She thought it was ridiculous in the first place. To go back where it all started, where Lex lost himself to his madness and tried to destroy Superman. She argued with her mother but Lillian had good point that if she came here and tried to make up for all the wrong that Lex done, that due time his crimes would be forgotten. It was up to her to right the wrongs that Lionel and Lex had done. Lena didn't agree at first but with a little persistence from her mom and more time to think about it, Lena decided that she was right. How else was the Luthor name going to be cleared?

So she took the first plane back to America, to National City. Lena would willingly admit how she underestimate the way people would react once they found out that she was the daughter of Lionel Luthor and the sister of Lex. She knew that there would be some name-calling and finger pointing but the full on abuse from others was something that she didn't anticipate. Nor did she expected her roommate to be a complete asshole, who called her 'Luthor Bitch'. By the end of the day, Lena began doubting her decision and she would, shamefully, admit that she even shed a few tears in the shower.

Though, the next day Lena woke up like the whole day didn't happened. She dressed in her usual professional outfit of black slacks, dark red shirt, and black jacket before she straighten out her hair and put on some red lipstick. Lena, then, slide on black high heels and walked out of her room with her satchel and schedule. Lena knew with no doubt in her mind, now that people knew who she was, that there would be no way they would help her. She would just have to figure it out herself.

She didn't quite anticipate the fact that the University would so huge that she wouldn't know where to start. At first she goes around the building and look at a map before she deems it useless, she runs into a girl with blond hair and quick reflexes. Her baby blue eyes look down at her with concern and she quickly apologizes to Lena. Whether it's genuine or out of fear, Lena's not sure but she accepts it all the same. They introduce themselves to each other and Kara offers to help her find all of her classes. Lena is surprised by this because it's the first time since she got here that anybody showed her any kind of kindness.

Lena even voiced this but in a more sugarcoated version of it. This causes Kara to ramble and Lena can't help but truly smile for the first time in a year and she had to snap Kara out of her trace. She handed her, her schedule and she takes great pleasure at Kara's shock. It had little to do with the Luthor's arrogance and everything to do with her being pride. The moment the Luthors adopted her, she always worked for everything and never accepted any handouts. It took a moment before Kara is ushering her to her first class.

The moment that she has with Kara is gone as she noticed the stares and whispers. Any loosest that she had around Kara is replaced with the Luthor's Facade. She's reminded that she shouldn't let her guard down. There were a lot of people here that hated hers and her family guts and they weren't shy to show. Lena felt Kara's eyes are on and she resisted the urge to swallow hard. If Kara wasn't scared off before she definitely would be now. While Lena was used to this kind of attention her whole life, it's uncertain that Kara can say the same. And if she couldn't say the same then Lena shouldn't be selfish and let the poor girl go.

Once they reach their class, Lena goes and talk to the professor. They discuss where she is in the material and see what she knows. Lena listens to the man as she also hears the whispers of her peers. And not for the first time, Lena thinks that this was a very bad idea to come here. After the professor finished talking with her, Lena made the decision of not putting Kara through any of this. What little that she known of the blonde is that she is a kind and nice person that saw the best in people and didn't deserve any negativity. So Lena has every intention of walking pass Kara and taking a seat in the back when Kara catches her wrist.

Lena gives Kara the chance of walking away and acting as if she never helped a Luthor but Kara doesn't take the offer and now she's made her bed. For the first few minutes of class, Lena is uncomfortable because of the whispers and the stares and she clench her jaw. It was always aggravating to hear over and over again how xenophobic and evil and murderous and cruel her family is over and over again as if she doesn't know. As if she hadn't spent her whole life with the Luthors. As if she hadn't experienced first-hand. As if what they showed on the outside to the world was different behind closed doors.

Other than the whispers and starring, Lena didn't have to deal with any confrontations. The day went relatively well with Kara waiting for her once classes let out and the blonde taking her to her other classes. Even though this was a small act of kindness, it made Lena's day and she had hopes that this would be a great year despite all the terrible things that Lex done this past year.

The next day is a little bit easier. Her roommate, Grace, had decided yesterday that she was going to pretend that Lena didn't exist and that was fine with her. It just made it one less person that she has to deal with. She counted this as a small victory and gets ready for the day. Her first class is easy too and she doesn't have to worry about the pointed stares and the loud whispers, it's like she's not even here and she relish the fact. The moment class is out, Lena is out the door and have promptly ran into Kara once again.

Lena won't lie, she's surprised to see the blond there. The one who rambles a lot and fiddles with her glasses almost every time they speak but somehow have made her day a little more bearable.

"I hope you don't mind if I, uh, walk you to our class. I mean I completely understand if you don't want me to and I'll just see in a couple of minutes-"

"Now, Kara, that's just ridiculous. You're already here now, you might as well walk me there." Lena said with a small smile.

"I don't want to be a burden on you-" Kara starts.

"You're not. In fact, I greatly appreciate this." Lena said causing Kara to blush.

