And say hello to Samuel! This is part one with Samuel.
Lemons!
I tried calling Samuel while I waited for Adam to return from his trip but he never answered. I tried every day but his phone just rang until voicemail picked up. I stopped leaving him messages after the first five or six calls and started to worry about him more. How had I been so distracted that I didn't know he'd left?
He hadn't taken everything, there were still clothes in his closet but I noticed some that were missing when I went to check. He must have packed a bag and left one day while I had been gone. Everyone tried calling him, even Bran but Samuel never answered.
I lived alone through the next month. Not that I ever really was alone. Adam hadn't been upset that I'd slept with Ben. He told me he had thought it might happen before we'd even left. As soon as he'd made the decision to send Ben with me it had c crossed his mind and he'd been okay with the thought. Me being the sex crazed woman I'd become thanks to him and Stefan, plus alcohol, yeah it was bound to happen. But Adam wasn't angry with us and I realized just how comfortable he'd become with all this.
Stefan had joked about it though, giving Ben a fist bump and saying, "Welcome to the club." I remember throwing the TV remote at him, which he'd caught. I hadn't actually slept with Ben since the hotel. I wasn't sure how he felt about continuing it and I didn't want to make him uncomfortable. Besides I had other things on my mind.
Adam and Stefan kept me occupied a lot of the time anyways. Stefan made a point to show up twice a week, and one night was strictly non-sex. "I love you, Mercy. I don't want anyone to think I'm just using you for sex." It made me laugh but it also made me appreciate him more. It warmed my heart.
One day, about a month after the wedding, I was about to leave my garage and I called Samuel. It took me by surprise when he answered. I froze getting into my car and stood with one foot inside of the car when he said, "Mercy?"
"Samuel…" There was silence for a little while and I got into my car and shut the door. "Samuel, where have you been? Are you okay?"
"I don't know, Mercy. Not really, I…." He sounded upset, slightly frantic and it scared me.
"Where are you?" I asked quickly.
"At the Holiday Inn downtown, can you meet me?"
He'd been staying at a hotel in town? What was going on? Why couldn't he come home and why had he been ignoring everyone?
"Yes, I'm on my way."
"Room 206," He said quietly and I heard the phone click. I pulled the phone away from my ear and frowned as I backed out and drove to the hotel as fast as I could allow myself without risking a speeding ticket.
I knocked on room 206 and he opened the door. He looked very tired and he had a beard and mustache goatee combo going on. I wondered when the last time he'd shaved was. He pulled me into a hug and sighed into my hair.
"Samuel, are you okay?" I hugged him back. He started to shake a little and I realized he was crying. "Samuel?" I whispered.
He let me go and turned away from me, walking across the room. He sat on the bed with his back to me. I closed the door and followed him. I knelt on the floor in front of him. His eyes met mine and I looked down. Samuel was emotional and he had alpha tendencies, though he was a lone wolf. I tired to avoid his eyes.
"Tell me what's wrong, please." I said softly.
"I am so angry with you." His voice was low and full of venom. The sudden change in his voice shocked me and I looked up into his eyes, forgetting that I shouldn't, they were the icy blue of his wolf's eyes. I quickly looked down again.
"What did I do?" I asked, hunching down and turning my head to expose my neck to him, showing that I was no threat.
He leaned down and I felt his nose run the length of my neck. His voice was softer, "I understand when you took Adam as your mate. I had no problem with that. Well I did, but it was natural in a way. But Stefan…." Stefan's name brought back the venom in his voice. He stood up so fast that I was sent backwards onto the floor.
Samuel hovered over me and I could smell his wolf but so far he was doing a good job of keeping the change away. I didn't dare move and I kept my neck exposed.
"Has there been anyone else?" The question caught me off guard. I didn't think he would care so much but now I realized that he would, the thought just hadn't crossed my mind. I remembered how I'd wanted to fix this with Samuel because I was hurting him and so far I wasn't doing a very good job.
"No," I said and he growled.
He was quiet for a full minute and then he sighed, "Mercy, I can hear the lie and you know it." He stood up and sat on the bed again and I sat up on the floor. His eyes were normal again.
"You're hurt and I'm trying not to hurt you more." I didn't know what else to say or do. I didn't know how to help him. He lay on the bed and stared at the ceiling.
"I don't think that's possible, but I know you don't do it on purpose," He said. I got up and sat on the edge of the bed with him. He didn't look at me. "Was it Ben?"
How did he know? I didn't speak but my silence was also an answer. Samuel didn't speak again and I didn't know what to say. After a long silence I spoke again. "So you came here because you couldn't be around me?" He nodded. "What changed then?" He'd called; he'd wanted to see me now.
"I don't know." It was a lie, but I didn't say anything and waited for him to talk again. He rolled onto his side facing away from me. Turning his back to another predator said something about him; he trusted me. Not that I was much of a threat, even in coyote form but that wouldn't make much difference to his wolf. A predator was a predator.
I remember that he'd cried on me when I first arrived and I wondered if he was silently crying again but I didn't want to look, or ask. I just sat there and gently stroked his back. Soon his breathing slowed and he was asleep.
