| TRIS POV |
I woke up next to Tobias. I guess I couldn't go without him for one day.
"Morning," Tobias says with his sexy morning voice before turning to look at me.
"Last night was fun," he whispers causing me to shiver.
"Yes," I say biting my lip "Yes it was,"
My hand creeps down his torso to his bare abdomen.
"No, no, hold it there Pedrad," he says alertly, "I need to get back to the house soon, Zeke probably wondering where I am,"
"You focused on my last night, let me return the favour," I say "Just say you hooked up with a," I let my hand creep lower "smoking," my hands wraps around his rather large member "hot," my hand slides down "girl,"
"I think Zeke is getting onto us," Tobias mentions as he buttons up his shirt.
"Why would you say that?" I say suddenly curious
"He's been interrogating me a lot and asking where I am, he's been complaining that I'm not spending enough time with you," Tobias explains
"Yeah he told me that too,"
"I think we should lay low on the party tonight just so we can keep our cover,"
"Party?" I ask
"Oh yeah, I should tell you, Zeke and Uriah are holding a 'flashback' party," Tobias says
"A flashback party?"
"It's a party where you dress up what you were in high school like a nerd, wallflower, jock, yadayadaya," Tobias trails off.
"Oh god there being passive aggressive now," I say
"What?"
"They told me they preferred the high school me, apparently I was more down-to-earth and less of a snob,"
"Well, babe, there are times when you quite snobby," Tobias says
"Are you serious, like when?" I exclaim
"When you said you couldn't clean because you had you nails done that morning or when we went to Betty's Burgers and you said you only eat organic vegetables and grass-fed animal meat or when you got mad at Al because he overcooked your steak,"
"Okay well the manicure was three-hundred and seventy dollars," I snap
"Yes which is why your parents froze your bank account," Tobias says with his voice raised a bit.
"They froze it because they wanted me to become more independent," I shout
"No they froze it because you're too stupid to manage your finances properly," Tobias snaps
"How dare you!"
"I'm just saying the truth, and this attitude that you have to people who don't have as much money is utterly revolting,"
"Like what,"
"Like when you told a homeless man to fuck off when he asked for money," Tobias shouts
"I was having a bad day," I defend
"Yeah from the waiter who accidently spilled water on your shirt, who you also told to go fuck himself and get a degree,"
"I'm starting to feel like you don't actually love me Tobias," I say
"I never liked your snob exterior, the Tris I love is the one that is selfless, brave and smart all at the same time," Tobias says
"You're the one to talk about exteriors," I say
"What?"
"You put on this big guy macho act, and act like you don't care about anything, you hide every little aspect about yourself, even your real name," I shout "and you're telling me off about mine,"
Tobias stands their fuming.
"And I know why you put on the act," I continue "Because you're too much of a pussy to show your emotions,"
"Just like you Tris, all you do is get drunk, have emotionless sex and run off, you do this to hide yourself, you do this so you can both hide and receive attention at the same time, some might call one an attention whore," Tobias fumes
"Get out," I demand
"I was planning to, anyway," Tobias finished before grabbing his coat and slamming my front door.
I go onto the couch and cry.
During high school I thought everyone hated me because I was a nerd but I was happy, so I changed myself. I changed myself into a party-animal and I gave up on the stuff I believed in, I gave up on my true self. But I had more friends, I was more loved as party animal. I had people to help boost my self esteem, so high that I became a bitch. But it turns out people liked me during high school, because I was me and I was comfortable.
I look at myself in the mirror.
I have lost the connection to my true self
I need to stop this act.
I am capable of loving my family and Tobias but I am not capable of loving myself.
I change into some active wear and run to the shooting arena.
Breathe in
Shoot
Breathe out
I do an hour of shooting. Tobias and I had our first major fight. And he was right, I am a snobby bitch attention whore and I need to stop. I get a message from Shauna. I have a few missed call from Tobias.
Hey Tris, Marlene, Lynn and I are all getting ready for Zeke and Uriah's bash, you want to get ready together, we only have an hour!
I crack a smile at the end.
No, no it's fine, I want to have some me time
Okay, we'll see you there!
I take my time jogging back to my apartment. I have about half an hour before I have to leave to Uriah and Zeke's.
