Sherlock didn't really pull the trigger did he?

But there was blood on the wall and John was on the ground and Mycroft was crying. Mycroft was crying? Mycroft never cries.

Why does it hurt so much? Sherlock hadn't been shot. He'd shot…

We're soldiers today.

No. No. NO.

God no. PLEASE no.

He should have shot himself. He should have let Eurus shoot herself.

He didn't know.

I don't have friends. I just have one.

My friend, John Watson.