A.N.: In this fanfiction I'm showing Joanne in completely different perspective. I'm showing her human side, her inner feelings and her desires. After all, after 40 biological clock started to show in most women, and I think Joanne deserves more… I must also thank for reading, because without readers I would be nothing, then a dreamer…I'm still, but now I have a minimal self esteem :D thank you all. Love you, ZiZi hugs and ZiZi kisses xoxo

,,Mmm,'' mumbled Joanne, when she turned on her other side and let sun illuminate her face. She opened her eyes and swallowed. The Spicy taste in her mouth remind her a few events of yesterday's evening.

How did I get in my bed ? And how long I've been sleeping ? she thought , trying to remember. She turned back and hardly climbed off her bed, her body still slightly shaking from residual alcohol. Joanne quickly grabbed jamb of the door to support herself. Her head was like in a vice. She shook with her head and opened the door.

,,Ro-Robby ?'' she asked into empty living room, but vainly. He was gone again. No wonder, when she saw the clock on the wall.

,, Half past one ?!'' she widened her eyes to focus. She looked down at herself, realizing she was still dressed in the same clothes from the day before.

Ok, Jo. It seems like you have blown over a bit yesterday…

She slowly traipse into kitchen, where was a glass with something and another note.

Drink this, it'll make you feel better.

Today, I come earlier. Arriving at four.

Bye, Robby

She didn't think about anything and slowly drank what was in the glass. Suddenly that taste in her mouth disappeared, that fluid gently fondling her throat. She felt mitigation.

But she still couldn't figure out a several things. Joanne decided to ask Robert , when he arrives, meanwhile she smoked one cigarette and dressed herself in clean, purple dress.

She checked her phone, finding lot missed calls. All from Larry. I must have had hard sleep, when I didn't heard phone ringing. But honestly she didn't care.

,,Hi, Jo. Sorry I'm late,'' Robert greeted her, after arriving and hour later, than he promised.

,,Robby…it's your work. What do you think I would do if you arrived, I don't know, three hours later. It's. Your. Job. Okay. At least I had enough of time to do divorce papers,'' she smiled, folding papers in a pile.

,,I'm impressed , you did another step forward. You cooked again ?'' he asked when he smelled something sweet.

,,Yeah, but it's not done yet,'' she watched him going straight to kitchen. She jumped up and rushed to him.

,, You made pudding? Are you kidding me ? This is my favorite sweet kind food…'' he dipped his finger in it and bringing it to his mouth ,but she slapped him over his hand.

,,I said not yet !'' she grinned. He want to complain , but he understood after she picked up from stove a pot with chocolate. She slowly stir up that dark liquid, asking ,,Robby ? Ehm…I-I blacked out a bit ? What happened yesterday ?''

,,What do you remember ?''

,,We were drinking as usual. And I was talking about husbands….then nothing but black'' she tried to remember.

,,You cried. And you said I'm the best friend. Then I carried you to bed.''

,,Oh, thank you…God. How ironic, woman who hate weak people, and suddenly after few drinks she shows you her weak side, how pathetic !'' she blushed slightly.

,,To be honest , I have never saw you like this,'' Robert admitted.

,,Remember how Larry once said, you should meet 'real Joanne' ? Well, I think kiddo, you just saw my inner self. Yeah, I'm usually brassy , bitter, vulnerable…maybe self-critical, but in private I'm much more than that, hunny,'' she smiled weakly. ,,Maybe…maybe it was the right time to meet 'real me' as a best friend huh,'' she nudged hid hips with hers.

,,Right,'' he was thinking, so he didn't much paid attention when she spilled hot chocolate on pudding. ,,When we are talking about Larry. I saw him today. Before a while on the street , with some girl…''

,,Black girl, short raven hair and veeeery young ?''

,,Yep,'' he nodded.

,,That bastard. He was calling me all day, but I didn't answered and now he is going out with that-''

,,Keep calm Jo, you're spilling the chocolate out of the bowl,'' Robert pointed.

,,Oh, sorry. I'm doing a mess. As always,'' she smirked , putting away the chocolate and taking the a rag from sink, trying to clean, what she spilled.

,,Lemme help you-''

,,No. I can do it. It's my mess okay,'' she giggled.

,,Look, you have some chocolate on your hand,'' Robby noticed.

,,Where ?'' Joanne checked her hands.

Robert hold her hand and pointed at her elbow. ,,You soaked your elbow in that chocolate splodge, wait,'' he licked his thumb and wiped it away.

She looked up at him, he immediately realized what he had just done. But none of them backed away from each other.

,,Ehm, you…you can eat your pudding,'' she smiled before she walked into living room.

,,Wait , what about you ?'' he recovered.

