I know it's been a while, I had a bad week. I apologize and will try to update again soon.

Here is Samuel part 2

I got up in the early afternoon and put my shoes on. Samuel stood and followed me to the door, panic growing behind his eyes. He grabbed my arm gently. "Mercy?"

I smiled a sad little smile, and my heart broke for him. He was really messed up. "I'm coming right back. I just need to go home and grab some clothes and stuff. I promise I'll come back." He just stood there. "Do you want to come?"

He hesitated and then followed me out the door. I wondered if he didn't actually trust me to come back after what had happened.

I drove home and packed a bag. Adam was at work and Jessie at school; Adam's house looked empty. I quietly thanked the Lord for that; I didn't need a fight right now.

Samuel followed me into the house and packed a bag of his own, getting some more clothes and some odds and ends from his room. I grabbed a couple of books and shoved them into my bag just in case I got bored. I didn't know how long I'd be babysitting Samuel.

Later that evening I convinced Samuel to stay in the hotel while I went out for food. I was tired of eating those sandwiches he kept in his mini fridge and I wanted to be alone to call and check in with Adam.

I drove to a fast food place and parked before calling Adam.

"Hey love, I was just about to call you." Adam's voice was warm. I smiled.

"I miss you." I told him.

"Miss you too. How's Samuel?" Adam went straight down to business.

"He's okay. He's a little emotional." How could I explain that without making Adam worry enough to send someone or come himself? "He cried for a while." That seemed safe, but also jarring enough to keep them away.

Adam hadn't been expecting that, there was a silence. "Is he… suicidal?"

"Maybe, I'm trying to help him. Trying to get him to talk." I hoped I could lie better over the phone than I could in person. It wasn't entirely a lie, and Adam didn't seem to notice.

"I talked to Bran, he's really worried. Try to get into his head, Mercy. He needs help and if you're who he reached out to then your probably the only one who can help him right now. He won't want to talk to anyone else and he probably wouldn't talk if anyone else was around. Are you okay by yourself?"

"I'm not alone, I've got Samuel." I knew what he meant. He chuckled. "Yes," I said, "I'm fine. I'm not sure I'll be home anytime soon, he gets paranoid when I leave, like I won't be back, it's like he's afraid to be alone but if I'm not sleeping in my own bed tomorrow night then we'll plan a date. I miss you."

"I miss you too, Mercy. Keep me updated."

"I will, I love you, Adam."

"I know." He chuckled again and hung up the phone.

I ordered seven burgers, and three large fries, one of each for myself, and the rest for Samuel. I carried the two bags of food up to the hotel room and opened the door with the extra card key Samuel had given me.

The room was dark, only lit by the TV. I walked into the room, placed the bags on the desk that held the TV and turned to the bed. Samuel had icy blue eyes.

"Samuel? Sam?"

He sighed and stood, moving towards me so fast I jumped. His arms circled my body and he gripped me tightly and began to cry softly.

My heart broke for him. He was so messed up right now. I leaned against him because my arms were pinned to my sides. "Samuel?" He moved his head into my shoulder and we stood there like that for a long time.

Finally he released me and I studied his face; his eyes were normal again. I gave him a hug now that my arms were free and I could hold him. His arms circled me again and we ended up standing there longer.

After a while, I released him. "Come on, let's eat some food." I grabbed the bags of food and followed him to the bed.

I could see how much he was suffering at my hand and it hurt me, but I didn't see how any good come from of this. Adam would try to kill Samuel, or vice verse. How could I avoid this? I didn't know if I could.

All I knew was that right now Samuel needed me and I would be here for him. I wouldn't be the reason he died, I decided. Any reason. I'd be whatever he needed me to be right now.

I crawled into bed and turned on the TV. There really wasn't much else to do in a hotel room. We cuddled again but this time I was more comfortable. Samuel seemed to notice and he stroked my arms, back and my hair often. He didn't try to touch me inappropriately; it was more like he just wanted to be close and it was sort of intimate in its own way.

I slept peacefully in Samuel's arms that night and in the morning I called Zee again because I still didn't want to leave Samuel alone. Sometime mid morning Samuel pulled me in for a hesitant kiss and when I didn't pull away it grew more confident. We didn't have sex again, but we spent the day cuddling.

About the time Adam was off work, I got up and showered. Samuel sat watching me as I dressed. "Mercy?"

"I have to go meet Adam." I told him. He looked worried, but I wasn't sure if it was because Adam would know, or whether I'd come back or not. I hugged him hard. "I'll be back, that I promise."

He pulled me in for a kiss that I didn't fight and then he released me and turned his back, getting back into bed. I swallowed and turned for the door.