I take a speedy shower before putting on one of Tobias's old white button up shirts and a tie of his too. I put on a red plaid skirt and some white converses. I tie my hair into a top not and put my old glasses on.
I kind of look like my old self.
I fill in my eyebrows and put on a swipe of lip gloss. It's been a while since my face has been so bare.
I get into my car and drive to the house. You can hear the music from two streets away. The whole block is filled with parked cars. I drive up the drive way where only the people who are making out sit on. I park my car in the garage before heading up.
The familiar smell of booze and the beat of loud music surrounds me. I look around and see a whole bunch of people dressed up in cheerleader costumes or their old football jersey with padding or the 'Britney Spears nerd'.
My eyes scan the overwhelmingly full room to find my brothers. I spot them with Shauna, Marlene, Four and that Nita chick.
The last thing I want is to do is talk to Tobias after our argument this morning but I don't want that Nita girl on him like a leech even more.
I weave my way through the jumping crowd to get to them.
"Hey Tris, loving the party?" Zeke asks in his basketball jersey.
"Why are you no in your football gear?" I asks
"Because I wanted to be original unlike these two here," Zeke says pointing to Uriah and Tobias.
Shauna, Marlene and Nita were cheerleaders.
"You were a nerd in high school?" Marlene asks astounded
"The biggest one," I say
"Unexpected," Nita adds
"You look hot Tris," Shauna whistles
"Oh how I am flattered," I reply in a stingy British accent. "Well, you guys enjoy your night, I'm heading off to the bar,"
As I turn I look into Tobias's eyes that have been burning the side of my face the whole entire time.
I walk over to the bar and order a shot of Vodka.
"Tris," I hear Tobias says
"Go away Four,"
"Tris can we please talk?" he asks
"Go," I say finally looking at him.
He stands in his red and black football gear looking fine as hell.
"Can we talk in private?"
"What happened to staying low?" I ask
"Fuck it, I want our relationship to still be existent when Zeke finds out," he says before holding my arm.
"Okay," I say as I follow him to his room.
"Tris about this morning-," Tobias says
"I'm so sorry," I cut him off, "You're right, I was being a snobby bitch to people and acted like an attention whore, it was because I lost my real self, I tricked my own self into thinking that I was born to be like that,"
"T-Tris, baby, are you crying?" Tobias asks
Indeed, I was sitting on his carpet crying.
I feel his arms wrap around me, I suddenly felt so protected just from one hug.
"I was being a dick and a hypocrite, I have no right to say those words to you, I am so sorry Tris, I hate myself for hurting you," Tobias says still hugging me.
"I love you," I whimper as I kiss him
Tobias pulls back, "Let me show you how much I love you,"
Tobias picks me up and flings me onto the bed.
I just reached the peak of my sixth orgasm as the door opens.
"SHIT, oh my fucking god" I hear.
I turn to see Uriah. My hands go straight to my breasts.
"Uriah it's, not what it looks like," I shout at him "Let me explain,"
"What do you mean it's not what it looks like, Tris you're having sex with Four, his dick is still in your vagina this second," Uriah exclaims, hurriedly closing the door behind him.
"Uh, Four seduced me," I shout pointing at him
"Seriously Tris, seducing, seriously?" Tobias says looking at me from underneath.
"Yeah that's why you're on top riding the fuck out of him," Uriah says "You know what would happen to the both of you if Zeke found out!"
"Yes, yes he would murder us, we understand, Uriah, we've been through this," Tobias says
"You've been through this!" Uriah says "How long have you been doing whatever this is,"
"Just a little under four months," I say
"FOUR MONTHS?" Uriah screeched
"We actually slept with each other before I knew she was your sister," Tobias explains "We were fuckbuddies for about a month before we made it official,"
"Wait so you two are dating?" Uriah asks
"Yup,"
"Oh god, gross," Uriah says "I'm leaving,"
"Uriah do us a favour and please don't tell Zeke," I plead "I promise we'll tell him eventually,"
"Promise?" Uriah asks
"Promise," I say
"Well have a fun night," Uriah shouts as he leaves "always practise safe sex,"
I roll my eyes and Tobias and I continue all night long.