Two weeks after the dinner
| TRIS POV |
I slam the door of my apartment and aggressively toss my keys in the bowl. Tobias and I had our third fight in the last two weeks. I wanted him to take me on his next mission but he flipped shit. He scolded me like a child and how it would be dangerous if I went. As if I can't take care of myself. And then the one last week I was yelling at him about working too much and he defended himself by telling me he warned me. I don't deserve to be worried shitless about him coming home every night. The other one was about the time I went out one night because I was tired of waiting for him and took a couple shots of tequila with my Chicago friends and they called Tobias out of his stupid mission to come and pick me up. He yelled at me about returning to old habits and not taking responsibility and apparently that specific mission they lost a lot of 'critical information'.
I hear my phone ring.
"What?" I snap
"Oh sorry, uh it's Matthew." He says "I'm downstairs."
"Shit, sorry I'm just in a bad mood, here I'll buzz you in."
Why can't Tobias be a normal guy like Matthew. Why did he have to be some legend agents shit? UGHH
When Matthew is about to leave, I hear my door open. I look to see Tobias.
"Hey Matthew." He says as Matthew walks past him leaving.
After he closes the door, I feel Tobias's eyes on me.
"What?" I snap
"Is he still tutoring you?" he asks
"Obviously, why else would he be here?" I tell him
Tobias raises his eyebrows at me
"Why would I be hooking up with him, you are my boyfriend."
"I don't know, you did go out with Christina and them for tequila shots, maybe you're going back to your old self." He says
"I was just having fun, I'm fucking tired of waiting for you to come home, I'm tired of being scared that you could have been shot or some shit."
"I told you when I accepted the job that I would be away for most of the time."
"You also told me it would be three weeks; it's been a month."
"Yes, I know and I am sorry but after Erudite taking the USB and figuring out the chip has never actually been seen since Divergent went down, it's taking longer."
"Sorry is not going to cut it Four."
"Don't call me that." He snaps slightly scaring me
"I'm tired of arguing."
"You think I enjoy us shouting at each other?"
"I-I- maybe we should just take a break until you're done with Dauntless, it's ripping us apart and ruining our relationship." I say
I look at up at Tobias. He's shaking his head and pressing his lips into a thin line.
"If that's what you want." He says before standing up "I came to tell you that I'm leaving for Chicago in tomorrow."
Tobias leaves and slams the door behind him.
I start to run to the shooting range.
"Hey Tris." Amar greets
I give him a small smile before walking past and start to load the gun with pellets.
I aim at the target. I begin to shoot one pellet after the other. The loud ring in my ears continues every time I shoot.
After an hour or so I slam the gun the bench to stop myself from shooting. I take a deep breath before returning the equipment.
I run back to my apartment after my shower I cook some spaghetti. Tobias taught me how to cook this. I already miss him. I miss his touch, his eyes, his smile.
I hear my phone ring. Matthew
"Hey, sorry to bother you but I think I left my jacket are yours." He says.
I spot his green hoodie on my couch.
"Uh yeah, I'll buzz you in." I say
I open the door when he arrives.
"Thanks Tris, I called you earlier but you didn't pick up so I thought you might have been busy." He says "Sorry for interrupting your dinner, it smells amazing by the way."
"No, no, no trouble, yeah I just finished cooking."
"Well, I'll get going now." he says walking towards my door
"Uh Matthew." I say. He turns to look at me
"Do you want to um, stay and eat, I made a bit more than I needed and I would hate for it to go to waste." I say
"Don't you think Four will mind?"
"We're not really together right now."
I swear his eyes light up. "Sure."
"How was your thanksgiving?" I ask making small talk as we eat.
"My family doesn't really celebrate thanksgiving but I did go back, it was bloody hot." He says
"Hot?"
"Oh you don't know, I'm from Australia." He says
"You're kidding! I've always wanted to see a koala." I exclaim
"You should come one day; I could show you around and stuff."
"That sounds good."
"This spaghetti is amazing." Matthew says eating his last forkful
"Thanks, it's the first time I made it." I say
"It's great, especially for your first time." He says
I take the dishes and put them in the sink. Matthew comes over and starts to wash them.
"No don't bother Matthew." I say
"You cook, I clean." He urgers
"Seriously, you're a guest."
"I am a friend too, and friends don't let their other friends do their dirty work." He says as he continues washing.
"Here at least let me load them into the dishwasher." I say as I take the rinsed plate and put it in my dishwasher.
Once we finished the dishes we sat on my couch with a beer.
"You're so lucky you're from Australia, it didn't really get that hot in Chicago and plus I've always wanted to learn how to surf."
"I could teach you, we could go to Venice beach and hire some boards."
"That sounds great!"
They was a slightly awkward silence of him just looking at me.
"You have beautiful eyes." He blurts out.
I feel heat rushing to my cheeks from this compliment. I look down slightly embarrassed. I feel his hand cup my cheek and lean in. Our foreheads touch like what happened when Tobias kissed me. Before I knew it, Matthews lips was on mine again. Ironically they felt a lot like Tobias's. I kissed back hoping somehow Matthew would turn into Tobias. Our lips moved in sync. I let my hands loop around his neck and pull him closer. I feel his large hand much like Tobias's grip onto my waist and pull me onto his lap so I straddle him. I feel his lips trail off my lips and onto my neck. He sucks on that particular place that Tobias does.
"Tobias?" Matthew suddenly asks
"What?"
"You moaned Tobias." He says
"Uh-um-uh." I stutter
"That's Four's real name isn't it." he says with his eyes drooping down.
"Look Matthew I'm sorry, we've been going through a hard time and we took a break and I'm missing him." I explain "I shouldn't have taken advantage of you like that and I apologise."
"It's fine Tris." he says avoiding eye contact
I use my finger to move his head so he looks at me.
"Matthew stop wasting your time on me, you deserve someone better, someone who will care, love and pay attention to you, you're a great guy but." I take a deep breath "I've already found mine."
He gives me a small smile before getting his hoodie and leaving. As he leaves I ask him something.
"Matthew, please don't tell anyone his name." I plead
"You have my word." Matthew says before leaving.
I fall onto the couch and process what I was just about to do.
I need to talk to Tobias.
I look at the clock 10:43pm. He would be in the middle of some mission.
I don't care.
I get my shit together and sprint down the stairs before getting into my car and driving to Tobias's. I run past the luxury lobby and tap my foot as I wait for the elevator.
I scan the key Tobias gave me and I go up to the penthouse. As the doors open I hear shouting.
He is at home.
"Get out Nita!" I hear him shout.
I spot Nita's flawless physique in the hallway. Her robe is hung open and she is putting her bra back on while trying to slip her feet back into her black heels. Her perfectly curled hair is slightly messed and her red lipstick is smudge. When she spots me she put on this devilish smile. She struts up towards me before towering over me.
"It looks like you haven't been doing your job." Nita says
"What?" I ask confused
"He fucked me so hard against the wall that I was screaming."
"Bullshit." I say unconvinced
"I know he has that mole on his butt and you can just look at the scratches on his back."
I peek through the small crack in his double doors.
He had his back to me. He had the scratches the Nita talked about on his back and he was only wearing his boxers. Nita was right about the mole. But what really sold it was that he had a whole bottle of vodka in his hand. When Tobias was drunk he would do anything someone says.
I just silently shake my head as I take the elevator back down and hop into my car.
"Fuck you Tobias."