I sat in my car that was parked in Adam's driveway. I was so nervous and I wasn't sure what I was going to say yet. I'd spent the whole drive trying to think up a way to explain why I'd slept with Samuel but so far had failed.

After about five minutes of me sitting in my car, Adam came out to see what was taking so long. He stood on his porch and watched me but when I didn't even move he came to the car and opened my door.

I turned and got out quickly and threw myself into his arms. I was suddenly afraid that he was going to leave me for sleeping with Samuel even though it hadn't been my fault, or that he would hurt Samuel or even me. Adam took me into his arms but remained quiet.

He calmly walked me into the house and up to his bedroom before he spoke. "Jessie is home." I got the feeling he said as if it was a reminder to be quiet. Was he planning on yelling at me? "You and Samuel…"

"Adam I… I didn't mean for it to happen, I swear. Samuel was just so broken, you don't even understand how broken he is and I did this to him, Adam. I broke him. It's my fault. He was so upset. I don't think he is in his right mind." I didn't want to tell Adam that Samuel's wolf had taken over, if I did there was no saving this situation. "He was in a weird place and it sort of just happened, if I'd turned him away he wouldn't be alive." That I was sure of. It didn't sound like a good enough reason, but it was all I had. Was there even a good reason for explaining why you slept with another person?

Adam sat down on the floor and leaned against the bed. It reminded me of the night I'd told him about Stefan, but now he just stared up at the ceiling. It was a measure of his control, and probably how used to the idea that he already shared me with others that kept him this calm. Jessie being in the other room helped too.

"He can't have you Mercy, I won't allow it. Not this time, not him." Adam said finally.

"Is it because he's Samuel, or because he's an alpha?" I asked.

"Both," Adam replied. "Because of your history and because he's an alpha. Mercy, I can sort of understand why it happened, if I'm thinking calmly and rationally, without emotion, but I'm not okay with this. Part of me wants to go over there and rip him to shreds."

I was torn, I didn't know what was going to happen with Samuel but I didn't want to lose Adam either. "Okay, I know." I said and I wondered if I'd have to break that promise, if I could keep Samuel alive and at arms length at the same time.

Adam and I went to dinner and spent the next couple of hours together but I wouldn't let him sleep with me. Samuel was still so fragile right now and I didn't want to push him over the edge. Adam said he understood but he wouldn't wait forever.

He was not happy that I'd been with Samuel and it was only sheer willpower that was keeping him from exploding and killing Samuel and I knew it. It made me love him even more that he hadn't already tried to head to the hotel. He was still allowing me to handle it and that meant a lot to me.

Before I left to go back to the hotel, he made me promise to keep in contact with him more. He wanted to hear from me every night and every morning. I didn't blame him and I promised to call or text.

When I got back to the hotel I was in Samuel's arms before I could even get the door closed.

"Oof!" I exclaimed as his body bulldozed into me and gripped me against his body in a tight hug. I closed the door with my foot. "You're squishing me," I told him.

He released me and stepped back. "I half thought he'd kill you, or come kill me," he admitted. "I feel better now that you're back."

"You might not be for long," I told him as I stepped around him and wandered further into the hotel room. I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at him. "Adam isn't happy, but he isn't going to kill you. Yet."

Samuel looked serious as he walked to the bed and sat down beside me. He didn't speak but he frowned at me ad he waited for me to continue.

"We can't be close like that again, Samuel. I won't be able to stop Adam if it happens and he finds out, and he will find out."

Samuel sighed and lay back on the bed. "I know," he said quietly.

"I'm sorry, Samuel. I love you, I do but we can't. And I don't want to hurt you."

He reached over and stroked my arm. "I know, Mercy." He sighed and sat up. He studied my face for a moment. "I think I'll go home."

"Home? Back to Bran's pack?" I asked, surprised. He nodded and I looked for any sign in his face that would tell me if he was lying, or if he was even mentally healthy enough to finally return and be away from me. I couldn't find anything that set me on red alert.

"Yes," Samuel said. "I love you Mercy and I don't want to cause any more problems for you here. There's nothing here for me and I can't stand to be around you if I can't have you. I promise I'll be okay."

I nodded but didn't say anything more. I stayed with him that night like I had the previous two nights but it felt odd this time. Like we were saying goodbye even though he wouldn't be that far away. I tried not to think about not seeing him again. I had to believe that I would. I texted Adam that night and told him I would be home sometime the next day.

In the morning when I woke up, Samuel had all his things packed up in his bag and it was sitting on the floor near the door.

"Samuel?" I yawned and stretched.

"Mercy," he said lightly and crawled back into bed with me. He pulled me into his arms and kissed me. I hesitated for a moment and then kissed him back. We stayed in bed making out for a few minutes before he finally pulled away from me. "I had to," he smirked. I didn't protest and got up to change.

