Chapter 4

Sorry for the delay, I was caught up in University assignments… Here's a chapter a little longer than the last ones to apologize! Hope you enjoy :)

Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own the 100…

Lexa's POV

I was back to my dorm after my last class of the day and decided to take a short nap to rest before going to the party. It was a beautiful day and I would've spent it outside, but I absolutely needed rest after waking up at 5:30 for my run if I was to stay up till who knows what time tonight. When I got in, Anya was already there with Lincoln playing some video game on An's PS4.

Lincoln noticed me first. "Hey Lex! How was class? "

"It was okay, the usual I guess, "I shrugged, laying my backpack near my bed, "I was thinking about taking a nap before getting ready for the party. Do you guys mind turning the volume down a bit? "

"No problem. If it can get you to come to a party, will do! "

I never really went to parties because I simply didn't like being surrounded by many people I didn't know, even less when these people were drunk. Although, I wanted to get to know Clarke and her friends, so I decided to loosen up a bit and go.

When Anya woke me up, it was already 8:30pm, about an hour before we would meet the girls down the hall. She had ordered Italian and we ate chatting about what we were expecting from tonight's party. We dressed up before leaving to Raven and Clarke's. Anya was wearing skinny blue ripped jeans with a plunging neckline white shirt which would make half the guys in the room turn around until she'd turn them down. For my part, I opted for black skinny jeans and a green tank top. I left my hair loose with a few braids in it and put on a black leather jacket before heading off because the walk back home would probably be a bit chilly. Just like Anya, I put mascara on and a bit of eyeliner before leaving.

We reached the two best friend's door and noticed the music we were hearing was coming from their room. The door opened to an already slightly tipsy Raven singing to "Everybody" by the Backstreet boys at the top of her lungs.

"Am I original?

Yeah

Am I the only one?

Yeah

Am I sexual?

Yeah

Am I everything you need?

You better rock your body now"

"You've got moves Rae! " Anya let out, laughing at Ravens' dance moves.

"Hey there gorgeous! " she said checking out my cousin shamelessly, "Come on in, Clarke was just finishing getting ready and I decided I'd have a head start! Want some Moonshine? "

Anya took the red cup Raven offered her as I declined. My eyes locked onto the guitar sitting on it's stand in the corner of the room.

"Clarke plays, " Raven told me, "she's good, but won't admit it to anyone. It's a shame really-"

"She knows Rae, I played her a song the other day, " Clarke interrupted getting out of the bathroom.

She was breathtakingly beautiful. Clarke wore black heels with leather skinnies the same colour and a blue-grey t-shirt that had just enough cleavage and brought out her eyes that wore only a touch of mascara. Her blonde wavy hair was falling on her shoulders and—

"Earth calling Lexa, " Anya whispered into my ear, but not before Clarke had noticed me in complete awe of her beauty.

All she did was smile in return and grabbed her phone as Raven was urging us to leave to get to the "best party of our life". The party was only at a 10 minutes walk from our dorm and during those 10 minutes, I had heard more pickup lines that I had in my entire life. Raven's game was good and Anya seemed to really enjoy the goofiness of the engineer student. We soon reached the house where the party was held. Music was blasting and there were already quite a few students flowing in and out of the house. We saw Bellamy and Lincoln with another guy I didn't know standing close the front door.

"Hey girls! It's about time you got here! " Bellamy said hugging his sister, Clarke and Raven.

I noticed Lincoln and Octavia staring at each other, a huge smile on their face as they went inside to get drinks.

"Anya, Lexa, meet Miller one of our friends form high school, " Clarke introduced.

We started talking a bit with the boys until Raven couldn't stand just chatting outside and dragged us all inside to get drinks. I could count on my hands the number of times I had a beer, not appreciating the effects it had on people, but I took one just to loosen up a bit. Everyone parted in different directions after a moment, Lincoln, Octavia and Miller headed to the dance floor while I followed the others to the beer pong table. Anya and Raven teamed up against Clarke and Bellamy. With out much surprise, Raven and Anya lost because the brunette had already had a few shots before the game and was therefore unable to land the ball in a single cup. Anya didn't look mad the slightest which was unusual because of her very competitive nature; Raven really had something on my cousin.