,,Don't worry about me, I already had dinner, you're the one who should eat something,'' she was reaching for her phone.

,,What are you doing ?''

,,Calling my lawyer about divorce,'' she didn't really look at him.

,,Wait, you're angry now, I shouldn't have told you about Larry…''

,,Never mind. Good that I'm angry. I'm gonna finish with him sooner, which is better,'' she growled, taping the phone number.

,,No, please. Leave it for tomorrow okay ? You have done enough for today,'' he pointed at the papers on the table, slowly taking her phone.

,,Fine. But just for you Robert, now go and have some pudding,'' she tossed her head in kitchen direction.

,,I'm not hungry at all, and what I need, is some distraction, today at work was really…well…shitty day okay,'' he sighed sadly.

,,And what you wanna do ?'' she sat on the couch, gazing at him.

,,Dance…'' he stepped to his stereo, looking for something.

,,Dance ?''

,,Mhmm, with you,'' she picked up a CD, putting it in stereo and grabbing zapper.

,,But I only dance-''

,,-when you can touch. I know , I know. Just give me a chance. I have one good mix,'' he smiled raising one hand in her direction ,,May I ask you for dance ?''

She watched him, suspiciously, taking his hand and standing up.

He turned the stereo on and put zapper away. Holding her right hand in his, while he shifted his other hand on her back. Stereo fluently start playing and Robert responded to it by his first steps.

,,You kidding me ? Bobby….I'm not watching TV much, but one movie that I really like is 'The First Wives Club' so you won this with this song,'' she pressed herself closer to him when she heard ''You don't own me…'' from the stereo.

,,I Love this song, so free, so young, so energetic…..and very accurate for my situation,'' she smiled, but suddenly her smile faded.

,,Don't think about it and sing…I know how much you love singing , let it out, you showed me your feelings and your 'weak side' yesterday, I want to see you smile again. Be happy, and free !'' Robert encouraged her.

Her eyes shinned. Larry didn't like when she was singing, so she simple didn't. But Bobby want her to !

Fine, let's have some fun…

,,You don't own me, don't try to change me in any way,'' Joanne start singing and Robert keep dancing, slowly moving his hips with hers.

,,Louder !'' he dared her.

,,I don't tell you what to say, I don't tell you what to do, so just let me be myself. That's all I ask of you !'' she sang out loud, and it was for Larry. If he could hear her now, how she was letting him go as he let her. Screw him…I can do BETTER !

Robert was smiling at her , as she closed her eyes, let him lead her and contentedly, happily sang, sending away all her pain from last days, and pain she was keeping for herself for long time.

,,I'm young, and I love to be young, I'm free, and I love to be free, to live my life the way that I WANT , to say and do whatever I please !'' she smiled wildly as she meant what she finally opened her eyes and saw Robert smiling at her. He raised her hand and spin her around, leaning her closer again.

He suddenly turned serious ,,Joanne ?''

,,Hmm ?'' she glare up at him, smiling.

,,When you asked , what happened last night. You said something before you fell asleep…''

,,What was that,'' still smiling at him, but not for long.

,,You said…you said you love me,'' he clutched her closer.

Her face freeze , but she still continued dancing with him. She opened mouth few times, searching for words, but she couldn't find any. A bit silent part of the song came and she just stared up at him, not able to speak. But silent Robert interrupted, before the song get louder again.

,,Do you ?''

,,I-I…''

,,Because…I do !'' he said instead of her.

Her jaw fell down. She couldn't believe she embarked her big mouth and couldn't believe, Robert said, what he just said.

,,And I want you from that night you flirted with me…Jo say something !'' he desperately begged.

,,Kiddo…you mean that ?''

,,Gravely,'' he smiled again. ,,And , I'm glad you showed me your real you,'' the song ended and silent spread through the living room.

Shit ! Once I'm not careful and suddenly…..But she must admit she wanted him, so much. But she wanted to keep her feelings that she felt for him for long time, for herself…and she ruined it.

,,When you already know…'' she looked away and put on her acerbic mood.

But he didn't give up, not now. He hold her tighter and keep dancing as stereo played 'Stand by me'. He stroke her cheek, turning her face to him. He looked deep in her chocolate brown orbs.

,,You don't have to be poisonous, not with me,'' he smiled at her waiting for anything. Any sign that should assure him, she loved him.

Looking into his eyes she finally smiled. ,,Kiddo you planned this on me,'' she laughed, leaning her forehead to his.

,,Admit it. I want you to say it ! C'mon Jo…say it,'' he pressed a kiss on tip of her nose.

She closed her eyes, leaning closer ,,I do love you.''

He smiled wildly, leaning down and without any warning he kissed her passionately.

,,But you don't love me,'' she accused.