I drove Samuel back to my trailer around noon where I stood in the doorway and watched him pack up his room. We didn't speak, I wasn't ready to say good-bye yet. I'd told Adam we were coming home and that Samuel was leaving but I hadn't given him any details and told him I'd come over and explain after Samuel had left. I didn't want to be around Adam right now; I wanted to be with Samuel while I still could.

I felt like I was losing a piece of my heart when Samuel kissed me briefly and then got into his car and drove away. I stood on the porch and watched until his taillights were gone and then I walked slowly to Adam's.

He answered the door when I knocked and frowned at me. "Are you okay, love?" I nodded and he ushered me inside. I hugged him tightly but I didn't speak to him, I couldn't get any words out. He took me up to his room where he made love to me and then I slept the rest of the evening and into the next morning.

It was Jessie who woke me up. "Mercy?" I heard her say from somewhere nearby. I rolled over and she was standing next to the bed. "I made breakfast, are you hungry?"

I smiled at her. "Of course. Be down in a minute." She left and I got up and walked into the bathroom. I yawned, used the toilet and then brushed my hair and went down to the kitchen.

Adam and Jessie were making themselves plates and Adam handed me one. He smiled and I smiled back. I tried not to be upset in front of them, Samuel had decided to leave to make it easier on everyone and I didn't want to make it hard for them either. Samuel had chosen to leave me.

I sat down with my plate and started eating. It was odd how fast he'd decided to go, I thought. He had gone from needing me, to wanting to leave. Sure it made sense so that there wouldn't be a fight, but how could he have just changed his mind so fast over this? I was struggling to understand the sudden flip in his attitude. I had thought he was borderline suicidal and now he was okay? I didn't understand.

I spent the next month working and worrying. I went to work every day except Sunday, when I went to church. I was trying to keep myself busy. Adam had realized something was wrong even though I'd tried to hide it. I didn't want to hurt him but Samuel had really messed me up. I spent my time trying to figure out that sudden flip in his actions that day, playing everything back in my head, looking for anything I'd missed. I just couldn't make sense of it.

My trailer was lonely and I'd started hating being there. I stayed at Adam's as much as I could, when the wolves were mostly gone. It didn't matter so much right now because I was in such a foul mood that I had cut off Stefan and even Adam from sex. Stefan joked and teased me light heartedly every time he was around but it bothered Adam that I cut him off too and I knew it. I was just sort of depressed and worried and I just wasn't in the mood, which was a drastic change of pace for us.

It was the night I realize I missed my period that finally broke the depressed trance I'd been in for the last month. I hadn't even noticed it at first until one day I realized the date on the calendar and was astonished by it. How could so much time have passed? Then I'd realized that I'd also missed my period.

I'd been getting ready for bed and I stood in my bedroom, staring at the calendar on the wall.

"Mercy?"

According to the calendar, I was two weeks late. How could I not have noticed that?

"Mercy?"

How could that even have happened? I was on the pill and I hadn't missed a dose, I made sure I took it every day at the same time, I even had an alarm that reminded me.

"Mercy!" Someone shook me.

I snapped out of it and turned to see Stefan standing beside me. I was surprised to see him.

"Are you okay? I've been standing here trying to get your attention. I felt that something was wrong." Stefan explained.

I frowned at him, about to yell at him for using the bond.

"We've all been worried about you, Mercy. I've been checking in through the bond occasionally."

I sighed. It didn't matter right now. "I'm late." I said.

Stefan raised an eyebrow. "For what?"

"My period. I'm late." I explained. "I'm two weeks late!" I said and pointed at the calendar.

Stefan looked at it like it was going to say that I was late right on it and then looked back at me. "Are you sure?"

"Of course I'm sure! I'd know if I'd been bleeding!" I was getting impatient. He chuckled and I hit him.

"What do we do?" Stefan asked.

"A pregnancy test."

"Why are there so many different kinds?" Stefan and I stood in the health and beauty section at a grocery store staring at pregnancy tests.

"I don't know," I snapped and grabbed three of them, all different brands and turned to walk to the checkouts. Stefan followed me like a well-trained puppy but stayed silent.

He drove me home after I paid and I stared out the window the whole way, thinking. I'd moved past how it had happened to whom. It had to be either Samuel or Adam, I was sure but I'd need to go to a doctor to find out the dates for sure. Crap. How did this happen?

I ran to the bathroom as soon as the car stopped in my driveway and flung myself into the bathroom. I used all three tests and then Stefan and I sat in the bathroom and waited.

I jumped when the alarm on my phone rang shrilly, letting me know it was time to check. I looked up at Stefan. "They're all positive."

Don't worry, Samuel will be back.