian frowned and turned towards the door, balling his hands into fist. "I promise." With that Sebastian left the apartment room.
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Ciel was sprawled out lazily on the couch as he flipped through channels. Finding nothing of interest, he placed the remote back down on the small wooden coffee table and arose from the couch. Ciel found himself roaming around the large room searching for anything to keep himself busy until Sebastian arrived home. Ciel sighed and decided to read one of his books Madame had given him, out on the terrace.
Ciel planted himself in a white cushioned patio chair. Ciel could never relax like this when he was at the orphanage. He was either hiding from Madame, or hiding from the demons that tried to take him away. Ciel sighed and began to flip to where he was in the book. He wasn't there no more, he was safe.
"Aw, my balloon!" Sapphire eyes shot open at the unfamiliar voice. "Mommy get it for me!" Ciel peeked over the terrace wall and saw a little boy with blonde hair and big blue eyes, pointing up at the bright blue balloon that had got stuck between the branches in the tree outside of Sebastian's terrace.
"Sweetie, it's too high up, I can't get it back I'll buy another one." The mother patted her son on the head.
"I don't want another one!" The boy started to cry and frail his arms around. "I want that one, daddy got it for me!"
While watching the mother and son Ciel felt his heart begin to ache. It was normal for Ciel to see families all around, happily laughing and enjoying each other's company. Ciel had something like that, before it was taken away from him.
Ciel moved the wooden end table near the wall and began to climb up onto the wall. He stretched out his arm, his hand tipping the end of the string. He felt his legs begin to give out; ignoring it he stretched out further. He clasped his hand around the string and sighed in relief.
"Look mommy he got my balloon! Thank you mister!" The blonde boy smiled widely and waved up at Ciel, earning a smile in return.
Ciel tried to push himself back, when his foot slipped off and before he knew it he was tumbling off the wall and falling to his death, and fast.
Ciel squeezed his eyes tight as he heard several voices of bystanders either yelling a sentence like 'Someone save him' or just screaming out of fear. Ciel held onto the balloon tightly and braced himself for the impact.
"Ciel dear you must promise mommy to be careful while playing out with the big boys, alright?" A beautiful blonde woman known as Ciel's mother patted the smiling bluenett.
"I promise mama, I love you!" Ciel gave his loving mother a quick peck on the cheek before running outside.
Ciel fell into two strong arms, instead of the hard cement. "Didn't I tell you to be safe?" Sapphire eyes opened and met with worried crimson ones. "You almost gave me a heart attack."Sebastian stared into Ciel's blue eyes, glad to be holding the boy instead of staring at what could have been if Sebastian hadn't been walking home to check on Ciel during his lunch break. "What were you thinking?"
Ciel felt blood rush to his face as he stared into Sebastian's worried eyes. Something about those crimson eyes made Ciel forget about the world behind him and for a few moments it only felt like the only two people in the world was Sebastian and himself.
"Ciel," Sebastian stared into Ciel's eyes as they seemed to be getting closer to him. He could feel Ciel's breath dance across his lips, and Sebastian would've leaned in if Ciel didn't push him away again.
Ciel pushed away from Sebastian, and quickly jumped out of his arms. Ciel's face felt like it was on fire; no doubt he looked like a blushing school girl that just got kissed by her crush. Ciel's heart beated in his chest harshly as he stared at the hurt expression that hid behind those crimson eyes.
Ciel tried to swallow, his throat suddenly feeling dry and his tongue weighing heavily in his mouth. He turned around and faced the little blonde boy and held out the bright blue balloon and smiled.
The boy's eyes light up and sparkled under the sun. "Thanks a bunch mister!" The little boy took the balloon from the offered hand and ran up to his mother's side.
Ciel threw Sebastian a quick glance over his shoulder before quickly walking off with Sebastian trailing quickly behind.
"Ciel, why are you locking yourself in your room?" Sebastian knocked softly on the tightly closed door. After chasing Ciel up the stairs, the boy ran into the apartment quickly disappearing into his room, locking Ciel in and Sebastian out.
On the other side of the door, Ciel was sitting in a corner across from the door holding a pillow to his still heated face. He couldn't face Sebastian after what had almost happened, at least not for a while. "Come on Ciel." Ciel could barely hear Sebastian's voice and that was beginning to get on the young males nerves. He crawled over to the door and leaned his head in to where his ear was pressed to the door.
Sebastian noticed the shadow that had appeared under the door. Smirking Sebastian lowered his voice and begged. "Please open the door, Ciel."
Ciel's heart beat was so loud he swore that Sebastian would be capable of hearing it through the closed door. He shifted and brought the pillow closer to his chest and pressed harder onto the door.
Sebastian sighed and decided that Ciel wasn't going to open the door anytime soon. "Alright, I'm going to go back to work," Sebastian stood from where he was sitting and turned away from the door. "Please be safe." Sebastian walked away from the door, and walked over to the kitchen to grab his keys. He didn't want to leave things how they were but Ciel didn't want to see him right now and he couldn't do anything about it.
Ciel heard the front door close and he released a long relieved sigh. His face still felt like it was burning and his heart beat yet ceased its harsh beating. He took a few calm breaths and opened the door, popping his head out and searching for any signs of Sebastian still being there.
Ciel tip toed his way fully out of the premises of his room and began to walk back to the living room. Ciel released a sigh of disappointment of the absence of his guardian. Soon before he let out a long sigh he took a sharp breath. Why was he disappointed that Sebastian had gone? He shouldn't care he was the one who wouldn't talk to him after what had almost happen in public. Now that he thought of it, it was his fault that they almost-
Ciel cleared his throat as he felt his face heat up. He trotted back into his room and plopped down onto the navy blue bed. 'I guess I'll just wait for him to get back.'
To be continued...