The rest of school day is uneventful and Lena heads to the library to do all of her schoolwork because in five hours she has her first board meeting and it wouldn't do to be late and unprepared for that. Naturally, Lena loses track of time as she worked on assignments that were related to one another in some ways but not in all. In honestly, she doesn't know how long she's been there because for once her phone and email was not being blow up with urgence and nobody has thought to pester her. Lena quite enjoys this rare moment of peace.

Until somebody had the nerve to ruin it.

And Lena is about to snap at them until she looked up and realized that it was Kara. Now, she's totally fine with the interruption. The only person to be nice to her since the Lex incident. Kara, who had somehow convinced her to take a break. Lena feels lighter, freer, more comfortable when she's around Kara with her adorable rambling and contagious smiles. It doesn't even feel disorienting because, well, because it was Kara.

Once they go inside the Chinese restaurant and order food (Lena raises her eyebrow at the amount of food that Kara gets, but she's not surprised by it), they settle back into the pattern of conversation. With each passing second Lena feels more relaxed and content and she can actually see this friendship going somewhere.

Until Alex Danvers comes into the picture and reminds her that she's a Luthor. That nobody has forgotten all the wrong and evil that her family has done. That they blame her too for what Lionel and Lex have done. It was foolish to even think that she could get away from that. Even for a moment. So Lena is overall relieved when Jesse texted her about things concerning Luthorcorp.

For the next five days, Lena avoids Kara for numerous of reasons and only one is good: she doesn't want to put a strain on Kara's relationship with Alex. Lena has seen numerous times families being destroyed either because of her father and brother or a fight because they couldn't see eye-to-eye on things. She doesn't want to be the reason why Kara has a fallout with her sister. The other reasons are self-loathing. She doesn't deserve happiness because she's a Luthor.

But those five days were the loneliest that Lena's ever been and she hates that she got attached to Kara way too quickly. Though at the same time, she doesn't regret talking to the blonde.

Kara finally manages to catch Lena just before she could, not that Lena mind, of course. In fact she's relieved that Kara managed to catch her.

Now Lena is in front of her mirror cursing herself for ever suggesting lunch at her favorite restaurant. First of all, she didn't have a favorite restaurant, she had her own personal chef that made her food. Second of all, ever since she suggested it her anxiety kicked in. What was she supposed to do when the time came to go eat and she come empty handed?

"Calm down, Lena, you can just ask Jesse." Lena muttered as she reached for her phone.

"Yes, Miss Luthor?"

"Jesse, if you could give me a list of restaurants within the hour, that would be great. Also this is more personal instead of business."

"Are you going on a date, Miss Luthor?"

"Wha-no, I-could you just come up with the list?" Lena asked, clearly flustered.

"Of course, Miss Luthor."

Lena could hear the amuse tone in her assistant voice and she quickly hung up before she made even a big fool of herself. She sighed wistfully and went to her dresser and place her phone down as she looked at her appearance. She had to do something with her hair. Indecisive on that too she changed her hair from long and curly to a high ponytail to a bun to a messy bun to long and straight before going back to curly.

Lena groaned in frustration as her phone rang again and she picked it up as she decided on the high ponytail.

"Yes?"

"I have your list of restaurants, Miss Luthor."

"Oh thank god."

Once Lena was dressed and satisfied by her look, she cursed herself for one minor flaw in her plans. She didn't have Kara Danvers' number and had no idea how to reach her.

"Way to go, Lena." She hissed at herself.

Unsure on what to do now, Lena decided to go to the library and hoped that she maybe would bump into Kara on the way there. The chances of that happening was small since it was a very large campus but Lena still had hopes no matter how small they were. She made note that if she didn't meet up with Kara today, that the next tie she sees her she'll ask for her number so this won't happen again.

Lena won't lie and say that she didn't feel subconscious as walked down the hallway. People stopped and stared at her with contempt and mistrust. Not that she could really blame them it's only been three weeks since Lex has been put away and people haven't had proper time to grief or do what they had to do to cope. She wraps her arms around herself and walks a little taller even though she's a bit nervous about what people will do. So far the worse confrontation that Lena has had was a girl who stormed up to her and cursed her for what her family done. She told her how affected her family was for all the wrong that Lex has done, and that Lena didn't deserve happiness. It was at this moment that Lena wondered again if it was worth going back to National City.

She had agreed with the girl a hundred percent though. She didn't deserve happiness, she allowed this madness and self-destruction take over Lex. She stood back and allowed Lex to do all these terrible things to Superman and civilians because she thought that he would overcome it. That one day he would wake up and realize all the wrong he's done and he'll stop.

How naive she was.

Lena sighed loudly and wished she had gone with letting her hair down so that she could run her hand through it. She settled with playing with the ends of her ponytail as she walked into the library and sat in a chair closest to the library entrance. Maybe this was a sign of sorts, that it was foolish to think that this could go anywhere. How could anyone possibly forget to ask for a phone number or another way to contact somebody. Like honestly!

She'll wait five more minutes before she heads back to her room and berates herself for forgetting such an important thing. Time ticks and Lena starts to feel more and more stupid to be waiting for Kara in a library and decided that this can be rescheduled. The brunette got up with a childish huff and walked back to her room.

"Who even forgets to get the girl's number?"