Bellamy went outside to get some air and doing so, some guy approached Clarke asking her if she'd like a drink. I felt my stomach drop as she accepted with a bright smile and the guy lead her to the kitchen with his hand on the small of her back. I immediately left to go outside before I would do something stupid, Clarke could take care of herself, maybe she wasn't even into girls. I had seen how close she was to Raven and Octavia, always close, hugging, maybe it was the same with me. Yeah, that was it. That was just how she was with her friends, her platonic loved friends. Once outside, I saw Bellamy chatting with friends, so I went to him to get my mind off Clarke.

"Echo? What are you doing here? " I asked when I noticed her next to Bellamy.

"Well, same as you I guess, " she said smiling.

" I see you already know Echo. This is Roan, he's on the football team with Linc and I, " Bellamy added pointing to the big guy next to him.

We talked for a while and soon Miller, Lincoln and Octavia had fetched us to get to the bonfire. I went back inside after about an hour to get a water bottle. That's when I saw Clarke pushing the boy from earlier away.

"I won't sleep with you just because you offered me a drink! " she nearly shouted.

"I should've drugged you like Murphy suggested me to do. We wouldn't have gotten to this," the boy replied taking her arm roughly and pinning her to the wall.

I fastened my pace to get next to them pushing people out of my way, "You won't do a thing to her. Back off, " I nearly growled.

He looked at me like I was a joke, "Or what pretty girl? "

"Oh, you don't even want to know, " I said seeing his hang on Clarke's arm wasn't loosening.

All he did was huff and leaned towards Clarke, and that's all it took for me to grab him by the neck and slam him in the corner of the wall.

"You've went too far. Now you better leave this place. "

I let go of him and as he caught his breath, he almost ran out of the room. I gently took Clarke's arm and brought her to the bathroom.

"Are you okay? " I asked concerned.

"Yeah, I just feel stupid for letting him get to this point. I should've turned him down. I wasn't even interested to talk to him in the first place. "

"Hey, " I grabbed her by the shoulders and lift her chin up so her eyes would meet mine, "never be ashamed of your actions for something like that, it wasn't your fault. "

She hugged me and whispered, "Thank you Lex. "

"Come on, let's go get Bell, Lincoln and Roan, they can find that Murphy guy and kick him out before her hurts someone. "

"By the looks of it, you could do that by yourself, "she teased.

I answered as we got out the bathroom, "Probably, but I don't like to give a show. "

We found the boys who minutes later kicked the arrogant boy out of the party without much effort. We all decided to get back inside and take a few shots to get back in our previous mood. Clarke was having fun again and was slightly tipsy, about as much as I was.

At some point, the blonde leaned into me and whispered, "Come with me on the dance floor? "

I couldn't answer as she pulled away just enough to look into my eyes. And so, after a few seconds of silence, she just took my hand in hers and pulled me to the dance floor. It was full of people, and surely wasn't my place to be.

She noticed I wasn't moving and asked, "What's wrong Lex? "

"I just don't dance Clarke. "

She grinned and added, "Oh, you will after this."

Clarke got behind me grabbing my hips and bringing them flush to hers. She kept her hands in place as she started dancing, guiding my every move to match hers. She slowly ran her hands down to the sides of my thighs and brought them back up. My breath hitched as her hands made contact with the skin of my toned stomach. Then in a swift motion, she turned me face to her. I saw the glint in her eyes as we danced to the beat of the music, the only thing between us now was desire. Maybe because she was slightly drunk, Clarke had all the confidence in the world as she brought my hands to her sides silently telling me to touch her as she did with me. Every barrier, every wall I used to protect myself fell in that exact moment. I leaned into her, my mouth so close to her neck I had to resist the urge to kiss it. Her touch was setting me on fire as I felt her hips thrust towards me. I put my leg between hers and she let out a moan. Our eyes connected before she turned around pressing her ass into me. She held my hands on her own hips to keep me from moving away as she kept moving, pushing into me. And that was suddenly too much for me to handle. I said a quick sorry to Clarke and rushed out of the room knowing I had let myself go too far tonight.

Clarke's POV

I must admit, alcohol helped me get the courage to bring Lexa to the dance floor. She was getting more at ease as we danced, and for someone who couldn't dance, she got me rather turned on. I couldn't help myself but roaming her body, keeping my hands in safe spots as to not scare her off. I may have lost my self-control along the way, but before I could remind myself to get a hold of me, she excused herself and left. I felt something drop in my stomach. She left so hastily, barely looking at me; we were only starting to be friends and I had screwed up in the matter of a dance. I spotted Anya and Raven looking at me with sorry eyes probably having seen the whole thing.

