Holotapes of T. De Luca
These holotapes are the property of a Miss Tina De Luca. They are stashed in a hidden cabinet found within the reactor room of Vault 81. Old Rusty accidentally ratted out their location.
Holotape 1 – May 24th, 2287 – Vault 81
"Er…I think it's recording. Alright (microphone squeaks), uh…maybe…Might as well just say something Tina, see how this goes (sighs). Alright (whispers), this seems so embarrassing the more I think about it. I'm talking to bloody holos about my problems. God, I'm pathetic. There's no one else to talk to in this vault, though…I'm sick of it.
"I can't go to Bobby…I think the Jet is starting to affect him. I'm really starting to worry and I can't go to the Doc. He'll have both mine and his head for bringing chems into the Vault. I can just hear him now! (puts on stern masculine voice) 'This place is already falling apart, we don't want the people falling apart as well! Chems destroy people and their livelihoods, we can't have our people go mucking about with them and yadda yadda yadda'. (sighs) I'm so tired of this place.
"I just want to leave. I'm afraid, but the thought of staying here for the rest of my life scares me more, I think. I don't want to die here. I'm tired of trying to repair an unfixable Vault.
"I think leaving here might help Bobby as well…It's getting too cramped down here. The air is stale and the food is tasting blander each day…I just want to leave. I'm itching to try life out of the Vault…
"God I'm such a complainer (laughs). I guess this is why I refuse to talk to anyone about this. Vault 81 is about being cheerful and grateful for what we have…They wouldn't understand how I'm feeling…I don't think they'd even want to understa –
"Shit! Bobby's coming! How do I turn this thing -" (cuts out)
Holotape 2 – June 3rd, 2287 – Vault 81
"Well, I'm in some shit, now. Mr. Combes caught Bobby today. Bobby is still jittery about it (deep breath) …I am too to be completely honest. I wouldn't tell him that, though. That would just stress him out more.
"I refuse to tell Bobby about what I have to do to keep Mr. Combes quiet about it as well. (clears throat after a moment of silence) That man really is a scumbag…I feel like can't even face Mrs. Combes now. I feel dirty and wrong. There's literally nothing I can do about it, though. I need to protect, Bobby.
"He's my brother, and even if I have to fuck Mr. Combes to keep him quiet…I'll do it. I don't want to lose my brother. All we have is each other now…we've lost enough. I refuse to lose anymore."
Holotape 3 – June 15th, 2287 – Vault 81
"I feel sick to my stomach. It's nonstop and it's every night. Right at 11 p.m., I have to go meet Mr. Combes at 'our spot' so he can be…satisfied. Ugh (shivers)…gross….it doesn't help that our spot is a small, cramped supply closet. God…he's despicable.
"And to be honest, I think would sound kind of hot to meet up secretly in a supply closet every night if I were with someone I cared about…but this. It just makes my skin crawl. I mean…it's only been a couple of weeks and I'm already so tired of it.
"I walked by Mrs. Combes and their daughter, Erin, in the cafeteria, today. They waved at me so innocently. They have no idea what's going on between the hours of 11-12 p.m. They would hate me if they knew. I wouldn't blame them either. I'm beginning to hate myself for it.
"It's for Bobby, though. If only there was some way to help him with his addiction…Every time I try to get him to stop, he gets so sick…I wish I had never given him chems in the first place. He would be healthy, and I wouldn't be in this mess."
Holotape 4 – July 16th, 2287 – Vault 81
"I think people are starting to suspect Mr. Combes and I. Whenever I'm in the cafeteria, people look at me and whisper to each other. Their eyes are unkind and their tones are judgemental. I told him about it last night. He didn't care and told me that I shouldn't worry about what they say. Apparently, he thinks we're in love. I have no idea where he got that idea from.
"Bobby is also getting worse. I feel like I'm going to lose him if I don't do something soon. Old Rusty has started taking over his responsibilities because it's starting to get so bad. I don't want anyone to suspect him…but I'm starting to think that I'm going to have to tell someone soon. He might end up dead if I don't do something."
Holotape 5 – July 30th, 2287 – Vault 81
(Shaky) "Bobby really scared me today. I thought he was gone. I've been trying to get him clean again…but it didn't go so well this time. Behind my back, after three whole days of being clean, he almost overdosed. I had to get the Doctor's help. Rachel helped me, but she has no addictol in stock right now. She said we have to wait for a caravan to come in with some before we can truly help Bobby.
"She stabilized him, for now. She said that she wouldn't tell anybody about his addiction, but I don't know if I can trust her."
Holotape 6 – August 20th, 2287 – Vault 81
"In some ways, I wish Rachel had told everyone about Bobby's addiction. For one, it may have driven him to quit. I just know that people would shame him into quitting around here and maybe that embarrassment would have made him stop taking jet. Even with Rachel's help, he's definitely worse than before. He's relying on Old Rusty to do the majority of his duties nowadays.
"Not only that but if Rachel had told everyone, it would give me an excuse to no longer sleep with Mr. Combes. The whole reason I have to do this is because he's threatening to tell everyone about Bobby's chem usage. Night after night I keep having to go back to the supply closet and do what he tells me to. Every day I feel more shameful and angry.
"I just want to leave the vault. Bobby is the only reason I'm still here. He needs me, and I'm always going to be there for him whether he wants me to or not."
Holotape 7 – September 31st, 2287 – Vault 81
"Bobby is getting worse. If this next caravan doesn't have any addictol, I don't know what I'll do."
Holotape – 8 – October 2nd, 2287 – Vault 81
(angry tone) "Ha. This is fucking great. Just great. After all this fucking worrying and hoping for some sort of cure for Bobby, it's finally here and he refuses to take it. A caravan finally came with some addictol. I wanted to cry when I saw it for myself. But then…Bobby (sighs shakily), he refuses to use it.
"I feel like I'm actually going to be sick…the answer to all of my problems is here and Bobby refuses to do anything about it. He wants to keep killing his body with Jet and make my life a living hell! He doesn't do any work anymore…he's just up in his room, getting high all day!
"I'm sick and tired of this shit. I don't know what to do anymore...I want to just leave, but I know I can't. He'll die without me and although he's pissing me the hell off, I can't leave him to die like this."
Holotape 9 – November 22nd, 2287 – Vault 81
"Things have been weird around here lately. Bobby hasn't changed and my disgusting meetings with Mr. Combes have yet to cease…but there's this new person lurking around here. There are generally caravans and merchants that pop into the Vault here and there, but this person seems different. They seem tough and it doesn't feel like they're just passing through like the others do.
"I think they are one of those wastelanders, but from what I've heard, they come from a northern Vault. I don't know what to make of them…I just know that I need to make sure that they don't give any chems to Bobby.
"He told me yesterday that he's going to try and quit again, but I don't know how long that's going to last. I told him that he could just take the addictol and get it over with, but he still refuses to do that.
(sighs) "I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm so tired of dwelling in this decrepit vault. I want to get out of here, but I have no clue what's out there or if I'd even be able to survive…I just know I want out, but I can't leave without Bobby. He wouldn't be able to last without me.
"I just wish something could wake him up…that way we could both get out of here."