,,I do-''

,,-No you don't. You only think it Robby. It would never work. Just look at me, I'm about six years older, and I'm not a dream girl. I have my moods and-''

,,-As every girl does. And I'm your best friend for so long, that I know you pretty well ! And I love you just as you are. But until there was Larry, I didn't dare to say anything…''

,,You what ?'' her eyes widened.

,,Yes, and I don't want to be a best friend…I want to be more than that,'' he pet her cheek again, kissing her again, his tongue fighting its way in her mouth.

He smiled in their kiss when she finally eased herself and give in. She circled her hand around his neck, deepening the kiss.

,, Forget about everything now okay ?'' he mutter to her mouth. She nodded vaguely, clutching him desperately closer. She was thirsty for such contact and especially with Robby.

,,How long you said you didn't have sex ?'' he chuckled , still dancing with her.

,,Four months,'' she breathed reaching for his lips with hers, her eyes closed.

,,Wow , somebody want something hmm ?'' he smirked at her.

,,Stop teasing Bobby, you have broached this situation, so don't stop now. Or I find a hotel and let you here with your feelings…'' she joked, smirking up at him.

,,You would not do this.''

,,Oh yes I would,'' she nodded giggling.

,,Then I should stop you,'' he winked at her.

,,How !'' she dared him.

He slid his right hand down to her rare and pushed her hips against his, to let her feel his erection.

,,Robby !'' she stared at him.

His other hand caressed down her side and up her inner thigh, as she circled her other hand around his neck. He leaned to kiss her neck, finding her pulse point and sucking on it. Her head lolled back when she bit her lip. He smiled at her neck, muttering to her skin a lyrics of the lingering song.

,,Stand by me…oooh stand now ohh stand, stand by me, stand by me…Jo stand by me,'' he added at last. Sucking on her throat and moving forward with her.

Her lips parted and trough the living room sounded only her whimpers as he nipped at her neck. His hand fondling her butt and fingers of his other hand brushing her inner thigh.

,,N-no, not on a couch,'' she pleaded, when he moved away from his bedroom.

,,I'm not heading there,'' he nipped her flesh.

,,No ?''

,,I'm still dancing Jo,'' he grinned against her skin. She chuckled, leaning closer, letting him do whatever he want, as long as she was on his arms.

And another song and she was absolutely gone in her mind. He spin her around , away from him , but still holding her hand. Slowly tugging her closer, kissing from her fingertips up her knuckles, across her palm and to her wrist, taking his time. Up her forearm and her elbow, up ,up to her shoulder and across the strap of her purple dress. He nipped where her shoulder and neck met, and his lips cling to her pulse point again.

,,But I don't care what they say…I'm in love with you. They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth. My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing. You cut me open and I…keep bleeding, keep , keep bleeding love,'' she quietly sang with the stereo, pulling his mouth closer to her throat.

,,Ohhh, Robby, what have you done to me ?'' she asked trough a moan, couldn't keep herself away from him now.

,,I gave you what you needed the most,'' he kissed her lovingly, she deepening the kiss. ,, I want you Joanne.'' She nodded, looking at his eyes. He lifted her in his arms and carried her to his bedroom. He let her in his bed, leaning above her, his body pressing to hers.

,,Have me Robby. Take me,'' she pleaded searching his soft lips.

His caressing kisses spread across her cleavage. She bit her lip, her hands tugging up his shirt, his lower body moving against her, she could feel his hardness.

He sat up and took off his shirt, Joanne quickly cling with her lips to his exposed skin of his chest, pressing light kisses all over his body. Her hands fondling his sides and muscles of his stomach, before descending on his belt. He pet her back with his palms, glazing silken dress. She finally unbuckled his belt and ripped the buttons of his pants, rolling them down as far as she could. At that point he took her hands, leaned over her again and pinned her hands on both sides of her head. Her wrists submerged in soft mattress. His mouth found hers again, his tongue glazing over her bottom lip, making her moan.

,,Don't move,'' his lips on her neck. He trailed kisses down to her cleavage, before he stood up taking his pants off completely with his shorts. He rolled her dress up from her thighs, she helped him, arching , to let him roll her dress easily more up. But he stopped at her stomach, the tip of his tongue teasing her belly button making her squeak. His fingers brushing her inner thighs, gently spreading her legs and taking off her panties. He kissed and licked his way up her calf, to her inner thigh and between her legs.

,,Ro-Robert !'' she arched under the touch of his mouth. He was wonderful kisser, but this was much better than-

,,Ohh !'' she moaned when his lips found her clit, the tip of his tongue teasingly flicking over the swollen bud. ,,Fuck ! Robby ! Y-Ohh yes…'' she gripped tightly sheets next to her head, her upper body arching.

