A/N: Ok guys.... first of all I would like to apologize for not updating this fic for a long while already. So many things came up and to make things worst, I got writer's block. Yeah, not my fave either... I'm not promising that I'd be updating this fic regularly now, but I DO promise that I'd update as soon as I can... which I can't guarantee for how long it takes.. Anyway... Reviews are appreciated!!

Chapter 5: What Happened 3 Years Ago

John started to gather information about Gigi and their child, but it seems that fate is playing a cruel trick on him. It's like karma. He can barely get anything about them. Now his last hope is only Kim, which he didn't even know if she knew anything about Gigi. Seeing as she is his last hope, finally he decided to come and ask her.

Ellen was the one who opened the door.

"Hi Ellen, How's everything?"

"Oh everything's fine as it can be. Come in!"

Ellen let him in and invited him to the living room.

" What brings you here? Chris is not home yet." Ellen asked as she served John some tea.

"I know. I'm here to speak to Kim."

"Actually, she's sleeping now. Is there anything important?"

"I… it's… I need to find some information from her." John contemplated whether he should reveal what his intention of asking to Ellen, since he even didn't tell Chris about it.

"Seems important… May I know… what… ?"

John sighed, and felt the urge to share it to Ellen, since he didn't think he can share it with Chris.

"Listen Ellen… You may wonder why I didn't get married. It's not because I haven't found a suitable woman yet, but because I've got someone in my mind already. No one ever knew about it, not even Chris. I've been carrying this heavy burden in my heart for a long time. I can't get her face out of my mind, because… I did something unforgiveable." He covered his face with his hands, his heart filled with anguish.

"It's ok John, you can share it with me. You left someone back in Vietnam as well didn't you?"

"Ellen, it's even worse! I may have already abandoned her and my own child, just because of my ignorance and pride!"

"What do you mean?"

"When I was about to leave her, she told me that she's pregnant with my child. I denied her and the child with all I might, thinking that they are just going to ruin my reputation."

Ellen shocked and just responded with an "Oh."

"You may think that I'm heartless. Hell, I AM heartless. And it is my karma now. I can't find them. My only hope is Kim."

"John… At least you realized it… You do want them and you do have the intention to make things right, don't you?"

"Yes. Thank you for listening, Ellen."

Ellen smiled, "No problem. I'll check if she's awake now."

John smiled and silently prayed, 'Dear God, please, don't take away my last hope.'

Ellen came back to the room with Kim.

Kim started, "Ellen told me about everything already, John."

John nodded, "Were you still in contact with Gigi before you left Bangkok?"

"As a matter of fact, yes. But you may not like what I'm going to tell you…" Kim said with sad eyes.

John kneeled in front of Kim and practically begged, "Please, I need to know what happened to Gigi and my child! I know I hurt her, but I realized that now. I want to make things right. I need to know."

Kim sighed, "Okay, so three years ago.."

*Flashback*

Gigi tried to meet John again, after he rejected her and their baby. She went to the embassy's gates and tried to find John, but all the guards ignored her and told her to go away. That she's just a whore that John won't even remember.

She kept waiting and cried his name, but John was not even there. Then the chaos began. With the crowd surrounding her, all together watching the helicopters left them helplessly, she cried for her child's fate to live without a father. Her sadness was overwhelming her and with the crowd surrounding her, she collapsed.

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Gigi woke up in a little hut. She felt the intense pain on her abdomen and moaned. An old lady rushed to her and told her to lay down.

"What happened?" Gigi asked weakly.

"You collapsed in the middle of the crowd just now… Luckily I saw you and took you back here. You must have been unconscious for a long time. You lost a lot of blood too." She said with a sad, concerned face.

"B-blood?"

"Yes. I was a nurse before, so I knew how to treat you as possible as you can."

Gigi's hands instantly went to her abdomen. The old lady seemed to understand what she's asking and said, "I'm sorry, dear. You lost a lot of blood, and we only found you after a long period of time."

"W-what?"
"You lost your baby."

Gigi felt as if she was struck by lightning. Her tears flow endlessly before she fell unconscious again.

After she's healthier, she went to The Engineer and asked him to take her wherever he goes. Little did she know that she will meet Kim again, and she treated Kim as if she's her younger sister, and Tam as if he was her own son.

*End of Flashback*

John was struck. Karma is really punishing him. His child was dead.

"I'm sorry John… Gigi herself was really depressed… I think if Tam wasn't there, she would probably had lost her mind. She treated Tam as if Tam is her own son. But deep down, I know she still feel the pain from losing the baby."

A/N: Dun dun dun... I bet you guys have guessed that Gigi lost the baby. What do you think about it guys? Well, karma hurts, that's for sure... I think I'd be back on track with Kim-Chris in the next chapter... If there's no plot bunny and writer's block that's gonna hit me. :)