I walked toward them and Anya met me halfway, "Sorry about Lexa, she-"

"No An, I pushed her limits. I just didn't expect her to react that way I guess… I'll just go apologize."

"Clarke, maybe just leave her a few minutes to sort her thoughts? She needs a bit of time. "

I nod in understanding and fetched water bottles for myself and Raven who was almost too drunk to walk back to the dorms. When I came back, Anya and I decided to find Raven a bed so she could sleep a bit before we left, she was definitely in need of food, water and rest.

I walked outside by the backdoor and saw a small form near the bonfire. I approached her, feeling like this was the right time and place to talk about what had just happened. I sat down next to her, handed her the bag of chips and set a water bottle next to her feet. I stayed silent for a while, just staring at the campfire.

"Lex, I… I'm sorry if I went too far."

I turned to look at her waiting for some sort of acknowledgement, seeing she didn't react I added, "I'd understand if you'd want me to back off or… I just-"

"That's the thing Clarke, " she interrupted me almost whispering, "I don't want you to take your distance. " She was still staring at the flames dancing in front of both of us. "But the fact that I want you near me scares the shit out of me. "

She turned to me and I saw hurt, the sadness in her eyes, "I'm scared of hurting the people I care about. It… It happened once, and ever since, I've been closing people off. I'm learning to let people in, but I need time and tonight was too much for me to handle. You don't have to be sorry, Clarke. I'm broken and it's not your fault I shut down. "

"I understand Lex, I really do. I've had my share of drama in the last few years. Just know that if you ever need someone, you can come to me, " I said, looking in her beautiful saddened green eyes. Obviously, I wanted to know more, but I knew she'd tell me when she would be ready, just like I was.

After a few minutes of comfortable silence, she looked at me and just said, "Her name was Costia… I'm not ready to talk about her yet, but I will… Eventually."

We stayed there for a moment before Bellamy, Octavia, Anya and Lincoln came to join us. We chatted for a while and joked about the drunk guys who decided to start playing basketball a few feet away, in which they miserably failed. It was nearly 2:30am, so we decided to take our leave. I went to wake up my best friend, who was soundly sleeping in a bedroom on the second floor. She seemed to feel a bit better and after giving her a Gatorade and something to eat, we met the others downstairs.

"Oh my god, are you okay Rae?" asked Anya who had just seen Raven falling over the sidewalk.

"Yeah, I'm okay, but do you have a band-aid? Because I just scrapped my knee falling for you…"the brunette answered a grin spread on her face.

"Rae, you're impossible! " I said exasperated by my best friend's goofiness.

Octavia added, "How can you keep flirting Rae? An hour ago you were a mess and now you're back in the game already? "

"Back in the game is a lot to say, O. She still looks like shit! " Lexa joked.

We all laughed, all except Raven who was now pouting.

"But we still love you! Even when you're a drunk mess! " I said hugging her.

We got to the dorm and took the elevator, because there was no way Raven would make it up the stairs, and honestly Anya and O probably wouldn't have made it either.

"Hey, " I whispered to Anya and Lexa across the hall, "It's tradition to all go brunch together after a night out. Want to join? "

"Depends what time? I feel like I'm going to pass out in my bed for a week…" Anya whined.

"We're all meeting at 11am in the hall downstairs. We're going to the diner about 5 minutes from here. "

Lexa answered as Anya got into their dorm probably crashing immediately on her bed, "Great, we're in. See you tomorrow, have a good night sleep, Clarke."

"You too, Lex," I smiled before entering my dorm room.

I woke up early the next morning to Raven working on one of her projects rather loudly.

"Rae, what are you doing making so much noise at 8 in the morning? You were drunk five hours ago! " I whined.

She didn't even look at me as she answered, "You know that genius mind of mine doesn't need much sleep Clarkey. Plus, I never get hangovers. "

Knowing she wouldn't let go of her project soon, I got up and decided to go take a shower and fetch us some coffee before meeting our friends downstairs. I thought back to what happened last night as I let the hot water soak my hair. We drank, Lexa saved me from that asshole, we drank again, I danced with Lexa, she ran away, and we talked. I smiled to myself as I remembered what she told me "I want you near me". I didn't know if she wanted me only as a friend, but I was okay with taking what she would be willing to give me. I got back in the room and Raven looked at me briefly and smiling instantly.

