A/N: Finally.......... I finished my exams! I'm hoping I'll pass though.. :(. I felt that this chapter is a little bit hard to write, since I want to take it slow, but I somehow feel this chapter seems like a filler chapter.. Oh, and in this fic, I decided that Chris is an orphan while Ellen's parents.. umm... they're still alive, but may not make any appearances here, because I feel there's too many characters already with a lot of plots to explore.. I'm thinking of making another fic for the companion for John & Gigi's plot though.. but not sure yet.. Any opinions? I'll start making it if anyone ask me to.

Chapter 4: New Life, New Beginning

"This is your room, Kim. Take a rest, I know you'll be tired, you haven't recovered enough."

"Thank you, Ellen."
"Just tell me if you need anything. Make yourself comfortable. This is your home too now. I'll leave you now so you can rest." Ellen smiled.

"Thanks. Come Tam, you must be tired too." Kim smiled in return and starts to help Tam to change to his night clothes. Ellen closed the door and went back to her room.

Now that Kim is here, she felt the uneasiness Kim feels towards Chris. Ellen felt guilty every time she saw Kim and Tam. She felt that she took away their happiness. Not only that, she felt awkward and doesn't have any idea to act when she, Chris and Kim are in the same room.

Shaking her head, she change to her night gown and go to bed straight away. Before, she would wait for Chris and they will talk about things before they both sleep, but now… Ellen just can't talk to Chris. She knew that Chris would somehow bring this matter to their conversation. Feeling Chris entering the room, she tried her hardest to doze off.

Chris, feeling Ellen's uneasiness, frowned. He tried to sleep, but he found that hard. After one long hour, and assuming that Ellen is fast asleep, he got off the bed and went to see Kim and Tam.

Chris open Kim's bedroom slightly and peek inside the room. He saw that Tam is fast asleep, while Kim, with her back towards the door, is watching Tam closely. Once in a while Kim kissed Tam's forehead while humming a lullaby. A tune that he felt really familiar with. He felt his heart is torn. He desperately wants to give Kim everything that she should have: a family with him. Not out of pity, but out of love. But on the other side, he doesn't have the heart to hurt Ellen and leave her. He then left and went back to bed.

If only he would turn and see Ellen's face, he would see a tear sliding down her cheek.

Ellen, who actually just pretends to sleep, followed Chris and saw how Chris's eyes shone with love towards Kim and Tam.

Deep down in her heart, she knows that it's only a matter of time. And sooner or later, she must let go and let this family have their happiness.

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The next morning, Ellen is determined to befriend Kim. She felt they deserved a fresh start and become friends.

"Good morning! How have you been feeling today?" Ellen asked, trying to be friendly to Kim.

"I'm… fine, thanks. I feel better." Kim answered awkwardly.

"Chris has left for work just now."

"Oh."

Ellen felt Kim's uneasiness, tried to explain, "Kim.. I.. I feel we need a fresh start, not only because of Chris, but mostly for Tam. As long as you are uncomfortable, he won't be as well. Can we be friends?"

Kim, who had held her head down, nodded and smile at Ellen, "Ok."

Ellen smiled back, "Breakfast? I prepared this for you. What about you, Tam? Hungry?"

Tam, glancing at Kim as if asking for approval, after saw Kim nodded and smiled to him, say, "Yes, auntie Ellen."

Ellen smiled and hug Tam. The rest of their breakfast was passed with nice chat. Ellen and Kim felt some uneasiness melt away and embrace their new friendship.

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Meanwhile, John can't help to be reminded of Gigi. He is sure the girl that went out of Kim's place that day when he waited for Kim to pack is Gigi. Unknown to everyone, the reason he didn't get married until now is because he is still reminded of Gigi. He remember fully the last time he saw Gigi, 3 years ago..

-Flashback-

"John, please, you can't leave me here! You have to take me with you!" Gigi asked desperately.

"And why not? It's not like we are in a relationship or anything!"

"You can't! Please! I love you! I know you love me!" Gigi cried.

"Oh please.. You are just nothing but a whore!" John sneered while walking away from Gigi. Her eyes widened by his words while tears keep sliding down her face.

"You have to take me John! We are bound together!"

"Watch your words! We don't have anything together unless sex!"

"I….. I'm pregnant with your child!"

John stopped when he heard it. 'Pregnant?....... No, She must be lying! Or it maybe someone else's child, not me!'

John slapped her and said, "Don't lie! You must be lying so I will take you to the States!"

Gigi held her reddened cheek and cried even harder, "I'm really pregnant!!"
John yelled back, "Even if you're pregnant, how can you be sure it's my child, hmm? Not someone else's child?"

Gigi, angered by his words, said, "How can it be someone else's child when every night you are the one I'm sleeping with? And don't forget, I'm always with you at day time and went back to Dreamland when it's almost time to get ready for the night!"

John walked away from Gigi, but not before hurting her with his last words, "You are not pregnant with my child, and I'm leaving you!"

With that, he walked away, while Gigi crying helplessly.

-End of flashback-

John can't help to feel guilty after he is back in the States. He always thought, 'What if Gigi is really pregnant that time with my child? I would have already abandoned them for so many years..'

He always wonders what have happened to Gigi after that. Working in an organization to help Bui-doi meeting their fathers doesn't help either. Actually, it always make him guiltier when he saw the kids that was left behind, thinking he might already did that to his own child with Gigi.

Seeing Gigi that day only refresh his memories of how bad he hurt Gigi that time. He realized how foolish he was, and how actually he was in love with Gigi, even until now. He felt stupid for denying his love for Gigi and his own child. Suddenly, something came over him. He thought, 'If I can find a child who has not even known existed by the father, why can't I find Gigi and my own child? I should have done this ages ago.'

John is now determined to find Gigi and their child. Not knowing what has happened to Gigi after he left..

A/N: In the next chapter, I MAY reveal what happened to Gigi that time, Kim and Ellen's friendship is getting better, Chris spends more time with Tam, John starts to try to find out what happened to Gigi, and MAY ask Kim.. I'm not sure if I want Kim to reveal what happened to Gigi though.. So please review and tell me what you think!