"I love you…" Seth smiled as he pulled my hair. It was rude, "I can't get enough of you."

I was nothing, when he touched me I lost all control and became a whore… his whore. Just knelt and beg for cock.

"Seth, fuck me. Stop teasing me!" So classy, Dean.

"No... not yet. Baby. You have to beg even more. You my dirty bitch, don't deserve anything good in this world. If you want to receive love, crawl like the worthless thing you are and beg for it."

"Please, Seth," I pouted, "I know I don't deserve your love, but I want it… I need it. Just like I need our fuel."

"You're such a worthless bitch, Dean." He growled.

He was biting mi neck and it hurt. But I deserved such a punishment. I'm so low I deserve nothing more than despise and contempt. A loud moan escaped from my lips.

"Love me, Seth" I purred.

"Horny, horny..." He said, "You're so broken, there's no fix for this level of destruction. You're damage goods, totally irreparable. Who would waste their time trying to find something good in your rotten existence, Dean?"

"Only you, Seth." I moaned.

"That's why you will always obey, won't you?"

"Yes, always." I said feeling like the scum of the earth.

"You're worthless" Seth repeated as he fucked me rudely.

"I'm worthless." I repeated after him.

"You're worthless…" Another thrust.

"I'm worthless…"

"Nobody will love you, ever…" Seth's voice sounds whiny and I know he's close.

"Because I'm so damaged, beyond repair… Nobody will love a rotten one like me."

"Nobody… just me." He climaxed. He only climax after a litany of contempt toward me.

"Nobody… just you, Seth." I wasn't enjoying this.

…

I wake up so desperate. That was the feeling I confused with love. Seth totally destroyed me, with the drugs and the painful words. I notice we are lying on the ground. We left the kingdom on Leviathan. Just in that moment I can feel his soft touch. He's holding me and I remember Seth words: 'you're damaged beyond repair'. But… when Roman holds me like this I feel like he's gluing every broken part of my damaged soul together.

I can be fixed… I can be loved.

Maybe I can't.

Now I remember that I kissed him. It was just a few moments, but I could feel his soft sweet lips against mine before I faint. Roman is doing a lot of efforts for me... every time I think of this, I wonder: How valuable can be my soul? And why does he want it that bad? Is just my soul what he wants?

Roman holds me tight and I can feel his sweet musky smell intoxicating me. It's pure pleasure.

"Please tell me now." I whisper, "Why do you want my soul?"

Roman never loses his grip on me. He pets my hair as he talks, "Ok little one, I just going tell you a few things."

He stayed silent for a few minutes, probably thinking the way to tell me what I need to know.

"You're not part of this world and it's assumed while you are alive you shouldn't be here. Things with you don't work the same way that with souls who live here."

I smile, he keeps contracting words.

Roman smiles back, "Your boyfriend did this ritual, a complete stupidity. One of my brothers and I were hanging around your world. Hunting souls to take at the time of their deaths, because as I told you, a living being is not supposed to be here."

"The amount of energy released by your boyfriend's anger and desire for power was such that eventually involved you in a way that I can't explain. Then I saw you... I saw you doing something I never saw before. When all was done, I was with you. Your boyfriend was dead so I spied memories of his earthly life was easy. I saw the way he treated you and how you reacted towards him."

Roman pauses for some minutes.

"That's why I felt attracted to your soul, why I care so much for you. I never saw anything like this. I saw the way he… he convinced you to do things you shouldn't be doing. To feel things you didn't really feel and I was angry. I wanted to save you and it was weird because commonly, we just feel attraction for the things we can destroy, because they deserve to be destroyed. But it wasn't your case, I felt so draw to you and for the first time I wanted to save someone, that must mean something important. As I told you we are not the punishers, you are your own punishers. We feel pleasure destroying those souls, because they deserve to be destroyed. We are part of this world, we help to keep things going we are what we are and we have to do what we need to do."

"You are not the bad guys here, you're just doing your work. But I still think your brother is scum"

Roman smiles, "Leviathan is jealous. It's part of his nature. He has this weird obsession with me but he can't do shit since I am not below him."

A few tears escape of my eyes, "I thought he was going to rape you or some horrible shit."

Roman passes his thumb in my cheek taking away the tears, "He was, but you saved me. My darling, have you ever heard the story of the serpent and the firefly?"

I nodded. "The serpent envied the brightness of the firefly. Therefore wanted to destroy it."

"That was the love Seth felt for you. He loved your brightness, because he did love you in that twisted way. He tried with all his being to possess your brightness and eventually to destroy it." Roman softly says. "But I understand his desire to possess something so beautiful. I want that too."

"He was the snake. Will you be another snake?" I mutter.

"He was the snake, my darling. And the snake was stupid. I'm not stupid, I'd never end up destroying something so precious." He sultry says as he approach his face with mine. Now we are nose to nose.

