Chapter 5 The Talk
Edward P.o.v.
I watched as Bella went up the stairs to get some sleep. She was still as beautiful as ever even more so if that were possible. Her voice was like bells now and even when she is angry with me I love listening to her talk and love the way my name falls off her lips.
Carlisle and Alice decided to go hunt while Bella and the babies slept. I decided to go up to spend some time with Emma I didn't want to leave her alone for too long.
I walked up the stairs seeing the door ajar and when I walked in I saw Bella fast asleep next to Emma. I went and grabbed a blanket from the closet and draped it over her. I then looked over at Emma making sure she was doing ok and that her oxygen levels were stable before leaving the room and walking over to the nursery.
Once in the nursery I noticed the babies were awake just babbling to each other from across there cribs. It was adorable. I decided to take the babies out and lay them on the ground on a blanket. I was surprised they were able to sit up on their own and roll around on the floor I gave them some toys to play with and just watched them play together and babble back and forth.
About 20 minutes into there playing Renesmee grabbed a toy out of Arabella's hand which made her start crying her face was turning red but before I could pick her up the toy started floating back to her and she smiled triumphantly. I just stared shocked at her.
Wow my children were very gifted I wondered if Mason had a power or not he hasn't shown any signs of one yet. I just continued to watch my children play and roll around they were very advanced for their age I'd say they could probably be crawling within the week and maybe even walking within a month the way they're growing.
A few hours after they started playing I went down stairs and made them some bottles of deer blood that Alice had so kindly brought back from there hunt not too long ago and brought it up to the babies asking Alice if she'd like to join me.
"So how's fatherhood treating you so far" Alice asked
"It's good and I love every minute of it I really wish I had listened to you and never left ill never bet against you again Alice your always right" I said feeling guilty
"It's ok Edward you had to learn from your mistakes everything's going to be ok she'll forgive you in time I've seen it" She said
"Thank you Alice I needed to hear that" I replied
We then started feeding the babies and putting them back to bed. It was now 3am and me and Alice headed back down to the living room.
"Alice can you call the family and have them come down here I want to introduce them to my children and I know Bella's dying to see them" I asked
"Of course Edward I already knew you were going to ask" she said tapping her head as if I forgot
She went in the other room to call the house and let everyone know to pack a few things and come down. I decided to relax and I saw a grand piano in the corner of the room I sat down at it and started playing Bella's Lullaby which quickly turned into a new song that was going to be a lullaby for my children.
Alice P.o.v.
I walked in the other room to call the house.
Ring…Ring…
"Hello Alice is that you where did you and Carlisle disappear to we've all been soo worried Jasper said you were upset about Bella and was in his lap and then you just vanished right before his eyes. Are you ok? Are you hurt?" Esme said in a rush sounding worried herself
"We're both ok more than ok our family is finally complete with some new additions I can't explain over the phone but I need you all to come to Portland Oregon as soon as you pack some things maybe a few days or a week's worth. Can you please pack Carlisle and me some stuff too?" I said sounding all bubbly and happy
I couldn't stop jumping up and down with excitement about finally having our family back together. Now all that was needed was to get Bella and Edward back together and we'll be complete.
After giving her Bella's address and promising her we were all ok we hung up.
I looked into the future and noticed they'd be here in the evening around 7pm.
I went back in the living room sitting on the couch with Carlisle as me and him just listened to the new melody Edward was creating most likely for the babies. It was Beautiful.
5:13am
There was a loud beeping going on upstairs. Emma's monitors were going off.
We all rushed off up the stairs and rushed into the room.
Bella's P.o.v.
I was jolted awake to beeping. I looked over to Emma and her monitors were going off she was struggling to breathe her chest rising and falling much too fast.
That's the moment everyone ran in the room. Carlisle going over to Emma and taking her vitals and adding more oxygen.
"Bella there's fluid building in her lungs I'm going to have to stick a needle into her lungs to help drain it out she's going to be ok but we have to do this fast" Carlisle said in a rush
"Do it do anything you have to to save our baby girl" I said as I watched how helpless and fragile my baby looked
Carlisle wiped her chest off and then plunged a needle into her lungs as I turned into Alice I couldn't watch this. My baby wasn't even able to cry but I still felt so bad for her to have to go through something like this at a very early age.