"So, something good happened last night. What is it? " she grinned.

"How? We … I… No? You were-"

"Sleeping, yes. But you've got it bad Griffin! That smile on your face, it isn't there just because the weather's nice… Spill! " her smugly smile not leaving her face.

I sat on her bed and sighted, "Well you saw me dance with Lexa and then she ran off. You remember that, right? "

"Yeah… That was a pretty hot dance Griff-"

"Yeah, but she shut down so… Anyways, later we got to talk and hum…" I started fidgeting getting nervous for god knows what.

My best friend shot me a knowing look and that's all it took for me to spill everything, "Basically, she told me and I quote "I don't want you to take your distance. But the fact that I want you near me scares the shit out of me," end of quotation. So yeah, I don't really know what to think about it… Does she want me just as a friend? Because obviously, I want more! But you know I'll take whatever she's ready to give me. Rae, from what she told me last night, I think she lost her last girlfriend… or was she just a friend? And maybe she'd understand what it was like loosing Finn, so I understand why she's so closed off sometimes. I know what it's like, but I just want to get to know her so badly. And what if she-"

"Clarke, stop and calm down," She said grabbing my shoulder softly, "You are overthinking this. Lexa likes you, you're just oblivious sometimes. When she's with you, she looks happy. And when you're away, even only form a few feet, you both steel glances at each other when you think no one's watching. " She added jokingly, "Anya and I think it's disgusting actually," she paused, "She told you she's scared, so if you like her, don't let go. You'll need to be patient, but if you think she's worth it I know you'll do it. "

"Thanks, Rae," I said hugging her, "I'll go get us some coffee. We meet with everyone in 2 hours. Keep working on that project of yours, I won't keep you from it anymore."

I walked to the café, my earphones plugged in my iPhone as I started my Billy Joel playlist. The sun was shining bright and I was thinking about the ways I could take advantage of these last warm days before October came. I got to the small building and I was about to get inside when I heard my name. I turned around to see no other than the girl I was talking about five minutes ago. She was clearly in the middle of her jogging whereas she was wearing tight black Nike shorts with a grey tank top similar to the one she was wearing the first time we met. Her hair was up in a ponytail held back by a black headband and she was slightly sweaty, no makeup on. She was beautiful as always and that was enough to make me freeze.

"Hey, are you okay? " the brunette asked seeing I didn't acknowledge her presence other than by staring at her.

I shook my head, "Yeah, hum I'm just surprised to see you out here…" I managed to say.

"I'm used to waking up early and go for a jog. A party won't keep me from doing so! But why are you up so early, you've got what...? 5 hours of sleep? " she questioned.

"About that, " I laughed, "Raven woke up with one of her genius ideas and started working on a sort of radio which woke me up. Once she gets started there's no way to stop her, so I decided to get up. "

"Nice roommate! " she joked, nudging my elbow, "I was going to grab a coffee for An and I, I guess you're doing the same? "

I nodded and we got inside making small talk while waiting for our respective orders. Back to our dorms, Lexa invited me to come in hers since Raven was still working on her radio and wouldn't be much fun for the next hours. Anya had just awoken and was about to text Lexa when we entered the room. Unlike Raven, Anya definitely had a hangover and regretted her last few drinks. We both drank our coffees while Lexa went in the shower.

"So, had fun last night? " I teased the other blonde.

"Shut up, " she growled taking another sip of her coffee. "I did enjoy myself last night, but I don't know if the hangover is worth it. "

"Raven claims she never has any, she's actually working on a project right now. She was up at 8 this morning! I don't get how Lex and Rae manage to wake up so easily! "

"Don't question, Lex has too much energy. For as long as I can remember, she wakes up at the same time everyday rain or shine to go for a jog. "

We laughed thinking about how lazy we were compared to the two of them when Lexa came back in the room. Anya took her clothes and went in the bathroom leaving me and Lexa alone.

"So, about last night… I wanted to apologize again for running away like I did. I was-"

"Lex, no need to apologize. I told you it's okay, and I mean it. "

She gave me a shy smile and I knew she was silently thanking me for not holding it up against her.

"So, Clarke, hum… I was thinking, " Lexa started nervously, "would you like to hangout tomorrow after class? Anya has a group project so she won't be here and I was hoping we could watch a few episodes of Quantico? " she looked at me and I think I saw hope? In her eyes.