I sighed and lay back on the bed beside him. I didn't know what to do about him. I remember Bran saying that Samuel had run away after I'd left Bran's pack, left Samuel because I didn't want to marry him. He hadn't loved me, just loved the idea that I could give him children that were less likely to die. Bran had told me that Samuel had tried to kill himself at one point and I was worried about him now.
My phone vibrated with an incoming text message. It was from Adam. Are you okay? You should have been home by now.
I replied. I found Samuel, he's okay but he's upset.
It vibrated a little later. Bran will be relieved. Do I need to send backup?
I frowned and gave it some thought. No, he's fragile and I don't need any other wolves around to make him feel threatened. I can handle it.
Buzz. Be careful and call if you need help. Love you.
I smiled. I know.
I'm not sure how long we slept but it was dark when I woke up and Samuel was facing me, his eyes open. I stretched and yawned. "What time is it?"
"Just after 3 in the morning." He sounded tired, but he'd just slept. I picked up my phone but there was no texts or missed calls.
I sat up and went to use the bathroom. When I returned, he'd turned on the TV in the hotel room and was flipping through channels. My stomach growled and he pointed to the mini fridge near the TV. I opened it and found some deli sandwiches. I got out two and a couple of sodas and we sat on the bed and ate while we watched some sitcom. I only hate half of mine and Samuel finished it.
After we finished we just laid in silence, watching TV. If he didn't want to talk I wasn't going to push him. I also didn't want to leave him alone right now. Samuel reached out and pulled me closer and I hesitated but snuggled against him. He wrapped an arm around me and held me. We stayed that way through most of a movie that had come on.
Towards the end of it, a sex scene started and it made me a little uncomfortable to watch, laying here with Samuel. I tried not to move a muscle and Samuel didn't take his eyes off the screen.
I didn't know why this was so awkward with Samuel but it was. My mate was another alpha and here I was with Samuel. Even thought I'd been with Stefan and Ben, this somehow felt wrong. Stefan wasn't a threat to Adam, not really. And Ben was pack, he was protective and could be commanded if need be. But Samuel was another alpha, a potential enemy. I knew Samuel would never turn on us, but it was almost like a silent rule, like a taboo.
The arm he had wrapped around me moved up and down on my back slowly. I narrowed my eyes at the screen but that's all he did. The scene passed and I reflexively relaxed against him, I hadn't realized how tensed up I'd been.
He chuckled. "Relax Mercy, we're both adults." I didn't respond. He kept rubbing my back gently and after a while, I started to drift off to sleep again. Samuel moved and my eyes opened half way. He laid me down on the pillow I'd been using earlier and my eyes closed again.
I woke up sometime later and was confused about what had woken me. It took me a few seconds to shake off the sleep and I realized Samuel was hovered over me. His eyes were icy blue and I blinked and quickly looked at the window instead of his eyes. I could barely see the sun coming in through the top of the curtains. It must be dawn.
His face lowered into my neck and he inhaled, taking in my scent. I didn't move. His wolf was in charge again. I wonder what had triggered it this time but hadn't given it much thought before he adjusted his weight and pushed a knee in between my legs and up against me. I froze and he stopped, watching me like a predatory waiting to pounce on fleeing prey.
One of his hands slid up my body, slipping under my shirt and grabbed a handful of breast. "Samuel?" I questioned and he ignored me, brushing his fingers across the nipple that was hardening against my will, the traitor. His knee pressed harder into me, trying to apply pressure to my clit. I didn't dare make eye contact. "Sam?"
His head snapped to look at my face, which confirmed it; this wasn't Samuel, it was his wolf. I'd always called his wolf Sam and not Samuel because they weren't the same being, not really. I glanced at is icy blue eyes and looked away again. He grabbed my chin and turned my face to his but I kept my eyes down.
"Mercy," he whispered and then kissed me roughly. I thought again about why his wolf was in charge. Usually it took something big and bad to give the wolf full control like this. I let him kiss me because I wasn't so sure he wouldn't hurt me if I fought, whether intentionally or by accident.
His tongue pushed past my lips and brushed against my tongue and he groaned against my lips. His knee wiggled between my legs and my traitorous body was reacting to him, wanting this.
I closed my eyes and felt for the bond I shared with Adam and I pushed it away, muting it. We'd been practicing that to hide me from the pack. I didn't want Adam to know about this. If he knew Samuel's wolf had taken over and was seducing me, he'd try to kill him. It would be a fight to the death and I cared too much about them both to risk their lives and I didn't want to lose either of them, especially not over me.
I knew I should try to stop this, but I didn't have a clue how. Sam was in charge and he was stronger, his instincts would kick in if I started to fight him and then I'd really be in trouble. And some part of me actually wanted this, I'd once had feelings for Samuel, plus my naughty side was awakening and I couldn't make it stop no matter how hard I tired.
