Chains
Chapter 2 Awkward
Buford's POV
Baljeet was all I could think about, why did I screw this up? That's not what really bothers me though, what did I do wrong? Figuring out the answer was like piecing together a puzzle with no image on the box, it was borderline impossible. Was I not good enough? I mean, I may be rough around the edges but I've known Baljeet for years now and he never made me feel like a loser. Sure I bullied him but I completely stopped because I couldn't stand hurting him in any kind of way. We soon became friends but I wanted more, what does Chad have that I don't? I remembered how he looked, his white smile and perfect teeth, dark blond hair, emerald green eyes, slightly tanned skin and a few freckles on his cheeks, he was lean and had some muscle tone. Great hair, he wasn't chubby like me, he just looked perfect overall but whenever I looked at him, the word twink came to mind.
The memory of Chads arm on Baljeet's shoulder punched me in the heart, they looked so happy…so he was embarrassed by me huh? I turned up my music drowning out my remaining thoughts and closed my eyes. I felt something warm touch my shoulders, I started to panic a little when I opened my eyes and saw it was Dinner bell. I tackled him, holding his arms above his head, laying on top of him, looking into his dark blue eyes. He was blushing, I couldn't help but smile at him, and he was kinda cute when he blushed. I finally noticed we were lying stomach to stomach, which meant our crotches were right on top of each other. I jumped off of him, feeling my face heat up; Phineas sat down next to me, and tapped my shoulder. I looked in his direction, his mouth was open like he wanted to say something but he closed it and looked at the city. "You know Buford, it's going to be ok. Time heals all wounds." I didn't believe him. Nothing could ever numb the pain I'm feeling right now," How do you feel Buford?" "Fine." He turned towards me, "Then look me in the eye and say that." I couldn't, it was like he was staring at my very soul. If there is one person I could almost never hide anything from, it was always Phineas, he knew that I was in love with Baljeet and we've been closer ever since.
I closed my eyes and told him the truth, "I feel broken and not good enough like…like I'm nobody and I feel confused…" I buried my face in my hands, I didn't want him to see me shed a single tear and see how weak I've become. Dinner bell rubbed my back, "It's okay to cry Buford, and we all do it from time to time." I don't know why but after he gave me permission to, I no longer felt the need to hold in the tears anymore so I cried with Phineas holding me. I cried into his shoulder "Its ok Buford, everything's going to be ok buddy." Even though that can't be guaranteed, it made me feel better. I felt like a baby but letting the tears go made me feel, lighter and a little better.
We both got up and walked; I was following Phineas when we stopped, I looked up and saw we were in front the parks entrance. I wrapped a hand on Dinner bell's shoulders and I walked him home, "Text me when you get home." "Don't worry, I will Dinner Bell." Before he turned to leave I gave him a hug and said thanks. He smiled and said anytime, walking into his house and closed the door. It started to rain but I was in no rush to get home, I was thinking about Phineas and how he's always there for everyone, especially me. What would I do without him? I smile, he was so optimistic it was contagious and his smile could light up a whole room. I see my street and turned the corner, I sigh, again thinking about Baljeet but he wasn't the only one on my mind…