"Roman, perhaps the snake knew that even if it didn't kill the firefly, even if he locked up it. The firefly wouldn't shine, it would be the same. At least the firefly didn't have to suffer a life in confinement."

Roman's sultry smile softened a little, "That was the biggest mistake of that snake. To take by force the firefly when it could make the firefly voluntarily bless it with its brightness." Roman says as he looks at me with intensity.

"How can you do something like that? You and I don't belong to the same world." I'm here trying to device how this feeling we are developing can work… I have no clue."

"I'd wish I could answer that question. I can't." Roman is looking to the next door. "But now all I need is your brightness. I'm not asking for anything else."

I'm mesmerized. Now, I understand the nature of this part of the world. The nature of the so called demons reigning here. The way things work and the fact that here or there, we are the only responsible for our destiny.

"I'm here. You're here. I still want to know why I did what I did. I still want to save his soul." I say as I take his chin and make him face me, "But "I'm not coming back to him. I can't."

He looks at me as he can read my soul, "Why?"

"Because I want you." I say.

The next thing that happens is the both of us kissing softly. His lips are so warm and sweet and I feel like I'm flying. There's nothing negative. There's no rudeness. There's no demeaning words. There's no feeling of despair and hurt. It's amazing.

He's trying to stick his tongue in my mouth and I gladly welcome it. It feels so good. My body is on fire… on fucking fire. He softly releases me placing a soft kiss on my forehead.

"Dean my darling, we must go. It would be nice if we go through another kingdom before this day ends."

"Sure." I say as I try to breathe properly.

…

We arrived at the next gate and now I have a new thought in my mind: Roman. I don't know what we are now. I don't even know if that's a chance that we can be… together? He's a demon and I'm a human. I'm not even dead and I'm here trying to win the soul of my boyfriend.

I know I should of leave Seth by his own. But I can't. I still care for him. I still have this stupid need to save him… I don't know what I am doing. Roman seems unfazed by the fact that even if I kissed him. I'm still trying to save my boyfriend. I don't want to make any question about it.

"Welcome to the Kingdom of Berith, little one. I don't think we have a problem here because this place represents sloth. And I know exactly what to do for my brother. I think we could even spend the night in a comfortable bed and not the grass." Roman gaze is so sinful.

We entered into the beautiful kingdom with gorgeous huge buildings distributed just like the previous ones. The palace down the road was wonderfully decorated. Upon entering I noticed that instead of reaching a hall, were in a beautiful garden.

"It looks a lot like your world, right?" His soft voice ask me.

"It's gorgeous." I say softly.

"It's getting dark and you must rest properly, you barely slept an hour after being in the pit of souls in the Kingdom of Leviathan."

A fat creature with four eyes saunters in the palace. He's dressed in bright and very neat clothes, carrying in his hand a huge glass with amber liquid. He's not alone, he walks followed by an entourage of humans. The huge creature smiles.

"Rumors spread at full speed." He says gravely, "Leviathan has been throwing a tantrum to anyone he can. He says you took as a lover a living being. He says he is going to summon the great demoness to make her punish you. We all know Leviathan is kind of crazy about you, little brother. I do not think he is giving up with this weird feeling he has for you. He also said this living creature was able to cross the pit of souls. Which it is something I can not believe."

"Dean," Roman says with a pleased smile, "May I present you my brother Berith, The Lord of the Sloth."

I look with some suspicion but I respectfully greet him.

"Brother, he's Dean, my human lover. Who is also… alive."

The cup falls from the hands of the other demon, and I can't blame him, fuck I'm frozen... Roman just said I'm his lover... Well, maybe this is the answer at all the questions I don't have the courage to ask. I can't keep thinking because Berith approaches me and look me in detail.

"I can not believe it. Have you been able to fuck this creature? He is alive! Not even the succubus and incubus can fuck a living creature, that's why they do it through dreams, and you are fucking this one?"

He can't have my body while I'm alive... Can he?

"Has anyone ever tried?" Roman says arrogantly, "Succubi and incubi are even lower than humans. They're so repulsive that neither I touched one. I won't give more details of my relationship with Dean, I just want your permission to cross your kingdom and in exchange I'll give you 10.000 souls for your service."

"This is a fabulous deal, I am tired of punishing always the same idiots. And we all know your souls are the worst inside this place, they are the ones that most deserve horrible punishments." Berith nods, seems like this will be a place of passage.

In that moment I react. Roman is the Lord of the Lust. The souls on his charge are probably… rapist in all their forms and shapes… ugh. Roman was right they deserve to be here.

"I want to spend the night in one of the rooms of your palace. I want the farthest and also want that nobody approached us." Roman said, smiling flirtatious.

"Okay brother, I give a shit what you are going to do with this creature, while you give me those souls." Berith nods again. "Where are you going?"

"We'll go with Abaddon, there's something I must ask him. Tomorrow morning we'll leave. Give me a very nice room, the number of souls that I'm giving you is high."