Once Carlisle had drained the fluid her heart rate and oxygen levels went back to normal.
"I'm soo very sorry you had to see that Bella... I know it's hard seeing your baby so small and sick but she's a fighter and she'll get through this it's just going to take time" Carlisle said bringing me into a hug
"It's just so scary can't I just wish her sickness away and for her to get better?" I asked
"I'm sorry Bella but there's only so much your power can control and life and death isn't one of them I believe u could wish for someone to be able to have a baby but u can't wish for a sickness or death to go away just like u can't wish for someone to come back to life maybe in time it might be possible but right now it's just not" Carlisle said sadly
"Bella I'm soo sorry that our baby has to go through this I know you want to take her pain away but we can get through this she's strong and she's brave she'll fight this" Edward said looking at me in the eyes showing me love and sadness in his eyes
I couldn't go back to sleep after this and I didn't want to leave my baby but I was suddenly hungry and my throat was starting to burn a bit.
"I'll go make you something Bella and I'll also bring you some of the animal blood because I know your throat is starting to burn" Alice whispered to me so no one but me heard
Alice then left the room and I sat down watching my baby Emma as Edward was sat on the other side holding her very small hand. I was too scared to touch her right now feeling like she'd just break. So I just sat staring at her glancing up to Edward every now in then.
I knew we needed to talk but I just wasn't ready but I knew at some point today id have to talk to him get it all out in the open like I said I would.
"Edward... I'm going to go eat something could you… could you stay with her I don't want Emma to be alone right now just in case something happens" I asked
"Of course I wouldn't have it any other way I love staying with her and talking to her" Edward said
I went downstairs and sat at the kitchen table and ate the eggs and toast that Alice had made for me and drank my animal blood. It was delicious I was glad I was still able to eat human food. I loved being half human and half vampire it was the best of both worlds.
I decided that I should talk to Edward before the rest of the family gets here. I was really dreading this talk but I knew I had to get it over with and had to have courage for my babies.
I walked to the living room where Carlisle was sitting and decided to ask him if he could watch over Emma while Edward and I talked.
"Carlisle could you sit with Emma so me and Edward can go talk and maybe hunt a little I know you said she's going to be ok but I don't want to leave her alone for even a minute and id feel most comfortable with someone with medical degrees watching over her' I asked
"Of course Bella take your time everything will be alright and I'll call you if anything happens" Carlisle said with a reassuring smile
I then walked up the stairs very slowly trying to gain courage.
Once up the stairs I went to check on my babies and found Alice playing with them on the floor they were rolling around and almost crawling and just babbling away in baby talk to each other.
I went over and kissed them all on the head and gave each of them a hug saying id be back soon and then we could spend some family time together.
I then walked over to the room Emma and Edward were in and walked in.
"Edward Carlisle is going to come up and watch over Emma while we go talk I thought maybe we could go for a hunt" I said
"Of course Bella" Edward said getting up as Carlisle walked in the room to watch over Emma
We walked down stairs me in front of Edward. Once downstairs we went out the door and through the back gate. The backyard was beautiful I had already put some stuff in for the kids there was a sandbox and a swing set that had a little club house attached I knew the kids would love it and since they were growing fast they'd soon be able to play on it.
We started running in the forest I decided to have our talk in the little meadow I found while I was pregnant. It was a beautiful meadow with wild flowers everywhere it had a little stream running through it with small fish and rocks.
We kept running until we got the meadow and I sat down cross-legged in the middle of it in front of the stream. Edward sat next to me copying my position.
"Ok I want to hear it from you of why you left. So explain" I said
Edward P.o.v.
She was finally going to let me explain to say I was nervous was an understatement I was terrified. Scared that she would ask me to leave and to leave my children behind. Scared that she didn't love me back anymore and wanted nothing to do with me.
On the run here I thought about all ways to explain to her why I left but none of them seemed right. I left to protect her and I use to think that was a good enough reason but now after hurting her so badly and knowing I left her pregnant and had to give birth without me I knew how much of a mistake it was to leave. I should have just stayed and protected her from Victoria but what no one else knows is that I was also trying to protect her from myself. The morning after we made love I saw bruises starting to form on her I even had to bite her pillow to keep from biting her.