I smiled, "I'd love that, Lex. But…" I could see she was thinking I was going to turn her down so I caught up not wanting to ruin this building relation whatever it was, "on one condition…" Her look changed to an apprehensive one, her left eyebrow slightly lifting up. "You have to play me a song on that piano," I said pointing to the keyboard in the corner of the room.

"Are you really bargaining? " she laughed, "You think your presence is worth one of my incredible interpretations? " she cocked an eyebrow.

"No, I just think you owe me a song since I played one the other day, " I said, "Plus, I want to see if you really are talented. Because If you are, you're basically perfect: great soccer player, student AND musician...? Nope, not happening! " I joked. We laughed when she added, "Deal. Then I hope you're ready to have the proof that I'm perfect. "

It was almost time to meet with everyone when I got back to my room to drag Raven in the shower so she wouldn't make us wait for her.

"Rae, we're leaving to the diner in 15, get in the shower, you stink. "

"No need for a shower and I'm almost done, " she retorted keeping her eyes on what she was doing.

"You stink from last night's party; your hands are dirty from your project, and your mascara is all smudged over your eyes… I don't think Anya will-"

"Anya! Right, I better get in the shower! "she said jumping out of her chair to grab clothes and get in the shower. I laughed to myself thinking about how bad my best friend was crushing on the girl.

We met everyone in the hall of our dorm building only 5 minutes later than expected and without much surprise Raven greeted Anya with another of her well known pick up line as I walked towards Bell and O.

"Well, here I am, beautiful. What are your two other wishes? " she winked with a smugly grin on her face as Anya laughed.

Octavia gave me a hug and whispered, "She really likes that girl huh? She's never worked so hard for someone before. "

"She does, " I smiled, "Anya would be good for her."

We walked to the diner talking about last night's party and the huge one coming on Halloween. I walked at the back just enjoying the fact that our little group was getting along so well. Anya and Raven were flirting and joking around while Octavia and Lincoln were doing the same. Bellamy was talking about school with Monty and Miller. Everyone was talking and laughing and I was so grateful for that. Just then, I noticed Lexa was walking beside me in silence. We exchanged a shy smile and kept walking in comfortable silence.

Once inside, we sat in a booth in the back of the cozy diner. We joked around and enjoyed the boys recalling events from last night, most of them about Raven and Miller who had a bit too much to drink. When the time came for us all to leave, the boys shot us all an invitation to their opening football game next weekend. We all agreed to be there thinking it would be great to watch the game all together and go out afterwards.

The walk back to the dorms was pretty entertaining. Raven being her usual self used her best pickup lines on Anya who just played along.

"Hey, An! Feel my shirt. Know what it's made of…?" the blonde shrugged, "Girlfriend material. "

Everyone laughed as she started another one, "Are you cold? You look like you could use some hot chocolate... Well, here I am! "

"Smooth Reyes! " Bellamy said high fiving her.

"Okay, this one's a first for me: Was you father an alien? Because there's nothing else like you on Earth! " Raven said waiting for Anya's reaction.

"That could be seen as an insult...? " Everyone burst out laughing.

"Yeah, Rae, that one's bad. Unlike the one with the scale," I said.

"What is it? I'm taking notes here, " Miller joked.

"On a scale of 1 to 10, you're a 9. I'm the 1 you need, " she smirked at Anya.

"I'd fall for that one, " Monty admitted.

"Best one I've heard in the last years! And god knows I've heard more than enough having her around nearly 24/7, " Octavia said nudging our brunette friend's elbow.

We reached the campus and said good bye to the boys as we reached our floor. Anya and Raven were ahead of us talking about a movie coming out soon when Lexa softly grabbed my arm wanting to talk away from prying ears.

"For tomorrow… Are we still okay? " she asked, green eyes locked on mine, her hand lowering to my forearm.

I felt heat creeping up to my cheeks feeling like her eyes could see right through me; see that I was more than okay to hang out with her, see that right then and there I was aching to get close to her, see that all I wanted to make her lips meet with mine. Feeling so vulnerable was new to me and I was sure my voice would crack if I answered, so all I did was nod and give her a small smile. I turned around to head to my room and after a few steps I simply told her, "I'll text you tomorrow to tell you at what time I'll be there? "

She returned my earlier smile, "Great, see you, Clarke. "