So far in this alternate reality, Ruth thought to herself, I've managed to avoid being kidnapped. I've kept Tom Quinn from shooting Harry, yet still brought him and Christine back together, and let Tom see that it was time to move on from the service or he'd end up like his predecessor Lucas North. Ruth shuttered recalling Lucas North was really John Bateman. She was going to have to feed that information to Harry in a slower manner as North or rather Bateman was where he should be in a prison, it just happened to be one in Russia, but she'd cross that bridge when the year arrived. She also remembered how Harry had blinders on when it came to North/Bateman. Later she would send out information as she knew where the real Lucas North's body was, that would come to Harry from another source other than her. She was thinking so far ahead and need to focus more on the here and now.
The night after the EERE exercise, Harry was true to his promise and he and Ruth gave up on food and found their way to bed and again there would be little sleeping as they discovered new ways to please each other. To Ruth this world was not yet real so she felt she could live as she liked. Yet there were times this world was more real and it was the one she really wanted to have her life. She and Harry were finding ways to keep their personal and professional life separate and Ruth in this reality did not care what anyone thought of her. She even let Sam know that being bonkers was a good thing at times. Her intell had other departments fighting for her services, but her bond with Harry was growing stronger. She only hoped this time he asked her to marry him several years sooner, and not at someone's funeral. As she entered her second year in her alternate reality, she knew it would be a dangerous time for herself, Danny and Adam.
She was already plotting how to keep Danny from dying. She'd changed reality once, but nothing on the scale she was about to attempt. Part of Ruth wondered if she should. Life was good with Harry. They were practically living together, yet she wondered if in this reality his love was as strong. They'd not been tested and pulled apart. Perhaps she should let one of the memories run its course to see how Harry reacted. Was she loved by him or was she just another asset? She recalled the relief that flooded his entire body when she delivered the DNA results pertaining to Sasha and the information that Elena was a double agent never really working for England. At first he hadn't believed her, but the she provided additional details, hacking into Russian Intelligence and prowling around archives many would overlook. At least she took 10 years off the 30 years he had worried about what happened in the other lifetime. It was the least she could do. Again she thought, Should I be playing god?
These bouts of consciousness only attacked her on rare occasions. She knew in this reality she was saving lives, but would it ultimately condemn her and like dominoes take someone else's' life. There had to be balance in the universe. Would Harry grow tired of her, or had he truly changed. She remembered his famous comment about not being emotionally forthright, that had been after George's death, but in this reality she will never meet George, and his life with Nico will continue. Hopefully, she can also stop her exile, but before that there will be several other items to attend to, including her old friend Andrew, she knew his attempt at blackmailing the government should be just around the next few weeks, and she didn't relish being tied to a bannister and watching him die. She would have to determine a way where he is caught.
While she didn't mind the brilliant part of her tittle, Bonkers put her off a bit more.
As for Harry she still wasn't sure if he loved her as there had been no test, or if he just desired her as he had desired so many in the past. Was she just an asset to Harry?
Editor's note, sorry for delay, and promise to pick up the action more, there has to be a ripple effect of Ruth's all knowing actions…