Sam broke away from my mouth and pushed up my shirt, lowering his head to lick one of my hard nipples. I tried very hard not to make a sound. It lasted maybe ten seconds and then a small groan escaped my lips. He growled a satisfied noise that he was winning and began to lick and suck. I felt one of his hands moving down my side to my pants and slipped inside of them. He lifted his head to look at me the moment his fingers found my center and realized I was soaking wet. He jerked up and had my pants and underwear off in a matter of seconds and pressed his face against the warm wet center between my legs and he inhaled deeply.
With a growl, he pulled out his long, hard member and flipped me over, pulling me onto my hands and knees. Then he pushed his member into me and began to thrust hard without even pausing. My eyes widened and I gripped the sheets under my fingers and he hammered into me from behind with his hands on my hips. I couldn't help the panting moan that escaped my lips.
This was Sam the wolf, and he wasn't soft and slow. He was rough and relentless. His nails dug into my skin and I cried out but it sounded half like a moan. He was growling and breathing harshly but never slowed.
An orgasm ripped through me and my arms gave out, causing me to fall face first onto the bed. Sam never even paused, holding my hips in place and just kept his brutally fast pace. I turned my head to the side and moaned and cried out. He bent and nipped at my back, growled and then straightened again.
I had two more orgasms before Sam finally came. He gripped my hips tightly and held still in me while he filled me. Then he pulled out and rolled away. He sat on the edge of the bed panting while I lay collapsed where he'd left me, unmoving.
"Are you alive?" He didn't turn to look as he spoke.
I made a small noise; it was all I could manage. He left for the bathroom and I heard the water running. He came back soon and lifted me up, carrying me into the bathroom and laid me in the bathtub that was filled half way with water. Then he disappeared and came back with pants on. His eyes were still the wolf's icy blue.
"Don't drown, I'm going to the front desk to get new sheets," and then he left.
I stayed in the tub because I didn't have the strength to pull myself out of it. Sam hadn't been gentle as he'd fucked and used my body. I didn't know how I felt about it quite yet. My body was thoroughly satisfied, but my head and heart were confused and sifting through feelings.
Adam was my mate; I loved and trusted him. He was mine. Stefan was just Stefan, I trusted him too. He'd protected me for years from his seethe and proven many times that he'd protect me. Him and Adam had an understanding. He'd even helped Adam and Ben survive when a demon-possessed vampire had kidnapped them. I trusted Ben, and so did Adam. Ben was pack and did whatever we told him to. He would die for us if he needed to. But Samuel?
Samuel was a lone wolf who was more Alpha than Adam. It was a very bad idea to mess around with another Alpha when mated to one already.
But this was Samuel. My Samuel. I'd loved him once upon a time. I still did, in a way. I didn't know exactly what my feelings for him were, or what his feelings for me were but they were there and I couldn't deny them.
And then there was the fact that Samuel's wolf had been in charge. It wasn't exactly Samuel who I'd just been with. It was him, but he wasn't in charge of his body. It was complicated, the wolf instincts take over and you lose yourself a little bit. Why had Samuel's wolf taken over like that? I didn't understand.
The door opened a few minutes later and he came back with new sheets. I heard him stripping and remaking the bed. When he came back into the bathroom, his eyes were no longer icy blue. Samuel was back.
He stood over me, looking down at me and then he knelt down. He grabbed a washcloth, applied soap and handed it to me so I could clean myself. I did. Then he helped me stand up and get out of the tub. He grabbed a towel and stood while I dried myself off and then he helped me back into the room and into bed.
He lay down beside me and pulled me against his body like earlier when we'd watched the movie and wrapped an arm around me. I finally relaxed against him. I was physically exhausted.
"I'm sorry," he whispered at last. I didn't have the energy to speak to him at the moment and he didn't push it. I fell asleep on him again. I woke up when he slipped out from under me and got some food out of the mini fridge, then he looked at me. "Hungry?" I nodded. He grabbed me one too and returned to the bed.
I picked up my phone; it was just after 9. I sighed and dialed Zee's number. Zee was a metal working Fae who had owned the garage before me and had taught me how to work on German cars. When I couldn't make it into the shop, we would work it for me.
"Ja, Mercy?" Zee's voice asked through the phone.
"Hey Zee, would you mind going in to the garage today? I'm not feeling good."
"You don't sound too good, you okay? You sound tired."
"I am, I didn't sleep well and I may be getting sick." If he heard the lie in the last part of the sentence he didn't mention it.
"Get some rest," and then he hung up.
We ate in silence, the only noise coming from the TV.
"I'm sorry," Samuel said again after he'd cleaned up our mess.
I nodded, "I know. It's okay."
"I just…" He paused, "There's no excuse, I know. I was just so upset because you let them and I… with our history I got jealous. It made me angry and I lost control of myself. The wolf took over and he was angry and jealous too I guess."
I nodded. "I know, Samuel. It's okay, I understand. I'm fine, he didn't hurt me, not really."
"I know but I'm still ashamed." He hadn't made direct eye contact with me since he'd come back and taken me out of the tub so I believed him, and I sort of felt bad for him.
Part two with Samuel will be next!
Mercy's feelings are conflicted and she has to work them out before Adam finds out.