He closed his lips around her clitoris and sucked determinedly , receiving a loud cry of pleasure from her. Her eyes squeezed and her lips parted, closing and opening again.

,,Jo, you're perfect,'' he whispered against her tender flesh, making her gasp.

Suddenly she released one her hand and gripped his hair now, pushing him down on her ,,Yea-Please Bobby !'' her hips bucking up when she licked her lips.

His fingertips groped her slit and start gently rubbing it.

,,Ohh-Fuck yes,'' his lips and tongue still moving against her clit, kissing, sucking, licking rapidly. ,,Fuuuuck !'' her thighs trembled when two of his fingers penetrated her. Moving delicately slow, contrasting with his fast drags of his tongue around her clit.

She was whimpering and gasping with each trust of his fingers and with each swipe of his tongue. Her hips rocking on their own accord responding to moves of his fingers. Her head tossed back into pillows, biting her lips to stifle her cries, but unsuccessfully. When his lips tugged her clit, she thought , they could hear her in Chicago. His fingers moving faster and she felt herself on a bring. Her thighs trembled and Robby sucked roughly at her clit, before he bit her inner thigh and went back to licking in circles.

,,Ro-Ohhh-Ahh-bby !'' she yelped. ,,Fuck, right there ! OOOH !'' she moaned loudly, arching when she climaxed.

He moved up, rolling her dress , tugging it over her head and throwing behind him. His lips descended on her breasts meanwhile her hands fondled his back. His hard length rubbing her slit lightly making her whimper. His delicious, skillful mouth found her erected nipple, the tip of his tongue circling it slowly before he sucked on it until she moaned.

,,You like this ?'' he teased sucking purposefully.

,,Mhmmm,'' she nodded licking her lips, her hand pressing him harder against her breast.

Her fingers curled around his arousal, traversing his length slowly up and down. He growled his approval and let her guide himself to her.

,,Ahm,'' she moaned when he slid inside her wet heat.

His hard, smooth cock filling her and he start moving further inside.

,,Yes ! Ohh-y-fuck ! Bobby !'' she moaned with each thrust. Her nails digging in his back.

He raised her legs, tangling her ankles on his lower back, to move himself deeper. His lips switched to her earlobe, gently nipping it, before his tongue glazed over it. She whimpered, biting his neck before kissing red mark and sucking on it.

,,Yes , moan my name Jo. GO ahead ,let them hear it !'' he encouraged her, licking at her neck his way to her lips. She broke his passionate kiss with a loud moan when he thrusted roughly into her.

,,Robby !''

,,Yes !''

,,Ohh-please, pl-Ohh, harder !''she begged and he speeded up, thrusting harder and biting her shoulder to stifle his growls. His hands caressing her sides and softly working her breasts.

,,Ahhh-'' she squeaked when he tweaked her nipple.

Her nails scratching at his back, her fingertips petting over red trails. Suddenly she gasped as his lips founded some very sensitive spot on her neck…well rather where her shoulder and neck met. When he realized that, he decided to suck on it and not leaving it. His hard cock deliciously ravishing her, his tip touching another sensitive spot in her inner walls. She gasped at that point.

He felt her walls start clenching around him. Few thrust more and he was swelling inside her.

,,Bobby-baby,'' she moaned in his mouth when he kissed her.

,,Joanne,'' he growled when she nipped his lower lip. His tip brushing that spot inside her and she couldn't take more.

Her lips parted and her eyes squeezed as she orgasmed. He felt a liquid flowing around his member and dripping down on sheets. That bring him his own climax and he spilled inside her, moaning to her mouth.

After few moments of panting for breath, he pulled off her, laying himself beside her.

,,I –I didn't know, that-that you're having -wet orgasms,'' his hand moved down on her , feeling her still leak.

She gasped sharply ,,Me neither, Robby…me neither,'' she looked at him, swallowing, her mouth dry. He lightly dipped his fingers in her cum, receiving another sharp gasp from her, bringing them to his mouth and licking them clear.

She watched him hungrily. ,,Mmm you're delicious Jo,'' he hummed.

She stroked his cheek and he pulled her closer to him. ,, Now, tell me…will you go away ?'' he asked seriously.

,,No, if I still may stay here ?'' she responded.

,,Yes , but only on one condition…''

,,Hmm ?'' she leaned closer , letting her head lay on his chest, while he worked gently her breast.

,,You'll sleep just here,'' he chuckled.

,,With you ?''

,,Yes,'' he nodded.

,,Okay, kiddo. I think I can handle it,'' she smirked kissing his chest.

He pet her side covering them in sheets. But she immediately stood up.

,,Where are you going ? Don't you think, you can run away from me.''

,,No Robby, I just need to clean myself up !'' she giggled going straight to bathroom.