"The best of the best for my lustful brother." Berith grins and then looks at me, "I do not know what did you do creature… but it should be something really amazing if you are making a demon do this kind of sacrifice. He is even speaking oddly. Maybe it would be good to try something odd like you."

Roman takes Berith by the neck. It was so fast that I can barely register the action. "Don't you ever try. I'm still more powerful than you and I'll punish you if you ever try to put your hands in my belongings."

Berith is kinda scared. Roman is obviously saying the truth. He just smiles as he apologizes. Soon after we're in the room.

Even in my earthly life I couldn't be in a place like this. Everything was like a five star hotel, well perhaps even more stars. I ate a lot and this time Roman didn't do his magic. Here, they fix a room with a bath in which I must admit I'm relaxing. In fact I'm sleepy in the tub, recently I thought I'd return to my world to spend a life in jail and now I'm enjoying the luxuries worthy of a prince. The door opens and out of my numbness, Roman brings a bathrobe for me. So far his flirtatious glances were nothing but playful... until now. I could tell that seeing me, covered in foam bath of sweet aroma, he's almost eye fucking me. The heat of my cheeks was such that I thought my face would explode.

A sigh, "I'm going to jerk off with this beautiful view."

I began to sink my body into the tub. Why Am I so fucking nervous?

A soft snicker, "What's wrong. Have you ever masturbated? From what I could see in Seth's memories, you were quite horny about sex."

"So is the time to pay my deal with you?" I ask so nervous.

"We made a deal in exchange of your soul. Your body is yours to decide how to use it. I'd never force you. I know you've only surrendered to another man for love. Although that feeling is unknown for all of us here."

"I'm confused… I don't know what I want," I say softly.

Roman approaches to me and gently caresses my face. "I know. Even if the time is against me, there's no pressure. You're not going to be the firefly, which I stole its shine. Dean, I'm not sure how this works, but I've always followed my instincts and I haven't failed once."

I close my eyes as I just surrender to the feeling. His big hands feel great. I open my eyes in a cloud of pleasure and I feel his lips on my neck and his hands on my shoulders keeping me still, though he's not forcing, the grip is barely tight.

"I don't know what this feeling is, it's very strange... I don't understand. It's different, not like anything I've felt before. It's a pleasure that hurts." Roman says taking his lips from my neck and wrapping my wet body in a hug.

I close my eyes biting my lower lip. "Same here. This is something I don't understand and it scares me, Roman." My heart was pounding so hard that Roman must have realized, "I also don't know what is happening to me."

Roman holds me tight. Just like he always do. Like his huge would repair my broken soul. Is that even possible? Repair something this damaged?

"I'll fix every single broken thing inside and outside you, my darling. Just trust me." His voice is mesmerizing.

"I feel so confused. I'm still fighting with my own self. I still feel worthless, like I'm damaged beyond repair, yet I feel like I want to be free of this feeling. It's horrible. I'm a mess." I give up, close my eyes and let the tears come out freely placing my head on his shoulder. He never let go. I had no more strength, I cried like a small child. "I want you to fix me."

…

I awake wrapped in a warm robe and embraced the demon's body beside me. Some light is filtered through the skylights. He just watches me.

"Soon we must go." He says softly.

I close my eyes feeling the warm of his body, "I feel like crap."

"Why?" Roman looks at me quizzically, but still smirking.

"I feel like crap because I feel like I'm playing you. I want you and I'm here trying to stop you. But I can't stand it anymore..." Finally I dare to look at him, taking a long breath before speaking, "Roman... please don't ask me anything... just kiss me."

Roman is surprised, "Are you sure?"

"I said no questions." I hiss.

"As you wish..."

The demon gently takes my face and approaches his lips to mine. His sultry smile now is adorned with a new gesture, so soft so tender. This is the Lord of The Lust but I see nothing but tenderness in his face. He kisses me softly on the bed of the kingdom we'll soon abandon. His lips are so warm and... Sweet. He's trying to stick his tongue in my mouth and can't help but welcome it. The wet thick muscle is rubbing against mine, taste the essence of our fluids. I'm feeling a pleasure like never before, it's intoxicating. It feels so good and not like something just physical. I don't know what we are doing."

I put my arms in the neck of this gorgeous demon while he tightens his grip on my body. His hands hold possessively on my waist as we kiss passionately now. His lips left my mouth and land on my neck sucking the skin so gently as I start to moan, my body prisoner of the new feelings that seize my whole being... oh fuck... I like this...

He let go and I fall on the satin sheets, my body still writhing because of the ravages of great pleasure that runs through it, I have a painful boner. I can't help but looking at his crotch, Roman is feeling the same.

"I won't do anything else, even if you want it." Roman tells me breathing hard, trying to get together while strokes my hair. "I need you to be sure of all of this."

But I am sure of all of this… Am I?

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