I left her soon after that to protect her from Victoria and myself and I regretted it every day. I missed the birth of my children the one thing I never thought I'd have. But I guess it was time to explain to her because she was just staring at me patiently with those bright gold eyes which were like pools I was swimming in and couldn't get out of.
"Well I'd like to start off by saying how sorry I am for leaving you and leaving you pregnant with our children I'm sorry you had to go through that alone and I'm sorry I wasn't there for the birth of our 5 amazing children. I know Alice told you I left to protect you from Victoria that is true but there was more to it. The night we made love it was so hard to resist you. You were just so tempting and I couldn't hold off anymore so I dropped my boundaries but during it I just wanted to bite you so bad and mark you as mine it's what vampires do when they find they're mate and complete the connection. Your blood was calling to me so to stop from biting you I bit your pillow but in the morning I saw bruises starting to form on you and I felt so guilty. I did that to you I promised id never hurt you and that's exactly what I did. I couldn't stand the fact that I was the one who hurt you. So I told everyone that we needed to protect you from Victoria and convinced everyone to leave and believe me it wasn't easy. But everyone eventually agreed to leave as long as I was sure it was what was best for you. I was hoping you'd move on and have a human life so I didn't have to condemn you to this life but it looks like you were made for this life it was destiny and I am incredibly sorry for all the pain I've caused you and for not being there through it all" I explained
Looking up I saw her taking it all in every word I said I gave her time to process it. 5 minutes later she finally was ready to respond.
"I forgive you Edward but I'm still going to need time. You'll have to earn my trust back and until I know for sure in my heart you'll never leave me or the children then we can't be together. I love you Edward I do but right now let's just stay friends and work our way back up once I'm ready" Bella said with a small smile on her face
I was glad she forgave me and id prove to her that I would never leave again it may take time but I had all the time in the world and I could wait. I'd wait forever if I had to just to be by her side again.
"Of course Bella and I'll never leave again I know you don't believe me right now but in time you will I'll show you that I'll always be here for you and our children now let's hunt and get back to them they're waiting for us" I said as I stood up and offered my hand to her to help her up which she gladly accepted
I helped her up and we took off at a run smelling some mountain lion in the far distance we chased after them and we each took 1 down before going after some elk running past until we had our fill.
On the way back we were in a comfortable silence until I broke it.
"Arabella has a gift. While you were sleeping I let the children play on the ground everything was going fine until Renesmee took Arabella's toy and Arabella got mad and started to cry her face turned red and suddenly the toy floated back into her hands and she gave me this beautiful smile she was proud of herself I could read it from her mind I think she's telekinetic." I said as I looked over to Bella
"That's amazing I wonder if Mason has a gift and if he does I'm sure it'll be nothing less than amazing" Bella said
She looked so happy when she talked about our children they were wonderful well behaved children. I was proud to be their father I was scared for Emma but I knew she'd make it through she was a fighter and she was strong.
"I'm scared Edward" Bella said looking at me with sadness in her gold eyes
"Emma will be ok Bella she just needs some time to grow she's strong and we'll all get through this together and we'll always be there for her you don't have to worry I'll be right by your side through it all" I said
"Thank you Edward it's just she's so small and it scares me when I look at her I see how fragile she is and after what happened today I'm scared to even touch her afraid I'll break her" Bella confessed to me
"You won't hurt her Bella you're her mother you'd never be able to hurt her your heart won't let you" I said
After that we continued our run back to the house wed been gone for about 3 hours it was now around noon and I couldn't wait to get back to check on Emma and spend some time with our other children we were going to bring them in to see Emma today we thought it might be good for them I read from their minds they were feeling sad and guilty for hurting her while in the womb they tried not to but they were just so cramped and at times they couldn't help it so I think it would be good for them to see her and to see she was doing ok. She will always be smaller than them but I knew they'd be the best siblings to her and always look after her.
We continued running until we got back to the house excited to be back and to spend time with our babies.
A/N Thank you all for waiting I'm sorry the chapter wasn't out when I said it would be but I was trying to make it a longer chapter reviews welcome